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3 hours ago, Erik2.0 said:

Day 86 NF 57 Np 40 Med 26

I got up at 7am today. As opposed to 930am. That's pretty big for me. I'm looking to go to fantasy writing, anime and poetry meetups in the future. I felt kind of bored today as I didn't work much. It made me think about gaming. I think I'm going to go to peets coffee and read or watch YouTube there after this just to be around other people. I spent a lot of time by myself indoors today and it just felt kind of isolated. I got some herbal tea to drink because I don't drink sugar or caffeine. It's nice to drink something other than plain water for once. 🙂 

I accomplished finishing the work week with a client.

I am grateful for herbal tea, clean water, letters, words, sentences, writing, paper, pages, ink, and the printing press.

That sounds like a good plan to get out and be around people. I don't drink anything besides water and rarely some juice. What do you write about?

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Day 87 NF 56 Np 41 Med 27

Almost to two months nofap and three months no games. Go me! I'm listening to a reiki track right now and it's very soothing and calm. I enjoy this music. I'm getting up early and I'm planning to get up a little earlier to have time to meditate and go to the gym in the morning. My sleep still hasn't totally resolved, but it seems to be doing better. Just choosing to start sleeping 8.5 hours a night and that's it go about my day has been okay so far. I'm enjoying the extra 2.5 hours a day I have awake. I've been reading Naruto manga and having more time to spend with my mom. Also I have more time to post here on the forum and I'm even going to try to get into writing some poetry. I would draw more manga, but I don't really have a lot of motivation to do so right now. This is because there aren't any drawing meetups and my mom told me not to do to anime meetup because she doesn't want me watching anymore tv than I already do. I think this community could understand her sentiments with trying to limit screen time. I'm still loving herbal tea and I love water. It's so refreshing. I was pretty tired today, but my sleep book says that'll just increase my sleep drive and thus my quality of sleep will improve. Just keep sleeping and getting up at the same time no matter what and it'll give me the best chance for good sleep. I still do wakeup and feel hot or cold and can't seem to sleep through a night. God willing that will change. I'm praying more as my pastor and a friend recommended. God bless us one and all.

I accomplished finishing my work week without missing any hours. 

I am grateful for screwdrivers, flatheads, peacocks, art, table centerpieces, wooden chairs, Chinese furniture, beautiful things, rubber, plastic, and metal .

God bless

Erik

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22 hours ago, BooksandTrees said:

That sounds like a good plan to get out and be around people. I don't drink anything besides water and rarely some juice. What do you write about?

Yes I'm the same way with fluids. That's why I'm trying out herbal teas to add some flavor to my liquid life. I was writing a story about two good friends that are kind of recluses and balance each other out. They go on adventures, realize their potential and some dreams they were scarcely aware of themselves along the way. I felt like writing fantasy was giving me acne for some reason so I'm waiting till I get on accutane and my skin clears up to try writing again. Still giving church and poetry group a shot.

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Day 88 NF 57 Np 42 Med 28

Well, the sleep thing kind of didn't work today. I got up early like usual but I was so tired I fell asleep on the couch trying to get to the gym. Then I napped for three hours. But I'm not supposed to nap at all according to the book. 😞 Hopefully it works out I'm just going to keep on with the sleep plan. 

I accomplished reading a little of a christian book.

I am grateful for grartitude, love, kindness, respect, intelligence, wisdom, cabinets, wood, mindfulness, and observation.

God bless

Erik

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25 minutes ago, Erik2.0 said:

Day 88 NF 57 Np 42 Med 28

Well, the sleep thing kind of didn't work today. I got up early like usual but I was so tired I fell asleep on the couch trying to get to the gym. Then I napped for three hours. But I'm not supposed to nap at all according to the book. 😞 Hopefully it works out I'm just going to keep on with the sleep plan. 

I accomplished reading a little of a christian book.

I am grateful for grartitude, love, kindness, respect, intelligence, wisdom, cabinets, wood, mindfulness, and observation.

God bless

Erik

I was/am also very tired today. Sometimes after a long week it can compound a bit. I would say be happy that you recognized your body's need to relax and rest a bit. You've been working out a lot and working a lot as well as maintaining good habits and avoiding bad ones. That takes a lot of mental energy and physical energy. It's good to rest sometimes.

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Day 89 NF 58 Np 43 Med 29

@BooksandTrees Thanks, I guess I could use the rest. Work is only going to be more hours, but I feel God is making me ready for it. He only gives us what we can handle. 

