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Went to bed at 22:45

Did some art.

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Noice

Date: Thur 17/11/2016

Journal day: 6

Detox day: 12

Days since I last wanked ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡° ): 1 let's try and not jerk it for a week

Woke up at:

07:20

Went to bed at:

23:45

Thoughts and Feelings:

  • Woke up late. Went to school very very depressed.
  • While I was In the car my mum said my step dad was mad at me because of how ungrateful and uncommunicative I am and then she asked me why I was always depressed but I couldn't answer.
  • Stayed depressed for most of the day.
  • I was supposed to go to a meeting for the charity committee but I couldn't be bothered. I don't care about poor people I just care about my resume.
  • When I was in the workshop doing my coursework for DT I fucked up again on a part I had made 4 times before. My classmates actually gave a shit and helped me out a bit. They showed genuine concern. Maybe people aren't so bad after all.
  • Came home very satisfied. Drank a load of coffee and sweated out some more studying.

Tasks and Achievements:

  • Got loads of studying done. Shit loads.
  • Stayed till 6:30 at the school workshop doing coursework
  • My teacher made me write an article for the school magazine about my scholarship. 

What I am grateful for:

  • Technical death metal and coffee. Perfect combination.
  • People going out of their way to help other people

What I have learnt from today:

  • If I have a strong sense of purpose I am a lot lot happier.
  • I don't need to be a miserable little shit all the time. But how?
  • I don't need to be overly extroverted. I am an introvert. I am laid back. Just do what is comfortable.
  • I should help others more just for the sake of it.

About tomorrow:

  • Work tomorrow
  • Step sister and her boyfriend coming round for weekend. I should be nice- or at least try.
  • Maybe I should apologise to my step dad

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There could be many reasons for Feeling depressed. Doing things (how hard it seems at the Moment) can help. Also regular exercise and outside can help. Basically internal antidepressants get produced in the sunlight and if you get oyur heartrate up.

Great Job on the consistent journalling btw. The reflecting seems to get you some insights.

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Can you try and get to bed a bit earlier? The extra sleep could help stabilize your mood.

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Thanks Work. You are right. Physical work makes me so much happier.

Can you try and get to bed a bit earlier? The extra sleep could help stabilize your mood.

I often can't help it because of studying. But I will keep it in mind.

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Noicer

Date: Fri 18/11/2016

Journal day: 7

Detox day: 13

Days since I last wanked ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡° ): 2 

  1. 100 pushups a day
  2. Get up at 6:30 every day apart from sundays
  3. You cant wank if you haven't talked to any girls that day
  4. You matter the most.
  5. Negativity is there because you feel negative. The world is not against you.

Woke up at:

06:30

Went to bed at:

12:40

Thoughts and Feelings:

  • Woke up early and went to school satisfied
  • Big day at school. Got lots done.
  • There is this kid I just want to punch in the face in my class.
  • Came home quite depressed
  • When I got to work I started getting really happy.

Tasks and Achievements:

  • Figured out some measures I should take to improve my life.
  • Studying
  • Didn't punch that kid

What I am grateful for:

  • Fucking metal
  • People going out of their way to help other people
  • My employers
  • My parents
  • My teachers
  • My friends
  • Guitar solos

What I have learnt from today:

  • Set activities to be fulfilled consistently. Structure my life
  • I don't care if people do better than me and are dicks to me. Fuck them. Fuck everyone. I am the best.
  • I am not alone

About tomorrow:

  • Get that paperwork done for your project
  • Still need to talk to step sister and her boyfriend
  • Stay consistent with your goals

Notes:

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Noicer

Date: Sat 19/11/2016

Journal day: 8

Detox day: 14

Days since I last wanked ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡° ): 3

  1. 100 pushups a day
  2. Get up at 6:30 every day apart from sundays
  3. You cant wank if you haven't talked to any girls that day
  4. You matter the most.
  5. Negativity is there because you feel negative. The world is not against you.
  6. Nobody cares about how you act. They only care about their ego. Express yourself!
  7. 5 German words a day
  8. Eat as much as you can whenever you can you skinny little shite :)

Woke up at:

