Undsoweiter Posted June 12, 2020 Author Share Posted June 12, 2020 Day 442 09.06.20 Gratitude journal Today I am grateful for having motivated university collegues. Today I am grateful for being healthy. Today I am grateful for my workplace. One amazing thing that happened/I did today was really tired after work but still went to the gym afterwards^^ Workout/run more than 20k steps 1h workout at the gym daily streching Meditation around 30min sadly only a bit zazen Visualisation and daily affirmation did my affirmations in the morning and managed to do my visualisation during the day Reading and further education studied 2h for the next exam did a bit for my Matlab project got my daily podcast doses my wake-up time 06:55 Weekly Goal(s) use my time better, mediatate way more, stay healthy, avoid porn, be productive everyday Monthly Goal work and study with greater focus and intension, do zen daily, create a healthier sleeping rythm, avoid porn 3 Month Goal get my weight back to pre-corona, become fit again like I have been two months ago, pass all my planned exams so that the corona months will not impact my universty plan to harsh What went well today: (NP:2/NS:1/NM:2/NSP:2) worked a lot, studied only a bit, had a harsh workout at the gym but I managed, met a few good friends in the evening What I could have done to make my day better: should have done some spanish What I will do differently tomorrow/What I have planned for tomorrow: wake up around 8, study a few hours, do some more for my Matlab program Weekly summary, thoughts and improvements for the future ------ Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Undsoweiter Posted June 12, 2020 Author Share Posted June 12, 2020 (edited) Day 443 10.06.20 Gratitude journal Today I am grateful for staying strong. Today I am grateful for being healthy. Today I am grateful for my workplace. One amazing thing that happened/I did today was crazily near a relapse something that came out of nowhere but I stayed strong the whole day even as I had to sacrifice a lot of productivity just to get my thoughts away from gaming Workout/run more than 7k steps daily streching Meditation around 10min (should have definitely been more but I could not get my thoughts straight) sadly only a bit zazen Visualisation and daily affirmation did my affirmations in the morning and managed to do my visualisation during the day Reading and further education studied 1h for the next exam had a long online meeting with my university collegues from the Matalb project got my daily podcast doses my wake-up time 08:55 Weekly Goal(s) use my time better, mediatate way more, stay healthy, avoid porn, be productive everyday Monthly Goal work and study with greater focus and intension, do zen daily, create a healthier sleeping rythm, avoid porn 3 Month Goal get my weight back to pre-corona, become fit again like I have been two months ago, pass all my planned exams so that the corona months will not impact my universty plan to harsh What went well today: (NP:3/NS:0/NM:3/NSP:3) did a bit in Matlab and otherwise did my best to get away from the thoughts of relapsing What I could have done to make my day better: should have done some spanish should have been more productive overall What I will do differently tomorrow/What I have planned for tomorrow: wake up around 8, study a few hours, do some more for my Matlab program Weekly summary, thoughts and improvements for the future so what happend that I came as near to relapse as I could get? the next expansion of the game I always played came out after 1,5 years so it was the first real test for myself additionally I was drinking the day before with my friends because one of them passed a huge exam and there you have it, a great cocktail of cravings, nostalgia, a bit of leftover drunkeness and somehow while lying in bed trying to get over my hangover there were adds for the new expansion everywhere 😞I had already bought it a few minutes later in my nostaliga, dopamin rush but what finally hindered me to play was that my hangover was to strong to immediately play and so I was lying in bed with headache and whatnot for hours and had lots of time to calm myself down, think about what I really want and finally decided to give the game back and stay true to the path I follow now what showed me that situation? on one hand I am able to turn away from gaming even if it is really hard in special cases but on the other hand I was ill prepared, my gaming addiction is definietly not over and that it can come back when you at least expect it and that the greatest danger for relapse for myself is in freshness of games especially old familiar ones with lots of new content 😞 so hopefully after a few days of fighting against myself I overcome this hurdle as well 😉 Edited June 12, 2020 by Undsoweiter Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Undsoweiter Posted June 12, 2020 Author Share Posted June 12, 2020 (edited) Day 444 11.06.20 Gratitude journal Today I am grateful for staying strong. Today I am grateful for being healthy. Today I am grateful for having a few methods of clearing my mind. One amazing thing that happened/I did today the fight against a possible relapse is still strong but as I tried all the old methods of fighting it (especially leaving my room) it got a bit easier Workout/run more than 10k steps 2h workout at the gym daily streching Meditation around 20min sadly only a bit zazen Visualisation and daily affirmation did my affirmations in the morning and managed to do my visualisation during the day Reading and further education studied 2h for the next exam coded a few hours my Matlab project got my daily podcast doses my wake-up time 08:55 Weekly Goal(s) use my time better, mediatate way more, stay healthy, avoid porn, be productive everyday Monthly Goal work and study with greater focus and intension, do zen daily, create a healthier sleeping rythm, avoid porn 3 Month Goal get my weight back to pre-corona, become