Damiano

Day 74. Nothing too amazing today, work, and toastmasters meeting. Everything went well, first time at the after party. Casual conversations are very difficult for me. Came home at 22, made some food and now I am writing this. Rest and relaxation are of the utmost importance if we want to keep an active life.

Day 73. Another awesome day, spent the whole afternoon and evening with gf in bed. Its awesome to finally do the things I thought i would never do to a woman. And all this because I quit gaming!!

Day 73. Today was normal and that is Amazing!!!! Finally i can say that the "normal" is without games, heck yeah!! Im going for the win, 100 days!!!

Thanks guys. Day 72. Today i visited a friend, and we talked about games, nd he showed me some he has been playing. I didnt felt anything by it. And even felt that i didnt want to game any more.

Day 70 & 71 My father got drunk again, and it made me angry, this was the closest I got to playing games since the detox began. It messes me up pretty bad that I cant do shit about it. The only thing I havent done is leave. Which I am planning on doing next year. Today Im going to see my gf for the whole afternoon, which will calm me down.

Day 69. Finally my mind is starting to settle. I am doing heavy work in personal development and I can see the effects which give me confidence in myself and my future. I still want to play, as strong as before, but games themselves are not as important as before. I will probably play again some day, but not soon.

Day 68. just came back home, and its time to sleep already. No time to game, no time to crave. This vegan diet thing is really pushing my resistance.

Day 67. No games, but cravings appeared, accompanied with depressive feelings and melancholy. But im ok.

Hi man!! Congratulations on your decision, its the best decision!! In regards to your question, the only suggestion from met is to remove something if you feel its too much, and add something practical in the social thing. I started going to toastmasters meetings, to get rid of my fear of talking in public, and to learn to talk properly and its an awesome place to make friends that also want to improve themselves. Good luck.

Day 66. All good, no games nor cravings. Started a two week vegan diet tryout I want to test the benefits on the body and mind, because i hear a lot of good things about it and also a big fuzz to ridicule it. I have to know for myself. Also, having another thing to occupy the mind with is very useful while on any kind of detox.

Day 65. Today was a great day. No games at all. Can wait to see more days like this one.

Day 64. Today was one of those lazy days, and I managed to watch some documentaries i wanted to watch for some time. I also installed a game on my phone while on the bathroom, already uninstalled it. I don't even know why i did that, must put more attention while having free time.

Day 63. No games today. Good session in therapy, good workout at home. Cravings appear, and the willingness to play is still there, as strong as ever. Maybe I just really enjoy games and its all about the reason to play them. If they make my life richer in experiences and happiness then why not? right? RIGHT? We will see after the 90+ days

Day 62. Girlfriend took the podium today, no games, not even close to games.

Day 61. Second meeting at toastmasters, im going to make it a constant thing because its not only hard to overcome this, but its also difficult to master the skills. I have been having cravings all the time today. I think its because i didnt do something i wanted to do because i was too afraid, and i let fear beat me once more. Any defeat, even tiny ones make our mind crave comfort, an thus sending signs to the body to search for ways to be comfortable. Very dangerous time for me. Have to keep extra vigilant. No games.

Day 60. Great day. Exhaustion is starting to get worse. My mind is playing tricks on me, the same way it used to do when i used to play games. It tells me that i need to relax, and what better way than gaming. Well fuck that, must start selling the pc this week.

Day 59 Today I realized what stress is, never felt with this intensity before. I thought it was anxiety, but I was wrong. The excitment of all that is happening is giving me unhealthy levels of stress, alot is changing and that is the source of it. I am going to continue this path for a few more days, just to see if my body can get used to this new way of living. Im starting a business and my new girlfriend is really taking time in my minds which is great but its all unknown territory. I must find ways of relaxing, that dont include games.

Day 58. Sunday of reflection. Spent the day relaxing and learning. I have started thinking about increasing my income, and have been reading about possible ways of doing it. This lack of games gives me so much clarity in my mind, i cant believe i had this ability to focus on useful things. I'm guessing my focus and interest was in the irrelevant worlds of games, leaving reality as the annoying "game". I am selling my gaming PC. Im going to use the money to buy something very handy and energy efficient that will still have enough power to let me work without interruptions.

Day 57. Another amazing day. This marks the longest period of happiness since I stopped taking drugs. Having a gf helps A LOT! in the process of leaving games forever.

Day 56. Nothing of interest happened today. I fear this kind of days, too many distractions. Going to work out now

Hey man. Have you thought about what is giving you this harder cravings? From what I can tell it has something to do with your workshop not going the way you expected. Stuff like that will always make us more vulnerable to addiction. Some reach for alcohol, others for harder drugs. We reached for games to balance our minds back into comfort. During this period I have had harder days, but whenever i catch myself thinking about gaming I go and do one of my "emergency actions" Take a walk, start exercising like crazy or I lock myself in my room, put on some music and start dancing. It helps to change the chemistry in the brain that is leading to cravings.

Day 55. Went to the toastmasters meeting, and I volunteered to talk one minute about some random topic they gave me, and so I did, and my speech was the best of the improvised ones!!! I even received a diploma lol. Oh and there was 30 people in the room!! Felt great to do so, cant wait until I start doing real presentations. On another subject, the prospect of selling my gaming PC started to be more attractive. I feel like falling through the rabbit hole, and I really want to see what else is there.

Day 54. I had a date today, everything went well. No games.

Thank you Cam, you have been the source of huge changes in my life, I will pass on your lessons to whoever wants to listen.

Day 53. Thursday of toastmasters is close and im already feeling anxious, but also excited, I wonder how will it turn out. On the games topic, i only think of them in regards to gamequiters, keeping too busy to think of this stuff.