Since Monday I was keeping myself very busy since I need to buy a lot of things. I walked 52 km during these three days. That's one way of staying away from laptop. Today I went to the big city nearby to buy working clothes, for example. I spent so much on that and there is no way I can start making money until next year, I think, so I feel anxious and stupid. Do I want to numb this feeling? Yes, but I also need to figure out so much.
Another thing that worries me is that I don't like doing theoretical tasks or dealing with emails or anything that involves laptop. After gaming spree I really forgot how to study and I am afraid that I won't bring it back. It is hard for me to sit down and concentrate...
Finnish: a lot of practice and conversations in the mall and work clothes shop. The last one even got me a discount since I keep asking for a better (money-wise) option. I don't think I need the expensive set yet, because our school promised to provide us with some items. The joke Finnish saleslady made almost passed me.
Movement: 20 km! Also some heavy lifting. My feet, back and shoulders will and should kill me tomorrow.
Reading: I started to read Ancillary Sword by Anne Leckie, I read the first part this May or so. It is a sci-fi trilogy about a sentient ship component and I loved the first part. I was reading on the train, so I didn't read much.
Creativity: Nothing:(
I really can feel where you are at. I am the same.
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I really can feel where you are at. I am the same.