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1 minute ago, karabas said:

That's the spirit! "I get knocked down, but I get up again, ain't nothin gonna keep me down" stuff going on there :)

Honestly, that's the most important part: to be able to get up from a setback and just keep going.

And yeah, def. Vids are a huge problem along with games.

Thanks a lot for the support, good luck in your journey too, I'm keeping an eye on it :)

oh yeah regarding the 8 hours of sleep habit: I'll give myself one more chance and not reset it for now. 

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Day 11 | Productive Hours: 8 | Current habit: Dream Journal (0/7)

The Rant

Tough day because of the previous one forcing me to not sleep during the night. I've been awake for ~22 hours now. I keep day-dreaming about starting my own business. I have two paths I have to decide between, but both are going to be amazing. Since I've not slept today, I couldn't have really written anything in the dream journal right? :6_smile:

Feelings

No cravings. Feeling proud of recuperating so fast and not letting myself down after a failed day.

Achievement

Got into the zone!

Action

Get back on track with my sleep habit. 

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Good work! I find it hard to control my cravings when I'm sleepy. I also cannot do the whole all-nighter thing anymore, must be getting old. So good on ya!

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5 hours ago, karabas said:

Good work! I find it hard to control my cravings when I'm sleepy. I also cannot do the whole all-nighter thing anymore, must be getting old. So good on ya!

I used to do it sometimes when I gamed to reset my sleep schedule to normal. I really hope I haven't damaged my brain too much :S

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Day 11 | Productive Hours: 8 | Current habit: Dream Journal (0/7)

The Rant

Tough day because of the previous one forcing me to not sleep during the night. I've been awake for ~22 hours now. I keep day-dreaming about starting my own business. I have two paths I have to decide between, but both are going to be amazing. Since I've not slept today, I couldn't have really written anything in the dream journal right? :6_smile:

Feelings

No cravings. Feeling proud of recuperating so fast and not letting myself down after a failed day.

Achievement

Got into the zone!

Action

Get back on track with my sleep habit. 

I don't see why you can't stay in school and finish while making YouTube videos on the side. I mean you said it yourself, you are wasting a lot of time. If starting a business is truly important to you, you will use your free time to do it. You are very fortunate to go to a nice school and be able to get an education, something that a majority of people in the world don't have. Push through and finish. Do your business on the side. You only have a year left. Be a finisher.

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Day 12 | Productive Hours: 11 | Focus: 50% | Current habit: Dream Journal (1/7)

The Rant

Aww yeah Tom is back on track. That's right. With shiny new confidence and contempt, he successfully comes back full force! I was once again able to wake up on the first alarm after a nice 8 hour sleep, get a haircut, get to the uni and work hard! Granted, after lunch I lost my focus, got distracted by people around me etc., but still. Fast improvements. I only remembered one single static image from a dream so I didn't even bother writing it down. Still counts - the important part is trying here. The dream recall will get better - I know because I've went through this the first time I learned to lucid dream. It's kind of just a hobby that doesn't take up any time. And you know me - I will squeeze every last drop of efficiency from every minute I have. Unless I'm being depressed and gaming that is. LOL. But yeah. I'm not right now. 

Question: Am I overdoing it with stats up top? :6_smile: I kinda like keeping stats.

Feelings

I felt at peace. I can't exactly pinpoint why. Probably the confidence that I can now actually control my sleep. I've been struggling for SOOO LONG to just wake up in the morning. And I'm not talking just being 'late to school'. Man I'm talking like sleeping for 16 hours, waking up at 8pm and skipping an exam. You got nothing on me bruh.

I'm not saying the problem is solved 100%, but after so many things that I've tried, I finally see hope.

Achievement

Successfully returned to my 8 Hours of Sleep habit.

Woke up on the first alarm. 

Action

Tomorrow I'll only have 6-7 hours to hustle, but I will make the best possible use of it - GET INTO THE ZONE, don't get distracted!