Today was a low key day off. I spent time playing guitar, going to church, writing poems and watching Netflix. It's hard to avoid Netflix when I watch it as part of my job and also my friends all watch it too. I guess I might want to put a personal limit on how much tv I'll watch in a day. Say no more than two hours. Especially on my days off. This will force me to spend more time reading books. Which is important for me to do. Netflix is honestly just so addictive. Watching just a little bit makes me want to watch lots on and on. mm. Two hours. That's the limit. And if I watch it with a client that day then no  Netflix or any shows that night. That counts as tv time. I guess this is how parents deal with their kids having access to screens. Man one of my clients is on screens like 8 hours a day plus, but doesn't identify as an addict. 

Anyways. I setup my potential schedule for work with my sleep schedule and I've got it figured out. I can potentially work 40 hours a week once the hours come my way and I get a new client who can work early mornings : 730-1030. Yep. God willing this will all go smoothly and according to plan 🙂 . Its still hard having a friend who has yet to try to talk on the phone once. And I have to ask her to talk everytime >: |  She's a nice over text so at least that much. Ehn. She's into christianity, but is also having a lesbian relationship. It makes me feel uncomfortable sometimes, but I've kind of gotten over it and now I'm just like, whatever be lesbian or not do what you want. I'm not trying to control her and make her only date guys anymore. It sort of makes me feel like, Well why am I trying so hard then? Why don't I call on the names of other gods. I like learning about other religions, but I don't speak the names of other gods as is stated to avoid in the Bible. But I still observe practices like doing no harm and non violence. Being kind to living things and the sort. Idk I guess I'll just continue living a Christian life that's as close to the Holy Bible's orders as I can. I don't really want to get into that whole paradigm of , "Well I'm going to do this thing that I know is sin for a while and eventually get off it." I already got off substances porn masturbation and gaming. I don't' need to add more vices etc. 

Now a Haiku for my GameQuitters.

Game quitters thank you.

Warmth of the community.

Life to my dry bones.

I accomplished writing a bunch of poems.

I am grateful for Max Lucado, christianity, the father, son, Holy Spirit, stars, the sky, blue, oxygen and night time.

God bless

Erik

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5 hours ago, Erik2.0 said:

Man one of my clients is on screens like 8 hours a day plus, but doesn't identify as an addict. 

Depends, there is a lot of stuff one can do on the computer, but watching TV or gaming for 8 hours a day is not the best course of action.

5 hours ago, Erik2.0 said:

Its still hard having a friend who has yet to try to talk on the phone once. And I have to ask her to talk everytime >: |  She's a nice over text so at least that much. Ehn. She's into christianity, but is also having a lesbian relationship. It makes me feel uncomfortable sometimes, but I've kind of gotten over it and now I'm just like, whatever be lesbian or not do what you want. I'm not trying to control her and make her only date guys anymore.

Friendships are about acceptance, not about forcing your values onto others. If someone was trying to change my sexual orientation (and were serious about it), I'd tell them to piss off and worry about their own life. Good choice on not doing that anymore.

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Day 90 NF 59 Np 44 Med 30

Woohoo! 90 days 🙂 I guess that means I have all kinds of powers now according to our beloved gamequitters website. +% enjoyment of life and attractiveness and all that . Yay! Oh man work was heck today, but tomorrow is another day where I'll try to do better! That's all I can do. My sleep is uhm. Well we'll see what happens with that. I'm sticking with the staying in bed for 8 hours 15 minutes a night and that's it. I do my best not to nap even though I often feel tired and could nap because that's what my sleep book says to do. I love my mom, I'm really grateful for her imperfect as she and all of us are.

I accomplished making a decision to not spend more than three hours with a client including a note no matter what.

I am grateful for my mom, tea, hot water, clean water, showers, indoor plumbing, heating, hardwood floors and furniture.

God bless

Erik

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1 hour ago, Erik2.0 said:

Day 90 NF 59 Np 44 Med 30

Woohoo! 90 days 🙂 I guess that means I have all kinds of powers now according to our beloved gamequitters website. +% enjoyment of life and attractiveness and all that . Yay! Oh man work was heck today, but tomorrow is another day where I'll try to do better! That's all I can do. My sleep is uhm. Well we'll see what happens with that. I'm sticking with the staying in bed for 8 hours 15 minutes a night and that's it. I do my best not to nap even though I often feel tired and could nap because that's what my sleep book says to do. I love my mom, I'm really grateful for her imperfect as she and all of us are.

