middleman

Hi everyone! Joined this forum and respawn today. i've been playing too much. Or at least, enough to make me feel guilty about it. I just finished the hardest year at the university in my program. With a girlfriend, active membership in Formula student (which will be going until July). I failed the first course in my life (even though, the passrate was 20 %). I will start working next week. I've have been stressed all year and feel exhausted, and gaming is right now my escape. I play maybe 1-2 hours per day in the week. If I'm home alone one day for studying, I can be playing for 8-9 hours straight, procrastinating. The last two days were two days I had off, so I could work on with formula student without stressing. However, those two days have now passed because of gaming, and I am stressed. I want to quit gaming because I've noticed I don't feel rested after a lunch break with gaming. I think about gaming when I'm not gaming. If I am staying home, I lie to my girlfriend about what I've done. I clean the home clean so she will still be happy to come home, so she think a lot of work has been done. The last few years I have been trying to get my gaming in control. In some sense, I have succeeded, since I play a lot less games now than before. A few years a go, it was at least 5 hours a day, every day. My progress right now: When I failed my first course, I've bought Cold Turkey to help me with the studies, and it have helped me a lot the last month in times when I was under more stress. Still, it's easy to spend to much time gaming. When I block games for a week or two, I immediately fall back to game alot when the block goes off until I get enough mental power to block it again. I've told my friends at school that I easily get really addicted, and I told them I wanted help from them. Then tell me it's fine and that I analyze it to much. They have been helping me a bit, by getting me to stop when we have played for more than 1.5-2 hours which is really good. In the moments, I feel anger, but after a few minutes, I'm happy they helped me. After these two days of gaming (which is repeated every month when I get to stressed), I think I need to stop gaming for good. I cannot keep it under control, which I thought I could. Games does not make me feel good. I feel tired after playing games, and I get stressed because I procrastinate I want to exchange gaming with stuff that makes me feel relaxed and happy. What do you do on your lunchbreaks to relax? I easily get restless and I feel my craving for gaming. Since I've been under a lot of pressure the last year, it's easy to fall back when you are tired mentally or didn't get enough sleep one day. That's my pattern. As soon as I sleep less than 8 hours a day, I fall back in old patterns. It's nice to see a active community here. Reading a few posts makes you stronger when you are in doubt. Best regards Middleman