fit again like I have been two months ago, pass all my planned exams so that the corona months will not impact my universty plan to harsh What went well today: (NP:0/NS:0/NM:4/NSP:0) worked a bit, tried to study a few hours, had a nice workout with a friend in the gym and read a lot to get other thoughts What I could have done to make my day better: should have done some spanish sacrificed a few of my habit-to-be running streaks to stay a way from gaming 😞 What I will do differently tomorrow/What I have planned for tomorrow: wake up around 8, study a few hours, do some more for my Matlab program, go shopping for the next week and for for a present, try to have a normal day again, g to gym for a workout Weekly summary, thoughts and improvements for the future so additionally to the stuff I wrote yesterday I realised that I did not have enough sleep the few days before which may have resulted in a magnification of the relapse problem or it just eroded my willpower bit by bit either way I fear it worked against me in the end 😞 Edited June 14, 2020 by Undsoweiter Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Undsoweiter Posted June 14, 2020 Author Share Posted June 14, 2020 Day 445 12.06.20 Gratitude journal Today I am grateful for staying strong. Today I am grateful for being healthy. Today I am grateful for having great friends. One amazing thing that happened/I did today it was scorching hot but I still went to the gym and gave my best in this heat 😉 Workout/run more than 18k steps 2h workout at the gym daily streching Meditation around 10min my usual zazen (5 to 10min) Visualisation and daily affirmation did my affirmations in the morning and managed to do my visualisation during the day Reading and further education studied 1h for the next exam got my daily podcast doses my wake-up time 08:55 Weekly Goal(s) use my time better, mediatate way more, stay healthy, avoid porn, be productive everyday Monthly Goal work and study with greater focus and intension, do zen daily, create a healthier sleeping rythm, avoid porn 3 Month Goal get my weight back to pre-corona, become fit again like I have been two months ago, pass all my planned exams so that the corona months will not impact my universty plan to harsh What went well today: (NP:0/NS:0/NM:5/NSP:0) worked a bit, had a nice workout at the gym, What I could have done to make my day better: should have done some spanish sacrificed a few of my running streaks to stay a way from gaming 😞 What I will do differently tomorrow/What I have planned for tomorrow: wake up around 8, study a few hours, do some more for my Matlab program, go shopping for the next week and for for a present, try to have a normal day again, g to gym for a workout Weekly summary, thoughts and improvements for the future so additionally to the stuff I wrote yesterday I realised that I did not have enough sleep the few days before which may have resulted in a magnification of the relapse problem or it just eroded my willpower bit by bit either way I fear it worked against me in the end 😞 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Undsoweiter Posted June 14, 2020 Author Share Posted June 14, 2020 Day 446 13.06.20 Gratitude journal Today I am grateful for staying strong. Today I am grateful for being healthy. Today I am grateful for having a great family. One amazing thing that happened/I did today it was scorching hot again and guess who was working all day outside 😉 Workout/run more than 10k steps daily streching Meditation around 10min my usual zazen (5 to 10min) Visualisation and daily affirmation did my affirmations in the morning and managed to do my visualisation during the day Reading and further education studied 1h+ for the next exam got my daily podcast doses my wake-up time 08:55 Weekly Goal(s) use my time better, mediatate way more, stay healthy, avoid porn, be productive everyday Monthly Goal work and study with greater focus and intension, do zen daily, create a healthier sleeping rythm, avoid porn 3 Month Goal get my weight back to pre-corona, become fit again like I have been two months ago, pass all my planned exams so that the corona months will not impact my universty plan to harsh What went well today: (NP:0/NS:0/NM:0/NSP:1) it was great fun working all day long in the garden felt really nice nearly a day without digital media and lots of hard work 😉 What I could have done to make my day better: should have done some spanish What I will do differently tomorrow/What I have planned for tomorrow: wake up around 7, help again with the gardening work, read a bit, celebrate fathers day Weekly summary, thoughts and improvements for the future -------- Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Undsoweiter Posted June 15, 2020 Author Share Posted June 15, 2020 Day 447 14.06.20 Gratitude journal Today I am grateful for staying strong. Today I am grateful for being healthy. Today I am grateful for having a great family. One amazing thing that happened/I did today it was scorching hot again and guess who was working all day outside again 😉 Workout/run more than 7k steps 30min cycling daily streching Meditation around 20min my usual zazen (5 to 10min) Visualisation and daily affirmation did my affirmations in the morning and managed to do my visualisation during the day Reading and further education studied 1h+ for the next exam coded about an hour in Matlab got my daily podcast doses my wake-up time 07:25 Weekly Goal(s) use my time better, mediatate way more, stay healthy, avoid porn, be productive everyday Monthly Goal work and study with greater focus and intension, do zen daily, create a healthier sleeping rythm, avoid porn 3 Month Goal get my weight back to pre-corona, become fit again like I have been two months ago, pass all my planned exams so that the corona months will not impact my universty plan to harsh What went well today: (NP:0/NS:0/NM:0/NSP:2) working in the garden was hard but fun, had a small workout in