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Day 0

Habits:

  • Positive: (Lab_work:0, Russian:0, R programming:0, Excel:0, Workout:0, Stretching:0) 
  • Gaming free:0 

 

Productive time: 00:00:00

Get out of bed time: 00:00

 

Here we go again, I have been testing things out over last few day, even relapsed a bit once again and came back to conclusion that I want to keep up this journal daily, write it in the morning and decided to delete old one and make a new start. Something just felt right about this reset. I have managed to fix my schedule a bit and started waking up early and work on several things important to me before I tackle the day on. This will allow me to have a true free time in the afternoon. I noticed that if I do not post here daily I have a much higher chance of relapse so I stopped my other personal journal and will solely post here. The main few things that are new/I am excited about is that I started using Beeminder to be a bit more harsh on myself and have have a real incentive to do my habits. I enjoy most of them do not get me wrong, however I struggle to start and can become pray to laziness (a bit too often). I changed my morning routine a bit and I have been able to wake up pretty early and follow through my tasks as I intend to which is a huge improvement.

@Jason70 I used that in the past, but the 5 second rule did not work that well for me. What I do now is that I set up my alarm that I need to go to the kitchen and scan coffee barcode to turn it off. This way I get out of bed and make coffee as the first thing in the dat. I would prefer to avoid coffee but this kind of ritual works well for me to stay awake and get to work on things such a journaling and Duolingo which I do in the morning now. I think the issue with exercise right away is that it is a big task that I just do not want to do so procrastinating by hiding in bed is much easier option. I am not biggest fan of YT of social media in the morning as that just distracts me and I end up wasting even more time. But thank you for suggestions. I think I found my routine atm, will see how it pays out over long term. 

 

Thank you for reading and I will see you tomorrow.

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I'm celebrating your new journal and commitment to do it every morning. Yay just like me. I totally found teh same thing to be true. Whenever I don't post I'm more prone to relapse, so I decided to post every morning as well. it's my routine now. I have a paper journal but I just write in it if I have time I don't really make it a priority yet. Habits are good,.

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Day 1

Habits:

  • Positive: (Lab_work:1, Russian:1, R programming:1, Excel:1, Workout:1, Stretching:1) 
  • Gaming free:1 

 

Productive time: 05:57:00

Get out of bed time: 08:05

 

Yesterday was okay. I have not done some main things I wanted to but at least I woke up early and got done with my routines and habits and everything seems to be working quite nicely. I realized that I am struggling with overstimulation. I constantly seek some random small thing that would give me some dopamine and keep me in this happy state while I procrastinate. Number one for this is gaming, as I get completely lost in it and can forget about real world struggles. Second would be gaming videos. They are usually funny and hype enough that I just keep watching them in excess. Third would be YouTube in general, it does not even matter if it is educational content or not, even if I like to watch documentaries on there, it is not worth if I do it instead of working on my project. I guess social media would be rank 4 but I do not spend much time on them. They provide some entertainment with memes and videos but I just can't be bothered to keep going on scrolling through them. 

I have a feeling that this issue is more common in today world, just looking at how people watch so much of tik tok or insta reals just for that short burst of entertainment. I know I need to do something about it because when I don't I waste time and feel miserable. When I limit all of this overstimulating thing, more mundane tasks became fun and are much more enjoyable. So the way I am going to deal with it and what worked in past is: gaming and gaming videos are a bit no no, YouTube, I blocked all suggestions. And anything else that will cause problems in the future I will block/limit. 

P.S. one thing that I completely forgot about are phone notifications. I am going to implement a lot more DnD mode. It always feels like I am missing out on stuff but am I? Possibly but its nothing compared to the constant interruptions that notifications pose. I also downloaded a new Pomodoro timer, very minimalistic but is nice and simple, easy to use and during session turns on DnD automatically which is just what I wanted. Hopefully all this changes will work out well for me. 

