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                                         My Sobriety Journal                                         
                                                                              - Retaining Sobriety -

Hello to all fellow Gamequitters, my name is Neil, and I am in my mid-thirties. I am from & currently live in Louisiana with my Mom & Dad who allowed me to move back in after I chose an honorable discharge from the US Air Force after 6 years of service.  I did not have a problem making the promotion cycles and for that reason I believe I would have continued my Air Force career had I found sobriety and a little more confidence in myself before or even during active duty.  To be clear I feel way more confident in myself now than before beginning sobriety, LEARN FROM THIS! ☺️  TRASH THOSE GAMES!  Just because you don't feel addicted doesn't mean it won't develop into a life crippling dependency, it will.

You can read my full personal introduction here that includes the events this last year leading up to my decision to quit video games for good.  It would be great if my lifelong gaming addiction never was there to begin with but it was - and for that I am very grateful to be here to share a little bit of my sobriety as the days go by.  I do not expect I will exclusively post with these template formats below but I find a bit of comfort in the structure they offer to help guide me. Comments to my journal entries are quite welcome let us simply be sure to follow the forum rules.  This is just as much for maintaining my sobriety as it is to help & inspire the community as you have found your way here, enjoy!!

My Daily Sobriety Journal Template is here .. 
My Gamequitter's "LTS" Journal Template is here ..
Everyone is welcome to use ✌️

Respectfully,
Neil,  Ex-Gamer Addict,  Gamequitters Member

My Introduction,  My Mission,  Newcomer Help
Goals,  Affirmations,  Habits,  Gratitude,  Web Redux
My Nutritional Values  no forum debates please direct message only!

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LTS Journal!!
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#####  MY DAILY SOBRIETY JOURNAL  #############################################################

TODAY'S DATE:          22 JUN 2019
NO GAMING:              #111 DAYS
NO PORNOGRAPHY: #111 DAYS
NO ALCOHOL:             #172 DAYS
NO NICOTINE:             #172 DAYS

#####  LAST NIGHT  ##########################################################################

Electronics off by Sundown?
No but within an hour after.

Meditation:
Mindfulness to clear the mind.

Visualization:
Finish getting car all shiny, clean!

Asleep by Bedtime?
No but within an hour after.

Hours of Sleep:
8 hours.

Uninterrupted Sleep?
YES!!  I certainly believe my body was fighting me going to sleep earlier - can't wait to see the quality of sleep I get today starting to eat dinner by 5pm =)

#####  TODAY  ###############################################################################

Gratitude:
I am grateful for the https://acoa.activeboard.com 12 step forums that continue to be a service to my Stage Two recovery work from growing up in a abusive dysfunctional family, now that I have pushed away my addictions I am able to prioritize Stage Two recovery - I am very thankful for this.

Projects:
Finish getting car all shiny, clean!

One amazing thing that happened/I did today:
I woke up before 7am for the first time in years as I recall.

Exercise Completed:
Spent an two hours fishing to get the $40 drone down from a tree, sweating at the great outdoor sauna.  Drone is still stuck - more exercise for another day.
Spent twenty minutes sweating profusely inside of car cleaning windows.
Not the most strenuous of exercise yet honestly have done a lot of calisthenics & running recently without breaking much any a sweat, this was all nice for a change.

Meditation:
Focused:  "Who Is My God"
~ the Strength I nurture within my veins.
~ the Law of Attraction as I discern the positive, the negative, and make my choice - my path.

Visualization:
Finish getting car all shiny, clean!

Daily affirmation:
Today, I give myself permission to succeed.

Reading:
The Self-Esteem Workbook by Glenn R. Schiraldi, Ph.D - Chapter 6, Acknowledge Reality: "Nevertheless!"

Goals 1 Week From Now:
Apply for 20 jobs, make some cash, put one thing up for sale that I do not need, update car inspection.

Goals 1 Month From Now:
Car cleaning & maintenance, get a job.

Goals 3 Months From Now:
Have college plans in motion, have a car cover, have a new computer chair.

Habits Today:
Lot of computer screen time getting started at another recovery forum.

How did your day go? 
Woke up earlier than usual with fantastic night sleep it was really great! Ate breakfast, put in a lot of work between Gamequitter replies, 12 step forum work, and spotting help on StopGaming Discord. Ate lunch, worked on getting stuck drone out of tree - still stuck, ate dinner, cleaned car glass & mirrors inside / out - also bathroom mirror.

What went well today? 
My sweat glands worked very well keeping the body cool :)
Car glass & mirrors are immaculate no spot or smudge. Same with the bathroom mirror!

What could you have done to make your day better? 
More exercise than sweating.

What will you do differently tomorrow? 
Exercise well - planning for cardio & calisthenics.


