My name is Kanoa. I am 17 and a freshman in college, and I have been addicted to gaming for around 3 years now. I play games to escape from the world and all my emotions that are brought on mostly because of my declining grades and slow disconnect from friends that I had all my life. I really started getting into gaming in 9th grade as I had become increasingly depressed in high school and climaxed with attempted suicide in 10th grade. I have still never recovered from my depression, and I have regularly considered attempting suicide again ever since. My depression originated from having poor marks in school and not being able to please everyone around me, but I have now recently recognized that it is coming from the constant gaming that I pretend is helping me feel better. I have never been able to talk about this with anyone other than my friends online, but I really want to figure out how to pick my life back up from where I left it. I don't plan on completely removing gaming from my life, but I want to regulate it so that I have other activities taking up most of my time and to play games only in the situations where I know it actually makes me happy rather than just giving me something else to think about.