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  1. Granitwelle added a post in a topic Kaizen - The Quest for Neverending Self-Improvement   

    Alright, this journal ends here. I'll keep it classy and write in a physical one from now on. I figured there'd be more exchange. Whatever, I need to walk my own way anyway. @mod: Feel free to delete this thread, sorry for the trouble. So long, GQ!
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  2. Granitwelle added a post in a topic Kaizen - The Quest for Neverending Self-Improvement   

    Journal Day #18 // Days without gaming: 40                                                                                                                                                         Tuesday, 4/4/2017
    I cracked the forty-day mark, only five more and 50% of my journey has been achieved. Returning to the metaphor of this journal, I'd say that I still meander in mist as I do not have full clarity in all my actions. Still feel a bit lost and overwhelmed at times but hey, everyone does at one point. The path starts to go uphill and things become a bit more challenging, but in hindsight, it's always the hard things that contribute more to shaping your character than the easy ones. In other words: back to work-a-holic mode. Doing sports has paid off and I lost some excess weight. Meditation keeps me grounded.
    Thanks for reading so far and thanks for all the comments, I'm glad I started this journey and have some fellow wanderers on the road to personal betterment. Let's push onward towards the peak, shall we?
    Gratitude journal
    - my family and my dog
    - my friends
    Workout/run: walked 3kms                                                Meditation: full cycle                                   Daily affirmation: Well done, keep going!Daily reflection:
    good incidents: started to work again
    bad incidents: procrastination
    potential for improvement: complain less, work more
    Gaze towards the future ~ personal goals
    Weekly Goal(s): revise concept for thesis, this will not work out in its current form
    Monthly Goal: make decent progress on the thesis, ace an important exam, keep moving onward
    3 Month Goal: Successfully complete 90 days of non-gaming in order to make my brain rewire. There is no way back as I do not own gaming-related stuff anymore, however withdrawal symptoms might be hard.
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  3. Granitwelle added a post in a topic Kaizen - The Quest for Neverending Self-Improvement   

    Journal Day #17 // Days without gaming: 39                                                                                                                                                         Monday, 3/4/2017
    Wasted away the weekend after I was binge work-a-holicing for three weeks. A buddy and I re watched several seasons of X-Files recently, I didn't know that there was another season. That ending, the worst cliffhanger ever, I wonder whether they'll make another one to give the series closure. Other than that, I didn't do much. Gotta get back into shape! Still no urge to game and energy levels are still increasing. However I need to practice some restraint for I am wasting away too much time in front of PCs and the internet.
    Any suggestions how to reduce screen time (PC) when you actually need it for work?
    Gratitude journal
    - my family and my dog
    - my friends
    Workout/run: exercise bike                                                Meditation: full cycle                                   Daily affirmation: You deserved some rest, now full throttle again!Daily reflection:
    good incidents: relaxed and enjoyed the day
    bad incidents: procrastination
    potential for improvement: complain less, work more
    Gaze towards the future ~ personal goals
    Weekly Goal(s): revise concept for thesis, this will not work out
    Monthly Goal: make decent progress on the thesis, ace an important exam, keep moving onward
    3 Month Goal: Successfully complete 90 days of non-gaming in order to make my brain rewire. There is no way back as I do not own gaming-related stuff anymore, however withdrawal symptoms might be hard.
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  4. Granitwelle added a post in a topic The Warrior's Infinite Opus   

    "Fall seven times, get up eight." Don't see it as defeat, you managed significantly more days than last time. Battles are not won by strength alone, but also by endurance. You can do it!
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  5. Granitwelle added a post in a topic Kaizen - The Quest for Neverending Self-Improvement   

