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IMPORTANT AND URGENT: NONE! (all finished, now what?) IMPORTANT BUT NOT URGENT: 100 Days of Thanks (DONE as of 100% complete), The Science of the Christian Life (ALSO DONE TOO as of 100% complete), Project Exodus (3/20 complete), and my 52-week Bible reading plan (>70% complete) URGENT BUT NOT IMPORTANT: my 5.5-year old blog NEITHER IMPORTANT NOR URGENT: Time Bomb: an old-school fanfic from 2013-14 (will work more on chapter 21 after the detox period sometime during the gap year)

Bookish Update Time: Saga Volume 8 (now on "chapter 47" - this is FUNNY!!! Read it if you can on the 'net.)

Day 51: I slept in until 10:20am and I haven't gotten out of the house until around 5pm. Me and my sister went out to go get some extras we would need to have a good time baking cupcakes tomorrow. We had celebrated the last full day of spring. Goodbye, flower weather!!! Anyways, I had some food for the evening while we watched Dragon Wars. If you haven't heard of the film, it is a coming-of-age action-adventure story about the girl with a dragon tattoo every half-millennium.

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Hello! I just graduated from college today. Do you wanna see my congrats certificate? Here! Here! Look at it...

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Day 52: I just finished Saga volume 8 and we made cupcakes. Then came the moment I have been waiting for... my college graduation! Hours later, I listened to The Jet 95.7 FM long into the night, celebrating the milestone up until 2am. I fell asleep...

Day 53: We went into the park shelter and ate food. Then we played some Jeopardy and got some goodies. At the end, it was time for me to move on. I went to Seattle with my parents. We'd been to Greenlake and um... we went out to the Panama Hotel and I sipped matcha mate green tea. Fun drink, but I hope the herbs would help me lose weight.

Day 54: My sisters and one of the guys went out to the Mariners game in the T-Mobile Park (it used to be Safeco Field). I was helping out my parents with all the clean-up I have to deal with after service. After that, me and my mom went to Grandma's house. I spent hours studying scriptures personally, but I had fun enjoying it. Afterward, when it gets dark, we headed back home and I finished the studies before bed.

IMPORTANT AND URGENT: NONE! (all finished, now what?) IMPORTANT BUT NOT URGENT: Project Exodus (3/20 complete), my 52-week Bible reading plan (71.7033% complete), and subproject Summer at the Movies (1 more topic left until I am caught up until Sunday) URGENT BUT NOT IMPORTANT: my 5.5-year old blog NEITHER IMPORTANT NOR URGENT: Time Bomb: an old-school fanfic from 2013-14 (will work more on chapter 21 after the detox period sometime during the gap year)

Bookish Update Time: see previous post and coming soon... Arms From the Sea (the book I got for free two years ago and to be read next)

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IMPORTANT AND URGENT: summer school (starting on Monday, July 1) IMPORTANT BUT NOT URGENT: Project Exodus (still 3/20 complete), my 52-week Bible reading plan (38 weeks and 4 days complete - will finish one week I have started on the 4th of July this upcoming Thursday), and subproject Summer at the Movies (caught up until further notice as of last Wednesday) URGENT BUT NOT IMPORTANT: my 5.5-year old blog NEITHER IMPORTANT NOR URGENT: Time Bomb: an old-school fanfic from 2013-14 (will work more on chapter 21 after the detox period sometime during the gap year)

Bookish Update Time: 50% complete in ALL of the Saga comic book series (54 down and 54 more to go!); did Out of Solitude 100% as of last Wednesday also after being caught up with my subproject above

What to Read Next? Nothing... for now. *bingewatches America's Test Kitchen on CreateTV*

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My July 2019 Reading List

Week 1: The Divine Mentor

Week 2: Arms From the Sea

Week 3: The Five Dysfunctions of a Team

Week 4: Resurrected Light by Sanna2011 from deviantART

My Dad's VBS Week (July 29 - August 2): Unplanned (Reason Why: movie coming soon on DVD August 13; preordered in advance on Amazon)

UPDATE: It may or may not change regardless of the schedule, but it will eventually.

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If you are not good at managing meetings well like me (that is just because it is due to gaming), here's how it works. See image below (please note this is taken from my ultimate textbook ever purchased in person).

