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Sure did @JustTom! It took me two attempts (relapse at day 22) but I completed the detox approx 11 months ago. My celebration post is here.

That's actually a great reminder that I was going to post again at 365 days, which would only be a month away! Wow time flies when you're having fun!

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On 6/8/2018 at 8:46 AM, JustTom said:

That is epic! Did you also struggle with occasional depression / escapism in content consuming like many others do or just gaming? Are you completely free now - no cravings? Just curious

Sorry I didn't respond before now @JustTom, I have been focusing really heavily on my studies over the last month.

Didn't suffer from either depression or escapism. I got anxiety really bad because I never dealt with it for the last 5 years, so removing gaming really forced me to face that. Initially I was a little worried I wouldn't have anything to talk about with colleagues, but with the amount of podcasts I consume I seem to be relatively up to date with world affairs.

Depression was around before I went on the detox as I thought I was wasting my life. Maybe it was not depression but more remorse or regret, but it had similar effects anyway. Because one of the drivers to go through the detox was to free up more time for studying and family, I made sure that time was used exactly for that rather than escaping through TV/movies/etc. I utilised Jocko Willink to help me embrace that mentality, and have several of his episodes saved as favourites on my phone that I replay often or get the urge to procrastinate.

Not cravings per se now, more thoughts of nostalgia. Sometimes it is hard to differentiate between the two, but Cam's videos really helped. I compared it to the nostalgia I have over old friends and being back at school etc, while they are great to think about the 'good old times', nothing I am going to do will bring those back. Same with the games, its great to think about but even if I fired up those old games, it is not going to recapture the feeling I had the first time I played them.

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Studies are finished for the semester, so I am looking forward to prioritizing this journal over the next few weeks. The challenge will be to stay productive and attack my pile of chores and to do lists rather than just waste the next few weeks.

I do need to work out how to manage the anxiety and stress over the assignment deadlines though. It really gripped and crippled me on several occasions this semester and I really did not enjoy it - it took the focus away from learning and personal development and more towards damage control/panic prevention etc.

First step - sort out my hard drives and set up the backup script with @stablish help!

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Yesterday was a s-t-r-uggle to get out of bed. I stayed up way too late the night before and because I can't sleep in (thanks son) it takes me a few days to recover. I am feeling better today but I had to resort to caffeine to get myself going - I am still annoyed/frustrated that I am addicted to caffeine. It is a relatively harmless drug I guess but I don't like the notion of being addicted to anything anymore. I have tried drinking large amounts of water in the morning to see if the main cause was dehydration but I weirdly just get bored of it and it makes it hard to motivate myself to stay strong and force myself to do it. Symptoms of addiction I guess.

Looking forward to starting up Spanish with @Arch! that will give me something extra to do to force myself to keep productive.

Achieving a lot at work now too that my mind is not split in several directions. I got a few reports out yesterday that were sitting in my to do list for six weeks, and today I am going to go in early (once everyone else is awake) to start early before everyone else turns up and set the tempo. I really do get a kick out of being productive which is great.

I have begun having thoughts about doing the 100km run again. Or a 100 mile in the states. What is driving me is being frustrated with the time that I got - which is similar to why I kept doing marathons. The challenge I face is the timeline to achieve them - if I push for early next year or end of this year I would have to find one in a different country I think (such as the states), or if I wait until 2020 then that is a long time to stay really fit and focused for. I would be so well prepared for it though. I need to spend some more time thinking about it, which I might do this weekend. Check into my favourite library and either read up on it or just reflect where there is no distractions.

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5 hours ago, giblets said:

Achieving a lot at work now too that my mind is not split in several directions. I got a few reports out yesterday that were sitting in my to do list for six weeks, and today I am going to go in early (once everyone else is awake) to start early before everyone else turns up and set the tempo. I really do get a kick out of being productive which is great.

Love this^^

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Have been challenged to write anything interesting the last few days - have just been focused on catching up on reports and chores that I had neglected while I was studying and doing preparations for the next few weeks.

The most valuable event that has occurred since my last post is a meeting with my leadership mentor. I am getting more and more out of these meetings these days - I am not entirely sure what I can associate that with. I assume it is improvements in self awareness that is making me more receptive. At a minimum what the meetings do is force me to sit and reflect on how I am progressing - sort of like a meditation session. I still don't have a good routine for meditation, I have tried a lot of different angles but can't seem to get something to stick. Open for suggestions!

