Been a while since I've posted anything in here, I've been using the Beyond page for more of my daily stuff. Speaking of beyond, it's incredible. The first 2 weeks are almost over and I'm so glad I signed up to it. Cam has really pushed me out of my comfort zone and I feel like I'm growing so much as a result. However, me being me, I'm still struggling in my day-to-day runnings. Firstly, the game cravings are back. Now I have an income I don't have a solid excuse to not buy a certain theme park building sandbox. The only thing stopping me is a) my willpower and b) my laziness to reinstall steam and get my account back. A part of me wants to get the game and use it as a creative toolbox. Drawing doesn't sit well for me, and I love the idea of just spending a few hours a week making nice designs, working theme parks and so on. And not playing it as a game. The other part thinks that I'll get my steam account back up, start playing, and then just install a heavily moddable RPG game and then things will start going from bad to worse. I would be interested to see if I'm able to control the urges, however. Secondly, I'm still watching a lot of YouTube/Twitch. I have blocked Twitch and YouTube on my phone complete, though, which has proved extremely effective. But the computer part is kind of a problem. I just really enjoy it. Northernlion and co are such different content creators compared to other gamers. And after watching for like 3 or 4 years, they've almost become like friends to me. I know that I'd be much better off if I didn't watch it at all, but it's incredibly difficult. I'm already trying to change a bunch of other stuff in my life at the moment. Baby steps. Thirdly, I'm completely stagnant in my businesses. I have no idea why. I've no social media strategy, and I'm not producing content. I am recording and editing videos, however, and my next one should be up tomorrow. I think what I'm going to do is use YouTube as the starting point. It'll go something like this: Record video > transcribe > podcast > blog post > use quotes from video to make graphics for Pinterest, twitter and facebook > market. Rinse and repeat. Uploading 2 videos a week and following this process should give me a solid baseline. It's just actually getting round to doing it. I'm working a lot, and next week I'll add an extra shift or two bartending/waiting. I'm looking forward to it but it'll be tough. That's pretty much it for now. I haven't practised languages in a few days, or meditated, or read my books. Pretty much all of my routines have temporarily gone down the toilet. But I'm going to press on regardless! Peace.
Just choose whatever isn't going to make you hate school for the next couple of years, and see how it goes. I don't think you should chase the money. Chase what you enjoy and the money will follow. I don't know your age but I assume fairly young. You've got so many chances to change your mind, and you can always do something else or merge a couple of them in the future. Don't be afraid of experimenting with something new and failing. It's a much better way of discovering what you enjoy. Also, you can't just decide to be passionate about something. Passion only develops when you engross yourself in something and become so involved with it that you could do it all day. Best of luck to you in your decision!
Day # 97 - Friday 2nd December 2016. What am I grateful for today? CamerasComfy chairsWarm winter daysOne amazing thing that happened/I did today: I uploaded my first video to the student collective YouTube channel! Go and watch it here and let me know what you think Workout: Upper body routine, but devloped some shoulder problems halfway through so I had to cut it short. Don't want to risk anything! Meditation: No meditation, again. Daily affirmations: I did do my affirmations today though, felt good! Reading: Top notch again. Learning German: Really enjoying learning German again! What went well today: Day off work. Productive. Healthy. What more could you want? What I could have done to make my day better: Spent more time outside. Felt like I was sitting down too much working.
Daily quote: To live is the rarest thing in the world. Most people exist, that is all. – Oscar Wilde
Day # 96 - Thursday 1st DecemberNovember 2016. Didn't have a chance to write the post last night so I'm doing it today! What am I grateful for today? Free food while working in a restaurantLaughterComfortable running shoesOne amazing thing that happened/I did today: Completed more challenges on Duolingo than I usually would. Workout: Pushed for time this morning due to wor, so I did a squat and jump rope routine at home. Meditation: Didn't do my meditation. Daily affirmations: No affirmations either. Reading: Wuthering Heights is going well, I'm enjoying it more than i thought I would. Didn't do any reading of my other book, came home really late and just wanted to get to sleep. Learning German: Currently maintaining a good streak on Duolingo. It's going well! What went well today: Work went well, despite being an 11 hour shift. What I could have done to make my day better: Wasn't very productive in the morning or in the time between my two shifts, need to work on that!