the evening, did a bit for my Matlab project, read some pages of the next book i have planned for myself What I could have done to make my day better: should have finally started with spanish again for real!!! What I will do differently tomorrow/What I have planned for tomorrow: wake up around 6, go to work, study a bit, maybe do a workout if I have the time Weekly summary, thoughts and improvements for the future -------- Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Undsoweiter Posted June 18, 2020 Author Share Posted June 18, 2020 (edited) Day 448 15.06.20 Gratitude journal Today I am grateful for staying strong. Today I am grateful for being healthy. Today I am grateful for having great working collegues. One amazing thing that happened/I did today woke up really early decided to try eating no meat outside of the weekend (at first I will go with only twice or once a week and then look if it is possible to reduce even more) Workout/run more than 12k steps daily streching Meditation around 10min my usual zazen (5 to 10min) Visualisation and daily affirmation did my affirmations in the morning and managed to do my visualisation during the day Reading and further education studied 2h+ for the next exam coded about an hour in Matlab got my daily podcast doses my wake-up time 06:25 Weekly Goal(s) use my time better, mediatate way more, stay healthy, avoid porn, be productive everyday Monthly Goal work and study with greater focus and intension, do zen daily, create a healthier sleeping rythm, avoid porn 3 Month Goal get my weight back to pre-corona, become fit again like I have been two months ago, pass all my planned exams so that the corona months will not impact my universty plan to harsh What went well today: (NP:1/NS:0/NM:1/NSP:3) worked a lot, did a bit for my Matlab project, studied a bit, decided on a new eating diet (more like what to reduce/avoid) What I could have done to make my day better: tried starting with spanish again but realized my monthly learning abo canceled itself so I fear I have to wait till the start of July What I will do differently tomorrow/What I have planned for tomorrow: wake up around 8, work a bit from home, study a bit, go to the gym Weekly summary, thoughts and improvements for the future -------- Edited June 18, 2020 by Undsoweiter Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Undsoweiter Posted June 18, 2020 Author Share Posted June 18, 2020 (edited) Day 449 16.06.20 Gratitude journal Today I am grateful for staying strong. Today I am grateful for being healthy. Today I am grateful for having friends who join me form gym everytime I ask. One amazing thing that happened/I did today powered through the workout at the gym even though it was crazy hot and humid decided to go without sweets (since no sugar does not work for me) for real this time Workout/run more than 12k steps 2h workout at the gym daily streching Meditation around 15min my usual zazen (5 to 10min) Visualisation and daily affirmation did my affirmations in the morning and managed to do my visualisation during the day Reading and further education studied 2h+ for the next exam coded more than 3 hours in Matlab got my daily podcast doses my wake-up time 08:25 Weekly Goal(s) use my time better, mediatate way more, stay healthy, avoid porn, be productive everyday Monthly Goal work and study with greater focus and intension, do zen daily, create a healthier sleeping rythm, avoid porn 3 Month Goal get my weight back to pre-corona, become fit again like I have been two months ago, pass all my planned exams so that the corona months will not impact my universty plan to harsh What went well today: (NP:0/NS:1/NM:2/NSP:4) worked around 1h from home, started with the finishing touches for my Matlab project, studied a bit, had a hard workout, had an informative online meeting with our professor about the matlab project What I could have done to make my day better: could have studied more What I will do differently tomorrow/What I have planned for tomorrow: wake up around 8, work a bit from home, study a bit, go to the gym, meet a friend in the evening Weekly summary, thoughts and improvements for the future -------- Edited June 18, 2020 by Undsoweiter Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Undsoweiter Posted June 18, 2020 Author Share Posted June 18, 2020 Day 450 17.06.20 Gratitude journal Today I am grateful for staying strong. Today I am grateful for being healthy. Today I am grateful for being able to sleep more. One amazing thing that happened/I did today finally for the first time since corona I was really motivated for a workout^^ I even added an extra half an hour Workout/run more than 16k steps 2.5h workout at the gym daily streching Meditation around 20min my usual zazen (5 to 10min) Visualisation and daily affirmation did my affirmations in the morning and managed to do my visualisation during the day Reading and further education studied 1h+ for the next exam prepared for the Matlab presentation got my daily podcast doses my wake-up time 08:45 Weekly Goal(s) use my time better, mediatate way more, stay healthy, avoid porn, be productive everyday Monthly Goal work and study with greater focus and intension, do zen daily, create a healthier sleeping rythm, avoid porn 3 Month Goal get my weight back to pre-corona, become fit again like I have been two months ago, pass all my planned exams so that the corona months will not impact my universty plan to harsh What went well today: (NP:1/NS:2/NM:3/NSP:5) worked around 1h from home, continued with the finishing touches for my Matlab project, studied a bit, had a hard but rewarding workout, What I could have done to make my day better: I could have studied more What I will do differently tomorrow/What I have planned for tomorrow: wake up around 7, go to work, maybe study a bit, go to the gym, meet a few friends in the evening and if I have the time work on my matlab powerpoint presentation Weekly summary, thoughts