    Journal Day #16 // Days without gaming: 37                                                                                                                                                         Saturday, 1/4/2017
    The first weekend I simply enjoyed and relaxed. I still have a lot of work to do, however one also needs to rest occasionally. As I threw out and sold everything gaming and manga related, I did not have a possibility to watch my Blu-Rays and DVD collection. Therefore, I bought a Blu-ray player yesterday and had a nice evening with friends. Nachos, salsa dip and a couple of hilarious B-movies served as welcome entertainment - Machete, Kung Fury, Tremors. Spent the rest of the day with the family and working in the garden for a while, repairing things and simply enjoying spring - crocuses and snowdrops everywhere.
    I still do not miss gaming after almost 40 days. The weeb is harder to overcome though lol
    Gratitude journal
    - my family and my dog
    - my friends
    Workout/run: exercise bike                                                Meditation: full cycle                                         Daily affirmation: Well done, keep going! Daily reflection:
    good incidents: relaxed and enjoyed the day, fixed a couple of things around the garden, socialised
    bad incidents: still a lot of work to do, --> bad conscience
    potential for improvement: complain less
    Gaze towards the future ~ personal goals
    Weekly Goal(s): get shit done like a boss check, I finished everything!
    Monthly Goal: Survive the first 30 days of gaming detox, get my paper done, study hard for upcoming exams and start working on my thesis  check
    3 Month Goal: Successfully complete 90 days of non-gaming in order to make my brain rewire. There is no way back as I do not own gaming-related stuff anymore, however withdrawal symptoms might be hard.
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  6. Granitwelle added a post in a topic Kaizen - The Quest for Neverending Self-Improvement   

    Journal Day #15 // Days without gaming: 36                                                                                                                                                         Friday, 31/03/2017
    Today was a tough day, but I stood my ground. Could have presented better, but hey, considering the fact that I wasn't presenting much during my gaming binges, I fared well. Finally had time to meditate and workout again. It's been 36 days already, time sure flies. Inertia and idleness still sometimes paralyze, however it is getting less and less frequent. Working on my personality now, I socialize more and I want to hire a coach after I finish my degree. This will take some time, but man it feels GOOD. What a fool I have been all those years, shackled by such a pointless hobby. I don't want to sound like an old man, back to work and lifting!Gratitude journal
    - my family and my dog
    - a good person who entered my life some time ago. Hope this will blossom into a full-scale friendship
    - my faith that has helped me through several tougher stretches of my life
    Workout/run: exercise bike, walked 3km                 Meditation: full cycle                    Daily affirmation: Well done, keep going! Daily reflection:
    good incidents: presentation went well, socialised a lot, more assertive compared to the past
    bad incidents: minor difference in opinion with peer, still too defensive
    potential for improvement: increase awareness of deceptive people
    Gaze towards the future ~ personal goals
    Weekly Goal(s): get shit done like a boss check, I finished everything!
    Monthly Goal: Survive the first 30 days of gaming detox, get my paper done, study hard for upcoming exams and start working on my thesis  check
    3 Month Goal: Successfully complete 90 days of non-gaming in order to make my brain rewire. There is no way back as I do not own gaming-related stuff anymore, however withdrawal symptoms might be hard.
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  7. Granitwelle added a post in a topic d1rty's secrets   

    Hang in there! Do you practice other forms of martial arts aside from karate as well? I plan on picking up kendo soon. Used to practice judo as a kid.
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  8. Granitwelle added a post in a topic In search of bravery   

    Awareness is the first element of change. Don't fret because you failed once, you got back up and on your feet and are willing to fight again for becoming a better version of yourself.
    Fall seven times, get up eight (Japanese proverb)
    I was playing Ingress (Niantic, "ancestor" of Pokemon Go) religiously at one point in my life as I thought it is a form of social gaming and better as it is active. Then I realized that the community was toxic and I basically drove around like an idiot, wasting time, money and fuel only to capture some elusive portal in the middle of nowhere. Don't see the game as investment if it holds you back. Then it is a shackle rather than an investment. Invest in yourself, and the future self you cultivate will be your return on investment ~ life pays better dividends, gaming didn't do anything for me

    Maybe lifting and meditation helps?
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  9. Granitwelle added a post in a topic KevinV1990's Journal   

    Congrats on the 22 days mate, keep up the good work. Also good that you lift, physical strain might be tough at first but the effects are worth the hassle. Reading is a rewarding hobby indeed, however I mostly read for work or studies only. Poetry and the occasional short story are the only forms of recreational reading for me. Time to finish that one Hemingway novel.
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  10. Granitwelle added a post in a topic [DE] Mein Problem   

    Gut dass du aufhören willst. War bei mir auch so, entweder ein Maximum an Zocken oder ein Maximum an Lernen. Ich studiere derzeit und ärgere mich, dass ich in der Oberstufe nicht mehr gelernt habe. Sinnlose Zeitfresser wie du sagst, bringt rein gar nix. Sport und mehr Zeit mit dem Freundeskreis verbringen sind definitv sinnvoller. Häng dich rein und streb die 90 Tage ohne Zocken an, ein gutes Abi bringt dich hundert mal weiter im Leben als irgendein Highscore.
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  11. Granitwelle added a post in a topic Kaizen - The Quest for Neverending Self-Improvement   