@TheNewMe2.0 Thank you mate! Whenever I took a longer break from here I usually ended up relapsing. I would say that being on here helps me keep myself in check as well as it keeps me in my identity of someone who quit gaming. I found it very conflicting to post on here when I relapsed. It was surprisingly uncomfortable writing posts about quitting games when I was playing them. In the past the morning posts were the easiest to keep up with so here we go again. Usually in the evening when I am already tired it is easy to skip the post and slip into some gaming videos and that's how each one of the relapses begun. 

 

Thank you for reading and I will see you tomorrow.

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Good luck with your changes. I was in AA for a year and although it wasn't for me to stay long term. They said something that might be useful. Don't concern yourself with all the other stuff you're struggling with like youtube or netflix. Just make your priority getting off the games and gaming videos for now. Once you go like a month or so without that then look into moderating the other stuff. And it's okay to not be perfect, none of us are anyways. Your points are valid on why it helps you stay off games. Good awareness of your habits and I hope you keep up the morning posting, it's gone well for me. I'm a little odd in that I believe being on here infuses me with gamequitting energy for the day which alllows me to not game.

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Day 2

Habits:

  • Positive: (Lab_work:2, Russian:2, R programming:2, Excel:2, Workout:1, Stretching:1) 
  • Gaming free:2 

 

Productive time: 08:00:00

Get out of bed time: 07:45

 

Yesterday was a good day, I felt a bit anxious as I was struggling to work with some data. I realized that I have still a huge gaps in my programming knowledge because I was only learning it a little and had not used it for my project properly yet. Even thought the main issue was with the data itself I was annoyed that I was not able to solve it. Once I calmed down I was pretty intrigued by this challenge and I will try to figure it out in the upcoming days. Besides that I have done all of my daily habits that I wised to do. It was my rest day so no workout. I was thinking about going for the run but I didn't end up going. I got back to reading and I am close to finishing light novel series with only one book left. 

@TheNewMe2.0 That is a good advice. My main goal is to be able to get all the work done and then enjoy free time later. I have been struggling with this my whole life and gaming played a big role in this. I belive that this morning routine will help me achieve this. I just hate living in that constant stress of deadlines and other shit that I postponed to the last minute. If I am proactive and solve the issues as they come up I am much more happy. But you are right, gaming is the main thing  I need to make sure to control. At the end of the day, it is just a different name for it but as long as we get the same effect of avoiding games for the rest of the day that is what matters!

 

Thank you for reading and I will see you tomorrow.

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Those novels sound fun to read. Better than games for u probably. Yeah getting the work done before chill time is the best. Totally staying off the games is a good thing. Then you deal with everything else and it's still a struggle. But I think life is better for most people who quit gaming after having a problem with it. You'll focus all your energy on other things that're more productive and make you feel better about yourself. Like I was still working when I gamed but the only exercise I got were sit ups. I literally did nothing else but game and eat microwaveable food and work. It was uh I felt like two parts of me existed. One was content to just game my life away and never achieve much else. The other part wanted to do other things and live life more fully. And the living life part won out eventually. Yeah I'd say life's better now and I'm in a much better mood than when I was dealing with the toxic community.

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Day 3

Habits:

  • Positive: (Lab_work:3, Russian:3, R programming:3, Excel:3, Workout:2, Stretching:2) 
  • Gaming free:3 

 

Productive time: 10:38:00

Get out of bed time: 07:30

 

Yesterday was great. I got everything done and really enjoyed the morning routine. I like how I get most of the main things out of the way and then when I go to the lab and finish there was nothing that I needed to do in the afternoon. I kinda felt bored tbh. I ended up watching some gaming videos which was not good. I might slowly wean out of those. They are a risk of relapse but I am aware of that and I won't game. Even if things go perfectly and I could do it in the evening it is not possible. If I do that then it will slowly corrupt my morning routine and overall productivity. Not even sure how many times I tried this approach but it always ended the same so. Today I am being a bit slow, lacking a bit of motivation but will have to just keep moving through the motions. I am happy that yesterday went as it did, it felt great to get so much work done and it did not even feel like such a chore. Not I just need to keep this up for some more time until it becomes habitual!

