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  1. Juha added a topic in Accountability Partners   

    24 year old Male looking for an accountability partner
    I'm a 24 year old male from Finland and I'm looking for an accountability partner to go along with 90-day detox and achieving personal goals.
    I'm currently something like 25 days of 90 on my detox.  It's sometimes really hard for me to just get things started, I'm trying to get the rhythm to get into gym 2-3 times a week and get my nutrition fixed on the side. I have many other plans and goals but these are main things I'm trying to work on, but let's talk about that other stuff if you're interested. 
    It would be good if we can chat every other day. I prefer texting but voice chat on skype/discord is not a problem either.
    Send PM and let's talk about more!
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  2. Juha added a post in a topic Fresh Start   

    Day 15
    Date: 10.05.2017
    Time I woke up: ~ 11.00
    Time I went to sleep yesterday: ~ 01.30
    Today I'm grateful for:
    - Finnish health care
    - New opportunities
    What went well today
    - Applied to work
    Quote of the day:
    " If it doesn't challenge you, it doesn't change you." - Fred DeVito
    Couldn't think about 2 weeks ago that I find myself from this situation. I see every day as totally different and as a new opportunity to get closer to my goals and dreams. About 4 days ago I got feeling that I really want a job and each day since then the feeling have gotten stronger and stronger and today I actually began and started to look open jobs and write applies, I'm feeling that I'm more than ready to take next step.
    If I look back only 1 month, I couldn't even think about going to a job, instead, I set excuses like "I'm sick, I'm not mentally ready to go job yet, no way I can handle anything if I get one etc" and just sat there and played games.
    Also, I have tried to figure out what else I want to do and there is actually a lot of dreams and goals but one thing come to my mind all the time; I want to start code/web design.
    This feels really great to actually be in control and to want more from life.
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  3. Juha added a post in a topic Fresh Start   

    Day 10
    Date: 05.05.2017
    Time I woke up: ~ 09.30
    Time I went to sleep yesterday: ~ 00.30
    Today I'm grateful for:
    - The decision to quit gaming
    - Being able to workout
    What went well today
    - I got myself to gym
    - Woke up early in the morning
    What did not go well today
    - Didn't ate really healthy today
    Quote of the day:
    “An entire sea of water can’t sink a ship unless it gets inside the ship. Similarly, the negativity of the world can’t put you down unless you allow it to get inside you.” - Goi Nasu 
    It's already Day 10 and this have been incredible journey. Well I havent write for few days on here but still checking this every day and other people stories which help me to keep on track. 
    The people around me have noticed some noticeable changes on me. They have said that they can see a lot more energy on me, I'm more present in this moment, I'm more open-minded and more. Sometimes I get cravings to install the games and go to play one game of something. I have checked some reddit posts and videos about gaming but haven't spent more than 30min max reading / watching it, usually I get feeling "F*ck this shit, I'm out" and start to do something more productivity like music or just go to sleep if I watch it nightime. But to avoid gaming, it feels like I have it totally under control; For example only 2 weeks ago when I got urge to go in gaming world (WoW / CS) there wasn't anything that could stop me to go into. 
    And the sleeping rhythm, I've had a lot problems with it, like month ago my basic was to go sleep at ~09 morning and wake at ~19.30 or something, This change actually started immidietly after I quit playing and haven't had any troubles since then! I have challenged myself past couple of days to go sleep everyday a bit earlier and eventually to get my rhythm to point when I wake at 06 morning and get myself into gym before starting my basic daily routines. 
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  4. Juha added a post in a topic Fresh Start   

     Day 5
    Date: 30.04.2017
    Time I woke up: ~ 12.30
    Time I went to sleep yesterday: ~ 01.50
    Today I'm grateful for:
    - Coffee
    - Sleeping
    - Meditation
    - 10 min guided meditation, I noticed that I got distracted with my toughts several times during that time. Compared to last time (Friday) my mind was a lot busier now, but mostly thinking what to do next etc.Meditation
    One amazing thing that happened/I did today
    - I met new people and was comfortable around them!
    What went well today
    - Meditated
    - Got the track I'm currently working closer to release point
    - Was comfortable around new people ( Wasn't nervous at any situation)
    What did not go well today
    - Drank a bit too much alcohol
    Quote of the day:
    "I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel" -Maya Angelou
    Compared to yesterday, this day was a lot better! I did write my journal to my notebook, meditated and spent time with friends and new people. One girl I met there made me feel so good and apperciate my life actually. In my perspective it felt like we did talk/communicated like we have known each other for many years, during last few year, this is really rare for me. 
    Even I spent time on my PC today, I didn't had urge to play any game, instead I worked on my music and actually enjoyed it, still there is some perfectionism on it. I have thought about perfectionism a bit during last few days and I have come to the conclusion that a lot of my perfectionism coming from gaming. Which prove it? Well, during the time I was playing wow, every time I was in raid, I had to beat many of the other raiders, still I was close to bottom cause I did raid casually. On CS I had feeling that I had to top frag all the games (which I did most of the time on my rank: LE / Lem on CSGO) or atleast avoid to be on bottom.
    I have felt perfectionism on music a lot aswell which have been blocked me to release new stuff frequently just because I have felt that the song isn't good enough even my friend and other people have said it's perfect. 
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  5. Juha added a post in a topic Fresh Start   

