I've just left a gaming-monster assignment unfinished, and further supplies un-gathered. As I prepared to sign off, a player named 'M Depressed' arrived with, it seemed, nothing to say. I typed in chat that in time, he would kick depression's butt, de-geared and clicked to go offline.  Things have been alright, but there was a handful of moments since our Summer ended that were too rough for my liking. Things like meaningful conversations and offline excursions were only bearable, either honest or otherwise. While I did frequently wonder where I was headed in life during the first* 90 days out of the game I've known for over two decades, it was better than and mostly devoid of such moments. I'll probably still have 'off' feelings and days, but if I detox again, I should at least have way more presence of mind and increasingly enjoy planet Earth. Day #0.

Entry 17.4 Day 92: No Useless Videos Day 924: Sticking to Food schedule Day 527: Eating Only between 06:30 and 19:00 (Last bite before 19:00) Day 75: Being in bed before 23:15 3 Things I did well no matter how small  -75% effort run -about 38 hrs fast -8 conc. units 1 Thing I could do better -Set the length of the conversation with father in advance, it seems he expected 1 hour wile I 30 minutes Gaming (Death, Slavery, Regret, Disease) - 5 Yan (Life, Individuality, Freedom, Purpose, Self-Fulfillment) - 93

Entry 16.4 (Posted on 17.4 because on 16.4 it didn't post for some reason, good thing i save it to text docs) Day 91: No Useless Videos Day 923: Sticking to Food schedule Day 526: Eating Only between 06:30 and 19:00 (Last bite before 19:00) Day 74: Being in bed before 23:15 3 Things I did well no matter how small  -Pomodoro output goals completed day 7 -Working out and getting vitamin D together, thus saving time of leaving to sun specifically -6 conc. units 1 Thing I could do better -As the supermarkets do not answer to me on email - call them regarding edamame without peel Gaming (Death, Slavery, Regret, Disease) - 5 Yan (Life, Individuality, Freedom, Purpose, Self-Fulfillment) - 92  

Huge congrats on hitting 68 days—that’s no small feat! It’s really inspiring to see how much progress you’ve made, especially with how you’re channeling your energy into more meaningful things like studying and rebuilding real-world confidence. That shift takes serious effort and honesty. Totally agree with you on how gaming can sometimes mask problems instead of helping solve them. It’s awesome that you’re not just quitting but also actively working on why you gamed in the first place. That’s where real growth happens. Keep going—you’re clearly on a strong path, and posts like yours are super motivating for the rest of us too.

I really feel where you're coming from. Quitting games can leave a huge gap, especially if they were your main source of fun, escape, or even connection. It’s totally normal to feel worse before you feel better—you're basically rewiring your brain and trying to figure out what else brings you joy or fulfillment. What helped me was not just removing games, but actively experimenting with new stuff—hobbies, exercise, even just going for walks while listening to music or podcasts. At first nothing felt as good, but over time, some of those things started to click. It's a slow process, but you're not broken for feeling this way. You’re definitely not alone, and just the fact that you're reflecting on this is a strong step forward. Keep going, even if it’s just one small thing at a time.