Daily quote: There are many ways of going forward, but only one way of standing still. – Franklin D. Roosevelt
Day # 95 - Wednesday 30th November 2016. So something happened today. I had a huge craving to play a new game that recently came out. Won't say the name but it involves building a theme park. Thankfully my work still hasn't sorted out my payroll information and so I literally don't have the money to play it, so I tried to torrent it, and it turns out there's no working links. I wanted to use the game to scratch a creative itch. Only to play an hour or two a week, just to fulfill something that I can't get through drawing. I love the idea of building an aesthetic theme park, I wasn't even interested in playing it as intended. But now a few hours have passed I realised how close I came to making a huge mistake. I'm glad i wasn't able to play it, and I don't think I'm going to any time soon! What am I grateful for today? Warm buttered toastClean tap waterA beautiful sunsetOne amazing thing that happened/I did today: Joined the Facebook group for BEYOND! Workout: Did a cardio workout in the morning. Had an abysmal night's sleep, which I think is down to me spending a lot of time on my phone. And then I had a killer upper body and abs workout this evening. Felt really good! My gymnastic poses are coming along too. I'm able to hold an L sit for about half a second Meditation: I had a few minutes of self thought, but I didn't do the meditation I intended. Daily affirmations: Didn't do this. Reading: Read a new chapter of Wuthering Heights thanks to that Serial Reader app. I'm 1/10th of the way through after a couple of days. I'm also loving my fantasy book. Things are going well on this front! Learning German: Duolingo is going fantastically, and I've found that a lot of the German I knew previously is coming back to me! What went well today: I had a healthy diet all dya and cooked a kick ass stir fry for the family! What I could have done to make my day better: Didn't do as much on the content creation front, but did a lot of networking on Facebook.
Daily quote: No act of kindness, no matter how small, is ever wasted. - Aesop
What am I grateful for today? Dressing gownsNew friends Clear skiesOne amazing thing that happened/I did today: Turns out we had no one at work so I only had to stay half an hour Workout: Had a bad night sleep and didn't have time to go to the gym, it's only open 7am-8:15am. Did a HIIT leg workout instead. Meditation: None this morning, despite having plenty of time. Daily affirmations: Failed on this today. Reading: Found a new app called Serial Reader that gives you free access to hundreds of classic books, and delivers them in bitesize sections each day. On top of that I read some more of my book, The Name of the wind. Really enjoying it! It's over 600 pages though so it'll take a while! Learning Japanese German: German is going well. Starting with Dulingo to refresh myself, got placed at a fairly decent level already so things are going well. Enjoying learning it! What went well today: Finally worked out why my microphone wasn't working with my DSLR. Turns out I needed an Sc3 adapter, and the part arrived a day earlier than expected. Looking to record a video or two tomorrow! What I could have done to make my day better: Been a lot more productive business wise. Didn't actually get much done. Yet I don't feel guilty about it.
Daily quote: “Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter, and those who matter don't mind.” ― Bernard M. Baruch
Decided I'm going to go back to posting in the evening. I know I won't be able to properly update my reading or language learning, but it fits me much better! Day # 93 - Monday 28th November 2016.