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How's my week of summer school? Ugh... super busy... but besides all of that, I have texted to what would be potentially Mr. Right, so I have to talk to him in the upcoming week at the school cafe. Then, I am trying to be more diverse while eating out for the first time ever by myself (think outside the "Starbucks coffehouse" box): I got a stroopwafel flurry from McD's on Canada Day! It's soo super sticky but slow, I could barely chew through the strong cookie bits. That's not it... I barely got ice cream from Cold Stone and Ben & Jerry's in the past on my own. Also, I had Panda Express at one time. Plus, I got pizza from the Crossroads mall and was planning to get pasta sometime along with the American meal and whatnot. You're gonna love the vegan edition at B&J's if you want more progresterone in your body! Two more days of studying later, it was July 4th as I spent time with family for the evening, cooking dinner and consuming it. Afterward, I ate ice cream. 1. I had a cone in the afternoon, and 2. I ate the rest of the sundae when the sun is going down. Unbelievable, Nat! You should be patient. After dessert, we went to the downtown section of my lovely hometown of Kirkland to see the fireworks one last time. Then after that, we came home. The next day, we went to Grandma's house to celebrate her 86th birthday. That was fun! In addition, my cousin's baby is kinda cranky and the dogs are trying out samples of the "people food" for a tiny bit. The evening lasted several hours before 8. I will consider looking into volunteer opportunities before applying in six weeks. Today, I put more money into my debit card because Mom says I am learning to manage money. I have to stop being carefree and face the upcoming 40-something-year phase I knew what's coming: "adulting". I heard that my old friend's 27-year old sister struggles because she has autism (in the past, I heard that she has asperger's). Then, we had an errand at Fred Meyer's. Then, it took me 2 full hours of figuring out at most to RSVP the wedding day (it is only 3 weeks from now) since today is a deadline and you have to write your name properly straight from the invitation envelope in order to be there. Dietary restrictions? Song requests? BOTH ARE NOT APPLICABLE!!! At the end, I typed in my mom's email and... it is officially sent off. There I go! That should do it... we've seen Wheel of Fortune, Jeopardy, and Shark Tank. It's getting close to midnight in Seattle, so I have to say night-night! I'll see you whether I post. Bye! 😀

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IMPORTANT AND URGENT: to study for the first ever exam of summer school starting tomorrow if only the teacher hands out the study guide according to the syllabus IMPORTANT BUT NOT URGENT: Project Exodus (still 3/20 complete and will plan to continue once when school is FINALLY DONE in-person), my 52-week Bible reading plan (one week left until 75% complete, but I am getting there eventually), and subproject Summer at the Movies (I don't mind having more topics get all piled up while I stay busy with my own schedule with a bit of more love to the local church of my daddy and whatnot) URGENT BUT NOT IMPORTANT: my 5.5-year old blog NEITHER IMPORTANT NOR URGENT: Time Bomb: an old-school fanfic from 2013-14 (will work more on chapter 21 after the detox period sometime during the gap year)

Bookish Update Time: The Divine Mentor by one of my mom's old pastors who brought to you by Life Journals (A program soo overrated in today's church, it is good. If you are interested, the link is www.lifejournal.cc) (just 3 chapters down and only 9 more to go... I must be ahead of schedule - chapter by chapter, day after day - for the next no school day (that's next Thursday) to come back to the 52-week Bible reading plan and do over the first half of week 39); The 5 Dysfunctions of the Team (for outside reading one last time before THE END)

Order Update Time: the $5 pack of 10 stickers is coming soon on Friday from Louisiana! I dunno what to do with them once when I open it...

Yesterday, we went out for the BBQ after church and then we came home. I don't have to go to Sumner until next week. Who knows?

Now, one day of summer school flew by and I finished the notes on the chapter 2 presentation, yet the chapter 3 prezi wasn't up yet until tomorrow. It is weird when one day you watch the lecture and the next day its presentation was up on Canvas. I didn't find my jacket and wallet. Mom found it eventually while I am away. I struggled with making diverse decisions on my own when it comes to food. All I had was the Starbucks drinks and a bit of food. Note to self: get 2 Theo's chocolate bars, one Barbara's cereal, and 2 Starbucks K-cup boxes from a grocery store. Mom says I can't eat sweets because I am prediabetic and look how fat I am! My parents rarely did body shame me and that's racist weight-wise. I hate to be fed up with all the magazine s**t over the counters of the check-out section!!! I am so jealous of everyone in my generation being ahead of me in life itself!!! UGH!!! 😡 Another wedding yet to be missed AGAIN due to the capacity of the manor and only Mom has to go. 😭 BAW!!! The last wedding I attended in person was on November 12, 2010. After that, I've only seen the following on screen in order: William and Kate, Derick and Jill, Jarrett and Alyssa, and Harry and Meghan. That's about it for me! I NEVER get a chance to experience the entire wedding session until it's officially my time to shine! I will only have to "do-it-yourself": buy used save the difference style. Less money, more magic to make my childhood dream a reality!