and improvements for the future -------- 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Undsoweiter Posted June 22, 2020 Author Share Posted June 22, 2020 Day 451 18.06.20 to Day 454 21.06.20 sorry that I did not write the last few days. I was under a lot of stress (and I still am) and I feared because of the recurring games cravings in the last weeks that it is easier to reduce my handling of electronic devices to the minimum. Hopefully all of this will get better soon. So what did I do? I worked quite a lot to finish my actual projects at my company and got a lot more of them in waiting for the whole summer (lucky me that it is difficult to go on vacation or to travel in these times). Also I started to study for my next exam in earnest and with focus (finally 😉 ) and at last I prepared for the Matlab project and its presentation an wednesday (first time doing it online hope everything goes well). As you can see time is at the moment rare I even had to reduce my sleep and gym hours and I absolutely hate it!!! Especially since it is horrible for my weight. (At this moment I am happy with staying it the same, going back to my pre-corona weight at the end of June is an utopia maybe mid of July is more realistic now. 😞 ) On a positive note hopefully a good part of my university stress should be gone on 3.7. and another ten days later so that I can go back to working normally and studying only a few hours everyday. Then more sport and less stress will lead to less weight and an overall happier me. At least I started with learning spanish again mediate 10min in the morning and 10 in the evening for now and cook a lot new stuff (a main part of my mechanism to reduce stress). Also the cravings to play games got weaker with every day till now maybe because I can not imagine at the least where would get any time to play during my days at moment which in itself should be something possitive. 😉 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Undsoweiter Posted June 28, 2020 Author Share Posted June 28, 2020 Day 455 22.06.20 to Day 460 27.06.20 another stressful week with at least less working and a successful presentation of my Matlab project. 🙂 So other than studying and sleeping what else did I do? I visited the gym 4 times in the last 6 days which was kind of necessary to have any kind of balance, the same with podcasts and meditation. I started to lock my self from a lot of distractions like news pages (sports, regular,..) social media, entainment media (netflix,...) and after a rocky start it helped quite a bit with focusing on the task on hand and also forced me to search other people if I wanted to be entertained something that was really nice. In addtion I went the whole week meat and sugar free (I play with the thought of only eating meat and sugar on the weekends for a start) to strongarm my weight on the right track with some success but I guess this is a more long term project than a short one. 😞 But overall as you can see I had a productive week and I wish I could go on like this for the whole summer (maybe with more outdoor activities) but we will see if and how long I can bear the stress and workload before I need a few rest days. 😉 On another note the cravings are still here but it is getting better I found a few new triggers and removed them so that helped and I had to quit basketball because the strain on my achilles heels from the added burden with running and gym as weel in the equation was too great and I thought that maybe a little change is in order. I may be picking up/ learning tennis or beachvolleyball again but we will see what the next few weeks have in sore for me. 😉 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Undsoweiter Posted July 5, 2020 Author Share Posted July 5, 2020 (edited) Day 461 28.06.20 to Day 467 04.07.20 finally there is an end to the stressful days in sight (8 days) and then I hope I am back to a more normal shedule but it is possible that I will start with the normal diary even earlier again. we will see. So far I was working (not so much), studying (much more^^) and reinvented the normal gym program in my group (sore muscles are a given after every training so far 😞 but at least it is fun pushing ourselves in this group). Also I made different plans for the summer (with and without cov 19 because it seems the number are raising again in my country 😞 ). I try to stay busy to avoid the cravings about gaming or even be outside of my flat when they hit me which is still the best solution in addition to sport and meditation I have found so far similarily I incresed my social circle and found two other friends in it who had similar experiences with gaming addiction and fighting against it which was eye opening. It showed me that I am not the only one with problems even after more than a year of stoping gaming and that there are all kinds of experiences with this addiction something that motivated me to delve deeper into my triggers and why staying at home for extrened periods of time is still such a problem for me. Edited July 9, 2020 by Undsoweiter Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Undsoweiter Posted July 9, 2020 Author Share Posted July 9, 2020 Day 468 05.07.20 to Day 471 08.07.20 so last entry for more than one day for now. It seems Corona is coming again (or maybe it was never away who knows...) but at least summer is also here and that means trying to stay more outdoors and to study more at the same time what a challenge. 