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  1. The name is Josh, I realize I have been stuck in a similar pattern for too long and now I am busting out of it, I want to join the respawn program cause I believe that would truly help me out but I don’t get paid til a few weeks, I’m seeking a buddy who I can talk to about being more successful in life and help me through these cravings, and I can gladly be an ear for this buddy and or help keep him/her accountable. alittle about me. I love music specifically jazz, I also design Boardgames in my spare time and go on walks around my neighborhood. Feel free to message me here or on discord, I am in the stop gaming discord and my current name is Tailcut but the easiest way to reach me is probably here on gamequitters, thanks for reading 😊
  2. just deleted all my videogame now I feel weird, but it had to be done seeking an accountability partner that uses discord, feel free to message me here
  3. JKD

    Back after a longer relapse

    Hopefully I will stay on this site for awhile im just gonna be straight up and say it, having people comment on my stuff really helps me. But I need to not rely on these comments, it’s just, I need a push or kick in the pants, or something. I know I am not alone based of the many replies and posts I see here, I want to change, and not deal with the re occurring pattern that keeps choking my finances and well being i have been thinking about respawn elite and I honestly don’t have much to lose.
  4. Back again, after a longer relapse, what brings me here is the fact that I am seeing this girl and last night we were talking about what we fear in life, I told her I fear stagnation. How can I grow if I don’t try new things, no matter what I say I still feel the urge and crave to remain safe and comfortable in front of a tv with a bag of Doritos by my side. I don’t want to be like this. I spent 50 bucks on a game last week and I had to ask my parents for money for gas, this has got to come to an end. I’m almost 25. I think I want to try signing up for the elite respawn package here at game quitters, I’d love to have a set of tools and something to manage the addiction, heck im hoping some of the skills learned in respawn are transferable too, thanks for the comment Jay, sorry I never got back to you.
  5. Procrastinator here. im curious to hear the communities thoughts on this, ever since I started a 90 day detox ( day 3). I find myself working out more instead of doing homework or studying, in Videogames, I used to grind a lot for rewards, now in life, I grind my physical health for reward of dopamine and a long term goal of getting healthy. I just cant seem to think of a reward for doing the grind of homework/studying, I guess the reward would be good grades and becoming smarter, but that’s not tempting enough for me at the moment. I listened to the gamequitter podcast about how to become addicting to getting stuff done and that’s my hope one day, I’m just having trouble starting the car, Now that I think about it, I could allot my time in chunks like 15 mins work then 10 minutes of music. Haven’t tried that yet, I will do that today hopefully how would you create a habit loop for yourself and what have you learned about all this,
  6. Day 3 of 90 no gaming detox. Right now I feel tired cause I just started my morning with a workout but I am doing good, my concern is what is gonna happen when my old video game friends come along and ask me to hangout and just play video games, these guys are my bros but it’s too bad that the relationship was built off of video games and hasn’t really gone anywhere to be honest. the second thing I wanted to post is I think I am still a procrastinator, instead of doing homework and studying now I workout or discover music, which is a lot better than gaming but I need create a reward loop system for studies and homework hmmm
  7. Day one of 90 day no gaming no fap detox went pretty swell, went to work, explained to my family what a gaming disorder is, and that I might have it, they tried to minimize it by saying stuff like everything is a disorder, I didn’t game at all yesterday. Wanted to clean my room instead and wowee was it messy. Then was tired and listened to music and went to bed, and failed my first night of no fap, I’m not too sad about that there is always tomorrow for a retry, I’m just glad I didn’t game
  8. I said too much here so I deleted it. Today’s date is 10/23/18
  9. I appreciate this community welcoming me back. Great! Really busy, with School work. Before class I was listening to your podcast and It was an episode where you talked about Your brain wants the easiest, quickest, reliable source of dopamine without any work or effort which is totally not normal in the past. Like, You can just have nonstop rewards, thats really not reality. This coincided perfectly with Pathology class when we discussed Addiction and Alcoholism My teacher said something like.. "Receptor cites in the brain are expecting to receive dopamine(the feel good hormone), and once they found a source, the body makes more receptor cites that long for dopamine. And you can't ever get rid of these thirsty receptor cites. I was sort of shocked at that. How many unnatural receptor sites have I created in my brain with hundreds of hours into Monster Hunter and other Games. which is why you seek a new video game or you need more alcohol to get previous feeling or high in the past. I believe the word is Tolerance, it takes more to get High, to get that dopamine. In alcoholism, You need more beer to get drunk as an addiction progresses, In Videogameaholicism, You need more games to get that wow factor. Unfortunately a game to supply that for me is usually over $20, the biggest wow factor I have Protypes I play with my friends but I have never went to a publisher or anything like that. It usually starts off with me tweaking some of my favorite board/party games, Coming up with variants. And sometimes combining different elements from different games. I usually write everything down and I throw different things together, I describe my process as abstract and open minded if that makes any sense, Like a jazz musician. If I could team up with someone systematic or scientific in their ways of making games that could go really swell or horrible haha but I would definitely give it a shot. Bucket List: Go to a board game convention and meet a fellow designer looking to team up. .
