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@BigPete247, don't worry, I wasn't obsessed by it even in university. Right now it provides me physical workout and energetic music)

Just noticed a typed that I " fuxed few other things in process" in last log entry. That might be very true. :D

 

Day 28

Sent to review several tasks at work. I'm kinda proud of myselft because half of them were along the lines of "Poking with screwdriver - $5; Determining a place to poke - $995".

In the evening we were discussing acquiring a car with wife. It would be our first car, and I am no a fence. I don't think there's a point of a first car being the expensive one. I'm afraid it won't find much use immediately but will eat it's share of money. Insurance, maintenance, parking spot. Parking in anthill-like new districts is tough and going to work is problematic because of Moscow traffic. On the other hand it would be of much use with having to go to clinics or visit friends and relatives with little kid.

Plans for day 29, which is now: go throught a practice test for chosen exam to assess things I need to refresh, work out few of them, get some rest.

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Day 28

Sent to review several tasks at work. I'm kinda proud of myselft because half of them were along the lines of "Poking with screwdriver - $5; Determining a place to poke - $995".

In the evening we were discussing acquiring a car with wife. It would be our first car, and I am no a fence. I don't think there's a point of a first car being the expensive one. I'm afraid it won't find much use immediately but will eat it's share of money. Insurance, maintenance, parking spot. Parking in anthill-like new districts is tough and going to work is problematic because of Moscow traffic. On the other hand it would be of much use with having to go to clinics or visit friends and relatives with little kid.

Plans for day 29, which is now: go throught a practice test for chosen exam to assess things I need to refresh, work out few of them, get some rest.

Expertise costs money. :)

If you go ahead with the first car, find something reliable, in good shape and with a good aftermarket. "Beginner" cars are easily resold and are not much of a pain.

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Day 28

Sent to review several tasks at work. I'm kinda proud of myselft because half of them were along the lines of "Poking with screwdriver - $5; Determining a place to poke - $995".

In the evening we were discussing acquiring a car with wife. It would be our first car, and I am no a fence. I don't think there's a point of a first car being the expensive one. I'm afraid it won't find much use immediately but will eat it's share of money. Insurance, maintenance, parking spot. Parking in anthill-like new districts is tough and going to work is problematic because of Moscow traffic. On the other hand it would be of much use with having to go to clinics or visit friends and relatives with little kid.

Plans for day 29, which is now: go throught a practice test for chosen exam to assess things I need to refresh, work out few of them, get some rest.

Expertise costs money. :)

If you go ahead with the first car, find something reliable, in good shape and with a good aftermarket. "Beginner" cars are easily resold and are not much of a pain.

I agree with Mettermrck, don't do what i did, take a quick check and drive it out of the lot, if you have to...inspect that ride.

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Looks like we're going for 3-5 years second-hand car. Out friend has told as about a company who checks car they get and he was satisfied with both cars he bought there. He also claimed that it's a safer option since one can afford upper tier used car than a new one.

Day 28 - Day 29 (after fix - 1 day fix)

Family time, study time. Not bad but I am irritated of myself as hell because of things I've forgotten, time I wasted not studying for the exam etc, etc. These are not really productive thought and it's example the kind of thought I was studying to battle, but it's kind of my weak spot.

For the past week I am mostly reading logs and not commenting since it's not often I have something to add and it's easy to get sucked into forum surfing. I bet some of you experienced this too.

I wonder if I skipped a number in my log somewhere?.. It started Aug 6, so one month + day should be Sep 6, not 5.

UPD: Yes, I skipped day 18, so anything after 19 should be N-1. Looks like I can't edit all those posts manually.

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Day 30

An okay day. Been working and collecting data on chosen exam. Maybe I'll use my last week of vacation as finishing rush.

Also chose presents for firiend's and father's birthday. Latter one was (and still) is major trouble. My father loves books. As in "paper books". He usually asks me to find books that are 20-40 years out of print or plainly very expensive. My previous attempt at introducing him to electronic books utterly failed though he has no problems reading his share of forums.

A friend of mine asked me if I'm ready to stop this "voluntary perversion" of not playing) Hmm, not yet... At least not these two days for full month.