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@Natasha Ah yes, the two paths I meant are two types of business, I do still intend to finish school. I'm just super eager and excited at the moment. I'm seriously feeling it. The problem is I'm not efficient enough yet to pull of a side-thing. The study itself takes(for me) 50-60 hours per week. But after 2.5 months, the semester ends and I can begin on one of those paths, see where I get and then maybe even take a gap year or study prolong the study by 1 more year to make the programme change from fulltime to part-time (estimated study hours) so that I can continue more fluidly. We'll see soon. I can't wait! Thanks a lot for the encouragement :)

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I like the productive hours stat. I might steal it from you. So no, you're not overdoing it. It's great to keep track.

Congrats on crushing the day :) Hopefully many more to come! And hey, you're almost at 2 weeks!

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Day 13 | Productive Hours: 3 | Focus: 90% | Current habit: Dream Journal (2/7)

The Rant

Posting super early because I will not have time after the concert tonight. I slept in, woke up at ~13:30 instead of 9:00. Which is pretty bad but I'm not guilting myself. Not-sleeping-in is not the focus right now, so it will happen sometimes, it's okay. It's allowed. I only have 3 hours to hustle before I leave for the show. I've already started with strong focus so I wrote my hours down pre-emptively(will edit if I fail by some chance).

Feelings

Still excited about the future. Morning = 'meh, whatever'. No cravings.

Achievement

Straight to action after waking up late. 

Additional Stats

8 Hours of Sleep: Check
Dream Journal: Check
Gym: Nope (not scheduled)
Ate healthy: Check

Action

Go to sleep right after I get home -> let's not even open the laptop shall we?

 

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Day 14 | Productive Hours: 9 | Focus: 70% | Current habit: Dream Journal (3/7)

The Rant

The concert was sick, totally worth the money and time. In the morning I tried to search through my brain to recall my dreams, but I did this on my bed and in comfortable position so I fell asleep and overslept. Next time I'll make sure to do this on my chair and with pen&paper in hand. The day was very productive. Managed to focus a little bit more, although it's not even close to the focus I have when working with teammates. I will try to meetup more frequently. I'm also going to pat myself on the back for approaching a girl on the train station while waiting for a friend, even if to just exchange a few sentences. 

Feelings

No cravings. From now on I think I will refer to only youtube cravings. Oversleeping in the morning didn't get me down at all, so I felt pretty good. Still massively excited about the future. I'm learning social media marketing when I'm procrastinating or eating. Maybe it's the hope for the future, maybe it's just a change of topic for once, but I'm having so much fun studying this stuff. Can't wait to get to implementation when I have some extra time!!

Achievement

2 weeks of no gaming, yay? Yay.

Additional Stats

8 Hours of Sleep: Check
Dream Journal: Check
Gym: Nope (not scheduled)
Ate healthy: Check

Action

Sit on the chair while recalling dreams in the morning!!!

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@JustTom,

I like how you broke up the journal into segments:  the rant, feelings, achievement, additional stats, and action.  You're living life like a game, bro!  Well done.  I got your back, and will continue reading how you're fairing in the detox.  Accountability to another person may also help.  We're all here to support each other, even if it's not directly.  Reading your journal and others is inspiring and motivational for me.  Let's keep it going, folks.  We can do this.

Grats on no cravings to game!  Something is shifting in your brain, definitely.  It's good that you're kind to yourself.

Key thing about sleep schedule.....try to go to bed at the same time every day.  Put away computer and electronic devices at least an hour before you go to bed.  It's so easy to say this, but harder to put into practice.  Trust me, when you wake up earlier in the morning, it'll give you so much time to start tasks and finish them.  Evenings can be a more relaxing time for your mind and body.  Melatonin also helps.  Take one tablet a night (2 hours before sleep), maximum 2 weeks. 

It'll be interesting to read your dream journal.....never heard of something like that, but what a spiritual awakening that can be too.