😉 What happend the last few days? Quite a lot, I worked more than two days again, studied a bit but I am not getting motivated for my next exam 😞 (maybe being more outdoors is going to help me in this regard), I jumped on the meditation train at full throttle again and it feels great 🙂 and I have quite a lot of goals for the summer that I hope to accomplish. All in all my mood is more up than down and preferably the trend for this looks up. Now to the not so fun things, my cravings have gotten a bit better since I found a few triggers but on some days it is really hard to resist which in general is negative for my perfomance and even enjoyment of my free time. I think that I neglected meditation a bit for the last quarter of a year also since I am fighting with my weight a bit and all my goals and challenges I imagined and planned from the start of this year have to be renewed and replanned which weighted me down as well I think. I rewatched Cam's Respawn series the last two days and I realized I have gotten lazy with a few self reflecting topics and especially with my noting technique and that has to change. Additionally yesterday my best friend was heavily attacked by his own dog and sent to hospital so the mood in my friends clique is not the best especially since it happend a day before his birthday but we will see how this affects his plans for the birthday party and our vacation and hiking trips. Finally here are my new triggers should somebody be interested and maybe there are some with similar problems out there: Since EU4 was my real crack everything that involves history or alternative history (effectively I killed a hobby of mine for the forseeable future) a few of my leasure podcasts brought up gaming now and then and threw me in a nostalgia mood too much screen time (which is hard because I need my laptop for learning at the moment) no regular sleeping rythmn which after even a week of changing to a regular pattern helped me a lot Maybe I will try a normal daily diary (similar to the entry I write on paper every day as well) for now instead of my usual list before corona but we will see tomorrow. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Undsoweiter Posted July 14, 2020 Author Share Posted July 14, 2020 Day 472 09.07.20 to Day 476 13.07.20 starting with 14.07. I am back to a daily entry the previously planned start was swept away in a flurry of activities which led to a fun but stressful weekend which in particular helped me getting my cravings back in order and since then they have been subdued so I hope they are gone for good till the next fit ( in a few months 😞). Maybe beeing forced to mediate more because I am unable to go running with a new, non basketball related toenails problem (some of them are trying to leave my toes 😬) and eating less helped if so then maybe another change of my lifestyle is in order. It also helped to get my weight getting back on track. Otherwise I have my summer planned through with one to two exams still left in July and at least two in September and one to two in October with this workload (self burdened) it helps that the vacation season is more regional with a lot of hiking and travling inside the country but for shorter durations. Additionally there some work-related projects to finish this summer so in an ideal summer sprinkled with some freetime on top I will not have any time to think about gaming.^^ All in all I am positive for my near future (and glad when I am able to go running again) and hope you are all doing (and being) well. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Undsoweiter Posted July 15, 2020 Author Share Posted July 15, 2020 (edited) Day 477 14.07.20 Gratitude journal Today I am grateful for being productive. Today I am grateful for creating a healthy rhythm again. Today I am grateful for great family. One amazing thing that happened/I did today finally created a good sleeping routine as well as started intermeding fasting (for now 8h eating 16h without) Workout/run more than 14k steps 2h workout at the gym Meditation around 10min Visualisation and daily affirmation did my affirmations in the morning and managed to do a bit of visualisation (something I should do more again) Reading and further education studied 1h for the next exam listened to my new audiobook during comuting and walking read a few pages in bed before going to sleep my wake-up time 06:55 (for the forseeable future this should be my new waking up time) Weekly Goal(s) wake up daily at the same time, surve a week intermeding fasting (and therefore loose 1kg), work 4 days a week AND find time to study Monthly Goal avoid porn for as many days as possible this month, get a healthy rhythm in life (waking up routine, going to sleep routine,....), study for and pass at least one exam, get my weight back to normal and stay fit, get rid of my toenail problems 3 Month Goal pass 4 to 6 exams and get my first degree in mechanical engineering, build better coping mechanisms gainst my cravings and find more triggers, be able to do at least 5 to 10 pull ups, What went well today: (NP:2/NS:2/NSP:2) worked around 8h+, went to the gym with friends, installed my new dishwasher in the evening and cleaned the flat What I could have done to make my day better: I could have studied a bit during commuting should have done some spanish What I will do differently tomorrow/What I have planned for tomorrow: wake up before 7, go to work, maybe study a bit, travel to my parents home for the evening to meet and play with my little cousin Weekly summary, thoughts and improvements for the future -------- Edited August 4, 2020 by Undsoweiter Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Undsoweiter Posted July 20, 2020 Author Share Posted July 20, 2020 (edited) Day 478 15.07.20 to Day 482 19.07.20 sorry I thought I have the time go back to regular daily entries on this website last week but life said no. 😞 I am still writing my paper diary but finding the time to write here is something I have to carve out of my usual day again and we all know the hardest is to start/restart a habit. 