Day 68/90

I can smell the finish line ladies and gentlemens! We're not too far away!

14 hours ago, allanjchiang said:

Great job on 67 days! Almost there. I found seeing an in person therapist helpful for seeing more different perspectives on porn addiction. Some therapists say it's ok to have a balance between fantasy and imagination. If you PMO once, the next one has to be an MO or NoFap. Then the cycle repeats. It can be more helpful for avoiding PMOing everyday since you know that if you wait two days (I found I have to usually wait 2 days after a MO or PMO to be able to MO again just using imagination), then you can MO, then the next one can be a PMO after a day or two. That way, when you eventually do find a partner, you won't be all caught up in the fantasy of P since you alternate between the two. And you won't feel guilty all the time. I've found it's more realistic for me since I don't have a partner yet. I'm sure if you are always PornFree, it could be better but it's what I've found that worked for me. Again, don't have to take advice from a random stranger on the internet; but seeing a therapist has changed my relationship with porn. And I think in a healthier way, in my opinion.

Thanks Allan!

Yeah I mean I don't masturbate anymore but just look at porn.

You know what the main issue is? For some reason, I want to do 90 days of StopGaming/GameQuitters first before I take any other 90 day streak seriously.

Sounds really stupid but there's something in my brain telling me to focus on one at a time and not worry too much about relapsing on anything else for now.

I feel like when I hit 90 days StopGaming, I'll continue with it but also take PornFree very seriously.

See you all tomorrow!

1/90 PornFree

1/90 NoSurf

5 hours ago, Pulse said:

Day 68/90

I can smell the finish line ladies and gentlemens! We're not too far away!

Thanks Allan!

Yeah I mean I don't masturbate anymore but just look at porn.

You know what the main issue is? For some reason, I want to do 90 days of StopGaming/GameQuitters first before I take any other 90 day streak seriously.

Sounds really stupid but there's something in my brain telling me to focus on one at a time and not worry too much about relapsing on anything else for now.

I feel like when I hit 90 days StopGaming, I'll continue with it but also take PornFree very seriously.

See you all tomorrow!

1/90 PornFree

1/90 NoSurf

That's not stupid. I think it's actually a smart idea to focus on one thing at a time. Maybe I could try that too.

Day 69/90

21 days to go until we reach the top of the mountain and man does that feel good!

Not a lot to report today, getting back to being disciplined tomorrow so hopefully my other streaks can start to take off again within the next couple of days.

See you all tomorrow!

1/90 PornFree

1/90 NoSurf

4 hours ago, Pulse said:

Day 69/90

21 days to go until we reach the top of the mountain and man does that feel good!

Not a lot to report today, getting back to being disciplined tomorrow so hopefully my other streaks can start to take off again within the next couple of days.

See you all tomorrow!

1/90 PornFree

1/90 NoSurf

Personally, I like to keep a "Fighting the Dragon" diary. Here is mine for December '25:

December ‘25 Fight The Dragon Calendar
Key: No P / NoFap / MO - 🌕 | P but no PMO - 🌓| PMO - 🌙 |
M T W T F S S
🌕🌙🌕🌕🌙🌕🌕
🌙🌕🌕🌑🌑🌑🌑
🌑🌑🌑🌑🌑🌑🌑
🌑🌑🌑🌑🌑🌑🌑
🌑🌑🌑◼️◼️◼️◼️

That way, it doesn't seem like you're not progressing along your journey; as you can see a fuller picture zoomed out.

Day 70/90

Fine day today although feeling a little down the in dumps today but I'll feel better in the next couple of days.

Thanks @allanjchiang I will see about employing that calendar 👍

Quick one today as I've been quite busy, but just checking in.

See you all tomorrow!

2/90 PornFree

2/90 NoSurf

Day 71/90

Just checking in everyone, GameQuitters/StopGaming streak going well.

Not much else to report,

See you all tomorrow!

3/90 PornFree

1/90 NoSurf

Day 72/90

(Put in spoiler tags as it might be a bit triggering for some)

Came across a couple of game announcements, there was an MMO that has made a bit of a comeback recently, a sort of 'Reforged' version of some kind, and I kinda got an urge to buy and play it - but I SAID NAY! For what lies beyond this point is POOP... and SADNESS!

And so I just went on my merry way.

It's kind of funny because you would think games would have made a much bigger leap in the last 10-15 years and tbh they seem so... stale. Like the only games that really have any quality are the older games, and that's why older games tend to be remastered. It seems like every game idea has now been thought of and there's just nothing left out there that is new. It's the same old, same old. BORING.

In terms of my other streaks, I keep breaking them. What I'm going to do is temporarily retire them for now, get to 90 days StopGaming/GameQuitters and THEN I'll focus down NoSurf and PornFree, as previously mentioned there's some sort of blocker in my mind not allowing me to tackle multiple streaks, sadly.

See you ALL at the TOP!