I accomplished making a decision to not spend more than three hours with a client including a note no matter what.

I am grateful for my mom, tea, hot water, clean water, showers, indoor plumbing, heating, hardwood floors and furniture.

God bless

Erik

Great job. You should feel very proud of yourself. I didn't notice my addiction to games going away until I was well into the 100 days region. 90 can be sort of a bell-curve. I say this just in case you are wondering why things are not as advertised during some days that you should be patient and stick to the process.

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Day 91 NF 60 Np 45 Med 31

@BooksandTrees Thanks for the advice. I'll keep with it. I know I'll be okay and I look forward to feeling better and better as the days add up. 🙂 

Today was cool. I've lately found myself pacing around the house aimlessly when I'm not working or at the gym. This is because I don't have anything to do other than read books haha. So I went and read some poems today online. That was nice. I think I'd still like to get into fantasy writing as it's more time consuming. I know that doesn't exactly sound like a pro, but it can be really nice to have something to do that takes up an hour of time easily. Reading and writing poems can be done kind of quickly. I still would like to find all the most famous poets and read some of their works. Shakespeares writing has a great feeling to it, but I can't figure out what he's talking about in his old English. Shrugs . My client was saying he wanted a Honda type-r someday. I looked it up and that's a 37,000$ car. I thought I'd want an Acura, but after looking at prices I'm kind of like. Maybe a Honda Si someday would be good enough. I'd have to somehow be really wealthy to justify buying a 40k car. I'm a future therapist, we aren't the most highly paid bunch, although not the lowest pay either. Uhm.....I want to say that this journal has really been helping me workout my problems a lot better. It's just like the marathon runner from gaming the system podcast said. "Journaling helped me workout my problems really well." I'm not super motivated to play guitar. I do enjoy playing a christian song on it to make me feel better. I just don't really see any meetups for guitar that I'd be interested in going to yet. Seems to be mostly guys playing guitar haha. Also guitar would come with a high price if I were to get guitar lessons to progress at it. I really want to focus on saving just about as much money as I can these next few years so I can maximize how much I am able to pay off my student loans debt. Not to mention my credit card debt. Ugh. I was super messed up back in the day. I didn't really think about living a long life or living my life at all. I just used drugs and alcohol and video games to hide away from life. Eventually amassing a ton of debt which I used to buy drugs, alcohol, video games, food etc. Now I have all this debt and I'm sober 1 year five months. Yikes. I'm 31. There are alcoholics who get sober at fifty and have it a lot worse than I do financially. So . . . I don't have it that great, but I have it good enough for now. It'll get better. It's getting better. It's just that I'm experiencing the slight edge. I am slowly gaining financially, in the gym, even with my semi-nonexistent hobbies. haha. 

I accomplished deadlifting 175x3x5

I am grateful for my fingers, typing, compassion, guitar, poetry, fantasy, writing, art, creativity, and hobbies.

God bless

Erik

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Day 92 NF 61 Np 46 Med 32

Yes! Today I went to therapy group and christian group and they were both awesome. I'm looking forward to continuing with both as much as I am able.

I smiled at people's carts as I silently denounced their consumption of sugar.

I accomplished eating veggies.

I am grateful for vitamins, rags, cloths, cleaning stuff, people, christian groups, church, Jesus, kindness, and socializing.

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Day 93 NF 62 Np 47 Med 33

I napped for two hours this morning. It was so cold I didn't want to get out of bed and I didn't have work because a clients cancelled. I'm feeling kind of tired and emotional. I guess that's what happens when you do yoga while watching three episodes of my hero academia. Maybe if I watch some anime more regularly on my own it won't be so intense to watch with clients. Speaking of clients my session went well today. It was a struggle at the start, but then it got a lot better. I can tell my client has my best interests at heart. He's a nice guy and is kind to me. I hope to continue with him for a long time. It's about time for me to take on new clients. I feel ready after my hiatus from accepting more work. It's been a good break and I'm ready to get back to it. 

I smiled at the character who had a less than impressive battle quirk.

I accomplished eating healthy! No 711 food!

I am grateful for my life, my health and my body.

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Day 94 NF 63 Np 48 Med 34

Im trying to post on other people’s journals more often. I think it stirs the social pot well to do so. I hope everyone’s doing okay. Talking to my dad about swimming made me want to go do it. Maybe it’ll become possible once I’m on accutane and it isn’t irritating my skin anymore. Still giving poetry a try. I’m kind of trying out a Christian group and I hope it takes. I hope we end up working out together.

i smiled at myself in the window😉.

