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Working out is the shit man!

Here's a noob workout to get the ball rolling, if that's where it fails:

Get a buzz cut every week, or never cut your hair again. Looking ugly is beneficial.

Some stretching - as you like

20 pushups

20 squats

20 sit ups

20 crunches

2,5km jog

EVERY DAY for a month, as long as you have no pain. No fitness studio required. The order don't matter. Try out what suits ya. This workout isn't balanced, but it isn't excessive and it's only a month. Don't increase anything, this is just a "hello world" with oldschool basics to get you into a routine and to get you thinking about the subject.

Meanwhile, get yourself a book on "how to work out" and put it on the crapper. And be on the lookout for decent jogging shoes if you like it. @2,5 kms there isn't much to worry about, but watch the knees, if they ever hurt take a break for "till it feels better". 

Suggestions: stop jogging when it hurts. make smaller steps. jump less upwards. use your toes. try not to land with the heel while you have a excessively stretched knee. try to "roll" the foot forwards. make even smaller steps when going upwards (on your toes) or downwards (heels). count your breathing as if you were meditating - for starters. you can sprint, but if there is the slightest pain: don't. make tiny steps. tiny steps - for starters. with some experience you'll learn the rules of play, but mind, mistakes can take you out of jogging for weeks.

There are many alternatives to jogging. I like it the best, cause it's a good "excuse" to go outside, also, in winter jogging at 5 am or 8 pm is one of the most badass brutal motherfucking dark things you can do in life, sure to earn you respect from EVERYBODY.

Wrong workouts can fuck you up. If something feels wrong - it is. If it feels right - it is. Develop some body awareness by paying attention to critical zones/pain.

 

It's easy, probably only takes like 30 minutes, once you get the groove.

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@Fagus Thank you. You're right! 1090 days it is! I am getting really anxious about it. But yes I should probably take it slow. You are right- he is my dad and I need to accept that.

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94 days

Days porn free: 4

Days fap free: 4

Today I left my comfort zone by:

  • Getting up super early
  • Being half naked in the kitchen
  • Sorting out when I will see my dad

Routine:

  • Get up 6:30 (8:30 weekend)
  • Cold shower
  • Bioenergetics
  • Porridge
  • Study 1 hour
  • Meditation

Goal from yesterday done?:

 Ye boi

Thoughts and Feelings:

  • Got up very early. perfect routine
  • Studied shit loads
  • Learnt some german
  • Read some of the necronomicon
  • My dad texted me and everything went to shit. I had this weird anxiety attack type thing which kept popping up over the course of an hour.
  • I totally flopped so I started mindlessly browsing
  • Looked at some patches for my battle jacket.
  • Got my shit together and did some art

Tasks and Achievements:

  • Physical:
  • Mental: studying, learning german, art, reading
  • Spiritual: cold shower, bioenergetics, meditation

What I am grateful for:

  • Metal
  • Drawing and listening to banging tunes at the same time
  • Anxiety attacks
  • This

What I have learnt from today:

  • I have to face my fears
  • I might need therapy
  • I think meditation is helping my no fap cravings. I have more resolve now.

Tomorrow I will leave my comfort zone by:

  • Going out for a run super early

Goal for tomorrow:

Figure out what I want for my birthday (22nd feb)

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I really like this small workout that Destoroyah suggested. Maybe I'll do the same.

 

My Dad didn't talk a lot. He was silent most of the time and gave me no advice of how to be a man. Yes, he took care of everything I needed, but he gave me no hugs, no emotions. I was always thinking about his thoughts, was never sure if I met his demands because I never got any feedback from him.

Last christmas, I eventually found the courage to ask him about all that. Why he never talked, why he showed no emotions, why he didn't do anything with me or taught me stuff? He replied, that this is just not his nature. Which makes perfectly sense. Parents are normal people. No surprise that they are not perfect. Now I understand that my father loves me even though he's not able to express it and just couldn't give me all the things I saw other dads give their sons. I just have to accept this. But I'm satisfied that I've settled this matter that haunted me for so long.

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@Fagus Thank you for that insight. I have been told before that I should just try to understand and not expect him to change. I can't magically expect him to shower me with love all of a sudden. Im on my own now. My childhood is over. What's done is done.

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95 days

Days porn free: 4

Days fap free: 1

Today I left my comfort zone by:

  • Running around in a death metal shirt. Whilst saying hello to everyone I passed by.

