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Thanks a lot for that amazing video. Many of the issues you spoke about, take disrupted routines through self-isolation, reflect my current state quite well. Only now have I realised how much structure going to school gave me. 

You are a big help. Through your honesty you show me that progress takes time and is always related to struggle. Keep going!

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@Captain_Pilz Oh wow, thank you! That means a lot. I'm glad it helped We really take for granted those things that gave us structure, don't we? And yeah, I expected myself to be a lot better off than I am at the moment after 5 years of quitting gaming, but I'm not, so we just have to keep going until we're where we want to be! Stay strong.

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Day 28

>Game-free: 28 days
>Gaming videos: 28 days
>Social Media: 0 days 
>Meditation: 0 days

Journal

Yesterday was an amazing day from a productivity perspective. I basically made use of two things: Deep Work and Focus Batching - which is something I just made up yesterday but I like the name of it.

If you want to learn more watch the video I did, which sums pretty much everything up:

 

In terms of everything else that's going on, not sure what to say really. My mornings have deteriorated somewhat, although I'm still maintaining a few of my typical habits. The problem is that I don't want to start work straight away, I need a little 'warm up' time, and that's usually filled by meditation and journalling. However, it's becoming a habit to check coronavirus stuff, which just leads to more Reddit and Twitter use.

I guess the only silver lining is that I'm not wasting my entire day on them, I'm finding it easier to stop when I want to instead of just going through them for hours on end. It's 9:45am at the moment, and I like to start work at 10am, so I guess it's not all too bad, and maybe it's not having an effect at all. I do know that I'd rather not spend so much time on them, especially in the morning, but its almost become habitual to the point where I feel like I can't avoid it.

I'm not going to use any social media for the rest of the day, and I'll try to do an update post later on to see how I get on.

One thing I definitely need to do is stop watching this zombie Netflix show - Kingdom - before bed, as it keeps me alert. In the past I was reading my book as the last thing before bed, but now I tend to read my book and then watch the show with my girlfriend. My poor morning routine is probably a direct result of my poor bedtime routine, so maybe I should focus on fixing that.

All in all, though, things are going really well outside of the problems I mentioned here. My mental and physical health are in a good place, I'm feeling positive, I'm spending a lot of time learning things and while I wish I wasn't in self-isolation, things could be going a lot worse.

Hope you're all doing well!

Peace.

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@Erik2.0 Thanks, me too! And yeah there are some moments like that in the series, but it's more about the twists that are going on and constantly evolving throughout the series that make it interesting. Was worth watching and got pretty tense at the end of the second season!

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Day 29

>Game-free: 29 days
>Gaming videos: 29 days

Journal

Not going well from a social media/meditation standpoint. Well, it is and it isn't. On the one hand, it sucks that I'm not following through with it, but on the other, as far as I can tell it's having next to no actual effect on my productivity, my work, my habits, sleep or anything else. The only negative is that I'm missing out on the positive.

I think I might be trying to take on too much at once, with the gaming detox and no videos on top of social media and other daily habits it's just too much pressure to keep on top of it all.

I'm taking off the tracker for them, and I'm just going to focus on the gaming detox for now, and if I feel like meditating I will. If I spent 30 minutes a day on social media then so be it, that's better than 3 hours. I just have to make sure it doesn't get out of control.

That being said, the gaming detox is actually going really well. I'm in that midpoint section where the cravings disappear and you take more time and effort in doing hobbies, as limited as it is right now with the quarantine. But yeah, I'm really happy with the progress I've made. 

Peace!

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Day 30

>Game-free: 30 days
>Gaming videos: 30 days

Journal

Taking a break from work to write this journal, as I didn't have time to do it this morning. Well, I say I didn't have time. I just didn't feel like it.

I guess I'll start with the big news: After this month (in 3 days time) I'll no longer be working with Game Quitters.

I mentioned in some videos and posts that I'm taking a different direction with my work and focusing on freelancing, and after a discussion with Cam we came to the decision that it's best for us to part ways.

This also means there won't be any more podcast episodes after these current ones have been scheduled (2 more weeks of episodes).

I'll still be around on the forums, so that won't change. However, I'll no longer be doing any writing, videos, marketing stuff, social media and so on.

What am I doing instead? I'm going all in on myself.

I think I'm at a necessary stage in my journey, where I'm ready to move on and take my path into my own hands. I want to create my own businesses, and really earn my income. It's going to be incredibly difficult, sure, but I don't think I can get to where I want to be in the future if I continue trying to work for a company. I've got big goals.