    Day 4
    Time I woke up: 10.20
    Time I went to sleep yesterday: ~02.50
    Today I'm grateful for:
    - Music
    - Finnish social security
    - Books
    - For this decision to quit gaming
    One amazing thing that happened/I did today
    - Deleted CS:GO which was last game I had on my computer! 
    Weekly Goal(s)
    - To not relapse on games (not installing anything back)
    - Write dreams and goals down, not just think about it. 
    Monthly Goal
    - Finished one book
    - Have some idea about direction of life I want to achieve
    What went well today
    - Deleted CS:GO which was last game I had on my computer
    - Managed to write journal here and my notebook even it felt anxious
    - Produced 5h music today
    What did not go well today
    - Have been sitting on computer many hours today
    - Watched netflix couple episodes
    - Got off track really easily, in this situation asap I plugged my computer back online I spent a lot time online surfing.
    Quote of the day:
    "To accomplish great things, we must not only act, but also dream, not only plan, but also believe." -Anatole France
    I have felt really lazy today. When I woke up, I had plans to "study" that book I'm reading but seems like I wasn't ready for that yet. 
    Seems like weather affecting to my mood and mind a lot. Yesterday I felt totally different than today, yesterday it was like summer but today It's been snowing almost whole day. Still it's one of the execuses I'm telling myself to not do things, it still shouldn't block me to do thing in home. I should focus more on good things on my life than negative which I have done a lot today, yet, there is a lot work to do with everything and I think this day feeling is only something related to that detox, gotta dig deeper and figure it out.
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  6. Juha added a post in a topic Fresh Start   

    Deleted * Doublepost
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  7. Juha added a post in a topic Fresh Start   

    @Reno F Thanks, I'll keep that in mind on my way forward this detox!
    @KevinV1990Great to hear this! I will, thank you! 
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  8. Juha added a post in a topic Fresh Start   

    Day 2 - Thursday 27.04.17
    Writing this on phone so this won't be as long as it could. Will use templates when I get back to my computer. Couldn't copy paste it for some reason. 
    Went to sleep night at 2 am, I woke up around 3 times that Wednesday - Thursday night and was so tired on morning so I woke up around 11 am. I had my basic morning routine which is; I watch Netflix and eat breakfast (Not really healthy right?)  But I'm on my way to working on it. Instead watching 3 episodes I did watch only 1 and did shut my TV.
    Right after it,  I wrote one page of journal about emotions, the step I took and what to do next. I went back to TV/YouTube watched some guitar tutorial, Cam videos and practiced / thought about it a moment. 
    As I said I'll plug off my computer until Saturday, I managed to keep the wire on box even I got cravings +15 times on that day. I spent about 2h on just cleaning kitchen and all papers I had there, surprisingly I did enjoyed it. 
    I also invited friend over so we watched Finnish hockey final and talked about life and everything. 
    On evening before bed, instead watching Netflix I did write another page of journal and read 12 page of book (Achieve anything in just a one year by Jason Harvey) I bought more than year ago. 
    Overall, the day was great and was good to notice that I can enjoy something else than surfing/gaming. 
    And the feeling on this morning, it was unbelievable, haven't felt something like that ever. It felt like I can think really clear, was so open and did smile more in one morning than in one year. Even my therapist said that he noticed right away that something on me was so different, in a good way. 
    Everyone of you who have been supporting and motivating me in these few days and everyone on this forum, thanks thousand times to make this possible. This community is pure gold. 
    This is only day 2 but I truly believe I can do this and get rid from this addiction. 
    Have a great day and enjoy every moment of it! 
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  9. Juha added a topic in Everything Else   