  10. Whooosh there goes a few months, it it would be nice to say that it’s good to be back but that’s not all true, not cause I dislike this site or idea or community at all. it’s hard giving it all up, I am glad this site and community is in the somewhere back of my mind lovingly pestering me like a mother trying to get her kid to to eat those veggies. those veggies sure doesn’t taste good right now but hopefully I will forget the taste of triple chocolate Big Mac ( aka a zero day with nothing but gaming) maybe that hat is just wishful optimism, that goes nowhere and doesn’t produce any results, hmm. welp I am checking in, talked to my psychiatrist today about his opinion on video game addiction, and he thinks it can be a real issue with young adults, i mean I still live in my parents basement and game away. He told me to buy a planner and map my hours out so I don’t freeform game. So I did, now I am thinking about what to put on the planner for each hour....... I just found out that I reall like anime and adult cartoons and I think I replace some of my time gaming with this hobby, This paried with working out at home, journaling here practicin Qigong Designing Boardgames. listening to music listening to podcasts like the game quitters one would probably be a good start. Thanks for the welcome Cam, I will be on the discord for gamequitters and leaving all the gamer discord servers
  11. As I was packing away my PS4, Xbox and Nintendo Switch, I noticed the chords tangling up my legs, thinking of all the time I have wasted away pressing buttons staring at a screen instead of really living life, building myself and fulfilling my destiny. here we go, Day 1 Well that’s not true, I have tried quitting before, and have relapsed , and have even posted on this site before, and had an accountability buddy and everything, I was going strong for a week and then the cravings came back and autopilot kicked in, When I get knocked down I gotta pick myself up again, this is Josh D, I feel like I said to much with my old journal in the beginning statements and didn’t want that to be the first thing I or others. would read, this is the second and final journal, starting differently this time, maybe this will work out I have just finished trauma therapy with my therapist and I’m about to be transferred to see a Doctor of Medical Qigong/Therapist, basically I am getting a new therapist which I am super pumped for because I was her client in the past. im preparing for therapy by giving all my systems to my parents so they can hide them in the house. She used to recommend that I stopped my intense love and passion for gaming, but I didn’t listen and then all of a sudden I am in a psychward doing weird video game things with strangers who look at me funny. i was the craziest nut in that particular ward at the time, now I am on good medication about to meet this therapist and become even more grounded and centered. I am super excited about starting this journey again and I am going to listen to the podcast and watch more of cam’s videos when I get cravings I am 24 and going to massage therapy school still and have recently gotten 104 out of 107 points for my final grade in anatomy 1 Hobbies that fill my time Music Journaling Practing Qigong boadgames podcasts reading, i feel tired from school today, so much learning ad testing, bout to give a one hour massage, hope it goes well time to prepare for it, I am anticipating my future growth from this excellent therapist, so pumped and hopeful about myself and this journey, i am an addict, and when I talk about it to others it’s not easy but it helps me stay a quitter of gaming Now that I have this on my phone it should be easier to journal,
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