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My name is Marek and I am a University student studying Virology and I am a game addict. I have been struggling with gaming for a long time. It started with World of Warcraft which was probably the first game that hooked me enough and allowed me to escape the real world. Instead, it gave me a chance to develop a virtual character and compete against other players. After several years of Wow, my competitive nature got me hooked even more at League of Legends back in season 2 and since then I have spent hours and hours wasting time playing. I have managed to quit recently for about two months but then got dragged back into it by a friend to just play one or two games like the old times and I was right back in my addiction. I realized that there is nothing such as gaming in moderation for me and I need to avoid it like plague. 

 

I am a compulsive procrastinator and I love to escape reality and the choice of my poison was video games. I am now aware that if I want to achieve anything in life I need to focus on the real world and not the virtual which is lovely because it gives you direct easy to achieve goals and all those sweet achievements whereas real life can be a bitch some times it can be also way more satisfying. And in all honesty, I think that gaming is just a waste of time. I want to spend on more productive things.

 

I am really glad I have found Game Quitters, It gave me the nice final push that it is time to stop now, make it as hard as possible to play games and focus on things that will make me happy in the long turn. My main goal now is to develop several habits, I love reading and I do want to spend more time reading, I mainly enjoy fantasy and psychological books and even though they are still kind of an escape; I do get much more out of it than from games and I do not have the feeling of guilt as from games. I have always played sports and worked out and I want to focus on that more because I love self-improvement and in general being the best version of myself which is why I want to meditate too. The last habit is to wake up early and go to bed early, I think I am still in the mindset that I want to stay awake as long as possible which I used to do to play as much as possible. 

 

The second thing besides habits, even more, important that I need to address is my current lab project and how much time I spent on my work and improving my knowledge too. I am doing my Masters and I am working on Dengue Fever. Even though the project is going well I did neglect it slightly due to games. I need to clear my head of games and focus my passion on my work which I really enjoy if I fully focus on it.

 

I like the quote: "When you find yourself in a hole the first thing to do is to stop digging" and I am excited that this is the time I have finally dropped the shovel and I need to start to work on my way out of this hole back to the surface and sunshine, I have spent way too long in this dark place. 

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DAY 1

Morning wake up: 8:25

Yesterday bedtime: 00:15

 

It has been almost a month since when I have deleted my LoL account and uninstalled all other games from my computer. I was busy but I would be lying that I have not procrastinated starting my journal. I want to stay clear of playing games but also watching any streams and highlights either on twitch or YouTube which I still do but a lot less than when I used to play. At the moment I want to replace that with anime or TV shows especially documentaries. (I still need to be careful not to waste too much time on that) 

 

Habits:

  • Unfortunately because of the pandemic, I had to do my workout at home which actually quite enjoyable even though I prefer to work out in the gym but I am mainly happy that I have dome some exercise
  • I did a 15 min meditation on self-discipline which was really relaxing but considering it is my first meditation in quite some time I did struggle to keep a clear head and focus on the breathing but it was a good experience
  • I have just finished reading Mistborn series so I am thinking I will start Way of Kings which is the first book in The Stormlight archive series also written by Brandon Sanderson today before I get to bed.

 

Overall I am really happy with today. I have finally managed to do all my habits, which includes starting this journal which I did find a bit intimidating at first but I feel really excited about being part of this community and sharing my progress. On top of that I have done most of my tasks on my to do list. I have not done a lot of work on my project but I am fine with that today. However I still need to work on my bedtime and morning times, I want to wake up around 7:00 and go to bed before 00:00

 

Speaking of bedtime I better wrap this up as it is already 00:47.

See ya tomorrow

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Hey, welcome to the forums. Anime and TV documentaries can be a good substitute for streams. They're a little easier to stop once you start in my opinion.

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Hey Marek. Welcome to Game Quitters! You're a virologist? I think we all want you to quit gaming now, lol. 

The more time you spend in reality, the harder things may seem, but the more you will grow. Never forget that when times get tough.

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Hey guys, I would say so as well and usually, they have only a limited number of episodes which helps too. I need to be aware of binge-watching which I tend to do.


