Oasis of Peace

[ZenYogi]

I’m a gaming addict there’s no way to stop this far without this website. Posting here is my only way to quit games. The downside is I pretty much always hated posting here.

So I’ll try something different. I’ll only post about gaming addiction here. Nothing else.

Last night I gamed till 1040pm. I slept like shit. I feel exhausted. I want to quit I keep trying but at night I get horrible cravings. I can not stop myself from gaming at night. Replacement behaviors barriers to entry are not working.

i want to sell my ps5 controller. But I don’t know what to d0. I always end up buying another controller to play wasting money. It’s hard.

 

This site is the only thing that’s ever worked for me so, I’ll have to keep posting here. I can sell the controller though. Yeah. I have no idea what else I can do. Aside from refusing to play video games with friends or associates. 
 

So I can get through the whole day without games till about six pm then I’m in trouble. My plan is to post here and only write about gaming addiction and read peoples journals when I get the thoughts to game 

 

Please help me I’m open to hear any advice suggestions or encouragement tyvm

Edited May 12 by Goku

[ZenYogi]

Something about online recovery forums attracts some pretty harsh comments I’ve noticed. I mean I am here for my own recovery predominantly. I just wish people could be kind and supportive towards me. I don’t really heal from people saying harsh things to me or about my writings here. I don’t think that helps me.

then I just post endlessly alone…. Yes that’s honestly how it is here and on nofap.com even writing nofap I feel like I’m scared someone’s gonna pop up and attack nofap. 
 

Still it’s better to deal with that sort of thing than people who are being ten times worse in online video games. The trolls and the toxics in games are just a mess. Even the most healthy gamers I’ve played with like it’s still not a healthy environment for me to be in. this is much better for my health. As much as I really don’t fucking like posting here. I guess I got to or I’ll fall off the wagon all over again

[Ameissen]

Hey ZenYogi, and if I recall correctly, Pema,

Just love and peace from me, for you, here. No harshness.

Good on you to place the title of this post, "Oasis of Peace." I admire your courage to create a sanctuary for yourself.

Here are two suggestions for you while you're in the thick of it, while you're noticing your patterns.

1. Whether or not you're gaming, do the best you can to listen to and watch anti-addiction content, particularly from the two best creators (in my opinion, let me know if there are others) on the web on gaming addiction, GameQuitters and Dr. K./HealthyGamer. All you have to is get that content into your bloodstream. Listen and watch it with the acknowledgment that you are actively moving beyond this, pardon my words, frankly shitty part of your life where things hurt and suck and feel terrible and hard to do, and know that with each and every second you engage with this content, you are contributing to your relief. So many people successfully come out of gaming addiction and reform their lives; I am becoming one of them, and you can become one of us too. It is so worth it. 

Try this video, it helped me a lot to listen to while I was still gaming to pull me out of my cycle.

https://youtu.be/HsAvXyXyfNU

That's step one, just stay engaged with this content, whatever you're doing.

2. Step two: pull. Just fucking pull from the depths of yourself the motivation, the strength you have deep inside to change. The part of you that wants to change. You can do it. Change your life.

 

We're with you here, I'm with you here.

Andrew