I'm going to be focusing my business on search engine optimization (SEO), writing, and maybe podcast related services such as audio editing. As well as providing consultations in each of these areas and maybe even personal coaching on the side. So, if you have a business or know anyone with a business that could benefit, let me know! 😉 

 

My first step is to replace my income. My current monthly earnings are $0, so that needs to go up. I have enough of a savings buffer that I can last 2 months fairly easily, which will be ample time to get things going.

I'll keep you all up to date with the ins and outs of it here and on my YouTube channel, so don't forget to subscribe if you're interested in learning more about mindset, online business, freelancing, money and travel!

 

Peace.

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Day 31

>Game-free: 31 days
>Gaming videos: 31 days

Journal

Getting back on the morning journal again. Also shifting my wake-up time back a while (6:45am from 8am). I've got a lot of work I need to do, and I need that uninterrupted quiet time in the morning to get this done. In the short term my work hours are going up a lot, but I know from experience it's not sustainable long term.

Today I'm going to be reaching out to some people, getting started on my website, plan out my content, do a whole load of organization work, work on my social media, and go through some courses I've been doing.

It's a pretty packed day, but my GF is going to be away most of the day if not until tomorrow, so I'm going to dial in and get as much done as I can.

No time for cravings here.

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Day 32

>Game-free: 32 days
>Gaming videos: 0 days

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I'm not even sure what to say about yesterday. It started off so well and ended so disastrously. Seriously, it's ridiculous.

I woke up early and completed every one of my important tasks for the day, as well as half of my secondary tasks, before 1pm. My girlfriend had gone home to visit her mom, and she won't be back until later today (this is relevant to the story).

Then, for some reason, it was as though I had to indulge in everything I knew I shouldn't. I couldn't control myself.

I didn't have any meat defrosted so I had the greasiest, fattest burger imaginable. I watched some disgusting porn. I watched gaming videos on YouTube and Twitch for the rest of the day. I went to the local 7/11 to get some food for dinner - pork + garlic spaghetti and a minced pork steamed bun - but also ordered a ridiculously oversized whipped cream, caramel, and banana roti. It was so much sugar and fat on top of me already being full I had no choice but to make myself throw up after eating it. Then, I went on to watch gaming videos and have a half-hearted attempt at the remainder of my tasks and passed out at around 01:30am. 

What in the world...

The only things I can think of as to why it happened was due to me allowed more leniency over time starting with going back to social media, then Reddit, then disabling the browser blocking tool, then going into a gaming subreddit to check on how my favourite streamer is doing. This has been happening over the last few days, and I guess combining this with the change in direction in my job (leaving Game Quitters and pursuing freelance work), increased pressure, and because I was more tired from waking up earlier, it caused me to escape into these things.

If someone has any insight into why this happened I'm all ears.

I woke up today feeling great. I'm currently continuing the gaming videos I was watching yesterday while drinking my coffee, but I've got no intention of binging it all day. Once my journal is done, I've had my coffee, I've set up my day and got everything ready, I'm going to commit to getting all my work done.

It's also a terrible reason but it's a lot easier for me to avoid gaming videos when my girlfriend is home. But this is something I'm trying to work on - the feeling of embarrassment or shame not propagating itself into my life when someone isn't holding me accountable.

I guess the only downside is that it's making me crave Minecraft, and I almost messaged my cousin asking if he wanted to start up a modded world. This is something I'd genuinely love to do, and would really enjoy. That's not even the addict brain talking. But I know that not only would I be letting myself down, and my girlfriend down, the resulting impact it would have on my life and mood just wouldn't be worth it. I'm in the most crucial period of my life from a business standpoint, which is why the cravings are coming up, and so I know I can't let it back into myself. 

I'm reminding myself of how sure I was that I could moderate in the past, and how quickly it turned on its head. 

 

Here's yesterdays video (made before everything went to shit) about how Thailand is handling the coronavirus:

 

Thanks for reading!

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6 hours ago, James Good said:

I had no choice but to make myself throw up after eating it.

That does not sound good. Did this happen before? 

6 hours ago, James Good said:

If someone has any insight into why this happened I'm all ears.

There might be an external reason like something bad has happened and you wanted to get rid of that. Regardless, this has happened, because you decided to do it. And there is no reason to beat yourself up because of it. Relapse happens. Sometimes, we overeat. If your desires und goals in life are stronger that those short term temptations, it is going to be fine on average.

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