@TheNewMe2.0 They are pretty easy to read but sometimes there are weird moments which might be issue with translation or just the difference between western and Japanese culture. Non gaming is for sure the way to go. I know it can provide entertainment, but then if I stop myself and think. "Why gaming?" So many other things are entertaining, maybe not as much but that's even better. I think it is again the overstimulation, we get so used to it that we need the stronger drug to feel the high. If I do not game I enjoy book, outdoors, movies and so much more. Everything is boring. And to top is to game, while gaming watch YouTube on second screen and also do something on my phone. It sounds ridiculous but I have a feeling that is the ultimate end point that lot of people find themselves in. That is the other issue, if you want to be someone else that chronic gamer, then gaming is the opposite of what you want to do and this internal conflict causes so much anxiety. It's great that you managed to stay game free for so long! Keep it up, I am sure we do much better without games. At the end of the day, do we need it? Does it give us anything else than shallow entertainment? No...

 

Thank you for reading and I will see you tomorrow. 

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Totally gaming is ridiculously stimulating. And it makes everything pale in comparison. That's why people who game don't usually watch tv or read or do anything but game and other essential obligations. Because everything else feels boring when you're gaming. Thanks so much for your support. I'm really grateful for this site, I wasn't able to quit until I came here even though I tried many times. I'm buildig my nomasturbation streak now too. I hope I can make that streak over a year someday and be like really good at quitting all these things. Hehe that's my like sobriety dream. Ya we don't need it and it doesn't add to our lives.

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Day 4

Habits:

  • Positive: (Lab_work:4, Russian:4, R programming:4, Excel:4, Workout:3, Stretching:3) 
  • Gaming free:4 

 

Productive time: 9:44:00

Get out of bed time: 08:25

 

Another great day yesterday. It started super slow and I felt pretty lazy in the morning but I managed to get through my morning routine even though it too quite some time. Then I went to the lab and I didn't have much work that I needed to get done but I wanted to make it a habit to go there daily as I struggle to work from home. I ended up learning programming. I have got a subscription to DataCamp for a month to learn some more of the basics. I realized that I have some gaps in data handling so that I can use it for other functions. I spent the evening reading and watching YT in search for new recieps that I can cook so that was a nice way to relax. A few days I got a pair of blue light glasses and I did not like them at first as during the day they are way too reflective and make it hard to see through them. However in the evening I quite like them. When the environment is dark they seem to be pretty good and work well in terms of blocking blue light. But I will need a few more days to say for sure.

@TheNewMe2.0It is ridiculous how stimulating it is. Well said! I remember being like "all I want to do is game as anything else is pretty boring". I still feel like that sometimes a bit but at least I am aware of what caused it. You are welcome mate! Your support helped me a ton as well. I am thankful for that. I tried a few times before but it never lasted much. The first time I started here I got to almost a year. I had quite a few relapses since then but I learned a lot from each and every single one of them and I think I know what I need to do to keep moving forward gaming free. Good luck with the nofap, I do not think I would be able to do that one. Although I still want to limit my porn consumption as it is one of those overly simulating things too. Let's keep up the sobriety going!

 

Thank you for reading and I will see you tomorrow. 