    Journal Day #14// Days without gaming: 34                                                                                                              Wednesday, 29/03/2017
    Things get better and better every day. Stress recedes and I find joy in cultivating my mind and socializing with the right people. Meditation might have changed my mind on many things, however I have become way more positive and start to cut out negative influences from my life. Life is an opportunity rather than a threat. Since I started tougher sports and exercises, sweating out the beta-remnants gaming spawned, self-esteem increases in leaps and bounds. Screw external validation, the crippling crutch of (a)social media and the fleeting opinion of others. It's all within, we just need to move our lazy behind lolGratitude journal
    - my decision to quit gaming
    - Amorphis (Under the Red Cloud), Killswitch Engage
    - Lipton Ice Tea
    One amazing thing that happened/I did today
    - quit being a nice guy, but rather being "selectively polite" 
    Workout/run: squats, jumping jacks, jab punches low/mid/hi kicks
    Meditation: full cycle
    Daily affirmation: . Fall seven times, get up eight (Japanese proverb)
    Reading:  Miyamoto Musashi: Gorin no Sho
    Weekly Goal(s): get shit done like a boss
    Monthly Goal: Survive the first 30 days of gaming detox, get my paper done, study hard for upcoming exams and start working on my thesis  check
    3 Month Goal: Successfully complete 90 days of non-gaming in order to make my brain rewire. There is no way back as I do not own gaming-related stuff anymore, however withdrawal symptoms might be hard.
    What went well today: productive like a boss
    What I could have done to make my day better: quit gaming years ago already lol
    What I will do differently tomorrow:  work, however remain vigilant as I expect something negative to happen soon
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  12. Granitwelle added a post in a topic Kaizen - The Quest for Neverending Self-Improvement   

    Chapter 2: Misty Mountain Trail (Day 30-60)

    霧深い山道, the “misty mountain trail”, shall be the motif for the second month of the journey. The sublime eeriness of fog and its property of blurring vision should reflect doubt and uncertainty that is an integral part of our journey.
    The wanderer has left the flat and winding road of life, took a detour at a junction and now meanders towards a large mountain, slowly but resolutely. The trail leads uphill and the wanderer eventually reaches a lush forest with a verdant canopy. Compared to the flat road, this path is harder to navigate as loose roots and massive stone plates are scattered all across the path. Nonetheless, the wanderer presses on steadily uphill.
    Eventually, a thick, enshrouding fog impairs his vision and he needs to rest for a while and scan the environment in order to find his bearings. A looming shadow in the distance. Crippled woodwork and dead trees beneath the road. He shudders briefly, but then smiles. He sees the bright sunlight through both the thick fog as well as the verdant canopy. The path leads uphill, this is all he needs to know as he marches on, anticipating the joy of reaching the peak and beholding the stunning panorama from the top.
    The way is the goal. Fear and doubt shall not stop me.
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    Journal Day #13// Days without gaming Day 31// Monk-Mode Day 2                                                                                         Sunday, 26/03/2017
    Gratitude journal
    - my family, my dog
    - Yoshida Brothers (Shamisen music)
    Workout/run: - (caught a cold and had to take a break for two days)
    Meditation: entire cycle
    Daily affirmation: Alright, month two already. Bring it on!
    Reading:  Nicolo Macchiavelli - Il Principe
    Weekly Goal(s): serious progress on thesis, less complaining,  not met, had to work on other assignments which were more pressing
    Monthly Goal: Survive the first 30 days of gaming detox, get my paper done, study hard for upcoming exams and start working on my thesis done, will rework thesis concept
    be more active during the second month (day 30-60), ace an exam at the end of the month, thesis
    3 Month Goal: Successfully complete 90 days of non-gaming in order to make my brain rewire. There is no way back as I do not own gaming-related stuff anymore, however withdrawal symptoms might be hard.
    One amazing thing that happened/I did today: worked on case study
    What went well today: work
    What I could have done to make my day better: wake up earlier, be less doubtful
    What I will do differently tomorrow: work more
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  13. Granitwelle added a post in a topic Kaizen - The Quest for Neverending Self-Improvement   

    Fin ~ Chapter 1: Hitting the Road of Life (Day 1-30)

