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Cycologist
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Day 68 : The path is bumpy. Despite that, stick to the path.
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Day 49: Pretty happy with the way this day is turning out. I am productive. I feel confident. Most importantly, I am persisting. Going to ride the bike in a few to cap it off.
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On Day 40, I was creative. Felt pretty good afterward. I followed up with an easy bike ride. Looking forward to crushing it early tomorrow. In preperation I will : set some alarms, arrange breakfast, and have my coffee ready. Tomorrow will be a mentally taxing day. I can
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On 12/24/2020 at 5:27 PM, Bird By Bird said:
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Dealing with intense feelings of self-doubt. I completed a difficult cycling class and felt empowered afterward.
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I am capable.
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On 12/21/2020 at 5:33 PM, Bird By Bird said:
Simulation theory.
It felt like I was in the Matrix when I received it. These 'events' have such funny timing.
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It seems like every Sunday night I get the worst sleep. By Friday, the work anxiety seems to dissipate. By Friday, I am reminded that I am not the terrible, weak, incapable programmer that I tell myself I am on Monday morning. Gaming was my replacement for the creativity, achievement, and flow I sought after in my work. By continuing to deliberately practice my craft, I can get closer to the ideal workday. One that involves flow-state coding, problem-solving breakthroughs, and consistent productivity developing complex applications.
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Heated argument with spouse earlier this morning. Cooled off in my office after about an hour. Was able to spend 2 pomodoros on coding work. Feeling better now.
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Day 30 : It's been 30 days since I quit playing video games. Coincidentally, a gamer friend I haven't spoken to since I quit texted me this morning regarding a new patch / new content. He asked if I was planning to return and I told him I was accomplishing so much more at home since I left. I was able to stave off the urge to check the patch notes / new content. I refocused and jumped on the bike to hit a personal record - an actual non-gaming achievement. Here's to another 30 days of not gaming! Let's make real achievements, people!
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Day 28: After getting a good night's sleep, I can report that the daydreams were probably my body's way of saying, "You're tired". I woke up a few minutes prior to my alarm (5:30) and actually got up and out. After some coffee (not as much as yesterday), I hopped on the bike for about 30 minutes. Had some breakfast and took care of the little one until my wife woke up. Handled shit. My plan for the day is to complete at least 8 pomodoros of online tutorials and practice. Self-esteem is up today.
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On 12/10/2020 at 11:20 PM, codepants said:
I'm thinking about that study they did on dogs... basically (trigger warning: animal trauma) they traumatized some dogs (exposed them to danger without escape) and then exposed them to danger with escape, and they did not try to escape, even when it was obvious how. They had to be physically forced to escape 2, sometimes 3 times, before they would do it on their own. AKA "learned helplessness."
On 12/11/2020 at 10:15 AM, Lampshade said:I learned about that in the book Grit. Super interesting.
I just learned about this as well in Seligman's "Learned Optimism". Check it out if you want to read more about the study and how it relates to cognitive behavioral therapy.
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Day 26 : I've noticed how often I daydream/ruminate on certain things. Not sure if this is a side-effect of quitting.
Maybe my brain is still craving that stimulation.I've been daydreaming my entire life. Now, I'm starting to notice it more. -
Day 24 : Time. The time I am reclaiming is pretty great. I feel like I am finally getting things done in my day with time to spare.
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Day 23 : This Saturday felt different. No urges to play. More time and energy spent on productive tasks. Feels good.
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Day 22 : Exercise provides instant relief from depressed moods. I would like to invest in regular exercise. I am confident I can build this habit. The self-inflicted pain of thinking about the workout far exceeds the actual pain of the workout. The side effect of endorphins that follow an active workout make regular exercise a relatively painless experience that results in a net gain almost every time. The low cost of working out pays huge dividends. Pay the low cost and get the almost immediate benefit. And over time, the return of our investment will be the satisfaction of maintaining a healthy body and mind.
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On 12/7/2020 at 8:16 PM, Bird By Bird said:
Maybe that's what we should all be doing, be discerning with new things to consume and seek out new things to do.
I really like this quote. There isn't enough rhetoric on the dangers of media consumption. Probably because there's no money in it.
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I ended up downloading an App/Url Blocker just for Reddit. Almost immediately I found interest in things that I'd normally find 'boring'. My brain desperately seeking novel content.
Quoteany recommendations for books or shows could be found on goodreads or imdb
This is where I'm at now. I've got a long backlog that I'm starting to chip away at. The books/shows contain the novel content I crave without pulling me into the loop. Also it's pretty easy to naturally fall asleep to. Feels good man.
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Day 12
Working from home this week. So far, no urges to play anything. Pretty much scrubbed all gaming media and marketing from my digital life. Have replaced gaming with Sci-Fi shows so I'm working on reeling it back. Reddit usage has been up esp. since I redownloaded the app. Will focus on dedicated programming practice today in between housework.
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Day 10
Much easier day at the office (always easy when no one is around). There is no need to worry about things that is out of our control. We can accomplish many things by simply focusing on what is in our control.
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Day 9
Dealing with day to day work anxiety. Trying not to replace gaming with other media, but it's hard. Mostly working and doing house stuff this week so it's easy not to spend too much time.
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Day 7
Maybe had a little too much caffeine in my system last night. Binge watched a "slow" sci-fi series to help me fall asleep. Almost saw the sun come up this morning. Paying for it today.
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Day 6
Roller coaster.
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Day 5
Mondays, man.
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11 hours ago, royal panda said:
Glad the meeting went well for you, it's always nice when we know that we are not alone in something. Good luck on your journey
I agree and thank you.
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Day 83 : Days turn into weeks. Weeks turn into years. The net gain cannot be overstated. Break free.