Routine:

  • Get up 6:30 (8:30 weekend)
  • Cold shower
  • Bioenergetics
  • Porridge
  • Study 1 hour
  • Meditation

Goal from yesterday done?:

 Not really. Climbing gear but I still have to choose.

Thoughts and Feelings:

  • Got up late. But I did bioenergetics, cold shower, workout, run and meditation all in succession.
  • I got some funny looks while I was running. But that's all part of the fun.
  • I also felt super liberated while running. The same freedom I felt when I was younger.
  • I have been feeling nostalgic lately. I. A déjà vu sort of way. Feeling certain feelings and smelling smells from my early childhood.
  • Today I read some Manga. Berserk. I haven't picked it up in a while. So good.
  • I also tidied up my room and filed my important documents

Tasks and Achievements:

  • Physical: workout, run
  • Mental: studying, learning german, tidying room, reading, washing up
  • Spiritual: cold shower, bioenergetics, meditation

What I am grateful for:

  • Metal
  • Kentaro Muira and free online manga
  • Running

What I have learnt from today:

  • Porn and Disney have fucked up our perception of relationships
  • People are still wired for a tribal lifestyle. The question is will we ever evolve past it before it destroys us due to our refusal to adhere to it.

Tomorrow I will leave my comfort zone by:

  • Talking to other metalheads in HMV if I see any

Goal for tomorrow:

Start using Krita for digital art

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96 days

Days porn free: 5

Days fap free: 2

Today I left my comfort zone by:

  • Texting my dad

Routine:

  • Get up 6:30 (8:30 weekend)
  • Cold shower
  • Bioenergetics
  • Porridge
  • Study 1 hour
  • Meditation

Goal from yesterday done?:

 Not at all. Totally forgot

Thoughts and Feelings:

  • Got up late.
  • Went shopping to HMV. No metalheads in sight. I accidentally bought a djent CD. Born of Osiris - Soul Sphere. But hey I'm pretty open minded when it comes to music so I'll give it a shot. On the plus side; I spotted 60℅ (for a modest sum of 20 quid) of sylsosis' discography on the shelf at the last minute. Noiiiice. I wish I bought the necromancing the stone CD instead of the djent one though.
  • When I got back in spent the rest of my day ripping the audio
  • I got randomly depressed again. But my mood has dramatically improved.
  • My dad sent me a birthday card. That was nice of him.
  • I had a weird confidence spell at work. Felt gud.

Tasks and Achievements:

  • Physical: work
  • Mental: learning german
  • Spiritual: cold shower, bioenergetics, meditation

What I am grateful for:

  • Metal
  • CDs
  • Djent CD because maybe I will like it after all and become a trve djentleman
  • Sylosis
  • Birthday card
  • Being 5 days porn free.

What I have learnt from today:

  • I should just blast metal on my phone in the middle of the store to see if I like the band next time. Embarrassment isn't a priority when it comes to MEEEEEEEEETTTTTAALLLLL
  • Posture is very expressive.
  • There is a weird balance to everything. I sway from negative to positive in terms of mood a lot. Mostly on a long term basis. Hormones? Maybe.

Tomorrow I will leave my comfort zone by:

  • Getting up early for workout and run

Goal for tomorrow:

Get studying super hard

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Yeaaaa go run! Like a gazelle in the African steppe!!

Moodswings stabilize with sports and the absence from softdrinks and caffeine. And the absence of shitty people. Yea that latter one must be it. I'm still conductin' research tho!

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97 days

Days porn free: 1

Days fap free: 1

Today I left my comfort zone by:

  • Nothing

Routine:

  • Get up 6:30 (8:30 weekend)
  • Cold shower
  • Bioenergetics
  • Porridge
  • Study 1 hour
  • Meditation

Goal from yesterday done?:

 Not really. Got up late and got sick with the procrastination bug

Thoughts and Feelings:

  • Got up late.
  • Tried studying but I was bored so I did some other shit
  • Got high on caffeine towards end of day so I could achieve my goal
  • Didn't work as well as I expected. I did get my physics done though.
  • Talked to friends and made a massive post on deviant art
  • This djent CD is pretty decent.
  • I FUCKING RELAPSED ON PORN. That does it. I'm off to nofap for some serious rehab.

