Creating this journal as a part of the Module 2 assignment.

How do I feel about quitting gaming after watching video from module 2:

Feeling weird. A bit of hope for the better future (hoping that I'll get to know something that will change everything for the better this time) yet a feeling that something won't work out in the end and I'll just come back to gaming in the end.

I just hope that I will be strong enough to make it work in the end.

Also a bit of sadness for no reason. Maybe because I've spent too much time watching gaming videos today instead of doing work that I was supposed to be doing.

 Hey V, welcome - I saw your first posts on my phone before sleeping, some 12 hours ago, and wasn't up for typing at the computer (sustained energetic texting on my phone is a no-no for me). 

I guess the question I want to ask is why any electronic game might feel 'safe' to return to, whatever you discover about your true feelings.

What I mean is (and it takes a lot for me to admit it: Is it possible in your eyes that a majority of people play e-games because they are able to see, from an often sedentary position, whether their response-time, immediate clicking/tapping strategies or communications are 'better' than those of others?

Seriously, in the recent years of 'lazy boy' play strategies on my problem game, I was proud of how much more quickly than others I remembered to change fishing spots/logging trees, and offered social commentary on random events on-screen.

Yes, there's a good chance that people are more familiar with the term 'virtue-signalling' than actual virtuousness, but good morals do still mean something. I joined GameQuitters after an in-game taunt from an old friend, and realised that I didn't want to go back to it for a long time. He was, I think, too much of an 'armchair' pundit/opinion-maker.

So, is there a secret to be found here? Maybe in how much responsibility you can or should take in any future situation. 🙂 A shortcut answer could be 'all of it', but beware of shortcuts. 

Happy weekend! ~ Matt

P.S. - One could almost call procrastination a type of sadness, but I think it's fairly inevitable, typically until a person shares with and offloads sufficient emotional burdens somehow with family/friends, to become ready to tackle an individual learning task.  

Friday was productive for me. Change of environment really helps.
I don't know how big of an impact being in a heated room has on productivity, but staying at home on the weekend where there is little air conditioning really doesn't help with focusing. However, today was a good day in a sense - I didn't waste time gaming. Watched a bunch of videos on philosophy and history - don't remember the last time I did something like this haha

Doing good overall - starting to get back to meditating as I did before. Still behind deadlines, but feeling more confident about myself.

4 hours ago, jbreak said:

Friday was productive for me. Change of environment really helps.
I don't know how big of an impact being in a heated room has on productivity, but staying at home on the weekend where there is little air conditioning really doesn't help with focusing. However, today was a good day in a sense - I didn't waste time gaming. Watched a bunch of videos on philosophy and history - don't remember the last time I did something like this haha

Doing good overall - starting to get back to meditating as I did before. Still behind deadlines, but feeling more confident about myself.

Nice update - I recognise that feeling perhaps of opening up a thought pathway or two. One week during a break I took from my problem game as a teenager, we were given a science experiment for homework. I timed how quickly my dog ate dinner, before and after his walk, and explained how I couldn't have controlled the weather/temperature's effect on his appetite as well. I almost got full marks - things like that and other randomly discovered interests definitely seem to help at such times as these.