Best regards,

~ Dani

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Day 15 | Productive Hours: 9 | Focus: 70% | Current habit: Dream Journal (4/7)

The Rant

Even though I'm putting in the hours, I don't really feel like I'm progressing with assignments that much. I have a tough time getting into the zone too, I don't know why. I feel kinda restless, irritated. Maybe it's that right now, at this moment, I want to do something else deep inside. I don't want to give the masters up but I do realize that it's not where my passion is. And neither my talent, for that matter. I'm a very creative person with quite unique perks about me(I think). I know where my talents are and they are not in IT or math. I knew it before I even joined this study programme, but I just kinda went for it. Out of tradition or expectation from my peers and parents I guess. And maybe also fear of diving deep on my own. I will see during summer how things go and maybe take a gap year, or just finish the uni. The fact of the matter is that creating a business is extremely hard and very likely to fail. Having that degree + skill as a 'backup' will always be nice. I guess. It's just frustrating that I know where my talents lie, but I'm not using them. Instead I'm working hard on something that I know I will not become a master of. I will certainly utilize most of that skill, but I'm not passionate about it like I thought I would. Gary Vaynerchuk often stresses to find your passions&talents and use them to the fullest, instead of trying to be good at something you're not really feeling. I'm not terrible at AI, but I feel like I'm very much below-average here among the smartest people ever. My biggest talent is in music in my opinion, and I do fully intend to return to music once the first part of the Grand Plan is fulfilled. And by that I mean I'm BALLIN' - hah just kidding. Kinda(not really). But that same talent I apply to music I very much apply to my real-life personality and just life in general. Now that I'm researching marketing on the side, ideas pop into my head how I can use this or that to improve things in a way nobody told me. I just synthesize information I know and put it together despite it not being the norm. Aight that's it for self-praising. It's just the excitement from the future combined with the current situation of not-being-top-notch is frustrating. But I'll get there. Very very soon. Patience.

Oh yeah I watched a video on accident. Legit forgot about the detox for a moment haha. No big deal. 

Dream recall improving a tiny bit.

Feelings

Half-frustrated / half-excited. No cravings. 

Achievement

Woke up on the first alarm ring and went out! (Yes, I will keep putting this in achievements as long as I want to!)

Additional Stats

8 Hours of Sleep: Check
Dream Journal: Check
Gym: Check
Ate healthy: Check

Action

Sit on the chair while recalling dreams in the morning - again. It worked last time to start-up my brain quite a bit.

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@Dannigan Thanks sis :6_smile: I'm trying to always finish all my work, including the journal at the uni so that when I come home I just go to bed without opening the laptop. This helps a tooooon. I also take melatonin, almost every night since the detox started. Will tone it down once I am very confident with sleeping habits.

The dream journal - I will probably not post those. If I manage to get a proper-length lucid dream, I might. It's not anything spiritual, actually. Dreams are random samples from your neural activations during a period of night where you restructure your thoughts from short-term memories into longer-term memories. Sure you can do some deep analysis of it, like if you dream of your parents being dead every day, something's probably up. But I'm just doing this for lucid dreaming. Which can indeed be used to improve real-life skills, but it's mostly just a fun hobby.

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Day 16 | Productive Hours: 10 | Focus: 80% | Current habit: Dream Journal (5/7)

The Rant

Productive day, shit is finally getting done, at least more than before. Overslept for 2 hours. Slightly better focus. Even got into the zone at home. It's funny how gigantic my ambitions are, while still considering trivial stuff such as being able to work from home as 'achievement'. Lmao. Pathetic. At 24. Nevermind. The past is the past, now we have to make the best use of our current resourcefulness to progress as best as we can and that's what I'm doing. 

I got this video as mp3 to listen to while I ate dinner. I've been following the guy for some time. His constant struggle with alcoholism is actually quite relatable for me. Sure I don't have the physical withdrawals, but the mental struggle is the same for every addiction. In the last minute of the video, he mentioned how he's had so many opportunities on every corner this past year, but he was unable to take any of them because all his mind could think of is alcohol. This is SO. TRUE. Every period of my life I've had so many opportunities to just absolutely crush it, get to the next level of life, but I chose to game instead. Or watch game of thrones, or browse some reddit cat pictures. Unbelievable. I will not let a single minute go to waste anymore. This absolute miracle of the universe that is human body and mind cannot be squandered pumping ourselves full of dopamine without any prospect of contribution or long-term happiness. So many opportunities in the western world. Just TAKE THEM!