Tasks and Achievements:

  • Physical:
  • Mental: learning german, studying, getting on nofap
  • Spiritual: cold shower, bioenergetics, meditation

What I am grateful for:

  • Metal
  • Caffeine for showing me how unreliable it is.
  • Djent for not being so shit.
  • My swedish friend

What I have learnt from today:

  • Coffee sucks. If I want to be productive I should just take care of myself and do shit properly

Tomorrow I will leave my comfort zone by:

  • Blasting the duuuuuuuuuuuhjeeeeeeeeeeeeeennnnnnnttttttttt

Goal for tomorrow:

Make thank you letters

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Here is the post I made on deviant art:

Helllllooooooo
I said I would post on here more but I haven't; even though I have been drawing shit tons. There is a reason for this:
I don't like the way this site works for me as a developing artist. Or at least the way I have been using it.
I find that it is easy to get consumed by the warped social nature of this site. How much feedback you're getting and so on. Fishing for compliments. Returning "thank yous" and favs like there's some sacred equilibrium to be upheld or the entire universe will implode into a shitstorm of sorts. It is never good to adopt this mentality I think as it's very needy and also counter productive- just draw; don't care about your imaginary internet friends. I think you should stay true to yourself and be sincere always. I found myself being very devoted in an irrational way to others on this site: "Oh I must check on him and say something nice so he doesn't feel like he is doing bad!". Again- immature, needy behaviour. I just did it because it made me feel like I was being helpful. I'm sure the guy has the social integrity to live without my nice comments. I know I sound selfish, but I have one goal in art and that is to improve. Once I have improved I will start helping others in actually improving; not spewing empty sentiments.
"Do the thing and you will have the power. But they that do not the thing had not the power" - Ralph Waldo Emmerson
I need to get shit done and focus on myself before I start giving.
Also another quote by Mr Emmerson:
"The most difficult thing for a man to do is be himself in a world that is constantly trying to change him" - Ralph Waldo Emmerson
When you put stuff out there people either like it or don't like it. Being too conscious of other's opinions is a severe threat to the authenticity of your work. I don't really have this problem with the scale and quality of my output though. But I'm sure bigger users do.
Moving on: I'm too much of a noob for this. At my level I should be focusing on enriching my fundamental skills and not trying to create some sort of pseudo-masterpiece. This site has no real use for me right now apart from looking at other peoples stuff from time to time. But I can do that anywhere really. As a well developed artist I can see how it might be of use: put your shit out there to a wider audience, get feedback, inspire others. But for me right now? Nah my random practice sketches aren't much to behold and I don't need the little criticism I get as I'm not producing finalised content plus I'm imitating others. I would rather go at the basics on my own and develop my own observation skills but, on the contrary, a little Q&A would be great from professional people who know their shit. I just don't know anywhere on this site where I can specifically get that. In fact I get little to none lengthy criticism here whatsoever. The bulk of my knowledge I get from a 2nd party is from professionals on youtube.
If I do find a way I can have some more professional users accountable for my progress that would be great. That means I would be on here every time I fill up a sketchbook or have a problem. Not asking for a private mentor or anything. Just a little reliable constructive feedback.
That's why I don't really need this site. I hope this was helpful to you if you have the same problem.
Peace

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@Schwing Hm, you're right about that "caretaking" behavior one can adopt in such platforms. These Forums are running the same danger. I think being sincere is actually not as easy as it should be, because being sincere means also saying "I don't like this, because...". But if you learn to write that "because" well enough, the receptionist will understand, and if he agrees - he will grow and if he disagrees he will know that you are not a "sockpuppet" - as you would say.

So if you are delivering constructive feedback, being sincere is actually worth a lot more than being a cheerleader. For yourself and for the person you are interacting with.

Constructive feedback isn't as easy as one might think though. When I look at a picture, I get overloaded with sensual input. Let's say the general result is "this is shit". To make constructive feedback I'll need to

a) be able to untangle that sensual overload that I am receiving from the picture (which requires a lot of self awareness and all that "being myself" mumbo jumbo)

b) put that into words precisely (which requires technical understanding in art and the vocabulary associated with that - and furthermore some general communications-skills)

I think the requirements are quite stupendous. That's why people just say "I like it." or, which isn't as good in keeping a relationship "It's shit.". You need to be a master yourself - or at the very least have watched many masters, to help people improve by criticism. Sure sometimes you get away with "I don't like it, I don't know why", which is sincere, but that only works in very intimate relationships.

 

That social platform "neediness" is really a problem. I hate that shit. It's not sincere. It's fake all over and people pretend to be something they aren't. I avoid those situations like the plague, even deleted my Facebook in the process. It's very quiet now.

...but the voices are still there!

 

Maybe you could just upload your pics here, or on another platform with more focus on the material at hand. Or change the way how you interact with deviantart. I have an account from 2006ish, theres like noone there - but it only has like three mediocre pics in it. Just keep quiet!! If you get a friend request ask "How old are you?" and no matter what they reply say "Too young, sorry" and never reply again. No hard feelings then.