06:30

Went to bed at:

23:15

Thoughts and Feelings:

  • 2 WEEKS DETOX FUCK YES I am 7 45ths through my journey. How big is that fraction? I don't fucking know get a calculator.
  • Woke up early and went to school satisfied
  • I don't care about failure anymore
  • That kid came up to me and was criticising me again and I was like a brick wall. No fucks given.
  • I can tell he's pissing someone else off.
  • Came home and studied a little and read up on some politics. Well anarchy more specifically. Because I am an anarchist.
  • Watched a documentary about my favourite band. I really liked their positive "don't give a fuck but give every fuck you can give" approach to life.
  • Did a load of art. I've pretty much nailed drawing male faces now.
  • Talked to step sister and boyfriend at dinner. Not much though. I just cracked a few sarky jokes here and there like I always do. I'm happy being like that.

Tasks and Achievements:

  • 100 pushups.
  • Woke up early
  • Art

What I am grateful for:

  • Fucking metal
  • People going out of their way to help other people
  • FUCKING EVERYONE!!!
  • Guitar solos
  • That documentary
  • THIS SITE AND EVERY MOTHERFUCKER ON IT
  • My new band shirt that came in the post the other day

What I have learnt from today:

  • I don't have to return negativity with negativity. I only see the world through my own eyes- my perception is everything. If I can withstand negativity then I don't need to lash out at people and most of all it means can withstand anything. Also returning negativity only means I let them win. It is a sign of weakness not strength. There is more strength in being a fortress to their shit and keeping it together. I can do that. 
  • I don't think I actually feel that passionate about being an engineer when I'm older
  • I really want to start playing bass

About tomorrow:

  • Get that paperwork done for your project- didn't do any of it today
  • Going into school tomorrow for a BTEC lesson. Fucking slay hard like you always do.
  • Stay consistent with your goals
  • Talk to some girls!
  • Express yourself with no regrets! Embarrassment is bullshit!

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Seriously, why do you want to "wank"?

Do you think it's ok?

Greetings, Mad Pharmacist

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Seriously, why do you want to "wank"?

Do you think it's ok?

Greetings, Mad Pharmacist

I think it is fine. The only reason I jerk it is because I'm bored. It's a great way to release sexual tension especially considering I don't have a girl.

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Noicer

Date: Sun 20/11/2016

Journal day: 9

Detox day: 15

Days since I last wanked ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡° ): 4

  1. 100 pushups a day
  2. Get up at 6:30 every day apart from sundays
  3. You cant wank if you haven't talked to any girls that day
  4. You matter the most.
  5. Negativity is there because you feel negative. The world is not against you.
  6. Nobody cares about how you act. They only care about their ego. Express yourself!
  7. 5 German words a day
  8. Eat as much as you can whenever you can you skinny little shite :)

Woke up at:

06:30

Went to bed at:

23:15

Thoughts and Feelings:

  • Keeping consistent with getting up in the morning.
  • Did BTEC exam at school. There were two girls there i could have talked to but I didn't!
  • Watched that new harry potter movie. Good movie. Gave me a little inspiration for my book.
  • Step sister and her boyfriend are like fucking children. I don't want to end up like that.
  • Talked to my danish friend I met on steam. He is my only true friend who looks out for me. I look out for him too. I sucks I don't have any true friends at school. Very lonely.

Tasks and Achievements:

  • 100 pushups.
  • Woke up early
  • Drew up plan for how I should approach my DT project
  • Finished BTEC at school
  • Finished physics homework
  • Practised hand speed for drumming

What I am grateful for:

  • Fucking metal
  • My mighty Scandinavian brother

What I have learnt from today:

  • I don't care if I'm not on top of a social situation. I like to operate from the sidelines.
  • I do actually feel passionate about being an engineer when I'm older!
  • I really REALLY want to start playing bass
  • My danish friend says I should make an effort to look approachable and happy

About tomorrow:

  • Do what you need to do according to your plan for project
  • Need to teach year 11s another lesson at cadets. Gonna nail it.
  • Stay consistent with your goals
  • Talk to some girls already!
  • SMILE YOU FUCK!
  • Go full sonic the hedgehog in running

