Mwick

Day 5+6, I unfortunately didn't get a chance to write yesterday, so today will have to be a double entry. I'm staying strong in my desire to quit games, and letting my cravings not deter me. Sure they come and go, but I can move past them with positive action. I found at one point on day 5 I was bored and depressed. I took myself out of the situation and realized my state, I had "Checked In" to the circumstance. Normally I would game when i felt like that, but this time I took a long walk and listened to a pod cast. Suddenly I wasn't so despondent. Today I'm grateful for: My Family, and our thanksgiving dinner

Day 4, Today was a lot easier then the previous ones, I managed to get to the gym as well as fit in a bit of guitar practice before heading to work. That really helped. Still getting occasional cravings but that's alright, I'm trying to just let them float on by. @zeke365 thanks for the kind words Zeke, it's true, being in the moment is a powerful tool lost on not just gamers but many people in our society. I recently started the book The Power of Now by Eckhart Tolle and it's got many excellent revelations that are similar to some of the ideas in respawn, I'd highly recommend it. @Andre2807 I definitely agree, I just need to learn to do these practices even when I'm feeling lethargic. Normally gaming would fill that void when I was not feeling like doing anything productive, so naturally without it I need to learn to be in the moment and not think of an old crutch. Today I'm grateful for: My walk to work, the brisk fall air and the beautiful yellow leafs

Day 3, Today was the hardest so far. Way more cravings then i expected, and I've been extremely lethargic. I did sign up for some meetups next week and I'm excited to go try some out. I'm trying to stick to my schedule but the lethargy is making it tough, so I watched some documentaries and listened to some podcasts instead of my active hobbies. Today I'm grateful for: My friends, who have all been very supportive in my decision to quit gaming

Day 2, Definitely had some cravings while at work today, caught myself thinking how I was going to play some games after work. But having deleted everything off my computer it was easier to say no to those temptations. Instead of playing games I listened to Dan Carlin's Hardcore History podcast and realized a bit of an interest in history. I'm still working towards other hobbies and figuring out what I like to do with all this free time! Today I'm grateful for: My silly cat, for loving me no matter what (Pic related)

Thanks Hitaru, I want to get back into music, and have taken some steps to start a band with my sister. I'm currently working through some beginner lessons on guitar, and trying to learn to sing well strumming (singers make it look so easy...) I also want to start writing again, and for that to happen i can't have the constant gnawing need to play games.

Mwick here, Just shooting out an introduction to the fine folks here at gamequitters. I found this site thanks to a professional recommendation, and am taking the plunge into the unknown. I decided to do the 90 day detox, and write my journal about the struggles and realizations of the withdraw. I'm excited (and a bit terrified) to start a new chapter of my life. Removing something that was present from my earliest days (4 years old!) is a daunting task, but I need to kick out this crutch and really focus on me. Until next time, Mwick

Mwick here, Oct 2, 2017 - Day 1 So today is my first day of the detox challenge. I arrived here thanks to the recommendation of a mental health therapist. I told them of how video games seemed to dominate my life, and fill almost all of my waking hours. Playing on average for 10 hours a day for 20 years, video games are (were?) my life. Previous thoughts of quitting were met with my own self doubt and a "what would i do otherwise" style thought process. Even though I knew video games were a major detriment to my life, I still found my way back to them, time and time again. As for quitting cold turkey, I'm scared. I'm scared I wont be able to fill the void video games fill in my life. I'm scared I will relapse. I'm scared that i don't have the willpower to change. But even with this fear, I want nothing more then to be the best version of me. I want to be free of a debilitating habit, and to truly live my life. To flourish in my skills and be the best person I can be, not just for myself, but for those around me. This is why I find myself here, and why I'm writing this journal today. Let's make this happen, Mwick Today I'm grateful for: My girlfriends support in helping me conquer my video game addiction. (She's the fucking bomb)My loving and supporting familyMy physical well beingMy full belly and roof over my headMy willingness to accept my faults, and attempt to change