😉 I worked nearly double my usual time this week which exhausted me quite a bit and had to fight with my weight and as a result invested most of my free time in training and reading about nutrition to get myself on the right track. Additionally I studied a bit every day just to avoid loosing my rythmn and combing this with a bit of spanish and a tiny bit of social life outside of training and work my days were packed. Maybe this will continue on till early August (with the exeption of a vacation next weekend) but then I should be back to normal. All in all I am healthy physically ,a bit too much weight but otherwise I am fine even though Corona cases are rising again in my country, and mentally because I have so much to do that while am fantasizing about gaming regularly (I think this happens because of stress) I have no time to act on my urges , I only have to imagine my workload for the next week to realize I have no time what so ever^^,and they go away again a lot faster than before. 🙂 Edited July 21, 2020 by Undsoweiter Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Undsoweiter Posted July 21, 2020 Author Share Posted July 21, 2020 (edited) Day 483 20.07.20 Gratitude journal Today I am grateful for being productive. Today I am grateful for creating a healthy rhythm again. Today I am grateful for really nice working collegues. One amazing thing that happened/I did today after a stressful working day went for all heavy training at the gym with motivation^^ Workout/run more than 15k steps 2h workout at the gym Meditation around 15min Visualisation and daily affirmation did my affirmations in the morning and managed to do a bit of visualisation Reading and further education studied 0h for the next exam listened to my new audiobook about nutrion during comuting and walking read a few pages in bed before going to sleep my wake-up time 07:25 Weekly Goal(s) try to wake up daily at nearly the same time, surve a week intermeding fasting (and therefore loose 1kg or more), work 3+ days a week and find time to study Monthly Goal avoid porn for as many days as possible this month, get a healthy rhythm in life (waking up routine, going to sleep routine,....), study for and pass at least one exam, get my weight back to normal and stay fit, get rid of my toenail problems 3 Month Goal pass 4 to 6 exams and get my first degree in mechanical engineering, build better coping mechanisms gainst my cravings and find more triggers, be able to do at least 5 to 10 pull ups, What went well today: (NP:2/NS:0/NSP:8) worked around 8h+, went to the gym and did the grocceries shopping for most of the week What I could have done to make my day better: should have avoided my sweet tooth should have done more spanish What I will do differently tomorrow/What I have planned for tomorrow: wake up before 7, go to work, maybe study a bit, avoid sweets and sugar, eat less, clean my flat and prepare most of my stuff for my upcomming vacation Weekly summary, thoughts and improvements for the future -------- Edited August 4, 2020 by Undsoweiter Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Undsoweiter Posted July 22, 2020 Author Share Posted July 22, 2020 (edited) Day 484 21.07.20 Gratitude journal Today I am grateful for being productive. Today I am grateful for creating a healthy rhythm again. Today I am grateful for having this many great cousins. One amazing thing that happened/I did today got a new motivational task at work and deepdived into it partially also because it is heavily about coding in Matlab and Excel so there are lots of new things to learn^^ Workout/run more than 7k steps Meditation around 15min Visualisation and daily affirmation did my affirmations in the morning and managed to do a bit of visualisation Reading and further education sadly studied 0h for the next exam again listened to my new audiobook about nutrion during comuting read a few pages in bed before going to sleep my wake-up time 06:55 Weekly Goal(s) try to wake up daily at nearly the same time, surve a week intermeding fasting (and therefore loose 1kg or more), work 3+ days a week and find time to study Monthly Goal avoid porn for as many days as possible this month, get a healthy rhythm in life (waking up routine, going to sleep routine,....), study for and pass at least one exam, get my weight back to normal and stay fit, get rid of my toenail problems 3 Month Goal pass 4 to 6 exams and get my first degree in mechanical engineering, build better coping mechanisms gainst my cravings and find more triggers, be able to do at least 5 to 10 pull ups, What went well today: (NP:3/NS:0/NSP:0) worked around 8h+, cooked a bit in the evening, cleaned part of my flat, What I could have done to make my day better: should have avoided my sweet tooth (but at least I reduced it this time) should have done more spanish should cook/eat lighter stuff in the evening I was too beat /full for most of my planned tasks What I will do differently tomorrow/What I have planned for tomorrow: wake up before 7, go to work, maybe study a bit, go to the gym, this time prepare most of my stuff for my upcomming vacation Weekly summary, thoughts and improvements for the future -------- Edited August 4, 2020 by Undsoweiter Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Undsoweiter Posted July 23, 2020 Author Share Posted July 23, 2020 (edited) Day 485 22.07.20 Gratitude journal Today I am grateful for being productive. Today I am grateful for creating a healthy rhythm again. Today I am grateful for being patient while finding problems. One amazing thing that happened/I did today got a lot done at work Workout/run more than 15k steps 2h workout at the gym Meditation around 15min Visualisation and daily affirmation did my affirmations in the morning and managed to do a bit of visualisation Reading and further education sadly studied less than 1h for the next exam again listened to my new audiobook about nutrion during comuting read a few pages in bed before going to sleep my wake-up time 07:25 Weekly Goal(s) try to wake up daily at nearly the same time, surve a week intermeding fasting (and therefore loose 1kg or more), work 3+ days a week and find time to study Monthly Goal avoid porn for as many days as possible this month, get a healthy rhythm in life (waking up routine, going to sleep