I've gave it some thought and have decided that right now there are some personal things I have to attend to, so I will be focusing my attention on these. For this reason I will be leaving the forum and I'm unsure as to when I will be back. To all those who've tried to help me since I joined, I say thank you and to Cam, thanks for your support as well. Also to Cam, for right now, please delete my account and whenever I return, I will make a fresh start. I wish everyone at the Gamequitters forum all the best.
Today is day 9 in my game free life, I've been struggling with other personal matters outside of gaming which has made things quite difficult. There are times that I'm not sure if I can keep going and I sometimes wonder where I should really be focusing my attention, either to quitting gaming or dealing with the personal issues. I really need to think about what's better for me at the moment.
Today is day 7 of my game free life and so far it has been going well and I've had very few times that I've thought about gaming. Even though I'm not gaming, I still struggle with being productive and I often find myself doing things just to avoid gaming. One area I still struggle with is spending hours watching videos on Youtube, and yes I'm not gaming but I'm not being productive either, I'm only wasting time that I could spend doing other things are worthwhile. I'm going to work towards being more productive and waste less time. Things I want to accomplish: -Be more active(started) -Do more reading(started) -Waste less time(WIP)
This journey is not going to be easy and there are going to be bumps in the road but I know that it's possible. Even if I should fall, I will pick myself back up and keep moving forward. Even though I've failed in the past, I'm not going to let it weigh me down...Whats done is done and all I can do now is forget the past and move forward.
Later today will be 1 day since I quit gaming, I really need to figure it out this time. As I've said in a previous post, gaming for me was a way to escape stress or to temporarily forget whatever I was dealing with. I really need to try and find other activities that I can use as a coping mechanism so I can handle stress better. I know that this is not going to be easy and it'll take a lot of effort on my part but I know that I can do it. I've been trying since January to beat this and with minimal success, but rather than focus on what's already been done, I will leave the past in the past and move forward.
Well where do I start....I relapsed and have started playing games again. First it was internet games yesterday and today it was console games. I wish that I could break free from this habit. Gaming has for many years been a coping mechanism in dealing with stress but it's time for this to change. I've been under a lot of stress lately and rather than try to fight the urge to game as an escape, I started to make excuses to go back to gaming and now here I am. But rather than beat myself up, I'm going to pick myself up and keep on trying.
Today is day 15 of my game free life and it hasn't been easy but I've been successful thus far. Overall I've been doing pretty good with being productive, but there are days that are not very productive. Some days I find myself wasting a lot of time or sometimes I feel like I'm bored and unsure as to what to do. It's a constant work in progress that I'm sure will get better over time. Since I've quit gaming I've been able to do more reading and recently I've gotten back into learning Japanese. Also now that the weather has started to get better I've been able to be more active( ie. walking to and from work). I want to be able to drop those unnecessary pounds and get in shape. Though at times it may seem too difficult and I may feel like giving up, I want to reach my goals so I will keep fighting. It would be so easy for me to give up and go right back to gaming but I know that I'm the long run it won't accomplish anything. If anything I will feel even worse and I no longer want gaming to control my life. In the past gaming was a great stress reliever but I struggled to limit the time I was gaming. I would sometimes say I'll only play for awhile but awhile would turn into a few hours or more. Some people might say that gaming in moderation is ok and yes some people might be able to do that but for me, that's not even an option, it's either I game full time or I don't game at all. I struggled to find a happy medium. So moving forward, what are my plans? Well first of all I'm working towards completing the 90 day detox and along the way as I said earlier, I want to get in shape. From there I will continue my game free life and set other goals that I will work towards reaching. "Leave the Pixel World and Enter the Real World."
I can also relate to how you're feeling, gaming for me was a temporary escape from things. A schedule is very important, I still struggle with following one. As has already been mentioned, each day is a new day. You can do this, just keep on fighting to reach your goals.
Just a quick update, it's now a week since I stopped gaming. As I've said before I still think about gaming from time to time but I'm not going to let it control me anymore. Over the past week I've been doing well in occupying my time with other activities and for the most part I try to do things that are productive. It's going to take a lot of effort to beat this, but I know that it's possible if I really give it my all.
Today is Day 5 of my game free life. So far things have been going well, and with the time I would have spent gaming I've replaced it with more productive activities. Apart from work which occupies a good portion of the day, I've been able to start getting active again(ie. walking to and from work). I've been doing some reading and I also been trying to consider some other activities that might be good for me to incorporate in my game free life. There are times that I engage in non productive activities (ie. watching TV), but the main thing is that I'm not gaming. I'm taking small steps to reach a bigger goal, that of first completing the 90 day detox. Do I still think about gaming? Of course! But rather than allow myself to have temporary enjoyment, I'd rather work towards something that is worthwhile, something that will have a lasting effect. The journey is a long one and yes there are going to ups and downs, but I just have to keep fighting.
First of all I want to apologize to everyone here because I may not have seemed very serious about quitting gaming, but I am very serious about quitting. Also I'm sorry for you having to read my many broken record like posts. It's been just about a week since I said that I was going leave Gamequitters and I wasn't sure if I would return or not but I've decided that I can't do this on my own. On my own I've already failed miserably and have relapsed, but as of last night I decided that I want to keep fighting to reach the goal of a game free life. I've come realize that even though games provide a temporary escape from the things I'm dealing with, they don't change anything and they don't really make me feel any better. If anything, games make me feel worse because I think about the time I've wasted that I could be using doing things to improve my situation. Over the past few months as you have seen from my posts I've been struggling and for a time I was able to reach 34 days game free but then I let my emotions get the better of me and I've been continuing to let that happen. Enough is enough and I have to look at what helped me to be successful in the past and learn from it. No longer do I want to be controlled by gaming but I want to break free from it. Later today will be 1 day game free and I know that it's a long journey but I'm only going to focus on one day at a time.
Now, where do I start? Over the past few days I've been dealing with a number of emotions but not all of them have to do with just gaming but other things I'm dealing with in my life, this has lead me to think about gaming, but I haven't given in. That being said it can be quite frustrating at times and there are times when I start my day on a positive, only to have it shift and for me to feel down and not feel like doing much of anything. I think that maybe I need to shift my focus away from quitting gaming to dealing with the other things I'm dealing with in life. As I've said previously, I think I may have to try and figure this one out on my own, so after much thought I think I'm going to leave Gamequitters but unlike times past, this time I don't know if I will return or not. And to all of you who have helped me, I appreciate all that you've done. Sorry that you've had to read through my many rants in which I've sounded like a broken record. Take care everyone and I wish you all the best
Nice to see that you're starting to incorporate other activities in your life. Hang in there...Throughout the whole process you are going to experience some high and low points but the important thing is to keep fighting. You can do this!!!