Adamski

Thank you Amphibian220, I agree with you. relapse is part of recovery. I imagine that you get more efficient at getting back on track faster as you say, by every relapse. Could it also not be true that as you get better, the longer you have to fall and the harder a relapse affects you? Like a drug addict getting his shit together, got his health in check, a good job and started a family. But then he started using again and now he has much more to loose. Maybe that scenario is not realistic, why would you even go back to that when you've come so far? Just a thought. Take care!

Hello, First day of no gaming. It has not been that hard not playing games, rather I've been dealing with guilt. An emotion researcher said that "Emotions arise in response to events that are important to the individual's goals, motives or concerns". That explains very much why I'm feeling this way since I know that video games are hindering my potential and what I want to accomplish in my life. I was in a good place prior to playing video games a couple of days ago and long to get back. I've made up my mind and I intend to change my behavior. My thoughts today have been mainly of regret. Regret is useless and a waste of time, there is no use crying over spilled milk. Yet I'm still feeling this way and resisting these feelings will just prolong the process. It's best to accept where you are, be patient, take one day at a time and focus on getting better. How do you deal with guilt? https://gph.is/1ce7RU2 Stay safe. Adam

Hello, This is my first post here. I'm sort of writing for myself but feel free to comment if you can relate. I've slipped back into a pattern of "just one more game" thought loop. The more I game the harder it is to face reality. Not that my reality is unbearable, actually it's pretty good and I love my life and what it can become. Although I know that my gaming addiction hinders my potential and the guilt is eating me up. Whenever I get myself into a momentum of feeling good and life is rolling in the right direction, I figure a little gaming wont hurt. The first hour is usually very stimulating and super fun, but as time goes, I've find myself glued to the screen for the past 6 hours and my sleep takes a toll and brainfog follows the next day. I drown the guilt from playing games by playing more games and escaping. I always seem to forget this pain of recovery somehow, or maybe I'm not being honest with myself. I am in a hurry to get myself into the good "vibration" I was in prior to the gaming binge. But I know only acceptance of what is can let the guilt go, so I gotta go through this, once again. I need to put limits on myself and really have discipline if I'm gonna achieve my irl dreams. Something I've learned from falling back again and again into gaming is how to handle it. Relapse is part of the process of recovery and I've accepted it. I used to think in a self-defeating way: "I can never get out of this addiction, I'm always slipping back". But the opposite is true as well" I always get back up, and I have become pretty skilled and efficient at getting back up again. I'm playing less frequently and getting a handle on this". I rather choose the latter one. Stay well guys. Adam

Hello, This is my first post here. I'm sort of writing for myself but feel free to comment if you can relate. I've slipped back into a pattern of "just one more game" thought loop. The more I game the harder it is to face reality. Not that my reality is unbearable, actually it's pretty good and I love my life and what it can become. Although I know that my gaming addiction hinders my potential and the guilt is eating me up. Whenever I get myself into a momentum of feeling good and life is rolling in the right direction, I figure a little gaming wont hurt. The first hour is usually very stimulating and super fun, but as time goes, I've find myself glued to the screen for the past 6 hours and my sleep takes a toll and brainfog follows the next day. I drown the guilt from playing games by playing more games and escaping. I always seem to forget this pain of recovery somehow, or maybe I'm not being honest with myself. I am in a hurry to get myself into the good "vibration" I was in prior to the gaming binge. But I know only acceptance of what is can let the guilt go, so I gotta go through this, once again. I need to put limits on myself and really have discipline if I'm gonna achieve my irl dreams. Something I've learned from falling back again and again into gaming is how to handle it. Relapse is part of the process of recovery and I've accepted it. I used to think in a self-defeating way: "I can never get out of this addiction, I'm always slipping back". But the opposite is true as well" I always get back up, and I have become pretty skilled and efficient at getting back up again. I'm playing less frequently and getting a handle on this". I rather choose the latter one. Stay well guys. Adam