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Hope those glasses workout for you. Nothing like some good ol eye strain reduction. You have gone in and out a lot. But I give you a lot of credit for continuing to try. I've seen a ton of people start journals and disappear. But you keep coming back and trying again. I hope you can make a long streak and believe in you. Yeah you did get to about 1 yr. That's a long time. I read some stuff on nofap. And realized that I wanted to be like the king of quitting things. Forgive the silliness of that ambition. But that's really my deep down driving factor for wanting to quit it. To be on this site with my signature and multiple year streaks in sobriety, game quitting and no masturbation etc. Other than that I guess it just takes up valuable time and energy. I remember I would go practice yoga at the studio. Then go home and masturbate to girls I'd met or just saw there. And pretty soon I was so busy masturbating I wasn't even going to practice yoga anymore. What the heck? Like if I wasn't masturbating I probably could have kept talking to one of those girls and we could have hung out in real life. Foolishness. Plus I think it gives me more energy and higher self esteem. I don't feel gross and like I'm hiding something when I talk to my mom. Yeah I struggled so so much like just two weeks ago when I was trying to find a way to stop masturbating. I even practice some time doing open mouth meditation so I can control thoughts when my mouth is open/closed as I sleep with mouth open sometimes. And that helped too. I'm only on day 13 but like I feel decent about it. I had thoughts of sex last night but I woke up and was like. Don't think about touching girls at all no physical contact. Not even a handshake. No thoughts of physical contact with girls. To prevent taking even the first step towards it. I make a lot of rules up to follow like if I hump the mattress while in bed 3x I have to get out of bed and meditate or do something else till I settle down. Rule making is good for me because I like following the biblical rules so more rules are usually welcome as long as they actually help. Sorry all this info about nomas is probably irrelevant to you. But Idk maybe it's interesting hehe.

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Day 5

Habits:

  • Positive: (Lab_work:4, Russian:5, R programming:5, Excel:5, Workout:4, Stretching:4) 
  • Gaming free:5 

 

Productive time: 06:14:00

Get out of bed time: 07:25

 

Saturday was a pretty good day. I was fairly productive and did some work on my habits yet it was still a nice day to relax too. Later in the day I was hanging out with a friend which was nice as we have not seen each other for some time so we got time to catch up. Besides that nothing special, I wanted to be slightly more productive but I managed to get enough stuff done and had some good rest so it was all good as it was weekend after all. 

@TheNewMe2.0Thanks, I need to try using them more but I think that they do make a difference especially in the evening. Thanks, this journey was definetely a hilly one thats for sure haha. Thanks, I want to find an optimal way to go about my life. I think I am quite ambitious, but then when I procrastinate and get lazy especially when I turn to gaming it goes against what I want to do with my life so it is pretty destructive. Thanks mate! I really appreciate your words of encouragement. I can understand that, and it is a cool goal to strive for. If it gets that out of control it's best to avoid it, pretty much same story with gaming or other things that take over our lives. If we lose control over it that's when it becomes an addiction, a problem. It is quite hard as sex drive is wired in our primal brain. It is quite interesting, especially hearing of people that quit and got some great benefits out of it too. Best of luck to you my friend! I am sure you can quit even that! 

 

Thank you for reading and I will see you tomorrow.

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Day 6

Habits:

  • Positive: (Lab_work:4, Russian:6, R programming:6, Excel:5, Workout:4, Stretching:4) 
  • Gaming free:6 

 

Productive time: 02:55:00

Get out of bed time: 09:25

 

Sunday was a chill day, and that's what I planned for it so I am happy about it. I made a load of bone broth, but I think I put in too many bones so it's super concentrated. I froze most of it so looking forward to using it in the future. I am really interested to see how it will taste if I put it into other recipes. It should make the flavor much richer. Besides that I spent some time chilling with a friend of mine and watched some anime. Overall a good relaxing day. 

 

Thank you for reading and I will see you tomorrow. 

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Day 6

Habits:

  • Positive: (Lab_work:4, Russian:6, R programming:6, Excel:5, Workout:4, Stretching:4) 
  • Gaming free:6 

 

Productive time: 05:21:00

Get out of bed time: 07:00

 

Overall a good day, I was not as productive as I might have wanted to be but I got most of the priority items done so thats good. I ended up submitting a ticket to Riot to delete my account. I think that is one of the main issues why I kept relapsing that I have not deleted this account yet. When I deleted my old acc back in march last year it was a huge change. I need to cut the ties again. It is annoying that it takes them a fucking month to delete my account. You can clearly tell that the Riot games clearly knows how addictive their fucking games are and abuses it as much as possible.

@TheNewMe2.0 You are welcome. That's great then, I am sure you can manage quitting that too. 

 

Thank you for reading and I will see you tomorrow. 