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Day 31

Woo-hoo, one month mark conquered! I initially thought of trying to moderate after this mark, but I son't really want to. I mean playing, not moderating. I need to balance things I want to do for fun, my job, my exam and my family. Realy don't want to deal with game-choosing or game-beating atm.

I'll keep making the records because it helps me to distill my thought on a process. While I am at it, making reminder to myself: read Gabor Mate's book on addictions. Maybe it would provide some additional insight on the subject. This would also keep me from non-recording slips if they happen.

On the "simply diary" stuff: I actually found books my father asked for in antiques shop. Soviet edition) I'd like to read it someday too. On my e-reader. Sorry, books, I really night that weight off when I walk fast early in the morning.

 

It's a shame I make this entries when I'm already tired. Too much things I feel lazy to formulate. I think the log for last week and half looks like irritated taslk. Perhaps it is meant ot be like this somehow. :) I want to reread the log to see the difference between then and now. It was interesting with common diary, should be interesting now too.

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Day 32

Last evening I watched Zimbardo's TED video on Stanford's experiment. Quite interesting. It seems that he has a book precisely on porn and videogame addiction too, but most reviews on it criticizes evidential basis.

 

Today I had some rage-inducing moments at work. Looks like the client has internal deadlines, so big messy urgent tasks ahoy! Overspicifying details in words that makes look like a different task then asking for immediate time estimation and misspelling my name is not cool. Still, I was able to finish it today. 

Had funny conversation with my stepfather  today. He'll skip my birthday so he asked me about a present. Last time he went overseas I asked him to look up specific console titles, but I am not sure I want it anymore.

I'm looking forward to read some upcoming VNs instead. ;)

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I like TEDx talks, but at the same time i hate TEDx because i'm getting the feeling that they are running off of biased information hashed out from stuff people can go online and find out. And you gotta love chaos in the workplace, it makes your work space feel calm when you see somebody next to you goes on a rant about eating the last printer in the cake shop or something like that. Good that you didn't remind your stepfather of gaming for your birthday, and Happy Birthday!

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Day 33

Visited friends of family yesterday. Mostly talked about kids, kids' stuff, books etc. I had really good time and it was great to see other people's perspective on subject and their experience.

Especially since I alomost spiraled into search mode at day 32 after I checked one stream. %) An hour after I made the log entry.

Naturally right now I am in the office, but since our colleague broke build system I have some time to write an entry.

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Day 34-Day 35 (WIP)

Another day. I've been discussing date at which my wife and son are going to return from the country house. It's more or less set. Plans for the weekend was to get some rest and do some exam studying. That's what I am doing now after setting up a PC and a table.

Not very inspiring day and entry, but whatever. I've felt desire to play something because it's hard to find uninterrupted chunk of time to play a match of go, for example. Luckilky, chunks that I do have allows me to study and read books.

Updates are coming soon...

Day 35 upd 

Probably due to magnetic storm both me and my wife sleep a lot today. As much as our son allowes us, that is) At one time I was playing with him while the she was asleep and had a bast at it. It's so much fun figuring him out and there's self-flattering aspect of "being a good husband and father", to be honest)

Actually I did a hefty chunky of study today repairing holes in my knowledge. It also feels good to skim through certain pages because you use it on daily basis.

I'm feeling like playing a bit. Let's see if I'd actually do this or read a book instead. Will report later.

It's first log entry in a long while that I write in a good mood, I think it shows)

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Day 36

FYI, I read Ice and Flame instead of gaming yesterday.

Did some studying today then went home to a) vote and b) catch up with my mother. We drank a lot of beer and talked a lot. It turns out my stepfather was really shocked about me not playing. Shocked enough to priject something like "a software developer always plays". Hmm...  I understand why it's easier to become a gamer for a man of this profession, but I also had acquiatance who said that C compiler is the only game he needs.

I dunno. If you avoid gaming at all or care too much it still controls you. I wonder if I'll really stop caring about it.

Now I'm mostly looking forward to visit my family againe next weekend. Maybe help them settle back here, but my wife wants to catch "last warm days". That probably explains why I froze a lot at the country house this weekend) 

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Day 37

A bit shaky day. I periodically fell into search mode because of the whole issue with present. It was bad and surface thorough the day but thankfully died out now. A new bumpy period starts at work but I thing I would be proud of myself once it's finished. It involves remaking part of the system I built and I think this part could be built better. 