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I am contemplating conducting a "non-productive" detox. I have been thinking about this for a while, to take the detox even further and cut out anything that is not contributing to personal or professional development, eg phone, tv, radio, podcasts, reading, etc etc etc.

I think I would get a lot out of it, especially with what I want to do it next year. There are two barriers I see to this that I need to overcome though, 1) some kind of way to measure my time usage throughout the day - the previous spreadsheet plan didn't work because it was too cumbersome to update on the go, so I assume the most effective then will be something on my phone; and 2) a way to be ok/accept that family time is not "dead" time. I know it isn't and I do enjoy spending time with them, but at the end of the day my brain gets frustrated as I have nothing to show for my time.

Once I learn how to tackle both those barriers I am away with detox #2. Excited!

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there is the RescueTime system that includes a desktop app and a browser extension, and I think there's a mobile app too but I'm not using that. They monitor everything you do and keep quite comprehensive statistics, activities divided into categories that you can adjust etc. It's really good, although of course, it is a gigantic spy machine so you have to be okay with knowing that. 

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I'm still here! I have been keeping myself on the move since I last posted (avoiding using the excuse 'busy').

So what's been happening. Having too kids is far more time consuming than I expected. While with my son I still found time to smash games as much as I could, it is not an option now even if I wanted to. If I am not taking care of my son while the wife deals with #2, I am doing chores in the background while she does that. I am puzzled how people with three or more kids can handle it, but I gather it is a bit of practice and efficiency, and a bit of delegation to said kids. It's all a blast though, and underlines why parents (or Dads mostly) would feel that urge to go away from gaming all together to maximise energy for their kids.

I have finally started getting back into running. While conducting Spanish lessons with @Arch he made a comment when I said I was struggling a little - "have you still been exercising?" I have found it a challenge to prioritise running over the last month or so, which I think is from a bunch of different causes, but the main underlying one is I needed a new goal. I met up with a fellow runner the last few days and we were talking about doing a 100 mile run. This has been enough to get me to get back out there again. I haven't done one of my extended runs that I did prior to the trail, keeping my distances to 10km or less, but this weekend (Saturday to be exact) I intend getting back out there and stretch to 20km.

Finished studies for first semester and passed with a credit. Not as good as previous semester which I was hoping for, but I found the content far more challenging. I learnt quite a lot more this semester though so that is the silver lining. This leaves one subject to go - I can see the light at the end of the tunnel, which has only seemed achievable since the detox.

Have started reading a new book as well to get me kick started out of my previous slump - Finish by Jon Acuff. Very powerful so far and I am only about half way through. I am really connecting with the content and looking forward to implementing some of his tasks to keep me moving at work and progressing. Earmarked to read a second time.

@JustTom I think I have tried RescueTime before but I had technical challenges with it. The mobile version needs Google Services and from memory the desktop version needs Chrome. I don't have either of those pieces of software. It is the #1 recommendation I generally receive though. What I do know is my manual system was not working at all! I think it is possible to set up a notebook to carry that I can annotate throughout the day, as long as I make it easy and convenient so my brain doesn't give up.

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So the last few weeks have been quite intense on several levels. I have continued to lurk on the forums, but have been traditionally against posting on my phone, maybe I should do that to add little tidbits here and there and get some interaction.

The last few weeks have been heavy on reflection - forced by a recent leadership course I did with work which involved some feedback from people I have been working with and also involved some new reading materials which I have found quite interesting. I have learned a lot, to the point where it has almost felt like I have been drinking from a fire hose (go visual). Some of it has been restructuring what I want from people and what I am bringing to these relationships - something that I maybe needed a long time ago but got lost amongst my priorities. Part of this was from a discussion with @Cam Adair, where he questioned how I am brining myself to some relationships which is effecting what I want or thought I was getting out of them. It made me realise that I was spending far too much energy on the wrong relationships, and while I was spending time with my family or real friends, they weren't getting my energy. This has caused me to restructure how I am dealing with people at work, which I think will help me coming across less 'needy' (for the lack of a better term, it's not the right one), but also on the flip side be able to be more powerful or present in conversations or interactions that really matter. It's a balance and I have made a few slip ups so far but I think its really going in the right direction.

