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Hello everyone! I am 19 years old(going to be 20 this year).Let me give you all a little bit of backstory about me.Since I was I think 9 years old I started gaming...it used to be fun from what I can remember...games like Tarzan and Hercules used to be my favorites :) .Used to go outside at the time with some friends and we had a lot of fun there as well.I started playing more and more...and more...and more. I've got to the point where I was playing around 5-6 hours a day...and that was just the beginning of what right now threatens to destroy my life.At that point I gave up even trying to have a social life...I just started to isolate myself from everyone and I was literally left with no friends...as well as growing very cold with my family to the point where I wasn't really able to tell them any of my problems.Being isolated attracted bullying which started my depression. Games became my coping mechanism and I started losing more and more time.At this point parents decided to take gaming related stuff away from me.Needless to say it didn't work.I was sneaking at night to play on my laptop or buying new power cables because my father took them away.Few day ago we had a 2 weeks break from university.I gamed for about 16 hours straight....took some brakes to go to bathroom and to eat some fast snacks but that was all.I know how damaging my addiction is(notice I blame my addiction not video games themselves).My life became just like a dream....I just randomly appear in the middle of someones life and I just survive the day and go to sleep just to start again next day.I am in my first year at uni and needless to say I didn't learn 1 thing the whole semester to the point where right now I am afraid I will fail most of my exams.I am starting this detox because I want myself back....I don't want to be tired anymore(usually going to sleep at 5-6  am and waking up at 7-8 am),I want to bring my grades up,eat healthier(around 1 meal per day is what I usually have and some snacks),I want to face my depression and learn to fight it instead of running to games.Playing games lost its charm a long time ago...can't even recall last time I played a game for fun, nowadays I play mostly because I fell like I have to.I deleted everything from my computer few days ago(but yesterday I downloaded a game and played for a bit...)Tomorrow shall be the day I start this....the day when I want to become an adult....to change,because this is not the future I want.First post might be long but I really wanted to put somethings about me there before I start.It will be a long ride ,I know, but I am willing to take it.I will try to post my entries in the evening when I will have more time for them!Thanks for this amazing forum guys! 

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I can relate to having video games take over your life so that you no longer socialize. It is a tough process getting back to that place before I started playing video games, but I have recently started making small gains in this area which I would not have been able to do unless I were game free for 130+ days.

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DAY # - 1

 

Time I woke up: 10 am

 

Time I went to sleep yesterday:  2 am

 

Summary of Day #:Woke up a little late than I intended to...I was planning to eat in the morning before going to university but it was too late already.Day went ok....8 hours of school didn't really give me time to actually worry about playing any games.I am proud of myself for actually attending all of my courses.Got home after and didn't really get anything done. Didn't feel any cravings to play anything today but it was to be expected.Usually when I tried to do the detox a while ago I've got really motivated on first few days and keep my mind on it..but around day 5 I usually give up and return to my games.For the rest of the evening I don't really plan to do anything.Big exam coming on Monday but can't really commit to learn for it today(my head hurts hard as f)but I will start on tomorrow.It is funny how I keep going back to the things that destroyed me(those being videogames).Depression gets me even harder when I keep remembering that I've got into one the best university in my country(mostly because my parents made me go to a lot of expensive math and physics tutoring hours)and now I am kicking that opportunity right in the face because of this addiction.

 

What I could have done to make my day better:

~Eating in the morning

~Spend less time watching youtube videos

~Start studying for the exam

~Do workout and some meditation

~Stop wasting so much time on doing nothing

 


Miscellaneous accomplishments: 

~ Starting this detox

~ Staying at all the courses today

 

What I will do differently tomorrow:

~Do some work out

~Meditate

~Start studying(getting rid of the I will start tomorrow syndrome)

~Eat in the morning

~Get out of this state of mind that I have now(Really heavy head...can't really do much...maybe because of the many hours at university)

 

Over and out! 

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DAY # - 2

 

Time I woke up: 7 am(but I went back to sleep after an hour till 10 am)

 

Time I went to sleep yesterday:  1:15 am

 

Summary of Day #:Woke up early in the morning so I could take breakfast and I am happy that I did so.My courses started at 9 am but I skipped the first 2 so I can sleep...poor choice from my part.After coming home after the third course I didn't do anything.I feel stuck...like my brain can't comprehend a thing from what is going on around me.Spent the day in bed mostly watching videos(some were about gaming) and now I really want to start learning for that physics exam(the simple fact that I am so behind in learning at that subject makes me not even wanna try ).I feel myself sedated...and most of what I do feels outside of this world...it is like I am watching a movie instead of participating.I am trying to defeat my other 2 addictions as well(porn and sugar).The fact is that I don't feel 1 moment the need for video games or the urge to watch you tube videos(not even music which I used to love to listen always)...I don't feel like doing anything to be sincere.No idea if it is depression's fault or simply because the fact that this is how I feel when I am not able to get the dopamine rush I am so in need for.Well that is kind of it for today(like I said not much happened at all).I hope that in some days I will start feeling a little bit better...I am happy that this forum exists...it really keeps me motivated.

