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Schwing

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  1. Schwing added a post in a topic The Warrior's Infinite Opus   

    130 days
    Days porn free: 13
    Today I left my comfort zone by:
    Talking to 1 person I don't usually talk toRoutine:
    Get up 6:30 (8:30 weekend)BioenergeticsCold showerMeditation50 exp duolingoPhysical activityStudy or read 1 hourArt 1 hourGoal from yesterday done?:
    No I actually have quite a bit of stuff I need to do still
    Thoughts and Feelings:
    My late wake up streak is growing.Ordinary school day. Nothing special.Came home. Slayed the work out! I tried squatting with the dumbbells by my sides instead of being raised above my shoulders. I did 10kg on lunges, deadlifts and squatsThis album is fucking dope. So is the art. (Nofap trigger warning- naked woman inside)StudiedShit. it looks like I did nothing today but it felt like a lot haha. Tasks and achievements:
    Physical: workoutMental: studyingSpiritual: What I am grateful for:
    MetalNo fap record broken.I can flex my pecs now.manga and coffee@Simms for workout advice.What I have learnt from today:
    No fap. It's all in the resolve. I formally swore and oath to everyone to not watch porn. I have a strong emotional attachment to this oath and very little can phase it. I had urges today and I destroyed them with remembering my oath and the countless times I have fallen to porn.Need to get back into the swing of things.Tomorrow I will leave my comfort zone by:
    Talking to 3 people I don't usually talk to.Goal for tomorrow:
    Get up early and do the thing
    Goal for the month:
    Finish all my coursework. Beat nofap
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  2. Schwing added a post in a topic Kaizen - The Quest for Neverending Self-Improvement   

    True shit. But sometimes I just can't stand the loneliness.
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  3. Schwing added a post in a topic The Warrior's Infinite Opus   

    I tried a squat but I couldn't support the weights with my hands properly and they curled inwards. Maybe bad positioning? I'll try again tonight and let you know.
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  4. Schwing added a post in a topic The Warrior's Infinite Opus   

    129 days
    Days porn free: 12
    Today I left my comfort zone by:
    Talking to 3 people I don't usually talk toRoutine:
    Get up 6:30 (8:30 weekend)BioenergeticsCold showerMeditation50 exp duolingoPhysical activityStudy or read 1 hourArt 1 hourGoal from yesterday done?:
    yeeeeeeeeeeeee
    Thoughts and Feelings:
    I woke up at 6:30 and the same shit happened from yesterdayStandard school day. Running was cancelled because of bad weather so I finished my coursework instead.Vagabond is the shit! Still waiting for new berserk chapters thoughRowed 2km when I got home.did energising routinelooked at uni stuff. Was looking at industry placements in particular.Did some art. Drawing up a comic. It's very sketchy right now. but as I get more confident I'll make the panels more elaborate. Tasks and achievements:
    Physical: rowingMental: studying, art, uni researchSpiritual: cold shower, bioenergeticsWhat I am grateful for:
    MetalNo fap record is approaching. Gotta hold out tonight and I beat it by a dayKeeping up with drawing. I am getting better!Bad weatherBlack trenchcoats. Haha I love that thing. Doesn't make me look like a school shooter at all.What I have learnt from today:
    Just because I'm going to beat my nofap record; doesn't mean I get to PMO. Fuck thatTomorrow I will leave my comfort zone by:
    Talking to 3 people I don't usually talk to.Goal for tomorrow:
    Hand in coursework
    Goal for the month:
    Finish all my coursework. Beat nofap
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  5. Schwing added a post in a topic Schwing's Art   

    I'm making a comic. Check it out.



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  6. Schwing added a post in a topic The mountains are calling...   

    What do you classify as mindless surfing? I find that I sometimes meander off when I look something up online. Everyone's mind likes to wonder from time to time. Try and avoid sites that lead you off on tangents. When I start up my pc i only visit two sites: the forums, deviant art. I also go in with an idea of what I want to do (check posts).
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  7. Schwing added a post in a topic Schwing's Art   

    You actually like that thing? You high or something hahahahaha
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  8. Schwing added a post in a topic Kaizen - The Quest for Neverending Self-Improvement   

    I'm just a highschool kid...unfortunately.
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  9. Schwing added a post in a topic The Warrior's Infinite Opus   