The fallout from this has been that I have a bit of a void for social interaction which I need to fill. A recent podcast with Alicia Dunams comes to mind - where she said rather than trying to fill a void or eliminate something (loneliness/sadness), make no room for it. It is a more positive or optimistic way of looking at it, I now need to identify some opportunities of how to now allow any room for those feelings. Or rather, better language would be, I now am able to identify opportunities or things to focus on. It's going to be a rough few weeks until then most likely, but I am ready for it. The podcast is here.

Have been thinking a lot about gaming this week which has required me to change my environment quite often. I think the underlying cause is the hobbies I have chosen to follow for the moment (running, Spanish, electronics) are 'high energy' activities. I need one that I can do when I am feeling low or having a break etc. The only option that has come to mind recently has been to allow myself to read some fiction books on my kindle. Maybe the Sharpe series, which I have been told is easy reading.

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So I think I have found a disadvantage to working so much on my self awareness and self actualization lately. That is - hyper self awareness aka anxiety. I have had some really big bouts of anxiety in the last two weeks which I found difficult to overcome.

The first one was about my relationships. I realised I was seeking more from my work relationships than I should - I was seeking them to be actual friendships. As a result, I always found them quite unfulfilling and I would get annoyed or frustrated when others prioritised different people or events over myself. After listening to some books and podcasts I have realised that I need to re-evaluate what I want from these relationships - and that is I just want them for work. As a result I have been feeling a lot better and confident about them, and a lot less frustrated, as I am not wanting so much more. The counter balance to this really has hurt though - the realisation I don't have any friends really out of work (and gaming), so I have been lonely AF. I have also become self aware of how I interact with people at work, which while I know I can't change instantly overnight (Cam's notion of recognise where you are in this process), gets me upset when I find myself slipping back to old habits of wanting more. This is going to take some serious work, and the change of environment in the next few months will help a lot.

The second one is about my studies. I have realised I have not been giving it the focus it needs so therefore have become self aware of being left behind by my colleagues. The first of these is about technical aspects that I wont go into here, but the second is my language studies with Arch. I know I need to overcome both of these - because that is the whole point of studying is to get better and leverage others experience, work and skills, but I am unsure how to battle this one. This will need research and guidance.

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On 6/25/2018 at 9:04 PM, giblets said:

I am contemplating conducting a "non-productive" detox. I have been thinking about this for a while, to take the detox even further and cut out anything that is not contributing to personal or professional development, eg phone, tv, radio, podcasts, reading, etc etc etc.

I think I would get a lot out of it, especially with what I want to do it next year. There are two barriers I see to this that I need to overcome though, 1) some kind of way to measure my time usage throughout the day - the previous spreadsheet plan didn't work because it was too cumbersome to update on the go, so I assume the most effective then will be something on my phone; and 2) a way to be ok/accept that family time is not "dead" time. I know it isn't and I do enjoy spending time with them, but at the end of the day my brain gets frustrated as I have nothing to show for my time.

Once I learn how to tackle both those barriers I am away with detox #2. Excited!

I'm almost done reading "The Procrastination Equation" and I think the author would only recommend your detox if those things are big problems (I only read your last page of posts so idk). He said at the end of the day, fighting procrastination is not about controlling all of your impulses, that won't make you feel better. I haven't thought much about it but it makes sense to me.

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Alright so I have worked out why I found it hard to really bring myself to spending time with family, and why I felt frustrated by thinking that it was a "waste of time" or that I didn't know how to measure it properly.

The cause is that I am not getting to what I want to each day, so when I am taken away from that (whether it be chores, study, work, insert something I think is important here), that's where I get frustrated and annoyed and don't feel like I can bring myself fully to show up.

So how do I deal with this?

I need to do more with my 'spare' time. And by needing to do more, rather than saying 'there isn't enough time' to do something (aka the victim mindset), I need to make sure there is no room for those time wasting activities. The catalyst of this relevation was talking to a friend about what I am trying to achieve in the next two weeks, which went something along the lines of this:

  • Choose a research topic for university
  • Write a framework for a phD
  • Complete staff reports
  • Read 5 articles for upcoming course
  • Order a camping trailer
  • Train for the next marathon
  • Finish 3 electronic projects
  • Make a training plan for 100 miles
  • Start swimming
  • Start packing to move
  • Do more chores
  • Spend more time with my son
  • Spend more time practicing Spanish

