So, my counter shows 18th day has almost passed. I don't write too often since I'm moving slow, there's not enough action to talk about! Started taking medications 2 days ago, even though it didn't fully kick in yet, my mood is much more stable now, I feel much more calm. I don't feel urges to play, I mean I miss it a bit, it was really fun, but I read some articles that scared me from playing games, what kind of works I still don't want to do anything, doesn't feel motivated, my brain still crave higher level of stimulation that video games provided, daily activities still seem boring. Step by step trying to get in to programming again, I loved it before, and was kind of good at picking it up, but gaming ultimately won and I abandoned this hobby. so yeah, we'll see what's next!