    128 days
    Days porn free: 11
    Today I left my comfort zone by:
    Talking to 3 people I don't usually talk toRoutine:
    Get up 6:30 (8:30 weekend)BioenergeticsCold showerMeditation50 exp duolingoPhysical activityStudy or read 1 hourArt 1 hourGoal from yesterday done?:
    Well. I didn't exactly slay anything but I did it pretty damn good!
    Thoughts and Feelings:
    I woke up at 6:30 and was like "Nah fuck this" and went back to sleep.Went to a university conference thing. Plenty of opportunities to talk to random people. Didn't do it though.Came home worked out. Tried to lift 10kg each on dumbbells! Fuck my life. never trying that again.Went upstairs and did some art. Drew up some panels for a comic. Noice Tasks and achievements:
    Physical: workoutMental: studying, learning german, artSpiritual: cold showerWhat I am grateful for:
    Metal11 days nofap streak HAHA! I will do this!Access to educationhomemade pizzaWhat I have learnt from today:
    Stoner metal is pretty dope. No pun intended.Tomorrow I will leave my comfort zone by:
    Talk to 3 people I don't usually talk to.Goal for tomorrow:
    Look at university stuff
    Goal for the month:
    Finish all my coursework. Beat nofap
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  10. Schwing added a post in a topic The mountains are calling...   

    What do you mean by 'detail work'?
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  11. Schwing added a post in a topic Kaizen - The Quest for Neverending Self-Improvement   

    You doing a bachelor's degree? What on?
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  12. Schwing added a post in a topic My journal: Gaming in moderation   

    Consequence? I tried attaching a rubber band to my wrist and smacking myself with it. Didn't help at all. The thing is you just have to maintain the balance in your life between two things. Work hard; play hard. If you didn't do something when you should have done it: who cares? Next time you are confronted with a similar situation remember what happened this time round and say "No I will do it!"
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  13. Schwing added a post in a topic The Warrior's Infinite Opus   

    127 days
    Days porn free: 10
    Today I left my comfort zone by:
    Talking to 3 people I don't usually talk to. I spoke to someone randomly! He didn't reply though. Must have thought I was retarded or something.Running through wind and rain. Lots of it.Routine:
    Get up 6:30 (8:30 weekend)BioenergeticsCold showerMeditation50 exp duolingoPhysical activityStudy or read 1 hourArt 1 hourGoal from yesterday done?:
    Yeeee. Finished everything bar one thing.
    Thoughts and Feelings:
    I woke up at 6:30 just fine but I slumped back to sleep again.I have been feeling pretty manly these past few days. Super deep voice. Nice.Did some art when I got home. I will draw up some panels for a comic tomorrow. Once I figure out a short storyTomorrow I will go on a trip all day to a university conference.I haven't done a post yet for the case studies! Shit! Sorry @Cam Adair Tasks and achievements:
    Physical: runningMental: studying, learning german, artSpiritual: cold shower, bioenergetics, meditationWhat I am grateful for:
    MetalNice haircutHB pencilsmy boi @destoroyah for always posting on my deviant art. you can see what I draw here10 days nofap! 3 more and I beat my recordWhat I have learnt from today:
    My personality and attitude has changed significantly over the past 4 monthsI can't stop drawing!Tomorrow I will leave my comfort zone by:
    Talk to 3 people I don't usually talk to.Goal for tomorrow:
    SLAY YOUR WORKOUT
    Goal for the month:
    Finish all my coursework. Beat nofap
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  14. Schwing added a post in a topic Schwing's Art   

    Check out my deviant art
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  15. Schwing added a post in a topic The Warrior's Infinite Opus   