 

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Hehe Riot really does do that junk. Facebook is the same way with the month wait. It's sketchy and an uphill battle sometimes to quit. I suggest continuing to do whatever coping you can. I think as long as I stay away from triggers and work on controlling my mind/thoughts I can do it. And keep reminding myself that it's a sin to think about sex or immoral or whatever. Just any reason not to do it must be kept in mind in the struggles. Good job deleting your acct.

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Day 7

Habits:

  • Positive: (Lab_work:5, Russian:7, R programming:7, Excel:6, Workout:5, Stretching:5) 
  • Gaming free:7 

 

Productive time: 10:14:00

Get out of bed time: 06:50

 

Yesterday was great, got up early, got all stuff done and then had free time in the evening. Only thing I want to work on is to be a bit faster with my morning routine as I tend to get sidetracked but I love being able to finish work and then have just free time later in the day. I went to bed around 22:30 which was super early. But I think I was quite tired because of early wake up and then I went to the gym, which finally opened. It was great to get about 8 hours of sleep.

@TheNewMe2.0 Yeah, it's nasty. You should be able to have a full control over your accounts. Especially if within that month period you get tempted to do it again, it can completely suck. Avoiding triggers is super important. It saves so much energy that would need to be used to fight the urges, but if you limit the number of triggers that way it's easier to limit the energy needed to maintain control. Thanks, the more ties I cut with league the better. I have invested too much into that garbage and I do not want to have anything to do with it anymore even if it might be tempting. 

 

Thank you for reading and I will see you tomorrow. 

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I think my riot and facebook accounts are completely gone now. Riot's long gone facebook is recently out or just about there. You'll get rid of your account soon enough. Yes avoiding triggers is a good idea. It makes it much more possible and easier to maintain sobriety like you're saying. It's just kind of a pain in the butt to like lose all those things that were triggers because honestly some of them have pros you know. It's just usually not worth the con of greatly increased chance of relapse. The sober life is a struggle but it's really nice maintaining a streak. Having that feeling of constant craving and being in active addiction sucks. You could try to Make a short list of the reasons why you don't want to play league anymore and when thoughts of it come to you then of course try to resist them and also recite your list of reasons why you don't want to play anymore. For me that list is being around toxic players made me miserable, I felt like crap when I played, I wasn't doing anything but work and game, my health wasn't so good, and I just felt like I wasn't happy being hopelessly addicted to gaming. To the point where I couldn't focus on anything in the real world because my mind was in a constant state of obsession with teh games, thinking about them all the time. I'm sure there's more but keeping the main reasons in mind can help drive motivation.

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Day 8

Habits:

  • Positive: (Lab_work:5, Russian:8, R programming:8, Excel:6, Workout:6, Stretching:6) 
  • Gaming free:8 

 

Productive time: 04:14:00

Get out of bed time: 06:50

 

Yesterday was bit rough. I ended up spending a lot of time searching for phones because I am in process of getting a new one and struggle to pick the best option for my budget. I had one that I was about to buy but then the price for it ended up being more than expected which was super annoying but I have few more days to decide. But even though it cut down on my productivity I got haircut, went for a run and overall it turned to be a pretty nice day. I need to work on my PhD application today so that might be a bit stress full but otherwise it should be a good day today. 

@TheNewMe2.0That's great! Both of those are pretty cancerous, I was thinking about deleting my Facebook account for quite some time too. However, it got disable yesterday for reason unknown to me. I need to find out what happend. When I asked for a review it only told me that apparently I was not old enough to be one FB which is some bs. But if this is the way my account gets deleted so be it. Only issue with this is that it blocked my messenger acc which I still used a bit but it seems like there is not much that can be done. Yeah that's for sure. I think that there are some triggers that might be worth keeping but then we just need to use discipline to over come the temptations. Yeah, the gaming community is crazy. Especially league one is so so salty. Its great that you are game free now and can see how much your life got better because of quitting! 

 

Thank you for reading and I will see you tomorrow. 

