Destoroyah's Meltdown

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Hey, looks like you can deal with your cravings and urges so far.

Busy can help, like Cameron said, but also, don't start giving too much work into everything.

I felt into that trap and it stopped me from doing anything.

Greetings, Mad Pharmacist

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Don't worry, I'll strike back in due time. This is just the setup!

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Don't worry, I'll strike back in due time. This is just the setup!

Well, awesome to hear that.

So, keep going! You've got Mad Pharmacist on your side. :)

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ENTRY 7 - DAY 12:

My heart feels like the big bang...

...like when we used to hit the bong.

Unity.

 

Maybe I should really write lyrics... but I'm always missing that final pinch of goodness, I rarely rhyme and my flow is odd.

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I am pretty sure that you first need to write crappy songs to be able to write good songs. That's the way life usually works. Just take action and see where it leads you.

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Yea, you're right. I hate practicing. No chance. I'll just stick to whatever, something I enjoy.

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You'll suck at something you just began no matter what. I didn't learn an instrument 6 years ago because I felt that I sucked and games were just more fun. Now I regret it. Get on it man, start with a haiku :D Look up successful structure, good metaphors, expand your vocabulary. I have been going to places and just writing things  down as I saw them as if for a novel. I might start writing short stories. We will see how it goes :)  

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My writing is fine the way it is - for my purposes.

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ENTRY 8 - DAY 14:

Today I was indeed destoroyah. Started that paper I procrastinated about for 2 months and burned it. Totally destroyed it. Thought it was due today, just to notice it's due on the 31st.

 

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Hey, double the value. Who knows maybe you can even proofread it this way xD 

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Nothing mtoivates better then solid fear of a Deadline ;)

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ENTRY 9 - DAY 15:

Cut me some slack. Stress stress everywhere, you push back in one front and three new fronts open in the rear. My life feels like a bucket of water too heavy to carry. There's holes everywhere, ya fix 2 and 3 new ones pop open. I'm not grown into this shit, leave me alone. Always nudging me. "Help me help me", "Do this better", "Work harder", "That's your problem" - that's what other people seem to say. Never help me. Only look me up, when they want something done. Not that I'm particularly good at getting anything done, I'm just the bitch who'll do it.

I don't feel so well today... I'm growing tired of this shit. My poor heart wasn't made for this. Living seems so much harder than dying... eternal slumber, I can't wait to.

Ach. But I still got some outstanding issues. Some open calculations, some things to prove. I'll never surrender! Villains don't die.

 

I'll smoke their shit in a pipe,

my ashes will extinguish their eyesight.

When I'm spotted on the horizon,

Fire is what you boycotted mufakkaz be baptized in.

Destoroyah will destroy ya,

You better call your lawyer.

Shooting laserbeams,

While you're faceplanted on YouTube streams,

Watching lets plays,

of a sucka playing kerbal space-,

-program,

Your parents should've used a diaphragm.

When they conceived you,

They wouldn't be so displeased now.

Fuck practice,

We'll just hack the matrix.

 

 

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ENTRY 10 - DAY 16:

You go down.

Today I was lied to. I was thinking on how to handle it. I've decided not to. I know I should confront and play judge, if I were the man I should be, and I might someday, but right now I'm caught in my own problems. And accusing people via WhatsApp is not my style, only in a face to face conversation can I save things. I don't want to save things though, Integrity is a fragile thing. A glance can destroy it.

It kind of hurts, I guess, as I surround myself with few I deem friends. Getting betrayed by those few will not help me be a more sociable and trusting person, but I shouldn't care. I can take the hit, I just don't hit back because I know: you go down.

I'm not here to educate you. I shouldn't attempt to teach anything, everytime I have - shit hit me like a boomerang.

 

Today I dreamt of being in a crypt, skeletons climbing out of coffins everywhere. I was meant to be scared but I was busy thinking about the loot. The drops they'd have up for me once I've crushed them.

Gaming is creeping silently in my room. I need to keep aware.

 

Also I caught a cold. Bad timing. Exams coming up, I need 110%... I'll hide in my room whenever I can.

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Hello!

 

Also I caught a cold. Bad timing. Exams coming up, I need 110%... I'll hide in my room whenever I can.

That worked as a trigger for me when I got flu last time. Keep that in mind and avoid it at all cost.

If you feel tired, go to sleep instead of wasting your time on the Internet/video games.

If you feel bored, same. Or find any other activity as a substitute to deal with cravings. For me it could be reading a fiction or playing a guitar. What are yours?

Greetings, Mad Pharmacist

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Posted (edited)

I picked up drawing on a wacom tablet, just in time! Also I'm switching over to a trackball mouse and teaching myself typing on Dvorak - still. I am overencumbered. But yea, gaming still creeps sometimes, when i suck at everything.

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