3 hours ago, Pulse said:

For what lies beyond this point is POOP... and SADNESS!

Amen to that

3 hours ago, Pulse said:

there's some sort of blocker in my mind not allowing me to tackle multiple streaks, sadly.

Nothing sad about it. You can be a laser and make 1 - 1 mile hole into your goal, or a shotgun, and scratch the surface of all the goals, eventually achieving nothing.

My heart is with you. Keep at it.

Day 73/90

So over 2 weeks left. How am I feeling? Feeling excited. I know it's not the end of the line, the 90 days, but I think there are definite positive neurological changes that take place in the brain over 90 days, the cement starts to solidify, new brain pathways are formed, and even though sure I come across videos and announcements of video games, I just can't be bothered playing them anymore as I just know what the outcome is.

Even though I say 'Over 2 weeks left', obviously it's a life-long commitment, but it's very exciting to reach 90 days as I've never not played games for 90 days straight in forever, since I was very young I think before I ever started gaming. So it's a gigantic achievement for anyone, even if you struggle with quitting and you make it the same-or-longer than your previous streak, that's HUGE progress.

21 hours ago, Yan said:

Amen to that

Nothing sad about it. You can be a laser and make 1 - 1 mile hole into your goal, or a shotgun, and scratch the surface of all the goals, eventually achieving nothing.

My heart is with you. Keep at it.

Thanks Yan, I would also like to start a NoAlcohol streak as it really affects my mood after drinking. I don't drink very often but when I do I'm in a super down mood afterwards. So that's something I'd like to tackle as well, getting to 90 days for that will be really easy but getting to say 180 days will be difficult as I usually drink once every 3-4 months or so.

There's a lot to conquer, but I think one streak at a time, slow and steady.

Thanks for checking in, and I'll see you ALL tomorrow!

3 hours ago, Pulse said:

even if you struggle with quitting and you make it the same-or-longer than your previous streak, that's HUGE progress.

Agreed, but don't yet rest on your laurels, it's not done until it's done. You've already got 73 days either way though which is already awesome

Day 74/90

I have decided PornFree streak is BACK in commission. I have joined a different forum specifically for PornFree journaling, and I'm going to take it very seriously, as serious as I take StopGaming/GameQuitters streak. I'll keep the streak updated here as well, though.

In terms of games, I did actually have a bit of slight urge a couple of times today, but again it's knowing what the outcome is and how much time I'll waste on them. It's just not worth it, boyos (and girlos! 😂😂)

19 hours ago, Yan said:

Agreed, but don't yet rest on your laurels, it's not done until it's done. You've already got 73 days either way though which is already awesome

But don't worry, I guarantee I'm gonna make it! We're all gonna make it!

See you ALL at the top! 🛡⚔🛡⚔🛡⚔

2/90 PornFree

Day 75/90

15 days remaining, we're close!

Quick check-in today:

Feeling good today, I've been working hard, made some good progress. No games, no porn!

See you all again tomorrow!

3/90 PornFree

Day 76/90

Unfortunately felt ill this evening, but still didn't game! 😂😂 I had some plans but had to cancel, which is annoying.

Other than that though, everything is good!

See you all tomorrow!

4/90 PornFree

40 minutes ago, Pulse said:

Day 76/90

Unfortunately felt ill this evening, but still didn't game! 😂😂 I had some plans but had to cancel, which is annoying.

Other than that though, everything is good!

See you all tomorrow!

4/90 PornFree

How do you feel after 76 days of not gaming?

Day 77/90

22 hours ago, allanjchiang said:

How do you feel after 76 days of not gaming?

Great question. I feel more present, I think that's the best way to describe it. I feel more in-tune with the world. With games, because you're constantly jumping into other worlds and other people's reality, you kind of lose sight of actual reality, and that's the same with everyone, no matter how much or how little you game.

The difference with a book or TV show or whatever is, with a game, you're controlling something within that world so it's a lot more ingrained in your psyche and it lingers, which I don't think is a benefit at all. With books and TV shows it's more from a third person perspective, you're not IN the world, you're just observing it, which I think isn't as damaging to your neural pathways.

I feel less of an addict that needs that next fix of pixels. I'm less stressed at work. I'm less stressed at home because I actually have time to do things I need to get done. Sure I'm lazy for an hour or two some days, but again I feel much more present with that laziness rather than jumping on a game, looking at the time and thinking 'where the f did that time go?! I want it back!'

The downside is I can't really hide my negative emotions with games anymore, so I have to face them head on, which isn't the best feeling but it is what is needed. I also used gaming to lose weight, as extended gaming sessions you forget/don't have time to eat, so I've put some weight on since stopping.

Thanks again for the great question @allanjchiang 👍👍

5/90 PornFree

12 hours ago, Pulse said:

Day 77/90

Great question. I feel more present, I think that's the best way to describe it. I feel more in-tune with the world. With games, because you're constantly jumping into other worlds and other people's reality, you kind of lose sight of actual reality, and that's the same with everyone, no matter how much or how little you game.