routine,....), study for and pass at least one exam, get my weight back to normal and stay fit, get rid of my toenail problems 3 Month Goal pass 4 to 6 exams and get my first degree in mechanical engineering, build better coping mechanisms gainst my cravings and find more triggers, be able to do at least 5 to 10 pull ups, What went well today: (NP:4/NS:1/NSP:1) worked around 8h+, had a nice workout, read a lot in the evening What I could have done to make my day better: should have done more spanish lost myself in a book in the evening and something like this happens seldom but then I forget completely the time 😞 (normally I avoid such books) but sometimes since I stopped gaming I do not find an effective stopper against situations like this therefore the evening after gym was lost it was too enjoyable therefore should have stopped myself before start with reading What I will do differently tomorrow/What I have planned for tomorrow: wake up about 8, go to the gym, cook a lot, get some new clothes, study Weekly summary, thoughts and improvements for the future -------- Edited August 4, 2020 by Undsoweiter Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Undsoweiter Posted July 27, 2020 Author Share Posted July 27, 2020 Day 486 23.07.20 to Day 489 26.07.20 sorry I did not write about Day 486 in a seperate entry but we (my family) decided to start the vacation one day earlier. About the vacation there is not much to say we went hiking everyday with a swim and sauna sessions afterwards coupled with great food (too much 😉 ) for breakfast and dinner and with people I like. It was great.🙂 Not once did I crave gaming which in hindsight was a blessing and so hopefully I can go into this next week well rested and a calm and serene mind. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Undsoweiter Posted July 28, 2020 Author Share Posted July 28, 2020 (edited) Day 490 27.07.20 Gratitude journal Today I am grateful for being productive. Today I am grateful having great university collegues. Today I am grateful for being determined for the next exam. One amazing thing that happened/I did today worked 8h and studied 3,5h^^ Workout/run more than 12k steps Meditation around 15min Visualisation and daily affirmation did my affirmations in the morning and managed to do a bit of visualisation Reading and further education studied 3.5h for the next exam again read a few pages in bed before going to sleep my wake-up time 07:25 Weekly Goal(s) try to wake up daily at nearly the same time, surve another week intermeding fasting (my ideal weight here I come), work at least 2 days a week and study for the next exam Monthly Goal avoid porn for as many days as possible this month, get a healthy rhythm in life (waking up routine, going to sleep routine,....), study for and pass at least one exam, get my weight back to normal and stay fit, get rid of my toenail problems 3 Month Goal pass 4 to 6 exams and get my first degree in mechanical engineering, build better coping mechanisms gainst my cravings and find more triggers, be able to do at least 5 to 10 pull ups, What went well today: (NP:1/NS:2/NSP:2) worked around 8h+, studied enough had a nice evening beer with two university collegues What I could have done to make my day better: should have done more spanish should have gone to sleep earlier What I will do differently tomorrow/What I have planned for tomorrow: wake up at 7:25 or earlier, go to work, go swimming during lunch and study in the evening (at least 2 to 3h) Weekly summary, thoughts and improvements for the future -------- Edited August 4, 2020 by Undsoweiter 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Undsoweiter Posted July 29, 2020 Author Share Posted July 29, 2020 (edited) Day 491 28.07.20 Gratitude journal Today I am grateful for being productive. Today I am grateful for being able to go swimming. Today I am grateful for being determined for the next exam. One amazing thing that happened/I did today worked 8h and studied 2h (it is getting easier) also went swimming for the first time this year and even after 1km I had no shoulder pains which was really great!! Workout/run more than 12k steps 1,2km swimming Meditation around 15min Visualisation and daily affirmation did my affirmations in the morning and managed to do a bit of visualisation Reading and further education studied 2h for the next exam again read a few pages in bed before going to sleep my wake-up time 07:25 Weekly Goal(s) try to wake up daily at nearly the same time, surve another week intermeding fasting (my ideal weight here I come), work at least 2 days a week and study for the next exam Monthly Goal avoid porn for as many days as possible this month, get a healthy rhythm in life (waking up routine, going to sleep routine,....), study for and pass at least one exam, get my weight back to normal and stay fit, get rid of my toenail problems 3 Month Goal pass 4 to 6 exams and get my first degree in mechanical engineering, build better coping mechanisms gainst my cravings and find more triggers, be able to do at least 5 to 10 pull ups, What went well today: (NP:2/NS:0/NSP:3) worked around 8h+, studied a bit, had a fantastic time in the water^^ What I could have done to make my day better: should have done more spanish became weak in front of an ice cream shop after the rush from swimming 😞 What I will do differently tomorrow/What I have planned for tomorrow: wake up at around 8 (yeah I know not 7:25 but I was on less than 7h of sleep for a while now and I want to be in top shape for the exam on friday), study 6h+, go to the gym, meet a friend, cook something nice and new^^ Weekly summary, thoughts and improvements for the future -------- Edited August 4, 2020 by Undsoweiter 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Undsoweiter Posted July 31, 2020 Author Share Posted July 31, 2020 (edited) Day 492 29.07.20 Gratitude journal Today I am grateful for being productive. Today I am grateful for having great