[90 Days of Journal]

Yes, that’s exactly what I will be doing. Thank you for the advice!

What is the language you’re fluent in?

[90 Days of Journal]

Still Day 3

Topic: Anger (and gaming ofc)

This morning I went to the dentist. I need to pull out one of my tooth. As soon as I arrived, the secretary told me the steps that I had to follow: 1) clean my teeth with an assistant of the dentist 2) being visited by the dentist. I did step 1 and everything ran smoothly. After that, since the dentist was half an hour late, I went home to pick up a couple x-ray scans of my teeth that I thought could be useful for the dentist. While I was driving back to the dentist, my GF called me and told me a thing that made me upset. I arrived to the dentist 5 minutes late bc i couldn't find a place to park my car. The secretary told me that the dentist was now very busy and could not receive me. She told me to come back in the afternoon. That made me even more upset. I told her that I wasn't coming back in the afternoon, neither ever again. I was polite but firm. I felt angry because of what my GF told me and the fact that the dentist, which was 30 min late, declined to see me for being 5 min late. I was maybe too much impulsive. Anyway, the point is that I felt the need to check some articles or streamings about LoL to quench my anger. I immediatly recognised an unhealthy pattern: I'm angry -> I need to game. I didn't game, nor check any articles, streams, etc. I will not have any of this until the end of this detox, as I promised to myself. Now I ask myself how the hell am I gonna deal with my tooth

[90 Days of Journal]

Hey  Italian is my main language

EDIT:

Day 3

I just woke up and went to check this site and Reddit. I didn’t participate to forum and online communities in years (not even Facebook, which I deactivated two years ago) so the fact I have this strong urge to check my notifications feels unhealthy for me. I want to check if someone messaged me, answered a post, commented on a post I also commented... you sure quitting games doesn’t cause internet addiction? Because picking up the phone and going online as the first thing I do in the morning is really not me and makes me feel dumb and slow (not figuratively: it gives me a little headache and dumbs my sensations).

[90 Days of Journal]

Thank you guys. You're awesome. I could never do this without your support.

Day 2

Stayed home the whole day. I cooked for my little brother, which usually likes my cooking, but I guess that today I made a bit of a mess and my recipe was... charcoal-tasting? Spent the whole afternoon translating a poem from italian to english and launching a little project on the StopGaming boards. I don't translate often and it felt very good doing it. No cravings for gaming at all. Still a bit worried for when I'm moving back to the other city I live in ("university city").

[90 Days of Journal]

Hello everyone. I am a 23 years old, middle-class white male and I come from Italy. I have a serious gaming addiction. I want to tell my story. Yesterday I started my 90 days detox. I introduced myself to the community with this post on the StopGaming's subreddit. I'm here to share my ongoing experiences.

Day 1

Yesterday I did a lot of things that I would normally not do if I spent the whole day gaming. Although I didn't engage in any particularly stimulating activitiy, I felt I was enjoying even the less appealing tasks. This is what I did: I went to the doctor and sit in the waiting room for 2 hours, without an appointment. There was a bunch of old people talking shit about government, social and medical issues. I just sit there and listened to them. You may not believe me, but I thought that I was very lucky to be there, near other human beings, hearing what they said, instead of being closed in my room. I also felt responsible for going to the doctor, as I should have before. After the first 40 minutes, I got a book out of my backpack and started studying. I didn't feel distracted. I studied for an hour. Finally the doctor visited me. After that, I went buying some new jeans. All my trousers are ruined and full of holes. For 2-3 months I wanted to buy some new pair but I didn't find the time to do it, the urge of gaming was too strong. I then passed a little shop while walking back to my car. I remembered that many years ago I bought a sandwich in there with a very tasty kind of meat I've never found anywhere else. I remembered its name (Cecina de Leon), so I asked the owner about it. He explained me that it's a quality of iberic bresaola, very difficult to find. In fact, he didn't have any in stock, but he made me a sandwich with another kind of meat that I had never tried. Not as good as the Cecina, but quite tasty. At dinner, instead of eating as fast as possible and running to my pc, I talked with my family. In the evening I watched a movie, Days of heaven by Terrence Malick. At first I thought I didn't like it, but the scene of the locusts was glorious. Overall 6,5/10. Well, this is what I did. It may not be anything special, but I didn't game, nor watch any streams or websites gaming-related. I had trouble sleeping, I kept thinking about my decision to do this detox. I never questioned it or wished to back out, but I was obsessed. I wished it was already over, I wished i could already be free from the cravings. I fell asleep at 2.30 AM.

Hope this one wasn't too boring. I know, it's just standard everyday activities everyone carries out. But I'm very proud of the way I spent my day instead of playing 15 games of LoL. Later I'll probably come back and write something about my hobbies. Thank you for reading and please feel free to leave a comment.