Tool, not a Toy

[plum_chum]

Hello,

I have a problem with using my computer to pass the time.

Twitch, Youtube, porn, Paladins, Pokemon showdown, time-wasting on forums.

It's generally 8 hours a day i'm on this. 

Consequences: 

1. Everything I need for this addictive lifestyle is at home. I get relatively bored and anxious when I leave the house.
2. Self actualization gets thrown to the wayside as the addiction is a priority. I don't develop, I numb, which makes it harder to reintegrate.
3. Attention span gets screwed up due to instant online gratification. It's hard to focus on rewarding real life goals.
4. Online I get depressed reading about white men's inherent continual oppression toward women and PoC. It validates me being a shut-in so I don't oppress them. 

I want to put a "Tool, not a Toy" sign on my computer beside the trackpad so I am constantly reminded. 

My goal is to develop myself as an individual, rather than consuming entertainment all the time.

Thank you. 

[Cam Adair]

Welcome to the community!

[Reno F]

Welcome in, plum_chum!

[Schwing]

Hello plum chum!

Yes porn is definitely very misogynistic. It fucks with your brain on a subconscious level- in my mind they were just other people but deep down I saw them as objects! This resulted in getting super nervous, lechy around them. That's not how a real man acts. If you want to be less introverted I try and talk to 3 random people everyday. I'm not very good at it but getting better. Taking up hobbies (gym, climbing centre etc. etc.) where there is a place you can see people regularly is a good start. Plus hobbies will fill the void from your addiction. What hobbies do you have in mind?