Little bit of a harsh tone for today. Sometimes I like to tap into that dark side. Also listening to a horribly disturbing music - love it.

EDIT: hung around doing nothing for 30 mins before going to bed, right after I wrote I will not waste a single minute. Hehe. eHEHEHEEEEEEH.

Feelings

1/4 frustrated + 3/4 excited. No cravings. 

Achievement

Was able to work from home, quite efficiently in fact!

Additional Stats

8 Hours of Sleep: Check
Dream Journal: Check
Gym: Nope (not scheduled)
Ate healthy: Check

Action

I am making the 'sit on the chair while recalling dreams in the morning' part of the habit. Makes a pretty big difference in my morning willpower actually. 

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Day 17 | Productive Hours: 8 | Focus: 95% | Current habit: Dream Journal (6/7)

The Rant

I noticed that I always wake up quite rested at least once, 1 to 2 hours before my alarm goes off. I always remember some cool dream so I could just write it down and even get ready and go hustle. Instead so far I've been choosing to really really sleep the full 8 hours - sometimes waking up even less rested than before. I'm changing this now. If I wake up after 6 hours of sleep rested, I will just write the dream journal entry and start the day. 

I woke up and felt rested, tried to recall some dreams but didn't manage. Even though I felt fresh I kinda browsed the web for a while, eventually laid down and fell asleep -> oversleeping 4 hours. Even though the result is the same as in the past, I feel some change has happened. It's almost that I CHOSE to sleep for a bit more. Maybe it sounds dumb but I knew I had enough willpower and rest. I think what happened this morning was quite literally my ego rebelling a little bit saying "EY what is this changing your life around? We used to be so nice, depressed and unproductive - here let me show you!" and that was that. I seriously felt 100% in control, but then chose to go back to my old identity. Fascinating. Since I'm NOT focusing on not-oversleeping right now, I'm not blaming or guilting myself. Next time, I will watch this show in my head with great interest!

Then I got a flat tire on my bike(people commute by bikes here) so on top of coming to the uni super late, I had to spend 2 hours on this issue. However, the rest of the hours I had - I absolutely crushed it. Assignments are getting done prior to deadlines and I might even have some extra time to actually start on my side-thing. 

Speaking about the side-thing: I had a phone call with my dad and was quite surprised that he supported me! He's a very smart man, but he thinks a certain way and I was almost sure he would say it's bullshit. I felt very happy after that.

I put a browser block on youtube and reddit. Even though I didn't watch videos, I would always alt-tab and open youtube just to see what's new and then check and read reddit for a bit maybe - LOTS of procrastination this way. Even though I can disable the extension at any time(I've used it before very extensively), this made me focus much much better. I realized I'm wasting maybe even 15 hours per week on just bullshit browsing and another 15 on oversleeping. That is absolute fucking insanity. With 30 hours per week I could almost work a full-time job(guess which --- MY SIDE HUSTLE THAT I'M SO EXCITED ABOUT RIGHT NOW THAT I CAN BARELY CONTAIN MYSELF). My medium-term goal right now is to minimize this time-wasting as much as possible. This has to be improved massively, otherwise I will never achieve anything I want.

TL;DR Overslept 4 hours, but absolutely crushed the rest of the day. Learning how to cut down on procrastination.

Feelings

LITERALLY feel like I can conquer the world right now. 

Achievement

Nothing super notable so I'll put in... Reached a record percentage of focus :6_smile:

Additional Stats

8 Hours of Sleep: Check
Dream Journal: Check
Gym: Check
Ate healthy: Check

Action

The next weekly habit will address the morning schedule a little bit more so try to hang on for 1 more day and not fall asleep if you're feeling super fresh and in control.