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@destoroyah Thank you for this.

Haha. I have never known anyone other than myself who went out of their way to say something was shit on that site. It's just compliment compliment compliment. But yes I suppose people totally avoid constructive feedback and resort to compliments as they have a need to express their thoughts but might not necessarily have the means to do it in a truly helpful way. I still have my facebook. The only thing I use it for is keeping up with metal bands. With deviant art I don't see myself ever using it unless I found a group where I could get guaranteed reliable feedback. Even then I would be only visiting frequently.

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98 days

Days porn free: 2

Days fap free: 2

Today I left my comfort zone by:

  • Being open on 1000 days.
  • Video chatting with an old steam friend for first time

Routine:

  • Get up 6:30 (8:30 weekend)
  • Cold shower
  • Bioenergetics
  • Porridge
  • Study 1 hour
  • Meditation

Goal from yesterday done?:

Almost. 1 more to go.

Thoughts and Feelings:

  • Got up late. There was a mouse in the roof last night and it was making so much fucking noise.
  • Didn't do any studying. Very chill day.
  • Did some art
  • Rewatched one of my favourite movies: Deathgasm
  • I talked to an old steam friend for a long ass time. The conversation was shit. We were just regurgitating memes into each other's mouths. I was serious and open when I messaged him on skype about my gaming problems. He was obviously uncomfortable about this. I played along with his immature shit level banter on the call. Shouldn't have done that. I hate that. I need to be grounded.
  • I hosted an accountability call with fil today. It was the highlight of my day. We covered a lot and know each other a lot better now.
  • I have to go to a practice dinner party as part of a confidence and social skills course school puts on

Tasks and Achievements:

  • Physical:
  • Mental: learning german, studying, getting on nofap
  • Spiritual: cold shower, bioenergetics, meditation

What I am grateful for:

  • Metal
  • Feeling like I am growing up finally
  • @fil for making it to the call
  • This beautiful song
  • The shit talk I had with my old steam friend for giving good contrast to the one with fil and making me think

What I have learnt from today:

  • Stay grounded means being grounded. This extends to conversation. I notice changes in my body when this happens. When I talked with steam friend my voice was very high pitched. When I spoke with fil my voice was very deep (even though I voice cracked a ton). I'm sick of shit talk with my "friends". Having our crappy highschool insecure dumbfuck egos double ended dildo shag each other.
  • I am feeling greatly changed in my art. Finally I am able to accurately portray my imagination.

Tomorrow I will leave my comfort zone by:

  • Dinner party. I hate mass social fuck fests. Get me with some real people on a long walk outside or in a cafe and then we can fucking talk. I hate the whole farce of dressing up and talking about generic retarded shit like trump and brexit. Let's face it: who cares about politics if it's a corrupt game for the elite. Every single system is wrong. Why should we fuss and obsess over how we are herded as the cattle in this farm called society? We should obsess over how we lead ourselves with philosophy as individuals. That's what i think

Goal for tomorrow:

Catch up with studying

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I have a terrible fear of opening up to people.

You might wannt to see a therapist about that. 

@Csaba_Bekesi I am sceptical of therapists. Do you have any experience with them?

I can't agree with that. Therapist will only make you more closed and swallow your cash. At least that's how it worked for me once.

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Hey, I really like your progress in expanding your comfort zone! That's how you should do!

Keep it up for a month and you'll see how much your life had changed!

Greetings, Mad Pharmacist

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No post today. I am spiritually, mentally and physically drained and I feel sick. The dinner party thing sucked a bag of dick. It was exactly as I described it earlier. A mass social fake pretend fuck fest.

My goal for tomorrow is to talk when I want to talk. And not talk when I want to talk. Not to give my fucks to unfuckworthy things

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We should obsess over how we lead ourselves with philosophy as individuals. That's what i think

I wonder why you chose not to tell people this. Then again, I wasn't there.

Good job Schwing, you survived tonight. Tomorrow is a new day full of oportunities. Hope it goes well. 

I suggest you get this in you morning routine. It's the hottest new thing. I'm trying it tomorrow (if only I can wake up haha). 

