Mohammad

You are definitely correct. I also blocked anything related to gaming. However, that youtube video was not really a video of the game I use to play. It was just a cartoon which was somehow similar to my game or at least it looks similar to me. That was enough for me to think about it for a second and then fell for it! Thanks for your help. Much appreciated.

1st day: No gaming ? Well, I failed again on the second day, so I am starting over. Even though I am stuck at the very first few days, but I still feel good about myself. These fighting attitude that I developed over the past six months is indeed healthy, and I eventually defeat my gaming habit. I am moving forward with a positive attitude... If I fail seven times, I get up eight times. I think this is the way to go. I know the temptation will strike me again, and I am prepared to fight back. If I fail, I will start over again and again ? I also started meditation ?

Day 1: No gaming ? I started meditation. Hopefully, that would help me to deal with the temptation. The install-block software that prevents me to install the game is also very beneficial. I am so happy that I am back on the route again!

The trigger was seeing the game on youtube by accident. I had such a great desire to play that I could not resist. This time I installed the install-block that I used to use before. As long as I know I do not have access to the game, I am good. I hope this help. Starting over from today...

3rd day: I failed! ?

Day 2: No gaming ? I had a great desire to play last night when my boy was asleep. However, I managed to overcome it. I used a trick I learnt from a book. It is called 10,10,10. It is basically imagining yourself in 10 minutes, 10 hours, 10 months and 10 years from now. I tried it and I realized that the next 10 mints would be fun playing games. However, it is gonna be very painful in 10 hours! exhausted and not getting enough sleep. Feeling awful about myself. It was even worse when I looked into 10 months. I would be struggling with this destructive habits and it's even harder to put an end to it after 10 months. The 10 years perspective is really scary if you can imagine what gaming is gonna do to your life in 10 years! I think that was enough for me to overcome that desire.

Hi Karabas, Thanks for your advice. My first 90-days detox was very easy for me with no much cravings. That is why I didn't take this journal writing that seriously. I did not see any reasons spending time here as I did not have any issues going to the 90-days detox. However, later, for some reasons, I started to play again. I did not mean to start playing games against. Just wanted to play a single game. And that's exactly when it starts over! I started to learn photography in my first 90-day detox and It was really fun and encouraging. This time I am into learning a new programming language python as my new hobby. I think this will help me get more productive. I will spend more time on journal writing as well as you suggested. I am also spending some time daily on meditation. Mohammad

Starting a new 90-days detox. I am very serious about it mostly because of my baby! I can not do this to him.

Day 15: No gaming

Day 1 to 14: No gaming. Thanks to the software install-block that blocked my games.

Ok! I am screwed! I kind started playing again. Not as much as before but still not good. Gonna start from day zero from today and I will update daily. Day 1: I installed basher software to block the games on my laptop. I will spend a bit more on photography to compensate.

No, I cannot sell my laptop as I do my job with it. I think photography is a perfect replacement for me. The reason I started playing is that I stopped shooting. I tried to save some time by not going outside and shoot some photos, but, I ended up playing some games instead of working on my thesis!

Day 90: Unfortunately, I played for about 2-3 hours on the last day! I really didn't enjoy but there is some urge to play. I am not sure what is the reason! It might be because of the stress I have in my life. I did not spend any time on photography and that is why I ended up playing video games. You know, it is easier to play games at home rather than going outside and start shooting. The games I used to play were so intensive. When I played them after a while, I feel I could not maintain at that level of stress! I am wondering how could I play these games in past for many hours! I break the rules of detox by playing a couple of games so I am gonna continue for another 90 days, and I will begin from day 1! I need some help to stop playing games because I know that even though I am not enjoying, there is some urge to play! This will probably let the habit come back into my life. So, I believe I need to be really careful about it. Here it is one of my photos I took a couple of weeks ago when I was in Calgary.

Day 89: No gaming.

No, not gonna play. I did not really enjoy the game anyway! day 88: No gaming

day 87! I had an urge to play games at day 87 for almost the very first time! Finally, I played one game! I didn't really enjoy it! I hope it doesn't happen again! BTW, should I start 90-day detox from scratch for playing just one game?

79 to 86: No gaming. at day 86, I had a little bit of craving for gaming!!! I did not play any games.

74 to 78: No gaming.

64 to 73: No gaming at all!

Day 62 and 63: I started swimming every day for half an hour. I am not playing any games whatsoever and I am so happy about it. I am improving my photography skills to much more advanced levels. I do not have any urge for gaming as well.

Day 45 to 61: I went on vacation for eight days and I played about ten games of FIFA-2018 with my brothers. I don't consider it to be a rule breaker because I was on vacation and I wanted to have fun with my brothers. We used to play alot together many years ago when we were kids! I am back home and I do not have any urge for playing so far. I say I am straight going for the 90-day detox.

Hi. Well, my life is totally changed! I never knew getting away from gaming can be this easy! I did not have any craving for games after the first few days and I dont think I will ever get back to gaming! Photography is a great replacement for me. It is more fun and more challenging. It needs more creativity. Spending alot of time walking around and shooting is a good exercise while enjoying the nice weather and beatiful sceneries. I have been spending an average of two hours and twenty four minutes per day on my Ph.D. thesis in the past 30 days.

Day 44,45: No gaming.

Day 34,35,36,37,38,39,40,41,42,43: No gaming.

Day 34: No gaming. Worked 4 hours till now today. Had a meeting with my advisor. Meet one of my friends.