GrainSiloEnthusiast 326 Posted May 26, 2020 Share Posted May 26, 2020 (edited) Today was day 4 of my 90 day detox. I'm probably not going to really return to gaming the way I did before with my 30 and then 60 day detoxes, which were just to reevaluate my relationship to gaming. I actually did learn to moderate, and all was well for a good long while. But I had a couple weeks of binging recently due to the loss of my first pregnancy, and that helped me get completely sick of video games and ready to "declutter" them from my life. They no longer *spark joy* haha. This time I'm just doing a detox to completely cleanse myself of anything that even resembles gaming. I want to re-learn how I used to live as a child before games took over my life. There's a few games out there I can use as creative tools, like the Sims for architecture and interior design for example, but that will also remain off limits until August just so I don't slip up. I want to focus on screen-free activities for a while, though I'm not setting any hard limits on that right now, I can focus more on that again later on. I recently started drawing and journaling again, and I also picked up the psaltery and kalimba (instruments). These have been really good for me! I haven't really been actively learning any songs or trying to relearn how to read music yet, I've mostly just been messing around, but it's awesome. There's something so sensory pleasing about the whole experience. I love how tactile it is. Really good replacement for gaming. I've also been reading and listening to audio books more frequently again, which has been good. My family set up a private NA meeting for my wife* and I to attend so we can have face-to-face meetings again, something I've been dying for. Zoom just doesn't do it for me in the same way. So yeah I'm also a recovering drug addict alcoholic etc, addiction is something I've known well since I started cutting myself at age 12. This is nothing new to me. Getting sober is actually the only reason I ever realized I had a problem with gaming, only reason I realized I was a hoarder, and a whole lot of other things. Best decision I've ever made! But anyway these face-to-face meetings are going to be really helpful for this too, we talk about all the aspects of life that addiction touches so they will support me 100%. I have found blogging to be quite helpful for me... I seem to like writing. So I'll probably keep doing this daily journal thing, if not necessarily daily. *(yes we're gay just to clarify, I was the pregnant one, don't want to confuse anyone lol.) Edited May 26, 2020 by GrainSiloEnthusiast fixing formatting 4 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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