    126 days
    Days porn free: 9
    Today I left my comfort zone by:
    Nothing! My sunrise run was cancelled because some big fuck off storm was blowing outsideRoutine:
    Get up 6:30 (8:30 weekend)BioenergeticsCold showerMeditation50 exp duolingoPhysical activityStudy or read 1 hourArt 1 hourGoal from yesterday done?:
    Did as much as I could. I get demoralised sometimes when I study because I think: "what am I doing? Do I really want to be an engineer or do I want to be an artist?"
    Thoughts and Feelings:
    I woke up at 5:30 as planned. felt like I could get up easy. But then I heard the storm outside and was like "nah". And then I went back to sleep.Did energising routineAte my lunch and read manga at the same time. I finished berserk a while ago actually. Can't wait for the new chapters to be released! I started reading Vagabond. So good!Studied. Got shit done but I didn't finish. Teachers have decided to give me homework all in the same span of 2 days.Beat nofap urges! I said to myself "NO I SWORE AN OATH!". I got burnt out studying so I just stopped. Best not push myself too hard or I'll just fuck myself and my work up.Did some art. I have been musing about making my own graphic novel lately! Set on a alternate earth in a futuristic dystopia. Where ancient brooding dark forces of times long past seek to usurp technology's reign. Sounds kinky. But I will have to practice first. I have been taking notes for a book on a more fantasy premise. I'm sure I can transfer them over well enough.Did accountability call. The topic was altruism and if it is all it's made out to be. Tasks and achievements:
    Physical: rest dayMental: studying, learning german, artSpiritual: cold shower, bioenergetics, meditationWhat I am grateful for:
    MetalMy imagination!The accountability call for being very enjoyableShort hair. Love stroking the back of my headvagabondMy oath of fealty to NoFap!What I have learnt from today:
    Keep engineering. Either way you will be haunted by the ideas of what could have been.Only study 2 hours at a time. Take a big break between blocksTomorrow I will leave my comfort zone by:
    Talk to 3 people I don't usually talk to.Goal for tomorrow:
    Study hard
    Goal for the month:
    Finish all my coursework. Beat nofap
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  16. Schwing added a post in a topic The Warrior's Infinite Opus   

    @Granitwelle Hah. Yes. I tend to call what you call fanserivce/ "moe" "anime bullshit" collectively. Tired of all that retarded shounen crap. Shit plot. Shit characters. Shit meaning. Filler everywhere. Cringey as fuck. Shit shit shit. I will check that anime out when I have the time. The 90's was a good time for anime for sure.
    @destoroyah Fuck yea! So theoretically if I take my pencil in my pocket on holiday with me I can become a master in the space of a few hours?
     
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  17. Schwing added a post in a topic The Warrior's Infinite Opus   

    125 days
    Days porn free: 8
    Today I left my comfort zone by:
    Doing bioenergetics in front of my windowRoutine:
    Get up 6:30 (8:30 weekend)BioenergeticsCold showerMeditation50 exp duolingoPhysical activityStudy or read 1 hourArt 1 hourGoal from yesterday done?:
    None set
    Thoughts and Feelings:
    I got up so fucking late!I felt very masculine at school. My voice is so deep I think i hit the brown note.No social anxiety. Didn't make me any less introverted.Got a haircut. nice and short!Came home. Stuck on some converge and immolation. Slayed workout.read some of physics bookDid energising routineStudiedDid art. Used charcoals for first timeBest day everDidn't post yesterday because I got back from work and i was too tired Tasks and achievements:
    Physical: workoutMental: studying, learning german, artSpiritual: cold shower, bioenergetics, meditationWhat I am grateful for:
    MetalcharcoalConvergetestosteronePAINWhat I have learnt from today:
    Today was good. Tomorrow might suck. But that doesn't matter. I just need to do the thingTomorrow I will leave my comfort zone by:
    Going for a run through the wilderness at sunrise! Well not really wilderness but it's as close as it gets round hereGoal for tomorrow:
    Finish homework
    Goal for the month:
    Finish all my coursework. Beat nofap
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  18. Schwing added a post in a topic The Beginning Again   

    Great job obliterating your steam account. I never thought of that actually.
    Don't worry about missing out on life. Live in the present. Life is defined by the present moment. A dream means nothing once it is fulfilled so just pick something and do it. Learn to love the struggle of improvement!
    I find meditation is great for relaxing myself. I don't know if it has given me superpowers though. You said you wanted to get fit? Are you working out already?
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  19. Schwing added a post in a topic Starting Over With A Fresh (Real) Life   

    Never too late to change!
    How will you accomplish your goals? Start a journal and track your progress. I will be sure to check in on you.
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  20. Schwing added a post in a topic A new comer into, and some tips to fellow quitters   

    Hi mate
    I'm addicted to other things now. Like exercises and fresh air! Exercising is incredibly addictive. And it's also great watching yourself get stronger/ faster. I find myself treating life like a bit of a videogame sometimes. What I really like in games was building your own character and exploring awesome places/ making awesome things. All of these things translate over into real life. I get cravings sometimes because I loved the artistic nature of games. But I tell myself that spending 6 hours a day looking at art is too much. Find out what is it you sought in games / tvseries, apply them to real life, understand why you don't need games/tv to satisfy them and hold your reason when you next get cravings.
    If you start a journal you will be able to get awesome advice and make great progress with the reflection it provides for you. It really strengthen the bond with other forum members.
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  21. Schwing added a post in a topic Kaizen - The Quest for Neverending Self-Improvement   