I accomplished cooking dinner.

i am grateful for my clothes journal and writing utensils.

God bless

Erik

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Day 95 NF 64 Np 49 Med 35

Still going strong. Kind of tired of forum'ing for right now, but I think it still does help me sort of . . . process and stay cognizant of how many days I've been clean and staying motivated to stay off games. 

I smiled at Naruto, fun show sometimes. 

I accomplished not eating high sugar foods.

I am grateful for my sleep book, the Bible and my laptop.

God bless

Erik

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1 hour ago, Erik2.0 said:

Day 95 NF 64 Np 49 Med 35

Still going strong. Kind of tired of forum'ing for right now, but I think it still does help me sort of . . . process and stay cognizant of how many days I've been clean and staying motivated to stay off games. 

I smiled at Naruto, fun show sometimes. 

I accomplished not eating high sugar foods.

I am grateful for my sleep book, the Bible and my laptop.

God bless

Erik

It's hard to journal a lot. I go through phases where I comment on everyone's journal or don't. I always make sure to comment if someone is in a dangerous position though because I'd hope someone is there for me in my time of need. 

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Day 96 NF 65 Np 50 Med 36

@BooksandTrees Thank you for letting me know that. It makes me feel more normal going through a time where I'm less inclined to journal. I want to keep writing at least a little something just to keep the counter going each day. 

Hello friends, 

I got an HD-C to HDMI adapter and can stream anime off my laptop to my tv now. It's been kind of cool to start watching Naruto again. However, spending two hours a day on television is kind of a time suck. Whilst before I watched tv I would literally pace around the house not knowing what to do with my time. Now I feel like I don't have as much time to read books. I couldn't figure out any hobbies beyond: exercise, meditation, christianity and reading. So I suppose tv is okay for now. I'd be willing to give it up for a different hobby if I found one I could sustainably do. For some reason I tend to eat more and crave food when I watch tv. This is not conducive to my "Get to 7% body fat goal." I'm down to 9% last I checked. Everyone has told me I needed to put on more muscle my whole life, (except when I was on. creatine). But I want to make sure I stay very lean while I'm putting on more muscle. I've switched to a four day program where I lift weights four days and try for cardio and yoga the other three. We'll see how it goes. I think I'm going to give a 'strength week' a shot this coming week. One where I do three compound lifts on three days of the week. Squatting each day. It will help me get my squat and bench weight up faster which is important to me. My goal is to be big and muscular with 225 lbs on the squat bench deadlift and barbell row. And a 60+lb db military press. I'll do it someday. I'm putting in prayer requests for my sleep to improve. I'm still spending 10.5 hours in bed each day and sometimes even napping too. But, it's the best I can do right now. It's actually an improvement from 11 hours a day. I hope to get down to 9 hours a day someday. Maybe even 8. That would be amazing for my schedule. I could work so much more. Thanks for reading.

God bless

Erik

I smiled at completing my yoga practice today.

I accomplished not eating sugary foods.

I am grateful for showers, water, good enough health, my mom, positivity, meditation in the mornings, podcasts, books on tape, the night sky, stars, air, space and a good enough life.

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Day 97 NF 66 Np 51 Med 37

Hello,

Today was a good day overall. I started accurate which seems to be causing some minor irritation, but nothing major. I saw two clients, went to the gym and did my routines. I'm still trying to get down to 7% body fat which I think will be possible for me. Also I'm trying to get to 225 on my barbell lifts. I think that will take some more finagling to make happen, but it might just . . .workout. That pun kind of just happened. I did the powerlifting style workout and think I'll stay with it a little while longer to get my lifts up. I'm starting to crave more reading time. I have a couple books to read. I'd like to get more Christian and self-help books to read. @Cam Adair is a great source for books if you just listen to his podcast or look at his YouTube videos on what books to read he recommends a lot of good ones. I'm doing a paper journal now and it's been really soothing. It's a nice little something to do in the evenings to wind down without any screens on. Thanks for reading.

God bless

Erik

I smiled at lifting a little more weight than last time.

I accomplished eating like 1.5 avocados today.

I am grateful for cam, booksandtrees, my GQ community, cleaning cloths, and spiral notebooks. 

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7% body fat! That's a dream for me lol. I don't stay consistent at the gym enough, it's just too busy and I hate waiting in line for 30 minutes just to do 24 bench presses. I gotta follow through on joining a real gym... less people go to those, I've found.