 

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Day 18 | Productive Hours: 12 | Focus: 90% | Current habit: Dream Journal (7/7)

The Rant

Yes Yes YES YESSS! My dudes and dudettes. I'm doing it. 1 assignment done, second will be finished tomorrow, I'm on my way to start my business next week, I woke up naturally after 5.5 hours, hustled like a madman, crushed it at the gym too. Literally squeezed every minute for the maximum productivity I could - I was writing some thoughts for vlogs while on the bus as well as while on the bustop - "got 5 minutes of free time? Open the laptop and produce!". Started watching a documentary about the founder of Alibaba while on breaks at the gym. Also did a pretty long intermittent fast because I slept less. On top of that, I might be getting a very good connection to ask questions about the legal side of business. All in all, I don't think I've ever head a more productive day in my life. I discovered a new world of opportunity and I am grabbing it by the balls. 

Maybe too little sleep, but hey if the body feels fresh who am I to argue - yesterday I changed the 8-hours-of-sleep habit to allow for natural wakeups. 8 hours is still the target though.

Feelings

Massive determination and confidence to crush it. 

Achievement

100% successful dream journaling habit!

Additional Stats

8 Hours of Sleep: Check
Dream Journal: Check
Gym: Check
Ate healthy: Check

Action

Next habit: No Morning Browsing! 

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So, I didn’t read your whole journal but just a few posts, I hope this didn’t get mentioned already.

I got interested in lucid dreaming after watching the movie Waking Life. You probably already know that, if not you should really check it out. Anyway, I never managed to lucid dream, but I tried to write down my dreams for a period of time, mainly for having something interesting to write about and/or analyse to understand myself better. what I noticed is that trying to remember the dream right after waking up (the only possible time to do it) gave me terrible headaches. I thought (the only reason I could find) that it was because of the resistence of the conscious to the surfacing of the subconscious, and that I was basically nullifying the purpose of dreaming (unconsciously revealing unprocessed dangerous thoughts to myself in a way that is acceptable by the ego). I concluded that it was a dangerous practice for my mind, and I should stop doing it. And I stopped. Now, I absolutely don’t mean to discourage you by saying this. On the contrary, I’d love to know more about it, and your point of view about your experience and mine (If you have time to tell me).

Have a nice day!

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On 4/20/2018 at 0:45 AM, info-gatherer said:

I got interested in lucid dreaming after watching the movie Waking Life. You probably already know that, if not you should really check it out. Anyway, I never managed to lucid dream, but I tried to write down my dreams for a period of time, mainly for having something interesting to write about and/or analyse to understand myself better. what I noticed is that trying to remember the dream right after waking up (the only possible time to do it) gave me terrible headaches. I thought (the only reason I could find) that it was because of the resistence of the conscious to the surfacing of the subconscious, and that I was basically nullifying the purpose of dreaming (unconsciously revealing unprocessed dangerous thoughts to myself in a way that is acceptable by the ego). I concluded that it was a dangerous practice for my mind, and I should stop doing it. And I stopped. Now, I absolutely don’t mean to discourage you by saying this. On the contrary, I’d love to know more about it, and your point of view about your experience and mine (If you have time to tell me).

Haven't seen the movie. My knowledge of lucid dreams comes 10% from random articles and forum posts and 90% from the book Exploring the World of Lucid Dreaming by Stephen LaBerge, who is the scientist that put in the scientific experiments and proofs of the concept to get it recognized as a real thing, not a spiritual woo-hoo. According to him, we don't have conclusive evidence on what the purpose of dreams is, but it is likely that they have no purpose at all. In fact the hypothesis is that dreaming is just a byproduct of the process that happens in your REM phase of sleep - when the brain activity is at its highest. In this phase, short-term memories are 'restructured' and the respective neural paths are strengthened to form long-term memories. While the activations fire, they get projected as dreams. That's why dreams are so crazy random and things that you experienced strongly recently mix up together. Another idea is that since during night, you receive very very little sensory input, your brain creates a model of the world from your memories and feelings, during REM phase, because it needs a 'world' to exist in. Like the concept of trying to imagine NOTHING - you can't do it. So if your brain gets no sensory input, the model of the world is just what you have in your brain at that moment. 

Anyways, it is completely harmless at worst, and practically beneficial at best. Some people have been lucid dreaming every night their entire life. My first guess for your headaches would be dehydration + the intense concentration in the morning that you were not used to. My second guess would be auto-suggestion AKA placebo. If you're afraid of it, you will manifest self-fulfilling prophecies. Just like anything in life actually ^^ Just guessing of course. 