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IMPORTANT AND URGENT: study for the first ever exam of summer school IMPORTANT BUT NOT URGENT: Project Exodus (still 3/20 complete and will plan to continue once when school is FINALLY DONE in-person), my 52-week Bible reading plan (one week left until 75% complete, but I will get into it on next Thursday), and subproject Summer at the Movies (one topic is yet to be studied tomorrow) URGENT BUT NOT IMPORTANT: my 5.5-year old blog NEITHER IMPORTANT NOR URGENT: Time Bomb: an old-school fanfic from 2013-14 (will work more on chapter 21 after the detox period sometime during the gap year)

Bookish Update Time: The Divine Mentor by one of my mom's old pastors who brought to you by Life Journals (A program soo overrated in today's church, it is good. If you are interested, the link is www.lifejournal.cc) (just 4 chapters down and only 8 more to go... I must be ahead of schedule - chapter by chapter, day after day - for the next no school day (that's next Thursday) to come back to the 52-week Bible reading plan and do over the first half of week 39); The 5 Dysfunctions of the Team (for outside reading one last time before THE END)

Order Update Time: the $5 pack of 10 stickers had just arrived two days earlier than expected, so that's good news; note to self: be prepared for Amazon Day on Monday! (keep in mind I am not a prime member and I don't buy any devices at all, instead I am paying for really decent items and nothing too fancy)

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I am 3 months and 15 days game-free! It has been a month full of waiting for summer school to finally be over with. I am grateful for patience! Now, the gap year can officially begin starting today.

IMPORTANT AND URGENT: meeting and clean-up IMPORTANT BUT NOT URGENT: Project Exodus (now 11/40 complete), my 52-week Bible reading plan (resuming Sunday), and subproject Summer at the Movies (one more topic to be studied TONIGHT) URGENT BUT NOT IMPORTANT: Time Bomb: an old-school fanfic from 2013-14 (will work more on chapter 21 sometime) and my comic project NEITHER IMPORTANT NOR URGENT: my 5.5-year old blog

Bookish Update Time: currently reading The 5 Levels of Leadership by John C. Maxwell as of right now today

Order Update Time: the DVD was about to get shipped and I can't wait to get my hands on in 5 days at the latest

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IMPORTANT AND URGENT: Clean-up IMPORTANT BUT NOT URGENT: Project Exodus (now 3/10 complete), my 52-week Bible reading plan (over 75% complete), OT/NT walkthrough (>1/12 accomplished), and subproject Summer at the Movies (DONE!!!) URGENT BUT NOT IMPORTANT: Time Bomb: an old-school fanfic from 2013-14 (will work more on chapter 21 sometime) and my comic project NEITHER IMPORTANT NOR URGENT: my 5.5-year old blog

Bookish Update Time: currently reading The 5 Levels of Leadership by John C. Maxwell (I am on Level 2)

Order Update Time: n/a (just $6 donations per month with coin-based tithing to do despite the coins not counted to the ATM...)

What Else Is New? I got started on Coursera with The Science of Well-Being. Good course! I highly recommended you to enroll despite the $53 fee for a certificate of completion if you are stressed out over gaming and want more authentic happiness from other things you enjoy doing and/or are interested in doing.

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IMPORTANT AND URGENT: The Science of Well-Being (by far... see way below for more information) and clean-up around the house IMPORTANT BUT NOT URGENT: Project Exodus (still 3/10 complete), my 52-week Bible reading plan (41 weeks and a day down and only 11 weeks and 6 days  more to go), Proverbs with an entire family (5/31 complete), and the OT/NT walkthrough (>1/12 accomplished) URGENT BUT NOT IMPORTANT: Time Bomb: an old-school fanfic from 2013-14 (will work more on chapter 21 sometime) and my comic project (currently working on chapter 1 as of right now after introduction and prologue over August) NEITHER IMPORTANT NOR URGENT: my 5.5-year old blog

Bookish Update Time: currently reading The 5 Levels of Leadership by John C. Maxwell (I am still on Level 2 and haven't proceeded like I should because it is due to 2 snapchat games in the way)

Order Update Time: same as last post

The Science of Well-Being Week 1 Signature Strengths (spoilers, duh!)