    30 days-The first milestone of the 90-day gaming detox has finally been reached. A month has passed since I have sold everything gaming, manga and anime related. The sole remnant of this period is my avatar here which stems from a series which also strongly reflects the "journey" motif, the "theme" of my journal.
    I decided to take a break, make a brief stop and reflect upon my progress and experiences so far. The previous month was tough, but change never comes easily or without sacrifice. I have socialized a lot more compared to the past, however I still waste too much time in front of the PC. My brief periods of escapism in the form of taking naps decrease and I feel comparatively higher energy levels throughout the day. This was presumably a consequence of my brain rewiring, trying to fill the wealth of time I now have at my disposal. Basic muscles and stamina are coming back as I spend a lot of time on our exercise bike/treadmill. Whereas I do not have built up sufficient muscle for lifting weights extensively, I am really looking forward to it. Moreover, I will also pick up martial arts and I'm really looking forward to the warmer weather. Training outside, learning the basic kata (moves) of kendo (swordsmanship). Meeting new people at the dojo will be exciting. I'm pumped!
    For a strange reason though, I seem to be more emotional compared to the past where I used to be rather stoic and without much external expression. It's like a sea of repressed emotion, built up over a decade, now breaking free as the dam cracks and the torrential flood gushes out (poetic mood again). We're blokes, so we tend to bottle it up - bulldog spirit, stiff upper lip, keep calm and carry on, "ganbatte spirit" or whatever you want to call it. I'll have to learn how to deal with this circumstance, it does not go well with my ideal image of becoming a tougher, better version of myself. Presumably a temporary phenomenon.
    Practicing meditation and mindfulness makes my actions with peers significantly more enjoyable and deep. I bought a collection of incense sticks, a Nepalese singing bowl as well as qigong balls (Baoding balls). For the calming effect rather than the esoteric pursuit, I practice a full cycle of chakra meditation on an almost daily basis. People start to notice the change as I try to be more compassionate, listen more and provide advice. Some even jokingly call me a priest. Gaming and succumbing to my primal instincts (PMO) has cultivated anxiety and a negative self-image over the course of time, so I am quite astonished how well I'm received by others recently. Still, I should become less dependent. I started another period of monk mode and pair it with a light version of NoFap (7 day productivity boost).
    We are masters of our own instincts and we can forge our future for we are not slaves to primal needs and drive (gluttony, lust, urge to play games). It definitely feels like the right path.
    Cumulative Progress: Days of journalling: 12  Days without gaming. 30  (Status 25/03/2017)
     
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  14. Granitwelle added a post in a topic The Cave You Fear To Enter Holds the Treasure You Seek   

    Nice title for a journal, I could not agree more. We need to face our demons otherwise others they control us. Or let's reverse the situation: what if we actually sit in the cave and the shadow of the people passing by is our ideal self-image when we free ourselves from the chains of addictions? (reference: Plato's cave allegory).
    Keep up the good work!
     
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  15. Granitwelle added a post in a topic Kaizen - The Quest for Neverending Self-Improvement   

    Journal Day #11 // Days without gaming Day 29// Monk-Mode Day 0                                             Friday, 24/03/2017
    Another productive day, presentation went surprisingly well and all assignments were completed. Furthermore, we also had a nice business dinner in the evening. I was way too formal and tense, however it was enjoyable, the food was great and the wine they served as well. I usually don't drink alcohol nowadays, however it's part of business anyway. I socialised a lot and eventually failed monk-mode (back to square 1). Caught a cold as well, no time to waste and tons of deadlines in the next two weeks. Challenge accepted I presume?
     
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  16. Granitwelle added a post in a topic Kaizen - The Quest for Neverending Self-Improvement   

    Don't see this in a negative light. You still have plenty of time to improve and undo some of the havoc gaming wreaks. I'm a couple of years ahead, yeah, but things don't get better by themselves. I wasted a ton of time and opportunities and everything feels like damage minimisation rather than improvement tbh.
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  17. Granitwelle added a post in a topic Kaizen - The Quest for Neverending Self-Improvement   

