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  1. Day 18. No gaming. Really the turning point for me was deleting the characters, app, and chat program last week. I’ve been playing the guitar, reading, going to church, being involved with family - in other words, living my real life. Even started eating more healthy.
  2. Day 13. No gaming. Pretty busy which keeps mind off gaming. I’m really glad I deleted everything. Set a goal for myself that if I get through session 8 on the Guitar course I’m doing, I’ll buy a new guitar. Mine has worn down frets and it’s not worth getting fixed. Getting a new Guitar is a lot better than getting a new virtual ax or whatever in the game.
  3. Day 11. I really appreciate all the feedback! The sunk cost fallacy was exactly what I was struggling with. Thinking that hey I’ve got so much invested in this, how can I just give it up? Gotten back into learning the guitar, cooking, bbqing (made brisket and ribs for birthday party last Saturday), reading. Had fun playing with grandson yesterday. There’s a lot more to life than playing a stupid game.
  4. I went in and deleted the characters, the app, the chat program. I felt really anxious while doing it, but feel good now.
  5. Day 10. No gaming, but I did check chat. Not deleting my characters is really keeping my head in the game, in a way. My idea was to sell some of the gear that I've accumulated, but that would take a lot of interaction on chat, going back into game, and keep me thinking about the game. I am about 90% of the way to convincing myself to just deleting characters. It just seems so final. If I have them to go back to, I know when I'm down or bored or whatever, it will be too easy to go back into the game and play some more. OK, I deleted the chat program. I tried to delete characters but couldn't do it.
  6. Day 8. Gratitude - beautiful day after rain yesterday, family getting ready for grandson/wife’s birthday party. Keeping busy irl is a great way not to think about gaming.
  7. Day 7. No gaming. Been really busy getting ready for grandson’s birthday party tomorrow. Got back into Guitar course I used to do. Found out there’s a problem with my acoustic guitar that I have to get fixed I had an insight on why (or one reason) gaming is so easy to slip into. It’s an environment where there are no real risks. If you die, you just resurrect and keep on going. It really is just a way to hide from reality. Gratitude - my family, good health,
  8. Sounds like you’re really making progress! Keep going!
  9. Day 6. Going pretty well, no gaming. I had an obsessive thought about selling stuff (my old iPhone I was using for multi boxing on the game and my old laptop) to buy a 12 string guitar. Which is just dumb seeing that I’ve been back to playing guitar for exactly one day. It’s like with gaming- I get totally obsessed and fixated on something to the exclusion of everything else. It’s like a feedback loop in my head. Anyhow, I told my wife about my idea (another part of this detox for me is being honest and transparent and present with her) and she let me know what she thought about it. As far as the game goes, I still haven’t deleted my characters. There are a couple of items I could sell for several hundred dollars, so my plan now is sell that, give other stuff away, then delete characters. I can’t do it til next week because I’m busy til then.
  10. Day 5 No gaming. Got a whiteboard to write out a schedule for myself. Played guitar.
  11. Day 4. Still haven't deleted characters. I did contact one player in the game to see if he wanted to buy them, but he didn't. The game is still taking up space in my head, probably will until I make a clean break with it. On the positive side, I started playing the guitar again today. Funny thing is, I still remember how to play some things. I guess if you spend your time learning real things instead of how to kill virtual dragons there is actually some benefit to it. I'm a retired 63 year old grandfather, so I'm an outlier here for sure. My wife and I recently got guardianship of our 3 year old grandson, so that's a real motivator to get my head out of mmo's and into reality. I want to be there for him, and I also don't want him seeing me spending all my time on my phone or iPad and thinking that's normal. Info-gatherer - it's the goodby forever part that I'm struggling with. I know I have to make a clean break and completely leave the game behind, but I would like to get some of the money I wasted on it back. My view is that the game is not evil and there are people that can play it and not get addicted, just like with drinking or weed or whatever, but for whatever reason, I can't do that. This last time I went back to it, it was with the idea that I'd moderate my playing and just play for fun. But before I knew it, I was back in full blown obsession mode. If my wife was talking to me, I wasn't listening, because I was thinking about the game. If my grandson wanted to play, I had him watch TV while I played the game. I'd stay up til midnight, then get up at 3 am to kill a certain mob. Lack of sleep made me irritable and grouchy. I resented anything that interfered with my game time. I guess I'm saying this to help convince myself that I NEED to just delete the characters and forget about recouping any of the time and money I wasted on it.
  12. Ok been 3 days no gaming. I read the Respawn book. I’ve been gaming for at least 25 years, going back to text based mmo’s on my Apple II. I’ve quit before for years at a time but always relapse. Latest game of choice was an MMO on my phone. It sounds so stupid to be addicted to a game on your phone, but there you go. My first dilemma is, he says in Respawn to delete the games, so I deleted the app. But I havent deleted my characters. I’m tempted to try to sell them. But to do that I’d have to get on a game chat site, which I’m afraid would pull me back into the game. I pretty much know what I have to do, but deleting the characters is very hard for me. I’ve literally put thousands of hours and thousands of dollars into them (Yes, I know how ridiculous that sounds) and identify very strongly with them. I know if they’re still available to me eventually I’ll start playing them again. All I have to do is reinstall the app and sign in. But I would like to get some of the money I’ve wasted on them back. And in a weird way I want to know that they’re living on. This is how far gone I’ve gotten in this, I think of them as real people. Anyhow, I am struggling with the idea of deleting them. Otherwise, I feel really jittery and have a bad headache. I also don’t have any energy. Today I made myself do some long neglected housework, and seeing the tangible results of that has helped some. My mentally challenging activity is going to be learning the guitar, which I’m going to start on today. It’s an activity I dropped for gaming, along with exercise and eating right, so I’ve gained 80 lbs. I feel pretty disgusted with myself for falling into this hole again and it seems like such a long way back, but you have to start somewhere.