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Day 99 NF 68 Np 53 Med 39

@ceponatia Yeah I go to lifetime athletic it’s a really good gym and tends to have less people on the benches. They have a lot of benches so that helps. Yeah I’m not eating desert or fried foods to try to get down to 7%. There’s also a lake house hangout with my christian group in April to keep me motivated to train. Go to a good gym it’s worth it if you find one that works for you.


I missed a day on here. Yesterday was just really full with bible study. Today was full with sleeping a long time due to my accutane. I’m lowering dosage by half so it’ll probably be better. God willing. It’s worth it if I can take the strain it puts on me if I can finally have clear skin ah . 
 

I smiled at my mom who is good to me.

I accomplished working out despite sleeping a ton.

I am grateful for restaurants my diet and filtered water so much better than unfiltered!

God bless

Erik

 

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Isn't it amazing how little we actually have to do to lose weight? Lol. People make it sound like you have to cut out everything but water and lettuce or you'll be morbidly obese. I just stopped snacking and lost 60lbs. That's it. I wasn't even working out at the time.

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Day 100 NF 69 Np 54 Med 40

@ceponatia nice that's a lot of weight. How's your fitness going? 

Today was cool. Got up pretty early 6am. Its nice to see clients. Looks like I'm going to lose one although I pray I don't. It's nice talking to my dad. I'm trying to get into swimming with him. I'm slowly going to my bible group more. Hope that goes well too. 

I smiled at my GQ journal.

I accomplished getting up early and not napping.

I am grateful for my fitness, my goals and my life.

God bless

Erik

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Fitness is stagnant, I don't have much energy after work these days. Either I'm getting old or something is wrong. Lol

I've thought that maybe I should try napping but then I just sleep til 9 and can't fall back asleep, end up staying up all night, and barely make it through the work day. Perhaps, like yourself, I should just get back on the habit of getting up early. What time do you go to sleep?

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Day 100 NF 69 Np 54 Med 40

@ceponatia I'm not exactly a model of perfect sleep. I go to bed at 10pm and wake up at 745am. So that's like 9.75 hours of lying in bed. I've cut back from 11 hours to 9.75. I'm trying to cut down more on bed time, but I get sleepy if I don't lay in bed for a long time...maybe I'll cut back fifteen more minutes soon. Honestly, I go to the gym and lift weights or run on the elliptical even if I'm feeling kind of tired. Or I just nap until I feel able to go to the gym if I'm dead tired. I'm not always peppy walking in the door.

I'm writing my post early today. I could do with a nail clipping, my fingers aren't typing as smoothly as I'd like. I got in my responses for a psych class I'm in. So yay. The essay and most of the posts for the quarter are over with. Just a couple more chapter based posts and I'm done with the class. I can say goodbye to classes until I have to study for the licensure exam in approximately two and a half years. My poor mom desperately wants to see me licensed and making good money as a therapist ASAP. It's hard for me to do my best and still feel like I'm not doing enough to make her happy with my performance career wise. Still if I work an average of 30 hours a week for two years I'll be looking at taking my licensure exam in about 05/2022. That would be awesome. To pay off all my debt and become licensed is my career goal. I will do it someday. Hopefully in three years time, God willing. 

I'm willing to stay at my mom's house for another year at least to help me pay off my debt. Even though I'm 31 paying the debt is more important than moving out right now. Every time I get enough money to make a payment I'm putting it back into my loans. I don't buy much things besides groceries and gas. I just spend money on loans and save as best I can. I've paid off enough to raise my credit score back up. Its a slow grind that'll take years to finish. But, I'm taking each small win and celebrating them as I go to stay motivated. The small wins will eventually add up to the big win.

I smiled at James good's recent video on YouTube. 

I accomplished drinking water, yum.

I am grateful for water, plants, and dirt.

God bless

Erik 

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Day 101 NF 70 Np 55 Med 41

Almost relapsed on no pop today. I've been super agitated from accutane and for some reason it makes me want to pop my pimples. Sorry for so much info. I'm off accutane now, it was causing too much fatigue and irritability. Back to topical ointments. Probably for life unless they invent a new and improved version of accutane someday. 

I went to a social outing with my christian group. It was sort of nice, but we stayed up till midnight which was too late for me. Next time I'm going to leave at 11pm. I need my rest. It was pretty fun, but I got socially anxious a couple times while I was there. It was intense. I'm not as triggered by the meetings that are around bible study. It's more tame. I like tame. 

