Journal (Redmark)

I relapsed yesterday. It wound up happening in a kind of interesting way. Since I knew that I shouldn't be playing video games, I ended up looking up videos of other people playing the games I would be playing (lets plays, etc) and I spent all night watching them play. I realized, wait, this is just as bad as gaming. And it's really late too! Oops So today is day 1, attempt 2. I have the rest of the summer off until school starts again. Filling up all that free time is going to

Day 5. Today someone I met last semester texted me to ask if I wanted to hang out. I was so grateful (because I've been feeling pretty lonely), that I agreed that we could go hang out and play games over LAN at his house. I'm a bit conflicted about this, because I just realized that would break the rules of this whole no-gaming detox thing I've committed to. No matter what I'm going to do it because I already agreed to it. For now, I think I've made a decision. I think