What am I grateful for today? A loving grandmotherNo shortage of foodAvocados. Damn, they're good.One amazing thing that happened/I did today: Published my first blog post on Student Collective. About none other than gaming at university Find it here! Please let me know if you notice anything that needs changing or any feedback. It's super appreciated! Thank you! Workout: Great upper body workout this morning. Empty gym and loud music. Meditation: 10 minutes of meditation this morning. Daily affirmations: Completed my affirmations on the way back from the gym for the first time in ages. Felt good! Reading: Haven't had much time today, but I'm going to spend at least an hour reading before bed. Learning Japanese German: I know it sounds like I'm giving up on Japanese, and technically I am. But I'm going to swap over to German. I'm already at a pretty decent level in German, I can understand a good amount of conversation, but I thought I'd try to push myself with Japanese. That was a no go. So I'm going to shift my focus on building up my German skills! What went well today: I barely touched my phone, only able to use it during designated hours. AppBlock worked well. I usually use it, but this time I blocked myself from opening AppBlock itself. This meant I couldn't just plug my phone in and unlock the app blocker. Worked a treat! On top of that, I was super productive and completed pretty much every task I'd set out to do What I could have done to make my day better: Honestly not that much. Perhaps eaten a bit healthier?
Daily quote: "Hope lies in dreams, in imagination and in the courage of those who dare to make dreams into reality." - Jonas Salk
The hardest part of my 90-day detox was far and away day 70-80. The cravings that I had to return to gaming took every ounce of my willpower to overcome. But I knew that if I gave up now the last 70 days would have been for nothing. I reminded myself why I was doing what I was doing. I imagined how I'd feel once the 90 days was over. At the end of the day, if you can make it through the next day. You can make it through the next week. And I guarantee that the closer you get to 90 days it'll become easier and easier for you to resist the cravings. Find something to take up your time, anything. You said you liked to go running? What's stopping you, the weather? I remember when I was training for my half marathon and I had to run through torrential downpours, icy roads and even hail at one point. But once I again, I reminded myself why I did it. Pain is only temporary, and once you overcome the one thing that's stopping you, you feel so much better. And if you can do it once, you can do it again. Wear something warm, and warm up extensively. Once you get into the swing of it the cold won't even bother you. And once you take that first step out the door, you're already 50% of the way back to being in a warm house. At that point, the cold will be a distant memory. Stop making excuses. The best time to do anything was yesterday. The second best time is today. You've got this man, we're all here for you. Don't give up now, and reap the rewards later.
What am I grateful for today? A warm houseComfortable bedThat I was born into a lifestyle that gave me the opportunity to learn to read and writeOne amazing thing that happened/I did today: I finally created the social media for Student Collective! Workout: No workout. Sunday is my rest day. Meditation: Nope. Daily affirmations: No affirmations today. Reading: Managed to sit down and read before bed, for the first time in a while. Really enjoying my book, The Name of the Wind. Excited to read more today! Learning Japanese: Didn't get around to this today. Getting to bed before 10pm: For once I was in bed at 10pm to read. Feel so much better that I did! What went well today: I had a productive Sunday, for possibly the first time in my life /s What I could have done to make my day better: I spent a lot of time on my phone, more than usual.
You've done it before and you can do it now. See the positive possibilities. Redirect the substantial energy of your frustration and turn it into positive, effective, unstoppable determination. - Ralph Marston
What am I grateful for today? A day out with familyDelicious lunchCalm weatherOne amazing thing that happened/I did today: Managed to do some actual work on a Saturday which I don't think I've done for a long time! Workout: Didn't go to the gym. Did some squats and pushups at home. Meditation: Nope. Find it weird doing it at home with my parents there. Daily affirmations: No. Same as meditation reason. Reading: Still haven't read my book for a few days. Which I find weird, as I'm really enjoying it. Haven't read a good fantasy in a while but I just never want to choose the book over my phone. Learning Japanese: Still no more Japanese Getting to bed before 10pm: Definitely not. Watched another film with my parents, The Witchfinder General. It was a good film, though, and I don't feel too bad about watching it. What went well today: Set up a surefire way to make sure I don't use my phone as much on weekdays. In theory, anyway. We'll see how it pans out in practice. What I could have done to make my day better: Use my mornings and afternoons more effectively.