1. Spirituality

2. Humor

3. Honesty

4. Judgment

Day 1 (8/30) - did Jonah series part 1 of 2/laughed one time during the sermon/was honest about the Starbucks gift cards

Day 2 (8/31) - DNF Jonah part 2 after 2 subparts (most of the entire day was due to the packing)/laughed 1 point/honest with the right size of panties

Day 3 (9/1) - really finished Jonah part 2/ seen a fun film called "Ella Enchanted" (Have you seen it before? Let me know while "replying".)

Day 4 (9/2) - did Proverbs 5 with Mom and sister (who is a gamer since around age 7 if I don't count the PC) and finally made it to week 41 of my 52-week Bible reading plan (YAY!!!)/I texted to the potential Mr. Right again/seen the latest 3 episodes of the "Dr. Duke Show" via Facebook LIVE (all is centered about the craziness going on in K-12 public schools and colleges around the world)/was being honest about the number of deaths from Hurricane Dorian in the evening (this is where my fourth signature strength happens: since 5 people in NW Bahamas died, I want the citizens who were affected of the tragedy near them to come dress in more humble mourning clothes and sit in the dust like the Ninevites after hearing Jonah's warning via prayers to God and Jesus)

That's all for the week by far.

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Rest of Week 1 of TSoWB

Day 5 (9/3) - I am all caught up with my 52-week Bible reading plan - CHECK! I found out what nepotism means and took notes of it. Then, I looked up the after-school soulwinning club. At the end of the day, I have seen AGT on television.

Day 6 (9/4) - I took notes of another sermon by accident around midnight and corrected it in the evening. I saw Dorian's casualities rose up quickly to 20 via news.

Day 7 (9/5) - Deaths from hurricane Dorian almost doubled, but I have maintained my spirituality as a signature strength. As usual at 7pm, I have seen some amount of Wheel of Fortune and Jeopardy even though it is all about gambling in public and I wonder what the casinos are REALLY like beyond advertisements, but it is just the opposite of what they persuaded you to do. Get paid fast? No! Purchasing lottery tickets and going to casinos to just gamble is the #1 form of entertainment than all movies, books, and other things combined including video games (well, gaming was linked to gambling in some ways, shapes, and/or forms). Setting that aside and you get something bigger than all sports merchandise combined - porn (the videos itself are made from vain imaginations of prostitutes and human traffickers, I mean... look I don't watch them for religious reasons due to the aspect of purity and no... the sight of it all according to professors, they think it is stimulatious but to me I find body parts to be artistically incorrect proportion-wise and the counselors and some of you folks said that it makes people look fake, thus they are being treated only as objects).

Week 2 - Savoring and Gratitude (by far)

Day 1 (9/6) - I took a walk in the late afternoon to the bank and back home. Later on, I attended the young adult group in the evening at the church lobby.

Day 2 (9/7) - I have seen some college football throughout the day, but then week 41 of my 52Wk-BRP came to an abrupt end when Mom cleaned my room without me being involved. I mean... look how slow my productivity is right now... barely any effort was made in the progress due to life circumstances besides schooling (all done in person). Too late! My aunt's dog was buried by my cousin and I almost forgot about it. I haven't been to Grandma's for an entire week because my aunt was sick and then my grandma was sick. That is the reason why Mom got her first dose of the shingles vaccine and she'll get a second one in January (I hope it will take place on or after my 1-year anniversary of my diagnosis with PCOS and barely prediabetes, but it will happen BEFORE I turn 24. That's a two-week window, folks). Late in the day yet long into the night, I read a subchapter of 5 Levels of Leadership. It's called The Downside of Permission.

Bonus: I relapsed to Snapchat gaming day after day as of recent. ARGH! I hate to just check my stinking phone before and after bed!!! What's wrong with me? Where is my sleep schedule?! Where's my healthy eating habit when I just have to go drink water with every meal that is keto-related and low-carb? I need some helpful tips please...

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The Science of Well-Being Week 2, Day 3 (9/8) - Me and my family went to church as usual. Then, we came home after that. I spent the rest of the afternoon and long into the evening loom-knitting scarves while listening to the NFL sports program on television. I felt tired and I didn't feel like writing the day's post, I ended up starting week 42 out of 52 for my BRP with the last 3 chapters of Hebrews and wrote down 5 things I am grateful for before bed. I WON THE NIGHT!

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Here is today's work in-progress (WIP).