    Business Administration, quite tough degree indeed. Quite tough paired with the detox lol. Fairing quite well though. You're student as well, right?
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    Journal Day #10 // Days without gaming Day 27// Monk-Mode Day 2                                                Wednesday, 22/03/2017
    Short entry today, yet another productive day. My brain is craving for a dopamine fix but all I have is work and sport at the moment. My stamina is returning and I feel more alive every day. This weekend, I'll add crunches, sit-ups, jumping jacks and squats to the mix. Meditation really keeps me grounded and I realize that testosterone is coming back as well. Still felt some negative repercussions, it's getting tougher.
    Gratitude journal
    - Poets of the Fall; Metal
    - Schweppes Bitter Lemon (lemonade)
    Workout/run: walked 3 kilometers
    Meditation: entire cycle
    Daily affirmation: Only three more days. 30 day mark is in reach!
    Reading:  Nicolo Macchiavelli - Il Principe
    Weekly Goal(s): serious progress on thesis, less complaining,
    Monthly Goal: Survive the first 30 days of gaming detox, get my paper done, study hard for upcoming exams and start working on my thesis
    3 Month Goal: Successfully complete 90 days of non-gaming in order to make my brain rewire. There is no way back as I do not own gaming-related stuff anymore, however withdrawal symptoms might be hard.
    One amazing thing that happened/I did today: completed uni assignments
    What went well today: socialization, work
    What I could have done to make my day better: stop caring and over-analyzing everything.
    What I will do differently tomorrow: not much, work like a madman
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  18. Granitwelle added a post in a topic Kaizen - The Quest for Neverending Self-Improvement   

    Journal Day #9 // Days without gaming Day 26 // Monk-Mode Day 1                                                                                                             Tuesday, 21/03/2017
    What has been intended to be a significant contribution to a team task was met with criticism as it was to in-depth and detailed. One needs to consider these things nonetheless, however the time pressure of our schedule does not allow for such things. I hate learning things by heart and not having sufficient time to reflect on content. We are not robots, but critical human beings with an intellect of our own, the capacity to understand, derive principles and form both the environment and ourselves to our own will. Yet the Bachelor system forces one to minimize effort and to reproduce bullet points like a broken record. I am so looking forward to a proper job to be honest.
    Complaining will get me nowhere, time to man up and "get shit done" and avoid to "half-ass" betterment attempts, as an international study colleague from Kentucky would always put it. Well then, I start another period of monk mode then.
    Gratitude journal
    - parents
    - professors that challenge you but motivate and help you develop further
    Workout/run: 1 hour on the treadmill. As soon as I recover my stamina, I will start lifting again
    Meditation: entire cycle
    Daily affirmation: Rome was not built in a day. Baby steps were made and I am on the right track now. (JK: Have to walk for myself though, there is no fast-travel option in life)
    Reading:  Nicolo Macchiavelli - Il Principe
    Weekly Goal(s): serious progress on thesis, less complaining,
    Monthly Goal: Survive the first 30 days of gaming detox, get my paper done, study hard for upcoming exams and start working on my thesis
    3 Month Goal: Successfully complete 90 days of non-gaming in order to make my brain rewire. There is no way back as I do not own gaming-related stuff anymore, however withdrawal symptoms might be hard.
    One amazing thing that happened/I did today: worked a lot and tried to reduce the workload for a group assignment
    What went well today: productive day
    What I could have done to make my day better: I want to overcome the beta mindset and become the best version of myself that I can become, be less dependent on others, become a jack of all trades who is able to operate on his own but also a pure team player if necessary.
    What I will do differently tomorrow:  work, team work, prep work for assignments, hopefully time to revise concept for thesis
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  19. Granitwelle added a post in a topic The Warrior's Infinite Opus   

    @Destoroyah Indeed, you got me I see the journey theme and the zen vibe are in a way inspiration for my journal as well as my current attempt to improve. Fits well with the RL meditation and occasional craving for literature/poetry lol.  It is a good series, there are some lackluster episodes but the majority is really good imho. It is also highly rated on MAL so I'm not  the only dude who claims that^^.
    @Schwing: Indeed, the 90s had some really nice shows. Trigun, Ghost in the Shell, Hellsing, Elfenlied etc.
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  20. Granitwelle added a post in a topic The Warrior's Infinite Opus   

    As you seem to meditate, there might be an anime you could like: Mushishi as well as season 2: Mushishi Zoku Shou; Part 1 + Part 2
    It's hard to characterise this series - episodic travel narrative with a buddhist/zen touch to it. Amazing O.S.T. and great artwork. I quit my weeb life mostly due to the fanservice/"moe"-ificiation of many anime. There are, however, some anime I would still watch anytime -> Cowboy Bebop, Mushishi, Ghost in the Shell SAC 1/2, Darker than Black (even though the story still does not make much sense) as well as Black Lagoon (Season 1)
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  21. Granitwelle added a post in a topic Kaizen - The Quest for Neverending Self-Improvement   