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#####  MY DAILY SOBRIETY JOURNAL  #############################################################

TODAY'S DATE:          23 JUN 2019
NO GAMING:              #112 DAYS
NO PORNOGRAPHY: #112 DAYS
NO ALCOHOL:             #173 DAYS
NO NICOTINE:             #173 DAYS

#####  LAST NIGHT  ##########################################################################

Electronics off by Sundown?
No, but close!

Meditation:
Mindfulness clearing the mind. 

Visualization:
The Core Self (self esteem)

Asleep by Bedtime?
Close!

Hours of Sleep:
9 hours

Uninterrupted Sleep?
Yes!!

#####  TODAY  ###############################################################################

Gratitude:
Grateful for the birds that follow & whistle back and forth with me as I run & cycle down my short, dead-end road :)

Projects:
Car inspection, Self Esteem workbook, and 12 step program, print out resumes, apply for work - check unemployment office & staffing agency for resources.

One amazing thing that happened/I did today:
Found my old facebook login information, logged in & deleted it!!  Social media is not good for me I will spend hours clicking buttons mindlessly & checking my phone.  This would have been deleted a long time ago but 4 years ago when looked to do that there was no delete, only deactivate - cutting the big social media ties are finally complete.

Exercise Completed:
Went running & cycling outside for 45 minutes - I have been neglecting that for awhile.

Meditation:
Focused - The Core Self, Core Worth, Performance, Strengths, Handicaps, Externals.
These things are all independent functions with a worth of their own.

Visualization:
The Core Self (self esteem)

Daily affirmation:
You're as good as anyone, but you're no better than anyone, and don't forget it.

Reading:
The Self-Esteem Workbook by Glenn R. Schiraldi, Ph.D. - Chapter 4, The Basics of Human Worth

Goals 1 Week From Now:
Apply for 20 jobs, make some cash, put one thing up for sale that I do not need, update car inspection.

Goals 1 Month From Now:
Car cleaning & maintenance, get a job.

Goals 3 Months From Now:
Have college plans in motion, have a car cover, have a new computer chair.

Habits Today:
Lots of forum work today, time to crack down on limiting the computer time.

How did your day go? 
Ate 3 meals, did forum work, exercised, & I will close the day by reading another chapter in the self esteem book.

What went well today? 
The lentil stew turned out to be really tasty - it seems that diced sweet potato packed a lot of flavor into the broth!

What could you have done to make your day better? 
Start preparing dinner earlier!! Start eating by 5!!!!

What will you do differently tomorrow? 
I will be finishing the final tasks I wanted complete before applying for work .. I may even begin applying!!

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#####  MY DAILY SOBRIETY JOURNAL  #############################################################

TODAY'S DATE:          24 JUN 2019
NO GAMING:              #113 DAYS
NO PORNOGRAPHY: #113 DAYS
NO ALCOHOL:             #174 DAYS
NO NICOTINE:             #174 DAYS

#####  LAST NIGHT  ##########################################################################

Electronics off by Sundown?
Yes!

Meditation:
Mindfulness, clearing the mind.

Visualization:
✖️

Asleep by Bedtime?
No, I had taken about an extra 2 hours reading & highlighting the chapter I finished in my book .. and I certainly believe throwing off my bedtime is why I tossed, turned, could not stay asleep.

Hours of Sleep:
~7

Uninterrupted Sleep?
That would have been great! No more stretching the bedtime to late hours quality sleep is one of the most important things I can do all day.

#####  TODAY  ###############################################################################

Gratitude:
I am grateful for all the freedom of time my sobriety has given me. The difference is night & day when you find worthy goals to accomplish.

Projects:
Thought Record worksheet, Self Esteem workbook, and 12 step program, print out resumes, apply for work - check unemployment office & staffing agency for resources.

One amazing thing that happened/I did today:
Managed to recover the drone that was stuck 50+ ft high in a tree limb for a week!

Exercise Completed:
A few brisk walks, a brisk jog, and one hour of calisthenics.

Meditation:
✖️

Visualization:
✖️

Daily affirmation:
Letting circumstances or others determine worth gives them inappropriate control and power.

Reading:
✖️

Goals 1 Week From Now:
Apply for 20 jobs, make some cash, put one thing up for sale that I do not need, update car inspection.

Goals 1 Month From Now:
Car cleaning & maintenance, get a job.

Goals 3 Months From Now:
Have college plans in motion, have a car cover, have a new computer chair.

Habits Today:
Lot of time spent on computer especially surfing Youtube videos .. it is time to tame this beast .. I will be setting imposed limitations and following them.
If this is a problem to me I will be disconnecting the Internet for awhile. I believe I will limit these journal entries to once a week.

