Hello from Portland Or

[ZDub]

My name is Zak. I some how managed to get through early adult life with a gaming addiction/"passion". I am turning 30 and quite honestly I have a lot of things going for me in my life, an awesome family, a great job, and a girlfriend who loves me very much.

To put it bluntly I game entirely too much. I play DOTA 2 some times as much as 40hrs/wk, that doesn't include the hours spent watching professionals or reading other content to try and get better. The only way I manage to do that is sheer neglect of other responsibilities.

However unlike the catcher in the rye I am very well aware of the cliff that looms shortly in front of me, I sense a very real catastrophic fuck up coming and if I don't do something I'll be left with my gaming addiction, whole lot of regret, and some stories about "how it use to be".

I've gone through self improvement before and I am not afraid to go through it again. As they say the first step is admitting that there is a problem no matter how cliche that sounds it's true.

 

Quick Edit: A large reason for starting this new chapter was considering my future. I constantly think about a nightmare scenario where I consider what I am willing to neglecting now in my life for gaming and not knowing where that neglect will stop. To think about a future where I could neglect my family for an addiction is scary and feels shameful.

Edited May 20, 2016 by ZDub

[Remigjus]

Welcome Zak!

[usernameforworldpeace!]

Hey Zak.Thanks for joining , I look forward to reading more of your insights!!  Welcome

[Cam Adair]

Hey Zak! Awesome to have you join us here. I was just in Portland, too bad we didn't meetup. I'll be returning again soon so next time

[gloriousclover]

Hi Zak! I'm new here too. Awesome proactive decision making, wanting more of that myself. And if it's cliche it's probably words of wisdom.

[FarisK]

welcome Zak i'm here to lend a Ear when you need it!

[Falky]

Welcome dude!

 

[JustBeingReal]

Yo bro,

Itś great to hear you are looking after yourself, by thinking of your future.

I hope you will make a journal, I'd like to hear how you deal with the situations which are difficult for you. I used to do moba's too, so I feel like I can relate to you, anyhow.. I hope everything will turn out alright for you, and that you remain in touch with us.

Alright, good luck bro, all the best to you.