Daily quote: Put your heart, mind, and soul into even your smallest acts. This is the secret of success. - Swami Sivananda
I realised that it didn't make any sense doing my journal entry in the evening. As I can't properly update my reading, my time to bed and so on. So I'm going to make this forum post a part of my morning routine in the time before starting work and the time after I go to the gym. Recapping my previous day. It'll also give me an opportunity to build up my short-term memory But aside from that, I'm really looking forward to making this a part of my daily habit. The most difficult thing I've found is filling out the gratitude section. But I've been looking around at other forum posts and I've realised that I'm trying to go for something too big. In the end, it doesn't matter how big or small it is.
Day # 90 - Friday 25th November 2016.
What am I grateful for today? An empty gymUnderstanding friendsThe beautiful sunset through my windowOne amazing thing that happened/I did today: I got my first email subscriber! Workout: Had a leg workout in the morning. Finished it off with a cycling challenge which almost made me throw up! Meditation: Nope. Not sure why. I just ended up not doing it as part of my routine. Daily affirmations: Nuh-uh. Really been slacking with these. Reading: Didn't do any reading either. Learning Japanese: Still no more Japanese. Although I did look at an image of the Hiragana to give myself a quick refresh. It didn't go too well. Getting to bed before 10pm: Ended up watching a film with my parents until about 11:30pm. But I tend to give myself some more leeway on this on the weekends. Just because I still live with my parents and it can be a lot more difficult. What went well today: I managed to get a lot more work done on my blogs than I'd done for the past couple of weeks. Feels good to get back into the swing of things. What I could have done to make my day better: Take shorter breaks, and not watch long YouTube videos during them. What I will do differently tomorrow: As it's a Saturday I think we have some plans to go to a local Christmas fayre. But it'll give me a chance to try out some street photography on my new camera which I'm looking forward to! I would like to make good use of my morning, though.
Daily quote: Nothing is impossible, the word itself says 'I'm possible'. - Audrey Hepburn
I went straight back to my old habits about a week afterwards. I managed to fill my free time with TED videos for a few days and tried cutting it out completely. But I ended up watching gaming YouTube videos and Twitch videos again. A couple of days ago I stayed up until 2am watching a Twitch stream. I have started getting back into my business routine and daily habits, but it's slow progress. I still find myself watching some gaming stuff in my free time. Pretty much only from that one YouTuber Northernlion. Currently, it's not a huge problem, and I don't feel it's destroying my productivity at the moment. I'm finding it much harder to quit watching videos than quitting games. But I do want to improve over time. It's just really really difficult for me. Thanks for checking in, though, I appreciate it!
Trying out a new template, let's see how this goes! I've included the things I have as part of my morning routine, but am fairly inconsistent with. I'm also pretty new to the whole gratitude, so any tips with that would be much appreciated! EDIT: Okay I've been trying to think of something I'm grateful for, for about 5 minutes. Why is it so difficult? Day # 89
What am I grateful for today? My new pair of shoesThat I have a job that I enjoyReally struggling with this one. Can I be grateful that it didn't rain on my way to the gym? Yeah let's go with that.One amazing thing that happened/I did today: I helped a friend through a stressful design project at work. She was so thankful Workout: Upper body workout this morning. The gym was empty, and the workout went really well. Felt like my energy was lacking, however. Possibly due to a less than perfect night's sleep. Meditation: Not today. Ended up watching YouTube videos after the gym, which is when I usually meditate for 10 minutes. Before I knew it I had to rush to work. Daily affirmations: Nope. Usually done on my walk back from the gym. I've been neglecting these recently. Reading: Not today. Watched Twitch in bed Learning Japanese: Haven't done this in a while. Managed to perfectly learn the first 40 or so Hiragana but it's slipped out my memory recently as I didn't practice it. Need to stop neglecting this! Getting to bed before 10pm: Another no. Got into bed about 10 but stayed watching Twitch until about 12am. What went well today: I made some progress on a song I'm writing on piano What I could have done to make my day better: Be more proactive with regards to my business and my personal habits. What I will do differently tomorrow: I'm going to commit to no YouTube or Twitch until I have my lunch. And no more than one video in the evening. I'm going to make sure that I carry out my morning ritual
Daily quote: "Find a place inside where there's joy, and the joy will burn out the pain" - Joseph Campbell