Metalgear222

Day 2. Thank you for the detailed response. I watched that video and it makes a lot of sense, but It feels like I picked the worst time ever to quit. With covid having my city on lockdown, it's tough to pursue spending time doing other things. And the friends I do still have only hang out one night a week to try to respect social distancing. I can play my electric drums and exercise on my own/get outside for a walk but there's still a ton of free time that I need to fill. In a moment of weakness yesterday I called my ex to just see how she was doing, I haven't tried to or talked to her at all since we split over 10 weeks ago. She didn't call me back. I guess when it rains it pours. All the emotions I have from quitting a lifetime of gaming as well as finding out the girl I loved doesn't even care about me at all is crushing me. The positive side is that I know what to do differently next time. I know my relationships will be 10x better without gaming in my life. Both with friends and in dating. Any recommendations for things to do while my city is on lockdown that worked for you guys?

Im pursuing finding a career that Im passionate about and living a life I'm proud of everyday. Video games are a numbing agent for everything. The lack of time spent into hobbies I love, the lack of effort I put into my relationships, my coping mechanism for anything, the support/crutch of my laziness. I love rock climbing, playing drums, anything active, being around nature, traveling, intellectual talk and pondering. I want to hang around genuine people, that's one trait I did love about my gaming connections, most of them are genuine people. I want to be around active healthy people that don't have any terrible addictions in their life so I can be inspired by them. Where can I view this vlog?

Hey all, What a rush of mixed emotions. I feel fear, anxiety, uncertain, hopeful, excited, worry, curiosity, disappointment, sadness, and overwhelmed. But I'm here and tried to be honest as possible with myself while I get started turning over the page in my life. No, closing a lifelong book and starting a new book altogether. I soo sooo badly want this to be the end of my gaming. It has caused an immense amount of grief, especially lately as I have just discovered through introspection that the last 3 jobs I've lost as well as losing the girl I love, was all stemmed from my addiction to gaming. On top of the fact that I'm coming off a binge of 8 weeks straight of 16 hours a day gaming. This doesn't include all the lies I tell my family in order to continue gaming without them knowing I have an addiction. I have no control of this and need out. Thanks for reading.

Welcome. I'm a new member as well I'm not 24 hours in either and have mixed emotions about all this. But absolutely agree that when you declare you're an addict and can see the damage it's doing; It's time to do something about it. I'm a huge magic fan as well, and MTG Arena was one I will have to quit as well with this new page in my life btw. Good luck friend! Dave

Hello All, My name is David and I'm a 28 year old lifelong video gaming addict. I've spend ungodly amounts of time on a variety of console/pc games over the course of my life that has severely hindered me from achieving my full potential and actually enjoying and thriving in my life. The reason I'm here is because I followed the exact same track of action Cam did. I went exactly from Starcraft, to Counterstrike 1.6 then World of Warcraft sharing a very similar to story. My eye's lit up when I read that because I felt hope and relief that someone else in my exact situation has gotten out of this. I'm lucky to have fantastic parents that love me and have tried their best to support me over the years but I've been getting increasingly good at hiding this addiction from them. I've hit rock bottom once before this, was on the verge of suicide and managed to throw myself into fitness and move 1000 miles away from my home to get a fresh start and half-quit gaming, but only quitting halfway only half helped. finances didn't work out in my fitness career and I was forced to move back home. I took a job that made good money but began spending all time when not at Gym or work, video gaming. I justified that my life was great now and I could afford to spend my free-time doing that. But video gaming cost me that job, then cost me the next job when Wow classic came out, then cost me my relationship with the girl I love, Then covid began, I pretended to be sick with covid and entered the worst binge I've ever done in history. 8 weeks straight of nearly 16 hours of a gaming a day. Completely dropped my exercise routine. And lied to all my family about how I was spending my time. I even told my dad i was helping my mom with a work project for 2 weeks when I just gamed every day. I didn't help my Mom with that work project and pretended to be upset about something so that I could game instead of helping her with the work project. I just started a new job yesterday that my dad helped me get and had a very successful day, however the music at work reminded me so much of the girl that left me that I realized just how much video gaming was the cause of us not working out because of how much my neglect pushed her away. This led into me thinking about how much of my life problems stemmed from video games and that is what led me to find Respawn. I'm trying to do things the right way, to end this once and for all. I know I'm a talented individual and I've seen glimpses of when I cut back on games, the improvements it makes, but I know given my situation and how I don't have control that I need to quit completely and forever or it will completely rob my life of anything good and lasting. Glad to be here. My list of emotions I have written out are mostly negative but some positive and It'd be nice to know I'm not alone in this, so if you could share your experience in your reply or something you've found that helped you. Please let me know. Thanks. Dave