I am ready to make changes in my life. I have wasted too much time playing video games. I don't have many other hobbies because gaming dominates almost all of my free time. I am not happy with the outlook of my life if I keep going down the road that I am currently on.
Recently my girlfriend of three years broke up with me because of my laziness and the way that I treated her. I was devastated, but I understood that it was necessary because I was not fair to her or myself. I have a tendency to bottle up my emotions until something small sets me off and I explode. Many times I would say very hurtful things to her and regret it immediately, but once the words have escaped you can't take them back.
I believe that the root of my anger problems stems from not being happy with myself. I want to be a better person with interesting hobbies and an amazing story to tell. I want to see the world and experience as much as I can.
At the moment I have a lot of mixed feelings. I am worried that I will fail and resort back to business as usual, but I am also excited for a fresh start and new experiences. I worry about losing my gaming buddies who I have played with for countless hours, but I am excited about finding new friends who have healthy hobbies who will encourage me to be a better version of myself. I look forward to this journey but part of me is scared that I won't be able to maintain a healthier lifestyle.