I've dug up some of my lucid dreaming entries from 5 years ago and it's so sick haha! One time I was a literal dragon. Flying around with gigantic wings and everything - while being lucid and in almost-full control. I want to get back into it!

EDIT: CONGRATZ ON COMPLETING THE DETOX!! So awesome!

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Day 19 & 20 | Productive Hours: N/A | Focus: N/A | Current habit: No Morning Browsing (0/7)

The Rant

Friday was mildly productive, except for the fact that whenever I tried forcing myself to record a video I was planning to do, I got massively anxious, prompting me to not be efficient. Went to a birthday party, hence the N/A's in stats LOL. Tried to be productive on saturday but it was hard through the hangover. At least I recorded the video in the end. Now to learn how to edit. Not sure if the party was worth it, but whatever. 

Feelings

Tired, hangover, but ready to absolutely crush it tomorrow and onwards.

Achievement

Kept intermittent fasting despite the party.

Additional Stats

8 Hours of Sleep: Check
Dream Journal: Nope

Gym: Nope (not scheduled)
Ate healthy: Check

Action

 

 

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Day 21 | Productive Hours: 14 | Focus: 40% | Current habit: No Morning Browsing (1/7)

The Rant

For the first time after years I'm starting to feel like I am in control of when I wake up. Not just momentarily day to day, but long-term. Before the detox, I had 0 confidence that I would wake up in the morning - it could be at 10am or at 10pm. Not even kidding. Now, I am almost 100% confident I can get up whenever I want to and start the day strong, incredible. I had to do chores, cook and there were some other reason I had to stay home so I didn't go to uni. I did manage to 'try' to focus, but it was pretty weak especially because I needed youtube for some math explanations and tutorials so I ended up procrastinating a lot. Which is very ironic, because that's precisely what I'm talking about in the video. I used it mainly to learn how to do basic edits. It's pretty trivial to be honest, so that's nice. Even though I didn't even realize the overlayed image and videos are so small.. whatevs, this is just for practice basically.

Achievement

Video.

Additional Stats

8 Hours of Sleep: Check
Dream Journal: Check
No Morning Browsing: Check

Gym: Nope (not scheduled)
Ate healthy: Check

Action

Just execute all habits, go to uni and we'll be gucci.

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4 hours ago, JustTom said:

Day 21 | Productive Hours: 14 | Focus: 40% | Current habit: No Morning Browsing (1/7)

The Rant

For the first time after years I'm starting to feel like I am in control of when I wake up. Not just momentarily day to day, but long-term. Before the detox, I had 0 confidence that I would wake up in the morning - it could be at 10am or at 10pm. Not even kidding. Now, I am almost 100% confident I can get up whenever I want to and start the day strong, incredible.

:8_laughing:

:1301_clap_tone2::1301_clap_tone2::1301_clap_tone2::1301_clap_tone2:

:)  Well done.

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Day 22 | Productive Hours: 12 | Focus: 90% | Current habit: No Morning Browsing (2/7)

The Rant

I've started sprinting. And I'm not going to slow down until I reach the finish line. Although I am indeed trying to do too many things at once, thus I'm postponing any attempts at social media content creation unless I get strongly inspired about something. The documenting and personal brand type of stuff can wait until I get certain kogs in the machine nice and running. 

I am being cheeky today and aiming for little sleep this night. I stayed up researching e-commerce the whole time. Very quickly and efficiently, I'm learning so fast right now it's crazy. I'm loving it. Thinking about launching even before summer. If I knew I could reduce my sleep to 6 hours and eliminate procrastination, I could do it. Currently, I'm not 100% confident about that so the required university studying/programming is probably holding me back too much and I would have to move the business forward too slowly, be non-responsive to customer support, not target properly, not build the e-mail list properly etc. And I really want to give it all I've got. We'll see.

Achievement

Just crushed it in general.

Additional Stats

8 Hours of Sleep: Check
Dream Journal: Check
No Morning Browsing: Check

Gym: Nope (not scheduled)
Ate healthy: Check

Action

Got compulsory class in the morning so oversleeping is not an option!!!!