Had a heartburn today. Probably too much beer yesterday and too much nuts for breakfast next day is heavy on stomach, especially just month after heavy poisoning. It interrupted bith work and evening activities, so some caution is must.  

Now, something of a brighter side: I walked through neighborhood where I grew up on my way home. I haven't walked there for a while so I got heavy dose of nostalgia. Not much has changed for the last 10 years here and meanwhile I am about to turn 30 and naturally life changed a lot. This walk felt like jaywalking through a bit smoky memory lanes. More or less same buildings, totally different people. 

Watched part of go match review today. It was Takemiya Masaki's match. I adore him a lot and some of mt breakthroughs were inspired by his plays. Maybe I'll "cheat" a bit and teach my son go just to have someone to play against. =) 

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Day 38

Pulled few stunts at work today figuring out how to rework my code and fixing other guy's code.

Evening: Pump It Up warm-... down? I don't know how to call exercises in the evening. Basicalyy there's actual DDR-like machine near me and go there when I need some activity. Passed one practice test after supper. It's a first one I actually passed of long break and it provided me with few more topics to the "to learn" list.

Checked out some game list video on youtube. That's not very good atm, but somehow it didn't make me pick my console up. Still, better to steer clear off it.

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Day 39

This is going to be game-heavy. I was struck by a strong "wanna acquire" hit. Cause: I took a 3ds cartridge with me to sell it. It actually lauched a torrent of thoughts like "what game I would like to play", "what platform", etc. The question is: what the hell? For years before detox I didn't like to play more than 30 minutes to 1 hour per day. And if I did, I seldom wished to do this more than 2 days in row. Then why do I care so much about what games I have at hand? It's especially strange since I don't really play while commuting, I mostly read or nap. That's how it was before detox too.

It is clear that I need to see how I can be satisfied with things at hand instead of infinte pursuit, especially for items of luxury, the category videogames belongs to.

 

A friend of mine dropped by today. We spent two hours just communicating. Aside from usual giggles we were a bit on philosophical side too, since we're both about to turn 30. We talked about games too, mostly about how much place do they have or should have in our lives. Frankly, it was way better than playing or searching catalogs) I wish I were able to see more of my friends, maybe play a round of TABLETOP game with them too. ;)

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Day 40

Hard day's evening. I was working at mind-boggling task all day only to figure out it requires wholly different approach. Well, things happens.

Previous day left me with somewhat cathartic feeling. I doubt I'll ever succumb to "wanna acquire" that easy again. I was angry enough at that thoughs. Besides, I remembered times when I was overjoyed with new gaming device. Guess what, it never made really happier, especially in a long term.

Now then, back from forum to rest and studies.

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Day 41

Uneventful. After day 39 had no urge to search something.

It's a bit sad some journal I was following seems to be discountinued now.

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Being aware that you were watching a stream is good. Even better would asking yourself, why are you watching the stream? What are you avoiding to do by watching the stream?

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@Daniel, that one is simple: choosing wrong game when I try moderation. It wasn't stream, it was along the lines "hidden gems of" video. 

Day 42

Unfortunately, I got sick yesterday. The crisis is over by now (day 43), but it was one hell of a night. I am grateful for having a family that can help me in such situations.

Had some exam study done yesterday, but it's hard with fever. 

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Day 43-Day 44

I got a lot better but ultimately got sick list. I want to have a proper recovery this one time even if it costs additional money. @Daniel's log got me thinking: I do remember times when I treated pure gaming days as best and I remember not going out on a few occasions a month before detox. I thought that I needed a rest, but it mostly consisted of playing or even worse (for me), game searching. Both activities are not quite relaxing. %)

Right now I am buried in various medicines up to my neck and answering my colleagues on skype. Not the work itself, but I feel better making myself useful. While I am at it I want to catch up on a history book I slowly reading and do some cooking. I miss this activity too a bit)

UPD: I actually cooked stewed turkey and I reinstall my notebook's OS which was long due.

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