The difference with a book or TV show or whatever is, with a game, you're controlling something within that world so it's a lot more ingrained in your psyche and it lingers, which I don't think is a benefit at all. With books and TV shows it's more from a third person perspective, you're not IN the world, you're just observing it, which I think isn't as damaging to your neural pathways.

I feel less of an addict that needs that next fix of pixels. I'm less stressed at work. I'm less stressed at home because I actually have time to do things I need to get done. Sure I'm lazy for an hour or two some days, but again I feel much more present with that laziness rather than jumping on a game, looking at the time and thinking 'where the f did that time go?! I want it back!'

The downside is I can't really hide my negative emotions with games anymore, so I have to face them head on, which isn't the best feeling but it is what is needed. I also used gaming to lose weight, as extended gaming sessions you forget/don't have time to eat, so I've put some weight on since stopping.

Thanks again for the great question @allanjchiang 👍👍

5/90 PornFree

You're welcome. Thank you for sharing your honest feelings.

Day 78/90

Feeling AMAZING today, because I have the passion, or LA PASSIONE as some people call it (or maybe that's just me 😂). It's almost the weekend and that's when I get a little bored, I'm fine not gaming but it's the urge to look at the porn, but moulding both of these streaks together feels AMAZING, you feel amazing when you don't give in to your urges, when you keep yourself really busy, man it's an INCREDIBLE feeling.

I'm just feeling great today and it's because of the power and the electricity flowing in each and every one of us to overcome our demons and our addictions. We may not be able to see each other but when people are on a journey, there is an energy there that links us all, intrinsically.

Keep going, believe in yourself, believe in the SHIELD that protects you each and every day, and you know what that shield is called? The human spirit, human willpower to do what it is you know you can do, and what you HAVE to do to have a fulfilling life.

The top of the mountain is close for me, and many of you have already reached the top, and are climbing even higher mountains, and some people are just starting at the bottom of the mountain, and it may seem a long and tough journey for those people starting out, but trust me guys and gals: you gotta see the view from up here.

See you ALL at the TOP 🛡⚔🛡⚔🛡

6/90 PornFree

Day 79/90

Very productive day today, so feeling good once again.

Quite tired though as I've been so busy!

See you all tomorrow!

7/90 PornFree

13/365 NoDrink

Day 80/90

It's the final countdown, 10 days remaining!

See you all tomorrow!

8/90 PornFree

14/365 NoDrink

Day 81/90

Great day for StopGaming/GameQuitters but sadly I did succumb to PornFree (DAMMIT!). But hey, onwards and upwards, just have to get back on the horse and try again. No shame in failing, but there is shame in quitting. So let's go agane.

See you all tomorrow!

1/90 PornFree

15/365 NoAlcohol

Day 82/90

Solid day today, not much to report, just a usual check-in. All is well!

See you all tomorrow!

2/90 PornFree

16/365 NoAlcohol

Day 83/90

It's Christmas time, so this is a more dangerous time for wanting to play games as it's kind of a ritual (due to so much free time) to play older games I used to play when I was younger, especially seeing how dead/alive multiplayer games I used to play when I was younger now are. It's gonna be really difficult to resist the urge to install some games and play.

It's gonna be a tough week, but we can do this! "All together nooooow, all together nooooow, all together noooooow, in no man's laaaand (togeeetheeeerrrr)" (or somethin' like that 😂😂😂)

See you tomorrow!

3/90 PornFree

17/365 NoAlcohol

Well done on making it to day 83. Keep it up. You got this.

Day 84/90

21 hours ago, allanjchiang said:

Well done on making it to day 83. Keep it up. You got this.

Thanks Allan!

Merry Christmas to all (if ya celebrate it)! I've surprisingly been fine so far, I think it'll kick in harder maybe on Saturday as I'm not doing much over the weekend (Only Thursday and Friday). It's so close to the 90 days, and yet this will probably be the most testing time, this last 6/7 days. We're truly on the final stretch of road to 90 days. I feel more mature, though, as though I've left my toys behind at this point as I've grown out of them, it's just this last severance that is needed and then we're free.

See you tomorrow!

4/90 PornFree

18/365 NoAlcohol

Day 85/90

Merry Christmas everyone, hope we are well!

I had a conversation today about video games and it felt good to say I haven't played them for almost 3 months!

I gotta say these 'stats' of the streaks look pretty cool - levelling myself up rather than some stats in a database feels really, really nice. With 90 days StopGaming/GameQuitters, it's kinda like I'm getting that purple item from the big fire raid boss deep underground, but it won't become obsolete in the next major patch, it will have a butterfly effect and drastically improve (and has already improved) other areas of my life until I die of old age (hopefully), of which you can't really argue with!

See you tomorrow!

5/90 PornFree

19/365 NoAlcohol