How did your day go? 
Car inspection completed! Fasted breakfast, made two large meals, experimented with potatoes and seasoned veggies - delicious, experimenting with making raisin bread in the microwave - almost there!

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On 6/24/2019 at 9:59 PM, goodvibes said:

#####  MY DAILY SOBRIETY JOURNAL  #############################################################

TODAY'S DATE:          24 JUN 2019
NO GAMING:              #113 DAYS
NO PORNOGRAPHY: #113 DAYS
NO ALCOHOL:             #174 DAYS
NO NICOTINE:             #174 DAYS

#####  LAST NIGHT  ##########################################################################

Electronics off by Sundown?
Yes!

Meditation:
Mindfulness, clearing the mind.

Visualization:
✖️

Asleep by Bedtime?
No, I had taken about an extra 2 hours reading & highlighting the chapter I finished in my book .. and I certainly believe throwing off my bedtime is why I tossed, turned, could not stay asleep.

Hours of Sleep:
~7

Uninterrupted Sleep?
That would have been great! No more stretching the bedtime to late hours quality sleep is one of the most important things I can do all day.

#####  TODAY  ###############################################################################

Gratitude:
I am grateful for all the freedom of time my sobriety has given me. The difference is night & day when you find worthy goals to accomplish.

Projects:
Thought Record worksheet, Self Esteem workbook, and 12 step program, print out resumes, apply for work - check unemployment office & staffing agency for resources.

One amazing thing that happened/I did today:
Managed to recover the drone that was stuck 50+ ft high in a tree limb for a week!

Exercise Completed:
A few brisk walks, a brisk jog, and one hour of calisthenics.

Meditation:
✖️

Visualization:
✖️

Daily affirmation:
Letting circumstances or others determine worth gives them inappropriate control and power.

Reading:
✖️

Goals 1 Week From Now:
Apply for 20 jobs, make some cash, put one thing up for sale that I do not need, update car inspection.

Goals 1 Month From Now:
Car cleaning & maintenance, get a job.

Goals 3 Months From Now:
Have college plans in motion, have a car cover, have a new computer chair.

Habits Today:
Lot of time spent on computer especially surfing Youtube videos .. it is time to tame this beast .. I will be setting imposed limitations and following them.
If this is a problem to me I will be disconnecting the Internet for awhile. I believe I will limit these journal entries to once a week.

How did your day go? 
Car inspection completed! Fasted breakfast, made two large meals, experimented with potatoes and seasoned veggies - delicious, experimenting with making raisin bread in the microwave - almost there!

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Nice job dude. I like that you're keeping things simple but still have quite a list in front of you. It's a good trait to have when you're trying to accomplish so much. I'm hoping to go a day without porn tomorrow. We'll see. 

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Day 119.

After spending a more-than-generous amount of hours watching a Pro-Wrestling promotion I have taken notice how I am beginning to see it differently. Pro-Wrestling is a bloated well that keeps on giving filled with multiple hour broadcasts, interviews, speculation, tribute videos, heroes, villains, incredibly strong people, incredibly fit people, story-line segments, steroid abuse, knee replacements, hip replacements, concussions, brain damage, and early deaths. The 12 year old wrestling fan I used to be wants more however .. once I began to understand the sacrifices wrestlers make and the sacrifices I make to have this product in our lives it really makes me feel terrible. These sacrifices are so vain. We humans are given one life to do our best with the time we have and this is not it! 

The wrestling promotion the other day was focused to appeal to gamers and everything started to click. Most often the fans you see at the events are obese or pencil-then out of shape - they look like the gamer type. Many of them probably are. There was even a fan in the front row vip ringside seats high af on some drug. You know someday I might produce an offspring and I would not wish any of these things on such a gift of life.

So today I am making a firm decision to draw the line - no more Professional Wrestling - not in my house.

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Right now I will immediately begin by replacing the time consuming wrestling with time creating my future. More effort spent on my lengthy to-do organizer tasks, getting a job, and putting more thought into college vs planning more immediately to start my own business. More saved money is required for my ambitions so putting in hours working for the man is important .. but you know starting my own business as a Bucket-Bob cleaning windows getting experience with simple business - this is a smart move as well. These kind of efforts will replace wrestling consumption. 

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Day 120.

Tonight, and every night for the rest of my life I seek only positive affirmations before sleep, nothing negative. Dr Wayne Dyer has a good one here that I copied to my cell phone. I found more about him after taking note of his 2007 book about the Chinese Tao - Change Your Thoughts - Change Your Life: Living the Wisdom of the Tao.

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Someone was telling me how important it was to recount things you're grateful for before bed. It made me feel better when I did it. Only issue is idk if I could do that until I fix this bed issue lol.