Haha, I guess it is good timing as well. I have focused on infectious diseases throughout my whole degree and now I am specializing more on viruses. There are still plenty of dangerous viruses out there but most of them are in sub-tropical areas and do not have so much media coverage. There are constantly new viruses emerging or old ones reemerging which usually cause local epidemics but can cause a lot more trouble such as what is happening now. 


Thank you, I do find that I am lot more drawn to games either when I am stressed or bored and I have too much time on my hands. I am really glad that once you delete lol account it takes a month for deletion but you cannot recall it back in last five days because a friend asked me if I want to play and I actually considered it but without being able to get my account back it made me rethink it and I did not fall into it again for which I am really happy.  

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DAY 2

Morning wake up 8:05

Yesterday bedtime: 02:15

 

 A pretty good day but I feel a bit guilty because I played on my phone for a bit and watched way too much of The Office; however as long as I stay clear of lol I am quite happy. Well, at least for now. None of that is as destructive for me as league which is one of my most feared demons. I guess I will need to work on that tomorrow and focus more on my work. Most of the University is closed but lucky my lab is still running so I do have more than enough responsibilities to keep me accountable. 

 

Habits:

  • I am feeling a bit sore after tomorrow so I decided to take it a bit easier with a workout (always a good excuse haha) but I am aiming more for consistency now than anything else so I really do not want to overdo it and then skip several days because of that. Hopefully, the weather will be nicer soon so I can do some exercises outside unless the government decides for curfew as is happening in many countries.
  • I have not meditated yet but I am going to once I finish writing this journal, a short few minute ones will be good enough for today.
  • Yesterday I have started reading The Way of King and so far the book seems awesome. I quite enjoy the style of writing from Sanderson. I will see today how much more entangled I will get into the story of the book.

 

It was a nice day but quite uneventful. I wish I did not procrastinate as much as I did but considering I have worked on my habits I am fine with how the day went. Today I am going to try to meet my deadline for bedtime so wish me luck.

 

See ya tomorrow

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League is my number one potential gaming addiction too. Whenever people try to tempt me to play some other game saying it's less addictive. I just think, 'I'll end up playing league and destroying all the goodness of my life again.' It's a good thing you have awareness to not play that game in particular.

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I feel you. For me league was so addictive because it checked all the things I want to work on in real life but unfortunately it was easier and virtual so I liked the escape. I have not played in over a month now, but even though I have quit I am still nowhere near the goals I want to achieve for myself. I find that since I have stopped gaming I have shifted my attention more on tv shows or just mindlessly wasting time online. I feel like I need to find replacement for all the things I was getting from league for activities that will be beneficial in real life so here we go: 

  • Competition
    • I struggle with this one the most. I used to play basketball a lot when I was younger which would be great replacement but it is hard nowadays to find enough people to play. I guess martial arts could be part of this too, I have not done any actual fights but I got the same thrill even from just sparing. 
  • Learning
    • When I was playing I have spent a huge amount of time on searching for knowledge to get better at the game and in general I am excited about learning so I just need to shift my attention more to my project and work in school. And a more relaxing form of learning in terms of documentaries. 
  • Escape
    • This one I want to replace with books and possibly documentaries but anything else is just too disruptive and hard to control (eg. binge watching tv shows). I love a good fantasy book and reading is probably the only form of escape that I am fine with without just feeling guilty. 
  • Progress & Achievements
    • I find this a bit tricky because games are set up well to show you your progress and excite you about achievements with rewards. I wish there was an xp bar in real life as well but that is unfortunately not true. The way I am trying to work around it is using apps to track my habit and workout progress and I still want to set up some form of progress meter for my work.  

To truly move on from gaming I need to switch my mindset from instant gratification and search for a quick dopamine high to delayed one. I am still not sure what exact hobbies I would enjoy and would like to work on, especially nowadays it is a bit more difficult with the lockdown. I have been working out last few days from home and it is going better than expected, I do not enjoy running too much but I do want to incorporate it to my workout schedule as well. Besides that I do struggle a bit, I do meditate which I desperately need to improve my focus and I am now thinking about improving my cooking skills. I think I still need to figure out best hobbies for me that would keep me occupied but I will be patient for once.  