    5 Seconds Rule
    My brother linked me one really interesting video and I think it would somehow work when it comes to quit gaming. 
    I don't know have you talked about this yet, just started to took closer look for all of this stuff but here it is : https://youtu.be/GEdNNEqiA_w
    There is more content of this, but this video give quick idea what's that 5 Second rule is about
    What you think about this? 
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  10. Juha added a topic in Daily Journals   

    Fresh Start
    Day #1 
    It's 11.09 pm and I feel I have took big step on this.
    It was really hard to get out of bed, browsed internet on phone for 30min (Bad habit, doing that a lot). After that I went to a place which is meant for people who are going through hard part on life. Haven't thought that too much but after thinking with this mindset I have right now about quitting games and starting new chapter on life, It's feels great to know I have some place to go every morning and get support from there.
    When I got home I managed to produce music for 2h or more and I'm kinda happy with results I got. Watched some Cams GameQuitter videos and made plans how to move forward.
    I still played one game of CS:Go but it haven't been as big problem as WoW. I was almost shaking while thinking to delete WoW and all other games. But as evening went on I managed to do some big things. I logged into WoW sent all the stuff and gold (+200k & 500k worth on items) I had for one character and gave everything to randoms, after I was done with it I just deleted it. TBH it wasn't that big as it felt first. Deleted also every other games but CS:Go but will do that aswell, not just today. Well maybe CS is big problem for me after all.
    Next I'm gonna plug off my computer and will get back on this on saturday. 
    I am proud of myself with results I made today
    So until next time (saturday)
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  11. Juha added a post in a topic My story   

    @Cam Adair @Tom2 Thanks both of you!
    I'm going to take my first step today which we planned with my therapist, will plug off my computer and bring the wire to basement. Trying to keep it there Thursday and Friday and see what feelings / cravings it will bring to my mind and how I can manage that situation.
    I'm thinking to delete all of my games aswell but at the moment that just feels insurmountable task. How I can manage with that feeling? Thinking that scares the shit out of me.
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  12. Juha added a post in a topic Music Producing   

    Another music producer here! 
    That program LMMS look's pretty cool software to be free. 
    My suggestion about DAW (Digital audio workstation) going for FL Studio, incredably easy to use / write melodies / automations and all kind of stuff. When it comes to EDM, there is tons and tons of remakes out on youtube which works greatly studying structure and basics of making music. 
    If you want to know more about basics and stuff send me message and I get back to you ASAP!  
    PS. You can definitely make something beautiful in short time, I started producing 5 year ago with no knowledge at all, just get on right path right away and you can make hot tunes in no time!
    About my music, I'm more active on Soundcloud than Youtube so here they are:
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  13. Juha added a topic in Start Here + Introductions   

    My story
    Hey everyone,
    My name is Juha. I'm a 24-year-old guy and I have been addicted to gaming for more than 10 years already. My gaming started on PS1 with some 2000's games, can’t remember which, but that's not relevant. 
    When I got my first computer it barely ran any other games but runescape. At that point already it was such a grind something like 8 hours / day gaming, but the real game changer was when my brother moved to other country and I got my hands on his gaming PC. At the same time, I was so excited to finally have gaming PC, but I also felt so empty since my brother wasn't anywhere close, so I got deeper on gaming to avoid going through the feelings and loneliness. 
    I have been diagnosed with deep depression and I see therapist twice a week. We have discussed all this stuff there. We even have tried to make some plans for controlling how much time I spend each day on computer, but I don’t have the self-discipline or control over that, it's more like when I sit at the computer, I'll be there +8h and then maybe eat something and go back or watch some Netflix. Almost all the time I spend, I spend watching some sort of screen. This year only my average gaming each day is more than 10h+, mostly WoW but CSGo time to time when my friends ask me to play with them
    Gaming to me is an escape method which I have used for ages, it's helping me to forget my social anxiety and everything really. It feels like when I press my computer’s start button, it's also a start button to another side of me which in this situation is my addiction, from that point for the next hours it's controlling everything and trying to hold on it all the possible ways.
    Alt + F4 (Quit gaming):
    2014 I have already tried once to stop gaming, I sent a letter to Blizzard EU HQ where I gave them permissions to delete my whole Battle.net account. I also deleted every single game from my PC, it took a few months until I reinstalled most of them.
    That attempt was a consequence due to one of my online friend sent me link Cam's TEDx Talk  
    Last time I started gaming again just because I didn't know anything about what to do  when I'm not gaming but it's great to see what and how much Cam has done past few years to help us out on this.
    Maybe I forgot some stuff but anyway here we go.
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