Damiano

Because ruling in real life is boring and I am not competent enough to rule over anybody. What about you, would you start an empire in RL?

Today was hard, i kept having this urge to start building an empire... but i didnt, took another 3 hours of garbage cleaning in the forest, found some really nice mushrooms, will make a soup tomorrow (i know what im doing). Im also thinking of practicing archery again, just to add something to do while there is nothing else. Its so strange how the mind is searching for diffeent ways to convince itself its alright to be a gamer lol.

Hi Daniel. I dont have a well defined reason to quit, there are many reasons, one of which is to make room in my mind for other stuff, because my mind is so saturated i cant think of other things to do to have fun except gaming, and that bothers me. No, i havent read anything yet, i am reducing computer time to a minimum, my gaming pc is in boxes so im using my laptop. Im making it hard for me to game But i will read it when the need arises. So today, im keeping myself busy all day, working around the house, cleaning the forest from trash while searching for mushrooms, which is one of my favorite things to do now, just walking alone in the forest. I dont have anyone to spend time with, so im mostly alone, I hope that when the game noise in my minds starts to settle, i will be able to find something i enjoy.

Congrats!

I start late, its already my 15'th day of no gaming. And its harder than before. I was never a multiplayer gamer. I focused on games that required thinking and planning, so i actually was thinking about what to do in the game even when not playing, so my mind was most of the time in the game, so to speak. Now i cant seem to think of anything else. I quit gaming just like that, from one moment to another. I was in the bathroom, the game was paused in the middle of a very exciting game, and a new game was just about to finish installing, so i was even more excited, the night was going to be epic. An then it hit me... "If you ever wanted to quit, this would be the hardest moment" ... and so, i came back to the room, turned the PC off, and that was that. I know it makes little sense, but the fact that its harder, makes me more motivated, I am a gamer, i love a challenge, i love when things get hard, only then can i become better, only then true learning happens. My life was perfect, I had the life i always dreamed about. Good job, my own house, could afford to live comfortably and have a lot of free time to play games. This was my dream when i was a kid, and i did it, and it is(was) great. I cant think of a reason to stop living like that. I miss it, just the same way you miss your childhood home, when the time comes to move out. Its very sad, but necessary.

Thanks for the welcome

Hello, my name is Damian and im a gamer.... Im 32, been gaming since my first N64 and PC all those years ago. I was always under the impression games helped me stay sane during all those years of beeing bullied at school. Then when i was older, i was lonely and depressed, and games kept mme alive. Now Im starting to feel that my body is aging, and that gaming will not take me farther that it already has. I feel my mind is so full shit i cant seem to give importance to anyhting except my next gameing session. I decided to end it. I loved gaming. I almost cried when i was packing my pc to boxes, not because i would never game again, but because of all those fantastic adventures i was part of. All those memories are part of me, and made me who i am, an now im puting that world in a box, and moving on. Its sad. Its been 2 weeks since that day and I still dont have anything to fill the void. The cravings are becoming stronger, but i can manage, have exeprience quiting other stuff. I cant seem to shake the idea that i will eventually unpack it and dive into that world again, and the excitement i feel with that is.... annoying. I know having a support group helps alot, so here i am.