adnanbaig601 posted a topic in Daily JournalsI mainly only play one game for months at a time and for the last few years I've been going through the far cry series and just this week cancelled my steam and gog accounts. It's not my first try doing this but it will be the last!... It's the last thing I think about before I go to sleep, the first thing I think about each time I wake up. I'm checking my corners as I go on foot to work. I look at white vans half feeling like I'm in the game think "shit, he's a cultist got prisoners in the back." I remember from the game I gotta shoot ahead o' track, takes time to get to target. (Obviously I know it ain't the game and I don't walk around real life with a rifle in my hands.) Sometimes I really feel like playing that game, to the point where I almost download it back again. Just gotta wait like 20 something days, cancelled my steam like module 1 told me to do. Gotta take back my mind, heal, get back to being sane. I've gotta take back those parts of me the game keeps trying to steal. I have big plans for my life, like many people do but nothings going to happen till I change my ways anew. Their here for me, I'm here for them. Time to snap out of it, wake up and smell the roses. Time stops for no one, forwards, onwards, I have to go.
Hi I'm Adnan from London England. Quite an emotional topic this. I feel like society's perception of gaming addicts is so trivial. They just seem to think things like "It's Just a Game!" completely ignoring what an addiction is in the brain. I've tried to express how i currently feel about gaming in my life below. Sorry if its a little confusing or anything. Extreme Overthinker??I don't want to quit. I do want to quit. I don't want to have the desire to play games but I do want to play games! But that's just because i have the desire to play games! If i didn't have that desire then i wouldn't want to play games you nincompoop! (I was talking to myself) Ping Pong go the thoughts in my head.. Pinball from windows! Table tennis? Far Cry - MENACE! Can't live, can i? Can i live without my games? I don't want them as my masters, i want them as my friends.Don't quite know what I should do. I just, I just don't.I stare at my screen, I scream inside, pace around my room i feel i aught to cry!Should i quit these games? They're so much better than my life! But the life I want to live is so much better then them still!There are two extremes. On the one hand i could continue to allow games to dictate my habits outside of work and on the other i could purge them completely from my life. But isn't there a way to take back 'some' control? To keep allowing myself to play games sometimes while i'm working towards my goals? Then, when my life becomes the one I've always dreamed of i just won't want to play my games but live, for real, instead.