    Nothing like a bit of rain and draconian - arcane rain fell. I love rain! I like watching all the puny humans cower at the might of mother nature. HAH!
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  22. Schwing added a post in a topic The Warrior's Infinite Opus   

    The way school works is everybody has a preconceived image of each other. They psychologically force you into these social groupings and you're stuck that way. I was stuck with the introvert, gamer/weeb group (no metalheads at school). But now I'm dropping that shit (mostly. WEEB FOR LIFE) I just don't fit in anywhere! The thing with the adult world is that there is the opportunity to go out and find likeminded individuals and be yourself- there is no social group to conform to.
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  23. Schwing added a post in a topic The Warrior's Infinite Opus   

    123 days
    Days porn free: 6
    Today I left my comfort zone by:
    Talking to 3 people I don't usually talk toRoutine:
    Get up 6:30 (8:30 weekend)BioenergeticsCold showerMeditation50 exp duolingoPhysical activityStudy or read 1 hourArt 1 hourGoal from yesterday done?:
    Pretty much
    Thoughts and Feelings:
    I got up really late againI hate school! Surrounded by shallow fucktards who don't care about me vice versa. What happened to the tribe? What happened to the people who would lay down their life for their kin? Slaves to money. Slaves to symbols created by the machine. All my friends are on the fucking internet! This world is fucked! I was quite angry today. Angry at people. Angry that I had no one in real life to rest in. Angry that I couldn't bring myself to seek this in others enough. I told a guy I didn't have any friends today. He would consider himself as my friend. He didn't say shit! Let's try and sneak some more deep shit into a conversation. See what happens. See if they coil up and break and their spiritual autism kicks in.Despite my views on school today was okCame home and worked outDid some art. looked like shit! But I don't care I just want to improve. The means to an end? Fuck no! There is no end in life apart from death! Just means. Tasks and achievements:
    Physical: workoutMental: studying, learning german, artSpiritual: cold showerWhat I am grateful for:
    MetalArtInternet friends8 days duolingo streakNofap day 6. Got promoted on army of libertyWhat I have learnt from today:
    Need to make some new friends. Get rid of these losersTomorrow I will leave my comfort zone by:
    Talk to 3 people I don't usually talk to. Get some sufficient context if need be. Take baby steps.Goal for tomorrow:
    Make one random conversation. You can do it!
    Goal for the month:
    Finish all my coursework. Beat nofap
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  24. Schwing added a post in a topic Does it count if it's not video games?   

    I have no idea how to start a business. But it looks like you need something to fill up your time with. Find out what is causing your behaviour. Past traumas? Poor upbringing? Fight it at the roots.
    Go and do something. Get a hobby. What do you like to watch on youtube? Think about it. You already want to find out how to start a business: so find out. Start researching it. Simple as that. It is important to have an are of expertise to start one though. You have to be good at something; you have to be dedicated to it; you need to be passionate about it. If you don't have that something then find it with due haste! Check this out
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  25. Schwing added a post in a topic The Warrior's Infinite Opus   

    122 days
    Days porn free: 5
    Today I left my comfort zone by:
    Nothing reallyRoutine:
    Get up 6:30 (8:30 weekend)BioenergeticsCold showerMeditation50 exp duolingoPhysical activityStudy or read 1 hourArt 1 hourGoal from yesterday done?:
    Felt awesome!
    Thoughts and Feelings:
    I got up really lateWent to school. Decent dayDid running. Really pushed myself.When I got back I felt super toughCame home studied and did some art. Looks pretty whack at the moment but it's not finished. Tasks and achievements:
    Physical: runMental: studying, learning german, artSpiritual: What I am grateful for:
    MetalRunning!NatureTestosteroneImproving my social skillsWhat I have learnt from today:
    The world is fucked but it is my duty to make it just that little bit unfuckedOn this site it is my duty to help and not argue. I will present my ideas but I will not try and manipulate others.Prehistoric man actually lived a long time like us. Just a high infant mortality rate.Tomorrow I will leave my comfort zone by:
    Talk to 3 people I don't usually talk to. Get some sufficient context if need be. Take baby steps.Goal for tomorrow:
    Get project sorted
    Goal for the month:
    Finish all my coursework. Beat nofap
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