The corona virus is spreading. I heard most people affected by it won't die so that's good. My mom gives me the minute to minute counter of how many people are infected in my area. It's not fun to be around and I know she won't stop. She might refrain from telling me about it though. Looks like we might be shelling up and staying indoors most of the time to prevent infection. Yikes. I hope this virus epidemic goes away soon. 

I've had a lot of challenges with being suicidal. Even thinking about the virus I thought, 'It wouldn't be so bad to die.' I tried to remind myself that I don't want to die and I want to live. But it was kind of rote recitation. Depression and sleep disorders aren't easy to deal with.

I guess work's going okay. I got all my hours last week, but I'm losing a client. So they'll have to give me new clients or I'm going back down below 20 hours a week. Mhm. There is one single girl in my Christian group and I believe three single guys. So, kind of slim pickings, but whatever I'm still grateful there's at least one girl around to give us all hope. Although I know there's a small percentage change that I'll be the lucky one to get to date her. Furthermore I don't even know her much I just met the person once. I don't even know if we'd get along together or any of that. Looks are good, but personality is make or break too. If I don't get along well with someone I won't date them even if they're super good looking. I just don't think a relationship is going to last if you don't have a good relationship.

I smiled at honey pig korean bbq, woah that was a lot of food. Good tasting though.

I accomplished going to the gym despite major fatigue.

I am grateful for the Bible, mac's, keyboards, medication and printers.

God bless

Erik

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Day 101 NF 70 Np 55 Med 41

Almost relapsed on no pop today. I've been super agitated from accutane and for some reason it makes me want to pop my pimples. Sorry for so much info. I'm off accutane now, it was causing too much fatigue and irritability. Back to topical ointments. Probably for life unless they invent a new and improved version of accutane someday. 

I went to a social outing with my christian group. It was sort of nice, but we stayed up till midnight which was too late for me. Next time I'm going to leave at 11pm. I need my rest. It was pretty fun, but I got socially anxious a couple times while I was there. It was intense. I'm not as triggered by the meetings that are around bible study. It's more tame. I like tame. 

The corona virus is spreading. I heard most people affected by it won't die so that's good. My mom gives me the minute to minute counter of how many people are infected in my area. It's not fun to be around and I know she won't stop. She might refrain from telling me about it though. Looks like we might be shelling up and staying indoors most of the time to prevent infection. Yikes. I hope this virus epidemic goes away soon. 

I've had a lot of challenges with being suicidal. Even thinking about the virus I thought, 'It wouldn't be so bad to die.' I tried to remind myself that I don't want to die and I want to live. But it was kind of rote recitation. Depression and sleep disorders aren't easy to deal with.

I guess work's going okay. I got all my hours last week, but I'm losing a client. So they'll have to give me new clients or I'm going back down below 20 hours a week. Mhm. There is one single girl in my Christian group and I believe three single guys. So, kind of slim pickings, but whatever I'm still grateful there's at least one girl around to give us all hope. Although I know there's a small percentage change that I'll be the lucky one to get to date her. Furthermore I don't even know her much I just met the person once. I don't even know if we'd get along together or any of that. Looks are good, but personality is make or break too. If I don't get along well with someone I won't date them even if they're super good looking. I just don't think a relationship is going to last if you don't have a good relationship.

I smiled at honey pig korean bbq, woah that was a lot of food. Good tasting though.

I accomplished going to the gym despite major fatigue.

I am grateful for the Bible, mac's, keyboards, medication and printers.

God bless

Erik

Stay strong. We'll get through it. The "flu" is a generalized term that you could get infected with many times of flu. As you know, there are multiple kinds. The vaccine helps prevent some, but not all strains. Hopefully we can find a cure soon.

I just want to add that you can go to the CDC or WHO website and see that hundreds of thousands, potentially millions of people have "the flu", which could be any kind of the general flu forms. Much fewer have coronavirus. It has a much lower fatality rate than other forms of the flu.

This stuff goes around and it's just up to hygiene, sleep, nutrition, contact with others, and general luck to avoid it sometimes. You've been through it before and you'll be through it again in another 5 years or so. This time around it's way worse than the bird flu because social media and the news is more sensationalized than before. 2009 seems like such a far time from us. The bird flu was far more deadly back then as well. 

Have hope and only worry about what you can control: hygiene, diet, sleep, and contact with others.

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