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Day 3

Morning wake up: 10:15

Yesterday bedtime: 4:30

 

Well, a week passed by without me uploading a single journal entry. I do want to keep this daily as a form of accountability. I did not play games over the last few days but I have wasted too much time binge-watching The Office and I still wasted time watching some league videos on youtube. I realized that I need to have a pretty strict plan on how I schedule my day and my tasks otherwise I mindlessly waste it. as I have mentioned in the previous post I need to vary of instant gratification in any form because I am addicted to it. However; today was a nice change and I hope I can keep it up for days to come.

 

Habits

  • So I have started working out twice a day and I have got several apps with workouts that I have not tried yet but I am looking forward to it. Also, I am improving my diet slightly and I plan on cooking new and more interesting recipes.
  • I had a great 20 min meditation session which was quite relaxing, my mind wondered a lot more that I assume it should but still I do like the feeling of emptying my head and increasing my focus because I tend to lose attention rather quickly, otherwise something grips me too tight. 
  • To be honest I have not read much of The way of Kings but it is looking like a proper epic fantasy novel. Although; it seems that it will take some time until I get into it but we shall see.

 

Today was a great day. I finally stopped the chain of binge-watching and started to focus on things that really matter. I am quite excited as I am going to be working on the SARS-cov2 as all of our lab attention is focused on it these days. Hopefully, I will be able to help find something that can make a difference. On another note, I did move my wake up and bedtime slightly to 8AM but I would like to wake up earlier but for now this is early enough for me haha. 

 

No more week breaks from the daily journal.

 

See ya tomorrow

 

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Day 4

Get out of bed: 13:15

Ready to sleep: 00:30

Habits: (Workout:2, Meditation:2, Reading:2)

 

So I have decided to change the way I do the journal a bit. I think it will be easier to track the habits this way and then also do the journal the next morning instead of the evening on the same day. I think this will be a nice way to reflex on the previous day and think about what I want to do differently today. 

 

Yesterday was a great day, I have done a lot of work and followed through with all my habits. I did a workout in the morning and then went for a run later on in the afternoon. I had a group call with a group of good friends. However; I still need to improve the time I get out of bed because even when I wake up early I just struggle to actually get going with the day, so that is the main thing I want to work on. On the plus side, I have not played league for over a month which I am happy about. 

 

Today I want to rethink my goals and plans and break it down into smaller chunks which I can plan through a period of weeks and days. When I get big deadlines and a lot of stuff on my plate I tend to procrastinate a lot and I hope to limit it this way which I hope will also help me with my fight against instant gratification. 

 

See ya tomorrow

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11 minutes ago, Marek said:

Today I want to rethink my goals and plans and break it down into smaller chunks which I can plan through a period of weeks and days. When I get big deadlines and a lot of stuff on my plate I tend to procrastinate a lot and I hope to limit it this way which I hope will also help me with my fight against instant gratification. 

I think this is a smart idea. Putting too much on our plates tends to make us procrastinate because we already are escaping things from real life in the first place. When our own goals and plans contribute to that stress instead of alleviating that stress we tend to revert back to old habits and escape once more.

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 Day 5

Get out of bed: 12:20

Ready to sleep: 04:30

Habits:

  • Consecutive days: (Workout:3, Meditation:3, No porn:0, Reading:0 )
  • Learned something new: (Cooking recipes:1, Documentaries: 1)

 

Well, yesterday was nothing like I have imagined, it went quite catastrophically I would say. I have watched about 13 hours of Netflix instead of doing what I intended to do during the day. I did do my two workouts and meditated which was nice but I did not read before bed and just kept on watching tv show so I went to sleep really late. I am thankful though that I am still going strong and keep up with two workouts a day and meditate once a day but there are other things I want to improve on which will be the focus of today and possibly next few days. 

23 hours ago, BooksandTrees said:

I think this is a smart idea. Putting too much on our plates tends to make us procrastinate because we already are escaping things from real life in the first place. When our own goals and plans contribute to that stress instead of alleviating that stress we tend to revert back to old habits and escape once more.

 It is. I run into the problem that I have procrastinated my planning that should help me fight procrastination haha. All this kinda shows me that I just need to be more strict with myself and work based on discipline. I can stay away from games and tv shows but once I start playing/watching it is way too difficult for me to let go. For that reason, I have set up WasteNoTime extension and set it up that I can watch a few hours a day, to begin with, but I won't be able to watch at all in the night hours. It disrupts my sleep too much. I have also added three new things on my habit list. I want to try cooking new and more interesting recipes and watch more documentaries to broaden my general knowledge. So each time I learn something new/ cook something new I get a point. On top of restrictions, I have decided to avoid porn because it works on the same mechanic of instant dopamine rush and I think I am too addicted to that system and the way it provides rewards to me that I need to avoid it completely if I want to focus more on future and delayed gratification. 