That's a lot. For me to achieve all of this (and subsequently feel like I have used my time productively and not feel frustrated), it leaves no time for:

  • Sports (sorry fantasy football, you're out)
  • Games
  • TV
  • Mindless browsing
  • Any podcasts/articles that are not focused on personal development
  • Oversleeping
  • Walking
  • Drinking
  • Unnecessary travelling
  • Distractions on my phone

Since I have come to this conclusion, my mind has become quite clear. I feel like I can really show up for my family and give them my full attention and I am subsequently enjoying it a lot more. I haven't been perfect so far, but I am going in the right direction and recognising where I am on the process. Rather than mindlessly surfing the web while I am travelling, I have started carrying my notebook again and use it as an opportunity to go over my to do list or write notes, or refresh myself with what I have accomplished lately. I need to get a better notebook system, so I am going to try the bullet journal and see how that works out for me. I want to spend more time away from my phone so going back to a paper journal is the best move. I do want to write more here, so I am going to try and write in the mornings as soon as I wake up.

So, I have been talking about this a lot, but here it is, the non-productive detox. Now open for naming suggestions ?

 

Time Waster Detox: Day 0

Goals for today:

  • Study 4 pomodoros (minimum).
  • Clean office.
  • Make a new budget.
  • Start journalling routine.

Grateful corner:

This forum, for keeping me accountable.

Lesson for the day:

There is no such thing as a 'small distraction' or a 'quick notification check'. One thing leads to another and I can lose up to an hour. While it is taking a lot of energy to stay disciplined right now, it will pay dividends later.

Quote/motivational piece of the day:

A great comment by Jesse Itzler on the Joe Rogan Experience - "what do you have in common with Bill Gates or Richard Bransen or any other successful person? You both have the same amount of time in the day." BOOM. I'm back.

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Small chunks at a time bro. That list looks like a mountain when you lay it out like that. So it's good to lay it out, now what's the ONE you can do right now (today) that gets that list smaller. Crush it and move on to the next thing. Major presence in the moment is key. You've got this.

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Well I underestimated how hard this would be. I've done the detox before, I can be productive. Well I was wrong - timewasters fit themselves in every nook and cranny.

The billionaire and the beggar have the same day. You cannot control an hour or a day, but you can control what you do with it.

Lets start again, 0500, here we go.

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  • 4 weeks later...

Can't believe it's been 4 weeks since my last post. I have continued to lurk through the forums like the annoying cousin that outstays their welcome, however.

I have not stopped writing, though. I have had a pseudo-break through, as I'm calling it. @Cam Adair told me a while back that I should be writing more during the day in shorter spurts rather than saving it all up for one post/entry. This should alleviate my concern that I was spending so much time doing my journal in the morning rather than reading, and should get some better entries as I can write what is bothering me in the moment. Well, I tried it, but it never caught on... until now. I feel like I could put it down to switching what journal/notebook I was using, the old one was too small so I felt compelled to write shorthand for some reason. But now I am using an A5 notebook that is leatherbound that I can jam into either jacket pockets or into my briefcase/organiser. Now the ideas and thoughts and entries are flowinggggg. I am averaging about 2-3 a day, ranging from 3-4 lines up to entire pages. I feel like I am having great progress doing it this way with personal development. One area that is had helped me realise I am doing is 'hitching my ego to decisions'. This is something that Colin Powell talks about in his autiobiography. I initially rejected this as 'something I wouldn't do because I am self aware and have high emotional intelligence....' yeah right. Well I might have more self awareness and emotional intelligence than the average, however I DO hitch my ego to decisions, and therefore seem to take some discussion about those decisions as personal attacks - which they aren't. I need to work more on this, so any tips I'm all ears.

So I have been start-stopping the new productivity detox over the last four weeks, and I think only now has it started to take hold. The catalyst - I downshifted myself back to one computer again. I packed up my windows computer which I was only using for essentially timewasting, and discord. Now that is not so easily accessed, I am forcing myself to use the little 2 & 3 minutes in between tasks to do chores or write rather than watch a youtube clip or search for random things or scroll through chat rooms. This means I haven't replied to @stablish for a while, sorry mate, I'll see if I can workout Discord on my ubuntu install.

Anyway, up to day 6 of pure productivity, and I am seeing great results already. Need about another 6 weeks of it to complete everything I want to this year, so lets keep this momentum.

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