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Noicer

Date: Mon 21/11/2016

Journal day: 10

Detox day: 16

Days since I last wanked ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡° ): 0

  1. 100 pushups a day
  2. Get up at 6:30 every day apart from sundays
  3. You cant wank if you haven't talked to any girls that day
  4. You matter the most.
  5. Negativity is there because you feel negative. The world is not against you.
  6. Nobody cares about how you act. They only care about their ego. Express yourself!
  7. 5 German words a day
  8. Eat as much as you can whenever you can you skinny little shite :)

Woke up at:

07:30 LATE

Went to bed at:

22:30

Thoughts and Feelings:

  • My alarm didn't go off :(. Couldn't get myself out of bed.
  • Was very depressed in morning. I should always get up early.
  • Talked to quite a few girls.
  • I don't care about people being negative towards me.
  • Talked to my danish friend again. He is being fucked over by his slutty girlfriend.
  • I didn't do the 1 hour i allotted to my project paperwork. I was daydreaming and goofing off through most of it. Sometimes I find it hard to focus.
  • Tried making myself look happier. Nobody noticed but it feels good.
  • Didn't nail that lesson but I had the whole of my group backing me up and we failed together which was ok. We had a good laugh at the end.

Tasks and Achievements:

  • 100 pushups.
  • 5 german words. 10 new words since yesterday.
  • Stuck to plan for project
  • Finished maths homework
  • Practised hand speed for drumming
  • I've been eating a lot more recently
  • Coding
  • Ran 4 miles

What I am grateful for:

  • Fucking metal
  • My mighty Scandinavian brother

What I have learnt from today:

  • I can take responsibility in a situation but I lack charisma
  • Sense of purpose is crucial
  • Don't be an egoistic prick. You know what it does. Use your ego for positive things rather than picking at others.
  • My friends are all fake. I share nothing in common with any of them now I quit games.

About tomorrow:

  • Get up early
  • Do what you need to do according to your plan for project
  • Stay consistent with your goals
  • Talk to some more girls
  • SMILE YOU FUCK!
  • Go all out in climbing. don't be disheartened if everyone is better than you. Try and join in more regardless.

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How do I find true friends? The "friends" I have now are just people I hang out with. We don't look out for each other and we don't share any passions.

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How do I find true friends? The "friends" I have now are just people I hang out with. We don't look out for each other and we don't share any passions.

Define what a true friend means to you:

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How do I find true friends? The "friends" I have now are just people I hang out with. We don't look out for each other and we don't share any passions.

To do this you need to meet someone you like / find pleasant o be with first. Possible ideas for this: Go on a cocnert and talk to People (they liek tehs ame Music!), go to meet-ups, go to s a sportsgroup with people your age.

If you found someone you like:

Show real interst in his/her matters. Not jsut fake interest but being really  interested about their matteers for a longer period. Also bevulnerable towards people who seem reliable. Hare you fears and crazyness with them part for part even if it's hard. If you open up and they open up ,you have a great chacne that oyu got  a new good friend.

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Seriously, why do you want to "wank"?

Do you think it's ok?

Greetings, Mad Pharmacist

I think it is fine. The only reason I jerk it is because I'm bored. It's a great way to release sexual tension especially considering I don't have a girl.

Ok, then if it's fine I'll ask you the most simple question:

How will you feel if you'll have a sexual partner and she'll need to masturbate even if she have had sex with you? Will it still be "fine" for you?

Think about it.

How do I find true friends? The "friends" I have now are just people I hang out with. We don't look out for each other and we don't share any passions.

The best way to find true friends is to become a leader and initiator of hanging out.

Most people don't know where to go with the group of friends. You should know and you can invite anyone of them.

That's the reason why you have their phone number - you can call whoever you want and hang out outside. I bet you anyone who will be invited will feel great because he or she doesn't need to do it instead of you.

And also if you invite those people couple of times, then you can be invite by them aswell! It's natural thing, and this way you're making even not a single friend, but a GROUP of friends!

Work for me, but tell me if you got my point and if it works for you. :)

Greetings, Mad Pharmacist

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