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Hey Tom, thanks for taking the time to answer my question. We indeed have a very different approach to the matter, but I’ll follow your suggestion and maybe give lucid dreaming another try in the future :)

Also, congrats for checking all those stats! No browsing in the morning is expecially tough for me and many other internet addicts, I’m glad you’re succeeding at it!

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Day 23 | Productive Hours: 11 | Focus: 90% | Current habit: No Morning Browsing (3/7)

Day 24 | Productive Hours: 8 | Focus: 95% | Current habit: No Morning Browsing (3/7)

The Rant

I'm focusing really hard on growing my life into the next level as quickly as I can. I truly feel inspired, like I finally found a vision that I am passionate enough about. I've had sparks before, but they have always been quickly extinguished by my gaming addiction and/or depression. This time, I nourished it, put up dry papers, dry sticks and the spark burst into flames. I am so motivated right now that I don't even procrastinate. I forgot to turn on my BlockSite extension that I use to block reddit, youtube and others, two days ago - I DIDN'T EVEN NOTICE UNTIL NOW! And games? I can't even comprehend how stupid it is to waste time on games when life is so full of opportunities. Intrinsic motivation is seriously where the real power resides. I don't have to push myself, I don't have to use my willpower to not read random reddit posts, it doesn't even occur to me - because I'm loving the research and preparations I'm doing so much more! I don't need to push, because I am being draw. Even though I'm still plowing through legal stuff. Can't wait to actually start building the machine. And once the machine is powered by the flames I have inside - OH BOY we're going places... This is going to be so sick...

Achievement

Acquired a ton of info. Wasn't hesitant to make calls or even go face-to-face to ask.

Additional Stats

8 Hours of Sleep: Check
Dream Journal: Check
No Morning Browsing: Check

Gym: Nope (not scheduled)
Ate healthy: Check

8 Hours of Sleep: Check
Dream Journal: Check
No Morning Browsing: Nope

Gym: Nope (not scheduled)
Ate healthy: Check

Action

Make the final decision on the country of incorporation. Call and message whoever you need to, be annoying, do everything so that you decide TODAY. Do not over-complicate.

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On 4/24/2018 at 9:35 AM, info-gatherer said:

Also, congrats for checking all those stats! No browsing in the morning is expecially tough for me and many other internet addicts, I’m glad you’re succeeding at it!

Thanks! Doing this week-by-week and only focusing at one small thing at a time really works wonders. My first habit from 3 weeks ago is actually starting to feel automatic now. And the new one is easy - because it's just that one thing, basically. It's a kind of a mind-trick I'm using on myself, but hey. Works.

 

On 4/24/2018 at 6:19 AM, Brad_Hurst said:

Hey brother. Check out this article on procrastination. You should never wait until you are 100% certain. It takes too long, you just gotta start doing. 

I hope it helps :)

How to stop procrastinating using the 70 percent rule

Very powerful article. Not that I'm a perfectionist, but it did made me change the perspective a tiny bit. Although my issue is really with time. I only have 24 hours per day. 8 for them is reserved for sleeping and this will not change until I am in absolute control of my sleeping habits. Then maybe an hour is commute, eating and breaks take maybe another hour minimum so that's 14 left. If I workout 3/7 days per week and a workout takes me 140 minutes including commute, dressing etc., then that's ~1 hour per day average. So even if I had absolutely 0 procrastination, I would only have 13 hours per day to hustle on average. Depending on the current ongoing courses, it could be that working on that is 8-10 hours per day, like it is now, or even up to 12, like I assume it will be in september because of difficult courses, unless I prolong my studies by a year. But if I see high potential like every guru on youtube promises, then yeah, I will do everything I can to maximize my time to grow that business.

Anyways. You're right. I'm not screwing around anymore. The past few days I've been doing a toooon of research and will be incorporating ASAP. 

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Update: Just a had long call with dad. Looks like we misunderstood each other the last time a little bit. After elaborating on some specifics, turns out he disagrees quite strongly and urges to not do it. Will need to think about this some more...

