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GameAddict added a topic in Start Here + IntroductionsIt started 4 days agoHello there, I'm happy I made it here after 1 year of procrastination, we all start games in childhood i started gaming in 1995 , none of my friends had PC in their homes yet , PC meant games to me nothing but games.
as i grow i managed to play and keep doing good at school I was and still am multitasking getting good grades and all.
Highschool ended and i got accepted in Faculty of engineering , this is when gaming really affected my studying , living away from my parents and alone it was an absolute freedom to do anything , I've always considered myself a hardcore gamer , i failed for the first time in my education life to an mmorpg game which i never play anymore 2 years wasted in playing worthless game , I played it because people played it in that country , rivarly and challenge among friends makes you wanna play more.
Did that even stop me?
nope , I've never thought that there is such a thing called game addiction till Cam talked about it.
My father gave me a chance to join other school which I liked more -the dental school- I took things seriously but still I didn't quit gaming i kept playing Call of Duty in my free time , didn't go to friends or anything just straight up to my pc , I remember playing the game on a 15 inch monitor with a low fps - this is addiction obviously- .
I've Graduated as a dentist and later on got married . My second day of marriage I played Call of Duty for 10 hours straight , I've been called a game addict by every single member of my family and I kept and was keeping denying with anger inside me saying " you don't know how precious gaming is to me ". it sounded to me like someone is insulting your parents. My wife loved me and she went through alot , I refused many times her requests to go get groceries and at that time I didn't have a job , my father sends me money and I just sleep play till next morning and sleep again.
I got employed in a clinic and i thought i would keep busy and manage my time , I knew gaming is my problem at this stage but I just couldn't quit , I like games , can't waste my talent "ughhh" . Unfortunately the clinic has few or no customers , owner is a rich guy with multiple investments pays me monthly for sitting on my desk with a computer with internet , Game addiction devil comes in with this idea , i can't just wait for 8 hours to get to home and play CoD , why don't you play from work. I brought an old VGA card hooked it to my work PC and bought RAM sticks and there you go an affordable gaming pc , till last Wednesday I've been playing 8 hours from work and 4- 6 hours from home , my index finger got injured but i didn't care , in somedays I really was not into playing games but mostly i just escape from my life problems , bills , car installment, kids stuff - btw I have 3 kids-
I spent almost two years till now in this clinic with almost no customers.
On last Thursday while playing late at night i browsed google and found Cam's video talking about game addiction. Every thing he says about game addicts is on point , it really shocked me when I found out that dopamine is the thing that keeps me playing for no reason my whole life was a waste . I'm 30 yrs old , what did I achieve in life? I checked how much time I played all series of call of duty it was more than 5000 hours play time on PC only - i has Xbox and ps too- , I remebered a qoute then which is :" when you put so much time in something , you become so good at it" . I told myself " imagine if i've put all this time in my studies , hobbies , and anything but gaming, wouldn't I become a better dentist ?, a better person?"
Of course I'm good at Call of Duty , Why? Because I wasted half of my youth on it .
Did my 100 nukes give me extra attention or money ? did I get rewarded in real life , did I get recognized ? Did an organization hire you for being good at games?
Then why spend so much time on it?
Now I quit because there is no reason to continue .
I regret how selfish I was . I was prefering buying new gear for my pc over my own kids and my wife.
This time I'm determined and I don't think I'm gonna go back again.
for a more than 15 years game addiction , i live through hell right now , i dream everyday about Call of duty , withdrawal symptoms are hard for me . But now I have my New family that support me
the family is You
The Gamer Dentist
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