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Day 123.
Affirmations have been moved to the forefront of my big paper journal because beginning with thought, we create what we desire in our lives. Simply having self-affirmations written where it can remind you of the what, how, & why something is important to you seems to be a great help in training a lazy, undisciplined mind.

I am .. Positivity, Well, Content, Peaceful, Happy, Prosperous, Abundant ..

I will use Gamequitters to .. Build an amazing body, Get that new job, Learn new languages, Complete a marathon ..

I will use Nofap to .. Stay out of debt, Complete a triathlon, Complete an ultra-marathon ..

I will .. Develop social skills, Ask how others are doing, Ask what others have been up to, Give people a way to make contact with me ..

I will go to sleep earlier ✌️

 

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Day 125 Affirmations:

I am .. Positivity Unbroken, Amazingly Creative, Happiness Embodied ..

I will .. Never play a video game again, Take a cold shower every day ..

Detachment is .. Following your own hearts desire, No longer feeling treated unfairly, Allowing yourself to grow, Refusing to let interactions with others define us, No longer leading the lives of others, Respecting the boundaries between yourself and others, Is not disinterest - but that might be the first step, Is the freedom not to be angry or sad, Giving up control - even the thought of it! let go now embracing detachment - set boundaries and make your life your own. A book of affirmations by Karen Casey.

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Dopamine Sensitivity & Depression. Gamequitters viewing this either take it or leave it this is for my own reference! ☢️

 

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27 minutes ago, goodvibes said:

Dopamine Sensitivity & Depression. Gamequitters viewing this either take it or leave it this is for my own reference! ☢️

 

The dramatic music lol. Sounds good though, makes sense to me. Anyone that dipped at least a little bit into personal development and health knows these things. Which is not the majority of the population by any means though, so that's where the problem lies. 

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@JustTom 

4 minutes ago, JustTom said:

The dramatic music lol

exactly - I am here using music identifiers trying to find the source! that music is well-embellished and crazy good. Alas, it is time to walk away, break bread, and do something more active! :1516_runner_tone2:

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1 minute ago, goodvibes said:

@JustTom 

exactly - I am here using music identifiers trying to find the source! that music is well-embellished and crazy good. Alas, it is time to walk away, break bread, and do something more active! :1516_runner_tone2:

The genre is called hybrid or hybrid orchestral. Two Steps From Hell is a label that publishes a ton of this style for example. 

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So what's your recipe for curry? I keep thinking I need something with chickpeas or something, but I don't know what to make. This has nothing to do with games, but I think it has something to do with life lol.

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@BooksandTrees @Dylan Tazzioli
Really all there is to the curry dishes I make is dice up my choice of potato. Sweet potato is really tasty though sometimes russet is all I have and they do the job just fine. I add a handful of barley or serving of pre-soaked lentils along with pre-diced veggies though I never pre-dice carrots they are super quick to chop. Putting lentils in dry will change things up I can explain that separately if you would like to hear about that. Really I believe half an hour soaking is enough time for lentils to benefit they will double in size but I start soaking one meal in advance so it is not forgotten. I suppose it should be said I soak in filtered water otherwise they absorb fluoride or whatever else is in the tap water supply.

Add all of that with 1-1/4 cup water to cook in a medium saucepan covered on low heat for 10mins, uncover and turn it up to medium heat about 5mins until it looks how I want to eat it, I don't like it soupy so I let it boil until I hear it sizzle. Then I usually add a generous pour of garlic powder and two pinches of salt, sometimes a generous bit of nutritional yeast really good flavor, sometimes ground turmeric & black pepper, sometimes curry powder. You don't want to add so much your food gets really dry though you can add some water to hydrate so whateves. :29_smirk:  Then finally I add a bit of hemp hearts, stir, add a final sprinkle of salt on top, sometimes mustard & ground black pepper, sometimes Sriracha or Tabasco sauce if I want a kick, sometimes I mash up half an avacado & squeeze half a lime when I stir in hemp hearts.

A lot of options there but when you know what you want this is an incredibly simple one-pot curry you can enjoy with cheap, affordable whole food ingredients that have a great shelf life, enjoy! 🌶️

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1 hour ago, BooksandTrees said:

This has nothing to do with games, but I think it has something to do with life lol.

 Staying well-nourished is a lot to do with life and again, I certainly wasn't making the time to learn all of this when I was gaming every day :)

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Day 126.

I Am .. Strong, Intelligent, Compassionate  ..  Discovering my real identity, Facing shame and uncomfortable feelings without running  ..

I Have .. Positive attributes that I am discovering  ..

I Embody .. Positivity, Happiness, Strength, Life, Aspirations, Love  ..

Those who are hardest to detach from are our best teachers. - Karen Casey

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