IMPORTANT AND URGENT: The Science of Well-Being (by far) and clean-up around the house IMPORTANT BUT NOT URGENT: Project Exodus (still 3/10 complete; will slowly resume on the 30th of September (the day my last school was being prayed by all the school prayer advocates out there in a congregation)), my 52-week Bible reading plan (42 weeks and 2 days down and only 10 weeks and 5 days more to go), Proverbs with an entire family (now 7/31 complete), and the OT/NT walkthrough (still >1/12 accomplished) URGENT BUT NOT IMPORTANT: Time Bomb: an old-school fanfic from 2013-14 (will work more on chapter 21 sometime) and my comic project (currently working on chapter 1 as of right now after introduction and prologue over August) NEITHER IMPORTANT NOR URGENT: my 5.5-year old blog

Bookish Update Time: currently reading The 5 Levels of Leadership by John C. Maxwell

Order Update Time: nothing but weekly tithes until October 6 and it will resume on the 20th (October 11-13 is my sister's homecoming weekend)

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Binge read this whole journal and I have to say I really enjoyed it! Like others have said I really admire the fact that you've made a commitment to reading a huge variety of books (definitely something I need to do as well, lol) and slowly working your way through the bible. I spent nine months studying the scriptures, and although it was a great experience it definitely also ended up raising more questions than answers. I'd love to discuss what your thoughts are on certain scriptures at some point!

Also, congratulations on finishing college!!! I might have missed it, but do you have any major plans for your gap year?

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@Deku My major plan during the gap year was to help Mom fulfill her own goals around the house like the clean-up as I said before. She wants my house to be more functional. On a side note, there is catching up time I need to work on.

Today, she had a clinic and lab appointment. She has to be prepared for the surgery Wednesday by going on the liquid diet tomorrow, so her intestines will be cleared out. The four procedures will take 2-5 days depending on how things are going. After that, the main recovery will take 2 weeks with an extra month of the minor recovery. Me and my sister will have to work more around the house than Mom would expect since she'll be away for a few days. All of this takes place before Dad goes to Colombia on the 25th of September.

Moving on...

The Science of Well-Being Week 2, Day 4

I got up at around 9 and left home with family by 10:20 in the morning. We went to Kaiser Permanente where my sister had physical therapy. I was in the waiting area the entire time while drinking two cups of coffee - one plain because they are out of creamers and the latter one with the cream because they are back in stock - and sometimes staring at two vertical blocks with the wire ends being connected together by several construction recruiters at the same time with my aunt on some rainy weather. I had watched the third floor doors being unfolded before the sight of the silouette of workers and construction stuff. It's like watching a shadow puppet show, but it is not entertainment from a close view in the opposite period of time: broad daylight and no manmade lighting. I had seen the grave of my aunt's dog on her phone. It was a pink flower with a pile of stones underneath. I guess she was buried 2 days late than I expected to be honest. Anyways, my sister and I were separated from my parents due to the inclement lab appointment while my aunt placed us in her car and we rode back home to be dropped off. I listened to yet another sermon while taking notes and it talks about obeying your parents being equal to longetivity. I missed grandparents day last Sunday, for I should've honored the memory and legacy of my paternal grandparents, my maternal stepgrandpa, and my maternal biological grandpa since they aren't around anymore since the end of September 2003 at the earliest and June 23, 2009 at the latest by far. I made my own grilled cheese sandwich for lunch and then for dinner Mom made us grilled salmon (which tastes REALLY GOOD) followed by the noodles (tastes like dog food at first bite, it should've been cooked longer than Mom thought). At the end of the day, I saw yet another 3 episodes of the Dr. Duke Show dealing with the entire government fool system "all around the world". End of day 4 of week 2 of TSoWB.

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Here is today's work in-progress (WIP) that is up-to-date!

IMPORTANT AND URGENT: same... IMPORTANT BUT NOT URGENT: same except for my 52-week Bible reading plan (42 weeks and 3 days down and only 10 weeks and 4 days more to go) and Proverbs with an entire family (now 8/31 complete) URGENT BUT NOT IMPORTANT: same NEITHER IMPORTANT NOR URGENT: same ol same ol as of yesterday

Bookish Update Time: currently reading The 5 Levels of Leadership by John C. Maxwell (did not proceed after Downside of Permission due to Mom's clinical and lab appointments in one day, but I am planning to focus more on any future subchapters by tonight or so)

Order Update Time: same as it is all mentioned yesterday

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