Considering it is close to 5PM and this is my "morning journal" you can see how much my days have shifted. I am going to finish all my planning for today which I should be able to do before too late. Hopefully, I will be able to go to bed early but that might be a struggle considering that I have woke up around 1PM today so wish me luck. If not I might try to stay up all night and get tired enough to go to bed early tomorrow, we will see. 

 

Thanks for reading and I'll see you tomorrow.

 

Marek

 

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Sounds like maybe you burned out if you watched that much Netflix. Just a guess but that's what happens to me. The most important thing is picking yourself up again the next day. We all are going to have a shit day eventually, that's just human nature. 🙂

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I get kind of loopy after a lot of Netflix too. I can't imagine going 13 hours. I have to push myself to watch two hours in a day. I forgot you can overdo it. Good luck moderating tv. As long as you stay off the games it'll only be a matter of time before you start managing other areas of your life better. There isn't anything else to do and it's great making progress.

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Day 6

Ready to sleep: 02:18

Get out of bed: 13:00

Habits:

  • Consecutive days: (Workout:5, Meditation:5,Reading:2 No porn:0, No gaming videos:0)
  • Learned something new: (Cooking recipes:1, Documentaries:1)

So I have procrastinated my planning once again but I did not waste all the time watching tv shows. I spent a few hours calling with family and a friend so I cannot be angry about that. Well, that was Sunday which was at least partially okay but then Monday was disastrous. When I was setting up blockers for twitch I just ended up indulging myself in a whole day of watching league stream for hours and ordering unhealthy fast food. I reached the conclusion that I am just a straight-up addict. Just one little taste of the previous triggers and I feel free to drop into the same hole again. I think at least for now I have to cage the chimp in my brain and hide him from any negative habit ques otherwise he just takes control. 

@ceponatia @BooksandTree s Thanks for your support. I need to be very careful with moderation. My biggest issue is that I just tend to relax too much and ignore my deadlines and things I would like to pursue unless it becomes too urgent. And in the meantime, anything that doesn't require any effort and gives me instant gratification is an issue. Essentially I just look for distractions at these times. That is why I need a proper structure for my day and it does work but my biggest problem is in waking up early and going to bed early. If I wake up late and stay in a bed for a while it makes me feel like I have already lost the motivation to do anything in the day and failed already. 

So today is finally the day to go over my goals and set up plans as I would like to. It is going slower than I have expected. I am aware that I am trying to change a lot of things so that it made me prone to procrastination. Not accounting for some fails in these last days I think it is going quite well. I work out regularly, meditate and I have set up different apps to track my progress which makes me feel like I am leveling in real life which is quite motivating. 

 

Thank you for reading and I'll see you tomorrow. 

 

Marek

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Day 7

Get out of bed: 15:00

Ready to sleep: 02:05

Habits:

  • Consecutive days: (Workout:6, Meditation:6,Reading:3 No porn:1, No gaming videos:1)
  • Learned something new: (Cooking recipes:1, Documentaries:2)

Yesterday was decent day. Not to the point I would want it but I did not watch any porn or gaming videos and I wrote down my plans. I still need to figure out how I want to keep track of them. I am using Todoist for my tasks so I will try to incorporate them. I did not go to bed early as I would hope for but I have completely lost track of time reading so I was actually happy about it. So far The Way of kings looks great, I do enjoy Brandon Sanderson's way of writing so I am quite excited that I have around 3000 pages ahead of me and who know how many more in the future. The other thing I am excited about is that I have ordered some resistance bands so I can add variety to my workout plus I have ordered a 1000 piece jigsaw puzzle of Impression Sunrise which will be a nice challenge but also a relax from computer screen.  

