Day 1

[Juliet]

I’m starting this journey because last Saturday I broke. I was trying to quit gaming and my thoughts kept pulling and pulling in the direction I didn’t want to go. I broke.

i grabbed a quick Taco Bell and sat for the long haul. I downloaded West of Loathing at 12:00 pm. Hours streamed by. I didn’t care. It felt so good to get lost in the story. It felt so good to earn trinkets and get level ups. It felt so good to lose my Saturday.

5:00 am.

Did I really play for that long? Why? 

... 17 hours?? 

Why? 

Depressed and ashamed I looked up game quitters and signed up. Watching that intro video I was filled with so much relief. I don’t want to break like this anymore. I don’t want to binge play like this. I want to be better. I need to better. 

Feeling: hopeful for the future as well as a little worried it may be too good to be true. But I’ve got to try. This is day one for a new beginning. 

Grateful for this community and the chance to start something new.

[Absurd Fish]

Welcome to the group and kudos to you for recognizing you have a problem! I am relatively new to this forum and I have found this community to be highly supportive. You've made a good start here, keep it going! 

Edited March 19, 2019 by Absurd Fish