 

What I could have done to make my day better:

~Spend less time watching you tube videos

~Do workout and some meditation(still need to start doing that)

~Stop wasting so much time on doing nothing and get sh*t done

~Attend all my courses

 


Miscellaneous accomplishments: 

~ NOTHING(I didn't accomplish a single thing today)

 

What I will do differently tomorrow:

~Do some work out!!

~Meditate!!

~Study more!!!

~Get out of this state of mind that I have now!!!

 

Over and out! 

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Hey @SmokeZ, good to have you here!

When I've started my detox, having a plan for next day really helped me to get things done. Also it was helping me to get games out of my head. Do you have any plans for next day/week/year?

Now I am in desperate need to learn for my exam(which I am very scare that I will fail) and this is mostly what I should be focusing on...but anxiety gets me everytime and stops  me from being productive.I started eating in the morning...tried getting myself to go to bed at around 11 pm and get 8 hours of sleep and even managed to study a bit today....but still now more than ever I feel down and exhausted. Weird that video games weren't in my head much(but spent a lot of time on you tube videos some being about gaming).I will take your advice and start making a schedule for the day and see how that goes. Thanks mate!

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DAY # - 3

 

Time I woke up: 10 am

 

Time I went to sleep yesterday:  1 am(went to bed to 11 pm but really couldn't fall asleep till 1 am...that sucks)

 

Summary of Day #:Today skipped most of my courses so I can stay home and study for the exam...which I did but not even half as much as I would have wanted to.I feel exhausted and fatigue...something that I really didn't feel in a long while.Managed to eat 3 meals tho and I am happy that I can keep up with this healthy style(a huge improvement compared to 1 meal a day that I was usually having).Other things that I observed with me in this period are the general lack of direction(felt it before but now it is worse than ever),sh*t short term memory(this is becoming scary...my memory used to be very sharp),no willpower,heavy head(like something is there not letting me see the bigger picture), irritability(seen that with my roommate...I've got angry with a lot of his habits that didn't really annoy me until now) and pretty much I feel that there is nothing that satisfies me anymore.Always bored,always feeling the need to sleep...my mind seems to be dragging me back the the cage of depression.Even now when I write I feel like all my thoughts just fly from my head as I lay a new word.I watched a lot of videos on you tube(and many of them were about gaming) and lost a lot of time there.I need to be careful that my addiction might shift to that.Man this is bad...if I don't stare my eyes in a screen for too much time I feel like going crazy.I want to break this addictions(video games and porn) and get a grip of my life...enough it's enough.It were 19 years of my life in which I went deeper and deeper getting closer to the bottom with every step.I want to be social(I used to be when I were a child and very friendly) and not this hateful and psychopathic being that I have became.I feel like I betray everyone's trust(my parents who really believe in me...a lot of teachers that saw a great potential in me...and a lot of other people) and worse than everything I feel like I am destroying myself...even worse I have no one to blame...I am the only one who should take all the shame for this.Sorry for my little breakdown there. I think I will go to sleep now.

 

What I could have done to make my day better:

~Spend less time watching you tube videos!!!!!!!

~Study more!!!

~Do workout!

~Going to courses

 


Miscellaneous accomplishments: 

~ Meditation

~Studying(even for a bit)

 

What I will do differently tomorrow:

~Study more

~Try and wake myself up from this state that I am in and force myself into doing what needs to be done

 

Over and out! 

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Woow!Stress got the better of me and I just relapsed...I was just really bored and went ahead and downloaded a small game on my PC...where was my head....I will try the detox again...but only after my exams and when I feel more prepared...I fked up now...

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Woow!Stress got the better of me and I just relapsed...I was just really bored and went ahead and downloaded a small game on my PC...where was my head....I will try the detox again...but only after my exams and when I feel more prepared...I fked up now...

Don't give up. It's just a little lesson, not a failure. We have your back so don't hesitate to share your difficulties with us. Just be strong and keep going.

Greetings, Piotr.

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