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Good luck on the app. Yeah my life is still messed up in some ways. But at least I'm not in active addiction anymore. I'm nicer to my mom and myself. I take care of myself much better and practice self care. I enjoy just watching TV for the first time in my life really. Etc. It's probably for the best you lose Facebook. I feel like social media just erodes your self esteem making you feel like everyone else has a perfect life that's so much better than yours. I'm glad to be away from the saltiness. Literally almost every game someone was talking trash to me/the team I'm on. Yeah Idk I might give the anime drawing another try some day. It was cool getting better. I was improving and they started looking really good. I didn't want to draw guys because I was concerned it might make me feel bi/gay. Which is on my long list of things to abstain from. Rehab for my body today wish me luck and wishing you luck too.

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Day 9

Habits:

  • Positive: (Lab_work:6, Russian:9, R programming:9, Excel:7, Workout:7, Stretching:7) 
  • Gaming free:9 

 

Productive time: 06:15:00

Get out of bed time: 06:50

 

Thursday was ok but not the greatest. I spent quite a lot of time procrastinating as it was the deadline for the another PhD that I was applying to. However I do not think I will get it, it is much more biochemistry focused that I am not so good at but I do not mind it that much, looking at how much chemistry they expected it might not be the best fit for me. Besides that I managed to get that done so that was good. I didn't do much about facebook but I have spent a lot of time changing passwords and trying to fix the issue on Friday. 

@TheNewMe2.0 Thanks. That is good to hear, it is much better to be free of any addiction. That is the one think that I hated probably the most about addiction, it just takes away any time that I could spend for myself. Instead of getting better in real life it would all go towards the games. I am down to delete the account but it sucks that it is disabled this way. Facebook is such a f**** disguising company. I knew that they track stuff but the amount of info I got when I downloaded my information was ridiculous. They even track all my app data from my phone. I find this pretty disturbing as most of the apps have nothing to do with Facebook. I would understand if google had something to do as I have android phone but why the f*** does Facebook get my data? Also their support is abysmal, as my acc is blocked there is no way to contact them. I can't even report that someone tried to hack it, can just wait and hope they unlock it so that I can delete it. Also if it is disabled it does not get deleted and stays in their database. It is so messed up. Moreover, they seem to track lof of stuff even if you do not have Facebook, especially in terms of app info because lot of apps use advertisement that is done by Facebook software. Only think that kinda sucks is that I do have some connections of Fb from past that I would not want to lose. I see, how about drawing monsters/fantasy characters that are genderless? Best of luck mate!

 

Thank you for reading and I will see you tomorrow.

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Day 10

Habits:

  • Positive: (Lab_work:7, Russian:10, R programming:10, Excel:7, Workout:7, Stretching:7) 
  • Gaming free:10 

 

Productive time: 08:15:00

Get out of bed time: 06:30

 

Yesterday was pretty good day, well if I take out the whole Facebook thing. I spent a lot of time dealing with that and I guess I just need to wait. The most disturbing thing is that I am not sure if someone hacked it or not. I know that someone logged into it, I can see it in the information, however I do not know if they got access to anything. I got email that there was a try to reset password. And not sure what happened that caused it to be blocked but someone must have uploaded some kind of ID to verify the account which did not happen. But in the logs I can see that some kind of ID was uploaded but I did not do that so I am not sure what is going on. Moreover I cannot contact Facebook as there is no way to do it when your account is disabled. What a f*** r**** company. Made me so angry. Well for the time being its password changing time. Besided that I manged to be fairly productive, got some work done in lab and called with parents. I finally ordered a new phone so I am super excited about that.

 

Thank you for reading and I will see you tomorrow. 

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Hey that was a creative idea to draw monsters and fantasy characters. I'm praying to be able to draw again and still continue my nomas streak with ease and grace. I'm just building up my spiritual practices to see if I can maybe manage the drawing with adequate spiritual practice to offset the potential for lust. Honestly I was kind of liking tv more than drawing when I was doing it. But I liked being able to draw with clients and share. It was sort of a fun way to pass the session. Yeah facebook is nuts. Idk what their deal is with pilfering all your information like that. Your acct will be deleted soon so you won't have to think about them anymore. I just wrote a post that took about 1.5 hours to write. Idk why but I just felt like writing a ridiculously long post today. Probably because I was struggling last night worse than ever since starting my new job. Keep doing spiritual practice man and whatever else helps you de-stress. Good luck.

