My story is too long to post but will try to sum it up...
Been gaming since the late 80s. Grew up as an indoor kid with few friends. Never really got good at being social. Anxiety kept me with some bad communication habits I've yet to outgrow completely. I have unpopular beliefs and distrust a lot of popular narratives I see other people buy into.
Never learning valuable skills has lead to few career opportunities. My work doesn't pay well relative to where I live.
I have a lot of debt and little ability to save based on mandatory expenses and the region I grew up in turned into the most expensive regions in the US.
I quit gaming the first time 17 years ago. For a few months. Nothing really changed and eventually I missed the experiences too much.
With my debt I've gotten involved in horrible roommate situations. I haven't been able to afford my own place for 10 years. I've been on a few dates but usually once a woman really gets to know me she's done.
As bleak as all that sounds... I've been working hard the last few years and have some positive habits. Taking much better care of myself I've lost 55lbs and exercise daily. Two years ago I got into one of the only relatively stable living situation. It's a cluttered crowded small house but at least there is no drama.
I've been considering cutting back on gaming because I'm going back to college in two months. I've lost a lot of friends because they're too busy with their own families. It's a struggle to get anyone to open up to me. I try hard to listen but have a hard time asking insightful questions and noticing all the social queues most people do.
My biggest passions outside of gaming (favorite form of storytelling) are alternative rock and metal music, animated, sketch, stand up and improv comedy. I've signed up for an improv workshop for next month but classes are out of my budget if it's not covered by an educational loan ?