    Journal Day #8 // Days without gaming: 23                                                                                                                 Saturday, 18/03/2017
    Time sure passes quickly. Just a mere week separates me from the first milestone of 30 days w/o gaming. Conversely, I never perceived my decision as wrong or longed for games. I did not even feel the urge to play. I presume that it was not an addiction in my case then, but rather a filler for the lack of other activities and options to spend my time. I make a lot of progress on several assignments we have received for the next fortnight, however I lack this time for prep work on my thesis (biggest assignment). This will be a stress spike I need to consider for the next couple of months. Still, I cannot convert myself to a pure workaholic as it seems. I need to find meaningful hobbies for the future, however work currently prevents me from doing so. I have been flirting with martial arts for a while, maybe I'll pick up archery (kyudo) or swordsmanship (kendo). One is never too old for these things after all.Gratitude journal
    - my family
    - more rain
    - a very particular type of char that tastes amazing if it is prepared with butter, spice and a slight dash of lemon. Add some potatoes and vegetables and you have a feast!
    One amazing thing that happened/I did today
    - significant progress on assignments, set up collaboration platform for work group, had an amazing conversation with team members
    Workout/run: -nothing-   --> this is bugging me actually. No time for sport
    Meditation: -nothing- --> likewise, no time for meditation. Need to get back into the cycle
    Daily affirmation: Rome was not built in a day. Baby steps were made and I am on the right track now. (JK: Have to walk for myself though, there is no fast-travel option in life)
    Reading:  Nathaniel Branden's book on self-esteem
    Weekly Goal(s): spend less time on the PC, be more proactive  --> doing well, one more day       check, comparatively less time wasted
    Monthly Goal: Survive the first 30 days of gaming detox, get my paper done, study hard for upcoming exams and start working on my thesis
    3 Month Goal: Successfully complete 90 days of non-gaming in order to make my brain rewire. There is no way back as I do not own gaming-related stuff anymore, however withdrawal symptoms might be hard.
    What went well today: another very productive day. so far, so good
    What I could have done to make my day better: make up for lack of meditation and sport
    What I will do differently tomorrow:  work, team work, prep work for assignments, hopefully time to revise concept for thesis
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  22. Granitwelle added a post in a topic The Warrior's Infinite Opus   

    (just my POV) I see where you are coming from. Most people have their own problems and they tend to avoid negative people/thought. Capitalism to certain extent and social media (i.e. stroking the super-ego) cultivates egoism and renders people shallow, but who are we to judge? I've been through the same shit, cut people out of my life, going full lone wolf in an attempt to "make it right". Didn't work out, was perceived as a drama only. People are drawn to positivity, success and greatness, an introvert, gamer/weeb or metalhead does not really go well with this concept (that's how it was for me during school). You are working on yourself and you try to improve your position - this alone is a noble pursuit.
    I try to fix it by focusing on self-improvement and I try to care less about opinions of others - you can't change other people, but you can change yourself!
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  23. Granitwelle added a post in a topic Kaizen - The Quest for Neverending Self-Improvement   

    Journal Day #7 // Days without gaming: 22         Friday, 17/03/2017
    University went well today, made a lot of progress but still face a high workload. I socialise a lot but I do not find time for sports, I'll make up for that now.
    It has been raining a lot lately as well. I like the mood actually, on the one hand, it makes me pensive and lost in thought. I get a craving to be creative, to write something or philosophize a bit. A nice mug of coffee, relaxing, somber piano music (/classical music/downtempo/ chillout) and a good book - this is the life If you talk a long, extended walk with your dog, immersed by nature with that fresh scent lingering in the air - sublime. The world is purified and peaceful, as one poet might put it (and especially true if you live in a city).
    I digress, however I wanted to reflect a bit upon this peculiar mood. I'll start working on my assignments now again, no dilly-dallying. I'm not playing games after all anymore, so I'd better quit that mindset. We all have dormant latent potential which must be polished, so I better get started ^^
    Gratitude journal
    - rain for turning me into a wannabe poet-philosopher
    - my dog
    One amazing thing that happened/I did today
    - getting out of my comfort zone, socialising like a boss (no logical need for anxiety as it seems, it goes well if one tries)
    Workout/run: -nothing-
    Meditation: full cycle
    Daily affirmation: Keep calm and carry on! And yes, we have such a poster at our university.
    Reading:  Nathaniel Branden's book on self-esteem
    Weekly Goal(s): spend less time on the PC, be more proactive  --> doing well, one more day
    Monthly Goal: Survive the first 30 days of gaming detox, get my paper done, study hard for upcoming exams and start working on my thesis
    3 Month Goal: Successfully complete 90 days of non-gaming in order to make my brain rewire. There is no way back as I do not own gaming-related stuff anymore, however withdrawal symptoms might be hard.
    What went well today: tough day, but very productive. Did not sleep away my time
    What I could have done to make my day better: Quit complaining and end social anxiety. Would be sweet if there was a quick fix for that
    What I will do differently tomorrow:  Not much, keep on working, travel back to my place of study and (hopefully) ace the upcoming presentations
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  24. Granitwelle added a post in a topic Kaizen - The Quest for Neverending Self-Improvement   

