To My Future Self - Thank You

[Xierzia]

Hey I am Daniel and I have been playing games for 9 years which now that I wrote down makes me queasy. After coming out of chasm I buried myself in I am deciding today to choose my own happiness 

Consequences Of Gaming:

 

-Wasting A lot of money On Games £60+ 
-Wasted A lot of time costing me opportunities
-Watching Other people achieve dreams I had for myself and feeling left behind causing me to game even more
-Desire To not go outside
-Gaining weight after I joined the gym (Fat not muscle)
-Not going to the leisure centre I signed up for for 2 weeks which charges me on a month to month basis and 12 month contract
-Performing Poorly in school Went from A* To C and this did not improve because I did not care enough about myself to change, now I'm awaiting my results in four days.
-Lost Friends 
-Wasted lots of money online shopping for things I didn't want or need for that spike in dopamine
-Joined Combative Sports But quit as soon as I got decent at it so I had more time to play games and read comics
-Constant Brain fog, Cannot tell day from night and time feels fleeting, Feels like Covid All over again...
-Hygiene deteriorated, Worsening my already low self esteem
-Confidence issues because I have nothing to be confident about
-increased anxiety to the point I thought people on the street were going to harm me
-Spending Hours cleaning up my desktop , sorting files , changing wallpapers

After Wasting almost 2 months trying to quit gaming these are the rules I am going to set  / advise for myself:

-No Blue-light after 20:30 consistently 
-Go to sleep at 21:00 consistently 
-No mindless content Like comics , Facebook , Online Chess , Mindless YouTube
-Go Gym everyday even if its for 10 minutes so I get comfortable going regularly
-No Gaming Of any Kind or watching gaming of any kind except when with purpose [Not gaming only watching]
-After going Swimming, working out  / doing an activity that brings my happiness , my desire to play games completely disappears and I even resent gaming , find it extremely boring and stupid considering it has no benefit outside of itself
-Writing Can help me when I am too attached to situations helping me make good Choices
-Writing stories so I can articulate my thoughts and improve my vocabulary
- You might find it enjoyable but it will not bring you happiness

 

Edited August 17 by Xierzia

[Xierzia]

Day 2:

I feel amazing, I have Have dreams and ambition Again!!

 

 

-Note I slept  on time and had overall good hygiene though it took me around 2 hours+ to fall asleep because of my cardiac rhythm was so off from me playing until 3-4am everyday
-I felt extremely merry and content and no longer suffer from changing wallpaper syndrome
-My brain fog is Half gone and my desire to go outside has increased exponentially
-I have started to brush my teeth and take showers regularly
-Woke Up with a lot of energy and no longer feel trapped in my house 
-I no longer feel a desire to blame anyone

[Xierzia]

day 3:

I relapsed on reading Manhwa and read a few chapters but I took a cold shower and stopped myself before I went down the rabbit hole of comics

-Note I slept 2 hours later and had blue light so my sleep quality was very bad today
-Still keeping up hygiene regularly
-feel a victim mentality forming which could be due to the lack of sleep so from now on I will sleep on time no matter what
- feel lethargic and low energy and a increased desire to play games