 

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@Csaba_Bekesi This is essentially what I do with bioenergetics every morning. The breathing exercise isn't something I really do on that level though. Thank you for this 

I believe much of this is tied in with the work of Wilhelm Reich. His idea was that internal stresses would manifest themselves within certain muscles, affecting your posture. It was with the stimulation of these areas of 'armouring' coupled with deep breathing that you could find emotional release

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100 days

Days porn free: 4

Days fap free: 4

Today I left my comfort zone by:

  • Being more active in maths class

Routine:

  • Get up 6:30 (8:30 weekend)
  • Cold shower
  • Bioenergetics
  • Porridge
  • Study 1 hour
  • Meditation

Goal from yesterday done?:

I did it! I didn't force myself to talk to girls or anyone. I talked when I felt like it.

Thoughts and Feelings:

  • Got up at midday! Skipped half of school day but I needed to recuperate from last night.
  • I tried the wim hof method. HOLY SHIT! Felt crazy. I was super calm and emotionally stable all day.
  • I was able to speak my mind to people.
  • I did climbing tonight. I am really improving. Got a lot done.
  • Mr psychic vampire confronted me in climbing. I just laughed like I always do when he made fun of me because tbh he does have a sense of humour- but- I didn't feel weird doing it. He had a go at me later on. I couldn't have given a fuck! I even laughed at him! Basically what happened was he said to me I shouldn't take cold showers because it doesn't allow your pores to open and get clean. He also told me before that I shouldn't take them because of fat loss and I was skinny. I simply said. "I'll look into it and by the way- I looked up the fat loss thing and it's fine etc etc because it's just white fat." He sort of ignored me and went on about the pores. So i just replied with the same statement "I'll look into it". "it's common sense though" he protested. I repeat myself and it gets a bit ping pong. He gets frustrated for some reason then says "move!" so he can climb on the wall adjacent to me. He then falls off at the first hold. I laugh. I understand him though. He gets frustrated with people sometimes and will take it out on others. I am the opposite- I take it out on myself. Arseholes are to be learnt from.
  • There is also this german girl at climbing I sometimes talk to. Today I decided to ignore her because I don't like being needy around others. Just because they have a vagina doesn't make it an exception.
  • Made a new deviant art account 

Tasks and Achievements:

  • Physical: climbing
  • Mental: studying, making new devaibnt art account
  • Spiritual: cold shower, bioenergetics, meditation

What I am grateful for:

  • Metal
  • Feeling more comfortable about my father
  • Feeling very at ease today
  • The wim hof method

What I have learnt from today:

  • How to deal with arseholes
  • Wim hof is great

Tomorrow I will leave my comfort zone by:

  • Tell psychic vampire why cold showers RULE

Goal for tomorrow:

Finish thank you letters

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101 days

Days porn free: 5

Days fap free: 5

Today I left my comfort zone by:

  • Being assertive
  • Talking to a few girls
  • Running a shit ton
  • Doing bioenergetics in front of other people
  • Telling psychic vampire how cold showers RULE

Routine:

  • Get up 6:30 (8:30 weekend)
  • Bioenergetics
  • Cold shower
  • Porridge
  • Study 1 hour
  • Meditation

Goal from yesterday done?:

Done

Thoughts and Feelings:

  • Very good day. It's my birthday today. I am 17 years old!
  • Perfect routine. Nailed it
  • The wim hof method is totally changing me. I am calm, confident, expressive and tolerant. It's great
  • I really pushed myself with running today
  • I got a rowing machine for my birthday. It's good for cardio and muscular endurance I found out but not really strength training which I want to do! Time to save up for some bodyweight fitness stuff
  • I was very collected around psychic vampire. Before when I looked him in the eyes I felt him draining me. But I did it today and I felt nothing.
  • I did wim hof in the changing rooms before running. Nobody really cared.

Tasks and Achievements:

  • Physical: climbing
  • Mental: studying, learning german, all sorts
  • Spiritual: cold shower, bioenergetics, meditation

What I am grateful for:

  • Metal
  • All my friends on this site
  • The wim hof method
  • Birthday
  • Simply being alive
  • 5 days nofap

What I have learnt from today:

  • I am starting to see the bigger picture. There isn't really a bad or good. We tend to use this labels for our experiences willy nilly through our ego. Suffering is a necessity in balance to happiness. All experiences are constructive. I knew this really but only until recently have I started to see it working. I like people who I would consider arseholes more because I understand the way they act.
  • I have tamed my ego in a way. I have forced it into a grounded state of energy where it will not falter and over extend itself.
  • I do have people I can call friend- my companions on this site

Tomorrow I will leave my comfort zone by:

  • Not knowing how you will leave your comfort zone and figure something out on the spot

Goal for tomorrow:

Finish thank you letters

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