Hi all,
First of all I'm so glad this site exists! I couldn't put into words what I was feeling but it looks like so many of you are having the same dilemma.
I honestly just needed somewhere to write my thoughts. I don't think I could accept that I had an addiction, and even now that doesn't seem right, but I'm struggling to feel happy and satisfied with video games like I have been before.
I'm 24 and have been playing seriously for about 10 years. I would play after school until bedtime, whilst I was at uni I would play whenever I had free time, and now I play after work. I actually always did great in school and always had at least 8 hours of sleep (and still do today). That being said, my IRL social life has been almost non-existent which is where that balances out. I've been working full-time for 3 years since finishing uni and I get very little time in the evening. This means I can't be bothered to commit to anything and just get that temporary escapism from playing a game.
I used to play with my friends online but now they have way more free time than I do (and so they always have double my playtime). I felt like I was playing a never-ending game of catch-up, and they would never wait for me to do so. I'd always known this was a huge waste of my time (and money) but, if I didn't join, I would feel as though I was missing out on the banter. I now play by myself which has made me do a TON of thinking.
For about 6 years now I've been meaning to start a project, a journey, a creative hobby. I'd think about it, I'd decide it's taking too long, then I'd turn on my Xbox...
I've actually come to a huge revelation today; accepting that I need to change. I've already taken 'Step One' by deleting my gaming apps from my tablet. I feel so relieved right now!
Thanks for reading!