Its been a year and a half since I have been on this site. I am still addicted, just shelled out another 60 dollars for the PS4 game “back 4blood”
All while I have no income and am on foodstamps, my parents pay for my rent, my appartment is a mess dirty dishes for a week and no laundry for about 2 weeks, Im about to start community college with 15 credits and Im nervous and afraid that I wont be able to study because of my craving and addiction.
Todya I watch a gamequitters documentary about reSTART a program in washington that i am thinking about, had a psych hospitialization since my last post, once again I was an overwatch character while i was manic bouncing off the walls, new meds have been great and keep my bipolar in check, maybe its not a wise decision to go to college for computer science at 15 credits when i dont cook meals
Its like I need to pull myself up on mu boostraps and hunker down and suffer through college, the only way out is through, but i know i have a craving and not alot if self control,
today i though about getting a spelunky tattoo and asked my mom about a ps5 this week.
I know i am in the right place here, I just hope I stay on this site and hear back from reSTART