I need to finish my planning today and then  get to bed early and start reading sooner so that I can sleep before 1AM which would be great. My biggest struggle at the time is to get out of bed when I wake up. Pretty much every day I wake up around 8AM when my alarm is set but then I just snooze and sleep more. Then I wake up fully around 11 but I tend to stay in bed for several hours more just procrastinating my whole day which frustrates me so much yet I keep doing it daily. I need to find a way to stop this somehow. Hopefully if I start going to bed early I will find it easier to get out of bed sooner as well.

 

Thanks for reading and I will see you tomorrow.

 

Marek

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I think going to bed early will help. You probably won't feel as tired when you wake up. Getting up earlier is a hard habit to change if you don't have an obligation like work. I recommend moving the time back 15 minutes every two or three days until it's where you want it to be then maintain.

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Day 7

Get out of bed: 12:15

Ready to sleep: 02:25

Habits:

  • Consecutive days: (Workout:7, Meditation:7,Reading:4 No porn:2, No gaming videos:2)
  • Learned something new: (Cooking recipes:1, Documentaries:2)
11 hours ago, Erik2.0 said:

I think going to bed early will help. You probably won't feel as tired when you wake up. Getting up earlier is a hard habit to change if you don't have an obligation like work. I recommend moving the time back 15 minutes every two or three days until it's where you want it to be then maintain.

I did not manage to get to bed early last night but I did wake up early and managed to push myself out of the bed in a reasonable time for which I am happy. I have done almost everything I wanted yesterday so I am quite happy how the overall day turned out to be. Even though the progress might be small I think consistency is more important. I have some fairly easy but important tasks for today so I am hoping I will do even better than yesterday. The weather is nice and sunny today so I think I will go for a run to have a change from just home workouts. 

I do feel like today will be a good day. I need to keep my priorities straight and should be able to complete all my habits on top of my todo list and then try to spend free time reading so then I do not have to read late at night. Fairly short entry today but I feel quite satisfied with yesterday and I think I can do even better today so let's see.

 

Thanks for reading and I'll see you tomorrow.

 

Marek

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Day 8

Get out of bed: 12:15

Ready to sleep: 02:25

Habits:

  • Consecutive days: (Workout:8, Meditation:8,Reading:5 No porn:0, No gaming videos:0)
  • Learned something new: (Cooking recipes:2, Documentaries:3)

Just a short entry today. I am still struggling with all the changes that I have done to my life on top of removing gaming. I realized that I need to have some sort of a purpose to pursue and I am not sure what that is exactly at the moment. I have things and goals that I want to pursue but I still feel like there is a huge abyss left by gaming and I struggle to fill it with work. Gaming was a huge escape from reality for me and I still have issues with getting completely back to real life and I am trying to figure out the best way to get completely back and abandon this virtual world that I used for escape. From all of my research on reading books, listening to podcasts and figuring out the best way to have a good productive daily routine I believe that I need to focus primarily on discipline. I need to get up early and get out of bed. One of the hardest things for me to do because I do have not to find an actual reason why should I get up early besides just getting up. Staying in bed is just another way of escape for me. 

 

Thanks for reading and I´ll see you tomorrow.

 

Marek

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Day 9

Get out of bed: 16:00

Ready to sleep: 00:15

Habits:

  • Consecutive days: (Workout:9, Meditation:9,Reading:6 No porn:0, No gaming videos:0)
  • Learned something new: (Cooking recipes:2, Documentaries:3)

Crap ... my chrome crashed so the whole entry got deleted just before I was about finished. Oh well. To be honest, yesterday was a bit lazy. It took me forever to leave bed and I did watch a lot of gaming videos that I should not. But once I stopped I was quite productive. I read a book in the evening and went to bed in record early time. On the plus side I did all my habits yesterday and I listened a lot to informative and motivational/ productive podcasts and youtube which I find really helpful with staying on the right track.  

This was great because I managed to get up at 5:55 Am today and went for a run during sunrise. It was amazing. I am still surprised that I got up to do that but I did and I am really proud. I have so much energy today and already started working. I am hoping to catch up with all the work that I have been procrastinating this whole week. I have realized that I need to be more relaxed about my habits and things I want to do otherwise I just push myself too hard sometimes which leads to stress and just more escapism. I think I got the balance for it at the moment but we shall see. Here are some pictures from my morning run. I wish everyone a great Sunday!

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Thanks for reading and I will see you tomorrow!

 

Marek

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