Hi guys, it's been a while! Today I've decided to share my recent news with you. I think my last journal entry was six months ago. Things have changed a little bit since then. I haven't gamed since then except for a two-week period in May, when I played Action Quake just for the nostalgia. My brother said that there were still people playing it, and this game was a big part of our teens, so I installed to play with him. This was different though, I didn't play everyday, and the longest was for about 3 hours. After two weeks, the nostalgia was gone and we both stopped it. I'm back working at the hospitality industry (gotta put the bread on the table). On my free time, I'm mainly playing the guitar, reading and writing. I'm pursuing a career as a writer and have been working on my craft since, I don't know, the end of my detox? Right now I'm at a crossroad, and it's been really hard to figure out what path to choose regarding where I want to take my words. Right now I'm writing soft erotica for the sake of practice and have something out quick (two stories out), but this is not what I'm aiming at the far end. I wonder if I should keep on putting those stories out to establish a source of income or I should move awaiy from it and never look back (which is kind of sad, because I've put some effort on it already. Kind of remind me of the sunk cost falacy). I really gotta go now (or I'll get late to work), sorry for not being able to write a proper closing statement. I wish you all good luck.
15 days challenge completed! Since then, I touched myself a few times here and there. I've been very productive the last 3 days, even though I had a lot of 'free time' to kill. I think I've built enough momentum to keep on going forward (or backward, keep moving is what is important). I've decided to stop doing these challenges. Reason: it bring focus from what I want to do to what I don't want to do. I already have enough goals to keep me busy this year. If I keep on pursuing them, then nofap, nogame, noyoutube, no-whatever-I-don't-want-to-do should happen naturally.
@Signor Nessuno I see your point. I also didn't have problems with chronic masturbation. Yet, I feel better and stronger when I refrain from it. Something I can't explain and don't even want to understand. I do remember though, a few years ago, when I used to choose staying at home on a friday night, playing videogame and jacking off over going out and socializing. You gotta be careful, because sometimes the damage can't be seen until it's late. Your English is good enough, don't be sorry for it, you're not native speaker. Thanks for the visit! Day 13 3 days straight being at home. My productivity increased if compared to the last time I had days off in a row. My manuscript is giving me a lot of trouble. I started it wrong, not I have to fix a lot of things. Business wise, this is a bad decision, as I'm taking too long to write something that I won't be selling for anything over 4 dollars. But it is fun and a good practice for a newbie as me. Working in the dinning room is giving me better results.
I thought about saying something about making deadlines work in your favor, but I'm sitting with my manuscript unfinished for over 2 months because I didn't set any deadline to it! Anyway, I envy your course. I had to study 2 years of calculus and physics before I had my first classes of circuitry and electronics!
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@thb23 hey, thanks for the visit! Day 11 Two pomodoros working on my manuscript. 2 > 0, so it should be fine. Hope I can do around 4 tomorrow. Slowly crossing things out of my to do list. Gotta remember to fill the list up so I can keep the pace. Watched some speed run videos on YouTube. Funny as I didn't feel like playing at all. I watched it as you'd watch a movie. I have finally finished the LOTR books. Gosh, I don't recommend it to anyone. Gotta start reading a new self development book soon. It's been a while since I read my last one. When you don't have a mastermind to be with, books can fill in that void relatively well.