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Day 11

Habits:

  • Positive: (Lab_work:7, Russian:11, R programming:11, Excel:7, Workout:8, Stretching:8) 
  • Gaming free:11 

 

Productive time: 06:15:00

Get out of bed time: 11:30

 

I got up way too late but I was pretty tired so I decided to catch up a bit on sleep. I made a delicious BBQ dish, beef short rib. I was surprised how well it turned out as I did not follow the recipe and I never cooked it before but it turned out perfectly. I was a bit worried because I bought it quite randomly too but now I know that I will get it some time again. Otherwise a good day to chill and and I got done bunch of chores that I needed to do. I got in workout in the afternoon which was good as I almost skipped it, it wasn't the greatest as I had a mild headache but I am happy that I pushed for it and got it done. I am planning on having a chill day today so should be a nice weekend overall. 

@TheNewMe2.0There are a lot of cool fantas creatures in anime. Good luck with nomas streak, keep it up buddy! You could have tv in the background while you draw too. Might be bit on the higher stimulation side but should be still fine and enjoyable. Well the problem is that I can't even delete the account on Facebook because it is disabled by them. So it is not visible to anyone but it is still stored on FB servers. Well within the week I hope I will be able to unlock it, resolve the hack issue, secure it and I might delete it then. I still would need to figure out how to get in touch with some people that I can contact only through facebook so it would be hard for me to get completely rid of it even if I would want that. I saw the post today, will have a read later. Sometimes it is good to let go and keep on wirting to get rid any thought out there. Don't worry mate, the stress comes and goes, it is rought some times but it will alsoe get better!

 

Thank you for reading and I will see you tomorrow.

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Chill days are the best. I want one every weekend at least. That BBQ sounds good. Makes me want to go get some BBQ takeout. Yum. I randomly fasted yesterday. My client is fasting for Ramadan and can only eat after 8pm for 30 days. After hearing that I just suddenly got the urge to stop eating. So I only ate one small meal yesterday and haven't eaten so far today. Jesus didn't eat for 40 days while he meditated and resisted the devil in the wilderness. So I figure if I go a few days without food I'd be fine. Not planning on becoming anorexic or anything though I love food. The odd thing is I feel fine. The hunger isn't bothering me at all or making me feel moody or lethargic like it has in the past. It reminds me of the first time I fasted with my church back in the day. And I just became more efficient and didn't expend the energy anymore to get angry. It was peaceful.

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Day 12

Habits:

  • Positive: (Lab_work:7, Russian:12, R programming:12, Excel:8, Workout:8, Stretching:8) 
  • Gaming free:11 

 

Productive time: 03:29:00

Get out of bed time: 08:30

 

Another day fighting battles with Facebook. Well will see, there might be some progress this week. Overall a nice and relaxing day though, I have not done too much but I was not planning on it so I do not mind that at all. I got up fairly early too which was nice as well. I ended up spending bunch of time with a friend and we watched some Kevin Hart specials which is always a great fun. I really enjoy his stand up. 

@TheNewMe2.0 I think it is good to have a day or two in the week that you get some time to relax and recharge. It feels even better when you know that you done all the needed work and then you can plan out a proper day of rest. It was really good, I need to get some more and might make it with some rice this time as otherwise it gets a bit pricy but it was still amazing. Fasting is great, especially intermittent fasting which even your client is doing as well. However, be careful not to over do it. Any prolong fast can be dangerous as it is starvation then and that is not the state you want to be in. Also if you want to do something for longer it would be best to make a lot more research into it and talk to your doctor as if you cause yourself harm there will be no benefits. 

Doing a fast even for a day should be pretty doable, even if you just think about human evolution, it is only now that we can have meals 24/7. That kind of thing just does not exist in nature. 

 

Thank you for reading and I will see you tomorrow. 

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