friends. Today I am grateful for being determined for the next exam. One amazing thing that happened/I did today studied 7h, had a really productive day Workout/run more than 10k steps 2h at the gym Meditation around 15min Visualisation and daily affirmation did my affirmations in the morning and managed to do a bit of visualisation Reading and further education studied 7h for the next exam again read a few pages in bed before going to sleep my wake-up time 07:25 Weekly Goal(s) try to wake up daily at nearly the same time, surve another week intermeding fasting (my ideal weight here I come), work at least 2 days a week and study for the next exam Monthly Goal avoid porn for as many days as possible this month, get a healthy rhythm in life (waking up routine, going to sleep routine,....), study for and pass at least one exam, get my weight back to normal and stay fit, get rid my toenail problems 3 Month Goal pass 4 to 6 exams and get my first degree in mechanical engineering, build better coping mechanisms gainst my cravings and find more triggers, be able to do at least 5 to 10 pull ups, What went well today: (NP:0/NS:0/NSP:4) studied a lot, reorganized part of my flat and had a nice time at the gym also stayed away from online distractions^^ What I could have done to make my day better: should have done more spanish became weak again with half a bar of chocolate but there is a possiblity that my toe nail sickness/problems are the cause for low blood sugar and therefore my cravings are greater than usual (normally it is not much of a problem for me to only eat sweets once or twice a week 😞 ) What I will do differently tomorrow/What I have planned for tomorrow: wake up at around 7, study 6h+, go running Weekly summary, thoughts and improvements for the future -------- Edited August 4, 2020 by Undsoweiter Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Undsoweiter Posted July 31, 2020 Author Share Posted July 31, 2020 (edited) Day 493 30.07.20 Gratitude journal Today I am grateful for being productive. Today I am grateful for the nice weather. Today I am grateful for being determined for the next exam. One amazing thing that happened/I did today studied 7h again und finally went running for a longer distance^^ Workout/run more than 15k steps 8km+ running (not the best time but with more than 28 degrees outside I was proud of myself to go running instead of training in the colder gym) Meditation around 15min Visualisation and daily affirmation did my affirmations in the morning and managed to do a bit of visualisation Reading and further education studied 7h for the next exam again read a few pages in bed before going to sleep my wake-up time 07:00 Weekly Goal(s) try to wake up daily at nearly the same time, surve another week intermeding fasting (my ideal weight here I come), work at least 2 days a week and study for the next exam Monthly Goal avoid porn for as many days as possible this month, get a healthy rhythm in life (waking up routine, going to sleep routine,....), study for and pass at least one exam, get my weight back to normal and stay fit, get rid of my toenail problems 3 Month Goal pass 4 to 6 exams and get my first degree in mechanical engineering, build better coping mechanisms gainst my cravings and find more triggers, be able to do at least 5 to 10 pull ups, What went well today: (NP:0/NS:0/NSP:4) studied a lot, reorganized part of my flat again and had a hard but rewarding run What I could have done to make my day better: should have done more spanish ate the rest of the chocolate bar 😞 I will test this weekend if I can compensate this craving with fruits alone What I will do differently tomorrow/What I have planned for tomorrow: wake up at around 7, study 4h+, write the exam (my first online one^^), go to the gym, buy a present for my small cousin and meet a friend for a few beers in the evening Weekly summary, thoughts and improvements for the future -------- Edited August 4, 2020 by Undsoweiter Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Undsoweiter Posted August 3, 2020 Author Share Posted August 3, 2020 (edited) Day 494 31.07.20 Gratitude journal Today I am grateful for being productive. Today I am grateful for a nice and easy exam. Today I am grateful for finding new friends. One amazing thing that happened/I did today studied 6h again und wrote the exam afterwards powered through my gym session even though it was so hot and humid 😞 Workout/run more than 15k steps 2h at the gym Meditation around 15min Visualisation and daily affirmation did my affirmations in the morning and managed to do a bit of visualisation Reading and further education studied 6h for the exam listened to my audiobook about nutrion in the afternoon my wake-up time 07:00 Weekly Goal(s) try to wake up daily at nearly the same time, surve another week intermeding fasting (my ideal weight here I come), work at least 2 days a week and study for the next exam Monthly Goal avoid porn for as many days as possible this month, get a healthy rhythm in life (waking up routine, going to sleep routine,....), study for and pass at least one exam, get my weight back to normal and stay fit, get rid of my toenail problems 3 Month Goal pass 4 to 6 exams and get my first degree in mechanical engineering, build better coping mechanisms gainst my cravings and find more triggers, be able to do at least 5 to 10 pull ups, What went well today: (NP:1/NS:1/NSP:5) studied, wrote my exam, had fun evening with friends and alcohol (not too heavy but really fun) What I could have done to make my day better: should have done more spanish What I will do differently tomorrow/What I have planned for tomorrow: wake up when rested, plan for the next exams, meet a friend for lunch, enjoy the great weather Weekly summary, thoughts and improvements for the future -------- Edited August 4, 2020 by Undsoweiter Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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