    Thanks for the recommendations, Schwing! You might not like Faun as they are quite unusual (Medieval, Folklore, German vocals), however as I listen to Eluveitie, I deem Faun a rather good complement to Eluveitie's harder stuff.
    Journal Day #6 // Days without gaming: 21         Thursday, 16/03/2017
    Not much happened today. I start to feel some withdrawal effects, slept a lot in the past two days (no lectures). I finished many household chores, however I only digress from the more important things. Next two weeks will be tough. Finished my paper as well, not that it is much of an achievement though (only three pages). I'll start to revise for finals, better than sleeping or partying too much (just another form of escapism). On we go!
    Gratitude journal
    - my parents again, my crazy family
    One amazing thing that happened/I did today
    - did some maintenance work in the household, removed limestone and cleaned the flat for a bit
    Workout/run: -nothing-
    Meditation: full cycle
    Daily affirmation: I managed to hit the third week w/o gaming! Nine more days and the first milestone is achieved!
    Reading:  Nathaniel Branden's book on self-esteem
    Weekly Goal(s): spend less time on the PC, be more proactive
    Monthly Goal: Survive the first 30 days of gaming detox, get my paper done, study hard for upcoming exams and start working on my thesis
    3 Month Goal: Successfully complete 90 days of non-gaming in order to make my brain rewire. There is no way back as I do not own gaming-related stuff anymore, however withdrawal symptoms might be hard.
    What went well today: Well I was semi-productive (improvement over yesterday)
    What I could have done to make my day better: My all time low so far. I seem to look for alternative things such as YouTube/craving for Anime now that I quit gaming. I should not waste more time.
    What I will do differently tomorrow: plan on visiting the library to find some inspiration pertaining to work
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  25. Granitwelle added a post in a topic Burnout   

    SMART targets might help as well. Keep your goals within possible reach. Destoroyah's triangle (or a variation thereof) is also frequently mentioned in management literature, I second this!
    S = strategic (it should be a goal that boosts you in any way)
    M = measureable (ability to quantify the goal, to weigh it)
    A = achieveable (possible within all levels of the group)
    R = realistic (can be achieved)
    T = time-bound (manageable within a feasible timeframe
    I manage 60 hrs/week. If you go for 80hrs, you need to slowly train resilience over years, work overtime and find something you truly have passion for. I call the 80hrs "overdrive" as I manage to do it for three weeks/month at max and then I need a "cooldown" period. The question is "is it really worth it?"
    Excessive work often comes with bad habits to make it bearable, i.e. overindulgence of any form - smoking, fatty food, heavy drinking, lack of exercise, you name it. I'm perfectionist in my endeavours, so I tend to put my all into them. I learned the hard way that one needs qualitative recreation (no screen/gaming), otherwise one works like a capacitor (max power - recharge - max power - recharge...). Constant output is better than spikes however, that's why I think it is quite important to take it easy and be more enduring if that makes sense. Marathon runner vs. sprinter. Unfortunately, we don't work like batteries. Don't push yourself too hard!

    (I'm not a doc, Taken from a psychology lecture) There is "eustress" (positive stress that motivates) and "distress" (negative stress that impairs, sickens). If you keep up crazy work weeks for prolonged periods, eustress turns to distress and it will often also have negative implications on the body (impact on heart or arteries, irregular sleeping patterns, psychosomatic issues etc.). The body is in fight or flight mode and anticipates danger, therefore produces fibrin. Moreover, it also tends to absorb high-density lipids (HDL), the "bad type of fat" such as cholesterol. This combination is like a time bomb if stress prevails.
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