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The Return of the Cravings

Day 25 | Productive Hours: 8 | Focus: 80% | Current habit: No Morning Browsing (4/7)

Day 26 | Productive Hours: 0 | Focus: N/A | Current habit: No Morning Browsing (4/7)

Day 27 | Productive Hours: 0 | Focus: N/A | Current habit: No Morning Browsing (4/7)

The Rant

Yikes.

Went to a party on thursday while still getting over a flu. The next day, I spent LITERALLY the whole day sleeping. I think it was ~15 hours. When I finally got up, I felt like shit and I felt into my old pattern. I told myself I will stay up during this night and go to sleep early the next day in order to revert my sleep rythm. I told myself(to be precise: I lied to myself) that I would spend the night hustling, but I knew I was not going to do that... I spent the night watching gaming videos. I was back to my old depressed me. How the fuck could I be on top of the world just 2 days ago and now this. Anyways, as the pattern follows, I fall asleep at around 6am, but luckily NOT sleep the whole day again(which leads to an indefinite cycle of self-hatred), but rather wake up at noon. I spent the entire saturday, once again, watching videos. Finals of NALCS, some SC2 for good measure as well. If this had happened a month ago, I would have relapsed for sure. But I didn't. I didn't feel extreme cravings, but I wanted to play. I think the idea of losing all my 25 days kept me from not pulling the trigger. And also this journal, the people who trust me to do this. I am so grateful for this community, it's unreal. 

I don't know what caused me to do this - maybe hangover combined with the flu that got worse over night. Maybe my dad shutting down my excitement just the day before also contributed. Maybe it's just my ego trying to hold on to an old identity again. Maybe I was scared of more social contact at that time, because on friday there was a big holiday in the city and basically 90% of the city is out partying. My excuse to not go was that my voice was destroyed - which was definitely true, but I don't think it was the real reason I didn't want to go. 

It's the end of saturday now and I feel alright. After writing this journal I will just shut down the PC, take a shower and go to bed, setting my alarm for 8 hours. But man, these moments make me feel like I'm not really ready for entrepreneurship yet. I know 100% I want to do it. I know I have the mindset, I have the ideas, I have the creativity, I have the courage. I have the willingness to outwork other people. I just.. kind of 'relapse' in a non-gaming way, from time to time. Perhaps towards the end of the detox, I will be more resilient. 

Now regarding my first business. My dad laid out arguments for why I absolutely shouldn't do it. I know where he's coming from, I won't type the details here, but my philosophy and approach towards the world is a lot different than his, but I still value his opinion and he indeed raised some good points. Gary V says the #1 thing that is holding people back is opinions of other people, especially mom and dad. I fully realize this but it's a tough dilemma to recognize where you should be bold and ignore the 'nay-sayers' and where you should shut up and take advice because you don't know the road ahead, even if the road ahead is not the same. Because I'm an engineer at heart, tomorrow I will write down pros and cons of my options and see what's best. That being said, my over-arching goals don't change. I want to become financially independent and have positive impact on people by leveraging my talents. This includes building a passive income machine. Since I've started educating myself about money, I am starting to see opportunities for business where I haven't seen them before and I am certain that with enough intent, tenacity, smartness and creativity, I will build the machine before I'm 30. This is a marathon, not a sprint. And I am not a one-trick-pony that sees one opportunity and if that doesn't work out it's game over. Far from it. I will weight my current circumstances, restrictions and opportunities and determine the correct course for the next few months. If it's not what I got hyped about just few days ago, that's okay. I can get hyped about it after I finish my masters too. And if the opportunity is closed by that time - there will be another one. Possibly even better.

Also, I'm resetting this week's habit. It was less consistent than GRR Martins' book publishing.

Achievement

Didn't relapse. If I had had the same situation a month ago, I would have relapsed for sure.

Also, checkout my /r/stopgaming post(on a different topic).

Additional Stats

8 Hours of Sleep: 2/3
Dream Journal: 1/3
No Morning Browsing: 1/3

Gym: 1/2
Ate healthy: 1/3

Action

Don't guilt and pity yourself and start fresh tomorrow. 

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